When they emerged, they found the streets of Sthiss Tor darker than night and filled with hysterical crowds wailing in terror. Barak, with a torch he had taken from the palace wall in one hand and his huge sword in the other, led them into the street. Even in their panic the Nyissans made way for him.
"What is this, Polgara?" he growled over his shoulder, waving the torch slightly as if to brush the darkness away. "Is it some kind of sorcery?"
"No," she answered. "It's not sorcery."
Tiny flecks of gray were falling through the torchlight. "Snow?" Barak asked incredulously.
"No," she said. "Ashes."
"What's burning?"
"A mountain," she replied. "Let's get back to the ship as quickly as we can. There's more danger from this crowd than from any of this." She threw her light cloak about Garion's shoulders and pointed down a street where a few torches bobbed here and there. "Let's go that way."
The ash began to fall more heavily. It was almost like dirty gray flour sifting down through the sodden air, and there was a dreadful, sulfurous stink to it.
By the time they reached the wharves, the absolute darkness had begun to pale. The ash continued to drift down, seeping into the cracks between the cobblestones and gathering in little windrows along the edges of the buildings. Though it was growing lighter, the falling ash, like fog, blotted out everything more than ten feet away.
The wharves were total chaos. Crowds of Nyissans, shrieking and wailing, were trying to climb into boats to flee from the choking ash that sifted with deadly silence down through the damp air. Mad with terror, many even leaped into the deadly waters of the river.
"We're not going to be able to get through that mob, Polgara," Barak said. "Stay here a moment." He sheathed his sword, jumped up and caught the edge of a low roof. He pulled himself up and stood outlined dimly above them. "Ho, Greldik!" he roared in a huge voice that carried even over the noise of the crowd.
"Barak!" Greldik's voice came back. "Where are you?"
"At the foot of the pier," Barak shouted. "We can't get through the crowd."
"Stay there," Greldik yelled back. "We'll come and get you."
After a few moments there was the tramp of heavy feet on the wharf and the occasional sound of blows. A few cries of pain mingled with the sounds of panic from the crowd. Then Greldik, Mandorallen and a half dozen burly sailors armed with clubs strode out of the ashfall, clearing a path with brutal efficiency.
"Did you get lost?" Greldik yelled up to Barak.
Barak jumped down from the roof. "We had to stop by the palace," he answered shortly.
"We were growing concerned for thy safety, my Lady," Mandorallen told Aunt Pol, pushing a gibbering Nyissan out of his way. "Good Durnik returned some hours ago."
"We were delayed," she said. "Captain, can you get us on board your ship?"
Greldik gave her an evil grin.
"Let's go then," she urged. "As soon as we get on board, it might be a good idea to anchor out in the river a little way. This ash will settle after a while, but these people are going to be hysterical until it does. Has there been any word from Silk or my father yet?"
"Nothing, my Lady," Greldik said.
"What is he doing?" she demanded irritably of no one in particular. Mandorallen drew his broadsword and marched directly into the face of the crowd, neither slowing nor altering his course. The Nyissans melted out of his path.
The crowd pressing at the edge of the wharf beside Greldik's ship was even thicker, and Durnik, Hettar and the rest of the sailors lined the rail with long boat-hooks, pushing the terror-stricken people away.
"Run out the plank," Greldik shouted as they reached the edge of the wharf.
"Noble captain," a bald Nyissan blubbered, clinging to Greldik's fur vest. "I'll give you a hundred gold pieces if you'll let me aboard your ship."
Disgusted, Greldik pushed him away.
"A thousand gold pieces," the Nyissan promised, clutching Greldik's arm and waving a purse.
"Get this baboon off me," Greldik ordered.
One of the sailors rather casually clubbed the Nyissan into insensibility, then bent and yanked the purse from his grip. He opened the purse and poured the coins out into one hand. "Three pieces of silver," he said with disgust. "All the rest is copper." He turned back and kicked the unconscious man in the stomach.
