I scanned him for evidence that I’d misunderstood. It was only then that I saw the backpack in his hand. I sat down next to him.
“What do you mean?”
He shook his head. “I just . . . I need to get out of here. Scotty and Marcus are awesome, and I’m glad they’ve been here to take care of you. But I have to go.”
“Go? Go where?” I was trying not to lose it as I thought of Parker getting farther and farther away from me all over again. “You’re on probation. You can’t just go.”
He looked up at me. “Probation’s just another prison. I can’t spend the next five years checking in every week, picking up trash on the side of the road, explaining my record to everyone who interviews me for a minimum-wage job.”
“Your record will be wiped clean if you meet the terms of the plea agreement.”
He sighed. “I know. But it’s not enough, Grace. I just . . . I can’t live that way.”
“Where will you go?” I asked. “What will you do?”
“I don’t know.” His shoulders lifted a little, and he almost smiled when he said it. “But I still have that money in my account from before. It’s not a lot—it wouldn’t even have paid for Kate Levy’s retainer—but it’ll get me out of the country, maybe to Mexico. After that, I’ll make my way. Don’t worry about me.”
I shook my head. “You can’t go. Not now, after everything that’s happened.” But I knew I was being selfish. I wouldn’t even be in Playa Hermosa. What was he supposed to do? Hang around my new foster home? Live a life he hated while he waited around for me to finish college?
“Grace . . .” He reached out for my face, and I realized my cheeks were wet. “Don’t cry. Please don’t cry.”
“You’re not even going to ask me to come with you this time?”
He smiled a little. “No, because you deserve better, and you wouldn’t come anyway. You already told me your plan: high school, college, a life of your own, an honest one. Remember? It’s a good plan, Grace.”
I realized with surprise that he was right. I’d outgrown my willingness to cling to the things that weren’t good for me, even if they were the only things to hold on to, even if I loved them so much it hurt. Even if it was sad and scary to see them go.
I wrapped my arms around him and leaned my cheek on his chest. He smelled more like Parker now, but there was still something other, a scent that he’d picked up while we’d been apart. Maybe I smelled different, too.
“I’ll miss you,” I said.
“I’ll miss you, too, Grace. But this isn’t good-bye. I’ll find you, wherever you are.” He pulled back and looked at me. “We’re family. It’s always you and me. No matter what.”
I nodded, choking on my tears, already feeling the loss of him. “No matter what.”
“And if you need me,” he said, “I’ll be there. You can count on it.”
We clung to each other like survivors of a shipwreck. I didn’t try to hold back my tears. I was starting to think that life was a series of gains and losses. I guess Scotty would call it balance, but whatever it was, sometimes you needed to stop and mourn the things you lost along the way. It was a way of marking their presence, of acknowledging what they meant to you so you could finally take a step forward.
“Tell Scotty and Marcus thank you.” Parker bent down, picked up his backpack, and headed for the door. When he got there, he turned around one last time. “I love you, Grace. Always have, always will.”
A sob broke free of my throat. “I love you, too, Parker. Always have, always will.”
And then he was gone.
My eyes were still red and raw the next morning when I put the last of my stuff into my suitcase and zipped it shut. Marcus and Scotty hadn’t said much when I’d told them about Parker. Scotty’s eyes had gotten a little wet when I started to cry, and he’d immediately pulled me into a hug. But Marcus hadn’t looked all that surprised.
“Don’t worry, kid,” he’d said. “I know survivors, and Parker’s a survivor if there ever was one.”
Now I was bracing myself for another good-bye, repeating some of Scotty’s mantras to keep myself from breaking down. How had I come to love him and Marcus so much? I couldn’t imagine a day without Scotty’s kindness, his steady presence. And what would I do without Marcus to make me laugh, to call me “kid” and remind me how funny life could be just when I needed it most?
I was getting ready to say good-bye to the birds when Scotty and Marcus came into my room.
“Hey, kid,” Marcus said. He eyed my suitcase on the bed. “You might have jumped the gun on the packing.”
“If I put it off any longer, you’ll be shipping my stuff to Riverside,” I said.