They crossed to the ship one by one while Barak and Mandorallen held the crowd back with the threat of massive violence.
"Cut the hawsers," Greldik shouted when they were all aboard. The sailors chopped the thick hawsers loose to a great cry of dismay from the Nyissans crowding the edge of the wharf. The sluggish current pulled the ship slowly away, and wails and despairing moans followed them as they drifted.
"Garion," Aunt Pol said, "why don't you go below and put on some decent clothes? And wash that disgusting rouge off your face. Then come back up here. I want to talk to you."
Garion had forgotten how scantily he was dressed and he flushed slightly and went quickly below deck.
It had grown noticeably lighter when he came back up, dressed again in tunic and hose, but the gray ash still sifted down through the motionless air, making the world around them hazy and coating everything with a heavy layer of fine grit. They had drifted some distance out into the river, and Greldik's sailors had dropped the anchor. The ship swung slowly in the sluggish current.
"Over here, Garion," Aunt Pol called. She was standing near the prow, looking out into the dusty haze. Garion went to her a little hesitantly, the memory of what had happened at the palace still strong in his mind.
"Sit down, dear," she suggested. "There's something I have to talk with you about."
"Yes, ma'am," he said, sitting on the bench there.
"Garion." She turned to look at him. "Did anything happen while you were in Salmissra's palace?"
"What do you mean?"
"You know what I mean," she said rather crisply. "You're not going to embarrass us both by making me ask certain questions, are you?"
"Oh." Garion blushed. "That! No, nothing like that happened." He remembered the lush overripeness of the queen with a certain regret.
"Good. That was the one thing I was afraid of. You can't afford to get involved in any of that sort of thing just yet. It has some peculiar effects on one in your rather special circumstances."
"I'm not sure I understand," he said.
"You have certain abilities," she told him. "And if you start experimenting with that other thing before they're fully matured, the results can sometimes be a bit unpredictable. It's better not to confuse things at this point."
"Maybe it'd be better if something had happened, then," Garion blurted. "Maybe it would have fixed it so I couldn't hurt people anymore."
"I doubt it," she said. "Your power's too great to be neutralized so easily. Do you remember what we talked about that day when we left Tolnedra - about instruction?"
"I don't need any instruction," he protested, his tone growing sullen.
"Yes, you do," she said, "and you need it now. Your power is enormous - more power than I've ever seen before, and some of it so complex that I can't even begin to understand it. You must begin your instruction before something disastrous happens. You're totally out of control, Garion. If you're really serious about not wanting to hurt people, you should be more than willing to start learning how to keep any accidents from happening."
"I don't want to be a sorcerer," he objected. "All I want to do is get rid of it. Can't you help me do that?"
She shook her head. "No. And I wouldn't even if I could. You can't renounce it, my Garion. It's part of you."
"Then I'm going to be a monster?" Garion demanded bitterly. "I'm going to go around burning people alive or turning them into toads or snakes? And maybe after a while I'll get so used to it that it won't even bother me anymore. I'll live forever - like you and grandfather - but I won't be human anymore. Aunt Pol, I think I'd rather be dead.
"Can't you reason w
ith him?" Her voice inside his head spoke directly to that other awareness.
"Not at the moment, Polgara, " the dry voice replied. "He's too busy wallowing in self pity. "
"He must learn to control the power he has," she said.
"I'll keep him out of mischief, " the voice promised. "I don't think there's much else we can do until Belgarath gets back. He's going through a moral crisis, and we can't really tamper with him until he works out his own solutions to it. "
"I don't like to see him suffering this way. "
"You're too tender-hearted, Polgara. He's a sturdy boy, and a bit of suffering won't damage him. "
"Will the two of you stop treating me as if I'm not even here?" Garion demanded angrily.
"Mistress Pol," Durnik said, coming across the deck to them, "I think you'd better come quickly. Barak's going to kill himself."
"He's what?" she asked.
"It's something about some curse," Durnik explained. "He says he's going to fall on his sword."
"That idiot! Where is he?"