I didn’t know much about my new foster family, but I’d been told they lived inland, about an hour and a half from the beach. I hated the thought of being away from the water, but it was the least of my worries, and Scotty and Marcus had promised to come get me for visits.
Scotty stepped toward me and took the backpack from my hands. He set it on the floor and smiled. “The thing is, honey, Marcus and I have been thinking. . . .”
Forty-Three
The sun was still hiding behind the marine layer when we stepped out of the courthouse three weeks later. Marcus put on his sunglasses as we made our way down the steps. He was wearing his chinos, but he looked good, and I’d gotten a little choked up when he’d come into the kitchen wearing a navy blue button-down. He’d squirmed as Scotty did one more button up near his neck, then stood back and smiled with approval.
“Don’t get weird on me, Scott,” Marcus had said, turning his back on us and hurrying to the coffeepot like he had something to hide.
I hadn’t expected them to step in as my guardians at the last minute. Apparently, they’d been talking about it for a while, but they hadn’t been able to reach a decision until the last minute. Not because they didn’t want me to stay, Scotty had assured me, but because Marcus was worried they wouldn’t be able to give me the kind of parenting kids need. Scotty had argued that I was hardly a kid, and he and Marcus were as steady as an old married couple. In the end, according to Scotty, the decision had come down to one thing: neither of them wanted me to go.
I’d cried when they told me the news, then spent the next three weeks with an ever-present knot of anxiety in my stomach, worrying that it would somehow go wrong, that they would change their minds, that the court would deny their petition.
But everything had gone off without a hitch. I was old enough to have some say in my living situation, and I’d been given permission to stay with them while the court reviewed their petition. Now it was official: they were my guardians. That was what it said on the paperwork, anyway. In my eyes—and most importantly, my heart—they were my parents. And this time I knew it was for real.
“Well, kid,” Marcus said, draping an arm around my shoulder as we headed for the car, “you’re stuck with us now. And you know what that means.”
“Back to the Hawaiian shirts?”
“Well, yes, there is that. Also,” Marcus said, “there’s the slave labor. I think we forgot to tell you about that.”
“Slave labor?”
He nodded. “Kitchen detail, feeding the birds, you know . . . all that responsibility stuff that we’re supposed to teach you.”
“I’m okay with responsibility stuff,” I said.
The attendant pulled the car around and we got in. We went out to breakfast, then headed home. The house on the peninsula wouldn’t be ours much longer. Scotty and Marcus had decided it would be better for me to start fresh. They’d chosen Huntington Beach, and had already made an offer on a house there with a backyard big enough for all of Marcus’s flowers and bird feeders. Best of all, the beach was a block away. We’d walked right down to the water the last time we’d seen the house, and I’d watched the surfers catching waves and the girls playing volleyball and wondered which of them I would come to know when I started school next month. Then again, maybe I wouldn
’t know any of them. Maybe I’d become friends with a quiet girl who sat alone and liked to read instead.
“Take the afternoon off, kid,” Marcus said as we walked into the house on Colina Verde. “We’ll get you started in the salt mines tomorrow.”
“Ha-ha,” I said, heading up the stairs to my room.
I changed into shorts and a tank top and grabbed my book. Then I went to the kitchen and poured a glass of iced tea before heading to the backyard.
It was finally sunny, and I could hear the waves crashing against the cliffs as I walked barefoot to the hammock. For a while I just lay there, swinging in the sea breeze, inhaling the scent of jasmine and salt and fresh-cut grass. One of the hummingbirds was fluttering around the red bird feeder, moving so fast I almost thought it was a figment of my imagination. It made me think of the peacocks. Like me, they were on their way somewhere else. A majority of the residents of Playa Hermosa had voted to have them moved, and they were already en route to the animal sanctuary that would be their new home. When I’d first heard the news, I’d felt bad for them. But then I started to wonder if maybe they needed a fresh start, too. If maybe home wasn’t a place you knew, but a place where you were always welcome.