"He's back by the stern," Durnik said. "He's got his sword out, and he won't let anybody near him."
"Come with me." She started toward the stern with Garion and Durnik behind her.
"We have all experienced battle madness, my Lord," Mandorallen was saying, trying to reason with the big Cherek. "It is not a thing of which to be proud, but neither is it a cause for such bleak despair."
Barak did not answer, but stood at the very stern of the ship, his eyes blank with horror and his huge sword weaving in a slow, menacing arc, holding everyone at bay.
Aunt Pol walked through the crowd of sailors and directly up to him.
"Don't try to stop me, Polgara," he warned.
She reached out quite calmly and touched the point of his sword with one finger. "It's a little dull," she said thoughtfully. "Why don't we have Durnik sharpen it? That way it'll slip more smoothly between your ribs when you fall on it."
Barak looked a bit startled.
"Have you made all the necessary arrangements?" she asked.
"What arrangements?"
"For the disposal of your body," she told him. "Really, Barak, I thought you had better manners. A decent man doesn't burden his friends with that kind of chore." She thought a moment. "Burning is customary, I suppose, but the wood here in Nyissa's very soggy. You'd probably smolder for a week or more. I imagine we'll have to settle for just dumping you in the river. The leeches and crayfish should have you stripped to the bone in a day or so."
Barak's expression grew hurt.
"Did you want us to take your sword and shield back to your son?" she asked.
"I don't have a son," he answered sullenly. He was obviously not prepared for her brutal practicality.
"Oh, didn't I tell you? How forgetful of me."
"What are you talking about?"
"Never mind," she said. "It's not important now. Were you just going to fall on your sword, or would you prefer to run up against the mast with the hilt? Either way works rather well." She turned to the sailors. "Would you clear a path so the Earl of Tellheim can get a good run at the mast?"
The sailors stared at her.
"What did you mean about a son?" Barak asked, lowering his sword.
"It would only unsettle your mind, Barak," she answered. "You'd probably make a mess of killing yourself if I told you about it. We'd really rather not have you lying around groaning for weeks on end. That sort of thing is so depressing, you know."
"I want to know what you're talking about!"
"Oh, very well," she said with a great sigh. "Your wife Merel is with child - the result of certain courtesies you exchanged when we visited Val Alorn, I imagine. She looks like a rising moon at the moment, and your lusty brat is making her life miserable with his kicking."
"A son?" Barak said, his eyes suddenly very wide.
"Really, Barak," she protested. "You must learn to pay attention. You'll never make anything of yourself if you keep blundering around with your ears closed like this."
"A son?" he repeated, his sword sliding out of his fingers.
"Now you've dropped it," she chided him. "Pick it up immediately, and let's get on with this. It's very inconsiderate to take all day to kill yourself like this."
"I'm not going to kill myself," he told her indignantly.
"You're not?"
"Of course not," he sputtered, and then he saw the faint flicker of a smile playing about the corners of her mouth. He hung his head sheepishly.
"You great fool," she said. Then she took hold of his beard with both hands, pulled his head down and kissed his ash-dusted face soundly. Greldik began to chortle, and Mandorallen stepped forward and caught Barak in a rough embrace. "I rejoice with thee, my friend," he said. "My heart soars for thee."
"Brink up a cask," Greldik told the sailors, pounding on his friend's back. "We'll salute Trellheim's heir with the bright brown ale of timeless Cherek."
"I expect this will get rowdy now," Aunt Pol said quietly to Garion. "Come with me." She led the way back toward the ship's prow.
"Will she ever change back?" Garion asked when they were alone again.
"What?"
"The queen," Garion explained. "Will she ever change back again?"
"In time she won't even want to," Aunt Pol answered. "The shapes we assume begin to dominate our thinking after a while. As the years go by, she'll become more and more a snake and less and less a woman."
Garion shuddered. "It would have been kinder to have killed her."
"I promised Lord Issa that I wouldn't," she said.
"Was that really the God?"
"His spirit," she replied, looking out into the hazy ashfall. "Salmissra infused the statue with Issa's spirit. For a time at least the statue was the God. It's all very complicated." She seemed a bit preoccupied. "Where is he?" She seemed suddenly irritated.
"Who?"
"Father. He should have been here days ago."
They stood together looking out at the muddy river.
Finally she turned from the railing and brushed at the shoulders of her cloak with distaste. The ash puffed from under her fingers in tiny clouds. "I'm going below," she told him, making a face. "It's just too dirty up here."
"I thought you wanted to talk to me," he said.
"I don't think you're ready to listen. It'll wait." She stepped away, then stopped. "Oh, Garion."
"Yes?"
"I wouldn't drink any of that ale the sailors are swilling. After what they made you drink at the palace, it would probably make you sick."
"Oh," he agreed a trifle regretfully. "All right."
"It's up to you, of course," she said, "but I thought you ought to know." Then she turned again and went to the hatch and disappeared down the stairs.
Garion's emotions were turbulent. The entire day had been vastly eventful, and his mind was filled with a welter of confusing images.
"Be quiet, " the voice in his mind said.
"What?"
"I'm trying to hear something. Listen. "
"Listen to what?"
"There. Can't you hear it?"
Faintly, as if from a very long way ofi, Garion seemed to hear a muffled thudding.
"What is it?"
The voice did not answer, but the amulet about his neck began to throb in time with the distant thudding.
Behind him he heard a rush of tiny feet.
"Garion!" He turned just in time to be caught in Ce'Nedra's embrace. "I was so worried about you. Where did you go?"
"Some men came on board and grabbed me," he said, trying to untangle himself from her arms. "They took me to the palace."
"How awful!" she said. "Did you meet the queen?"
Garion nodded and then shuddered, remembering the hooded snake lying on the divan looking at itself in the mirror.
"What's wrong?" the girl asked.
"A lot of things happened," he answered. "Some of them weren't very pleasant." Somewhere at the back of his
awareness, the thudding continued.
"Do you mean they tortured you?" Ce'Nedra asked, her eyes growing very wide.
"No, nothing like that."
"Well, what happened?" she demanded. "Tell me."
He knew that she would not leave him alone until he did, so he described what had happened as best he could. The throbbing sound seemed to grow louder while he talked, and his right palm began to tingle. He rubbed at it absently.
"How absolutely dreadful," Ce'Nedra said after he had finished. "Weren't you terrified?"
"Not really," he told her, still scratching at his palm. "Most of the time the things they made me drink made my head so foggy I couldn't feel anything."
"Did you really kill Maas?" she asked, "Just like that?" She snapped her fingers.
"It wasn't exactly just like that," he tried to explain. "There was a little more to it."
"I knew you were a sorcerer," she said. "I told you that you were that day at the pool, remember?"
"I don't want to be," he protested. "I didn't ask to be."
"I didn't ask to be a princess either."
"It's not the same. Being a king or a princess is what one is. Being a sorcerer has to do with what one does."
"I really don't see that much difference," she objected stubbornly.
"I can make things happen," he told her. "Awful things, usually."
"So?" she said maddeningly. "I can make awful things happen too or at least I could back in Tol Honeth. One word from me could have sent a servant to the whipping-post - or to the headsman's block. I didn't do it of course, but I could have. Power is power, Garion. The results are the same. You don't have to hurt people if you don't want to."
"It just happens sometimes. It's not that I want to do it." The throbbing had become a nagging thing, almost like a dull headache.
"Then you have to learn to control it."
"Now you sound like Aunt Pol."
"She's trying to help you," the princess said. "She keeps trying to get you to do what you're going to have to do eventually anyway. How many more people are you going to have to burn up before you finally accept what she says?"
"You didn't have to say that." Garion was stung deeply by her words.
"Yes," she told him, "I think I did. You're lucky I'm not your aunt. I wouldn't put up with your foolishness the way Lady Polgara does."