A flash of yellow caught my eye in the trees overhead. I laid my book facedown on my chest and peered through the branches, looking for the parrots. A few seconds later they appeared. The one with the yellow eyes was still the most aggressive, and the other birds hung back, letting him take his turn at the feeder first. When he was done, he perched on the branch of a nearby tree. It was only then that his companions—the one with the red head and the other one with blue-tipped wings—appeared. They were still pecking at the seed when a fourth bird landed next to them. His blue body stood in contrast to the green bodies of the others, and they paused to look at him before turning back to their food as the newcomer picked at the feeder alongside them. I guess he’d found a home, too.
I took a deep breath, releasing it into the salty Playa Hermosa air. It felt like I’d been holding that breath forever. Like I was finally letting go of all my pain and fear and loneliness, of everything that had kept me from fighting for the things I wanted and deserved. But in a strange kind of way, I thought everything had turned out the way it was supposed to. Everything finally felt right. I guess Scotty knew what he was talking about after all, although he had been wrong about one thing: sometimes, if you were really, really lucky, more than one good thing came out of a bad situation. I only had to look at Marcus and Scotty to know that at least two good things had come out of mine.
I thought about Parker, probably on a beach in Mexico, sipping a beer and looking at the same ocean that crashed against the cliffs below me. I missed him, but I knew with a strange kind of certainty that I would see him again. He was my family, simple as that, and family was always a part of you. We could both rest easy now. He was free, and I had kept my promise to come back for him.
Now it was time to keep the ones I’d made to myself.
Acknowledgments
Thanks always start with Steven Malk and all of the amazing people at Writers House, for seeing me safely through troubled waters and never doubting that I would make it—even when I wasn’t so sure.
Thanks also go to my editor, Jennifer Klonsky. Just when I was starting to think publishing was impossibly disheartening, ridiculously unreliable, and most of all, SLOW, I was given an editor who is kind, encouraging, and on her game every minute of every day. At a time when it sometimes feels like publishers won’t invest in an author’s long-term career, you have made me believe again. After working with you for the past year and a half, I’m finally starting to think that’s not naïvety talking, but bona fide faith.
Thank you to HarperCollins Publishers and everyone at HarperTeen who have made me feel welcome and valued. This is especially true for publicist Stephanie Hoover and associate editor Catherine Wallace, who see to tons of important stuff behind the scenes that nobody sees. Thanks also to Alison Klapthor, Alison Donalty, and Sarah Kaufman for another kickass cover (and for actually letting me be part of the process), and to copy editors Karen Sherman and Bethany Reis, who put me through my paces to make sure this book was as solid and accurate as possible. Any errors are totally mine.
Thanks to dear friends M. J. Rose, Tonya Hurley, Ann Rought, Jenny Milchman, Christine Fonseca, Erin Leigh Brescia, Eileen Cole, Jennifer Draeger, and so many more who share this beautiful and sometimes maddening journey to deliver our words to readers, and to those readers who buy my books, and therefore keep me writing. You are the biggest contributors of all.
Lastly, thanks go to the people who are the backbone of my life: my mother, Claudia Baker, for her unwavering faith in me; my father, Mike St. James, who reminds me that I’ve already done something pretty cool (we need to be reminded sometimes!); and Kenneth, Rebekah, Andrew, and Caroline. If there is universal truth, beauty, and love in my life, it is you.
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MICHELLE ZINK lives in New York with her four children. Her first novel, Prophecy of the Sisters, was chosen as one of ALA Booklist’s Top Ten Novels for Youth of 2009 and as one of the Chicago Public Library’s Best Books for Young Readers. It has also been listed on the New York Public Library’s Stuff for the Teen Age and the Lone Star Reading List. You can visit her at www.michellezink.com.
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Zink, Michelle.
Promises I made / Michelle Zink. — First edition.
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Sequel to: Lies I told.
Summary: When Grace Fontaine leaves her “father” in Seattle, where he is working another con, and returns to Playa Hermosa, she receives help from unexpected sources in her quest to find information about Cormac and Renee that she can trade for her adopted brother Parker’s freedom.
ISBN 978-0-06-232715-4 (hardcover)
EPub Edition © October 2015 ISBN 9780062327178
[1. Conduct of life—Fiction. 2. Swindlers and swindling—Fiction. 3. Interpersonal relations—Fiction. 4. Criminal investigation—Fiction. 5. Brothers and sisters—Fiction. 6. Adoption—Fiction.]
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