Page 4
Author: Teresa Mummert
She pulled her hand back, offended.
“I know it’s not a joke, Cole. This is my life. ”
“I’m sorry I didn’t find you. ” It was like looking into my mother’s eyes again. The sadness, the despair. I don’t know what I would have done if I had found her after all these years. She had gone on with her life like I had never existed.
“It wasn’t your job to find me. We were kids. I wasn’t anything to you. ”
“You were everything to me. ” I grabbed her hand again, tightening my fingers around her wrist.
“You’re hurting me. ”
“I have to go. ” I released her hand as reality swept back in. The rush of music and people talking and dancing around us nearly made me dizzy. I had a job to do and the last thing I wanted was for Lily to be put in danger because of me.
“What?” She looked hurt. This wasn’t the way she expected me to react when I discovered who she was. This wasn’t the way I thought I would react when I finally found her. I gave up on that dream a long time ago.
I could feel my phone vibrating in my pocket, reality swept back in.
“I have to go. It was good seeing you, Lily. ” I began to push my way through the crowd and back out onto the busy sidewalk. A sleek black Cadillac sat parked along the curb. As the door opened I could feel my throat constricting.
“Cole!” Lily’s voice rang out over the music. I didn’t have time to turn back to warn her. Danny stepped out of the rear of the car in his dark suit, his peppered gray hair perfectly slicked back. He looked like your typical businessman on the pages of a men’s magazine.
“We need to discuss a few things,” he said as his eyes jumped from me to Lily, who was now by my side. “Bring your friend. ” He wasn’t asking.
“It looks like rain,” I whispered so only Lily could hear me. I hoped she would understand. Our safe words were vital to our survival all those years ago.
“Who is that?” she asked as she looked up at my face. I clenched my jaw as I looped my fingers around her elbow and began to walk her toward the car. My head spun as I pulled her back into my world.
“He’s a friend I would like you to meet. ” I could feel the acid rising in my throat as I smiled down at her. We rounded the back of the car, and I held open the door to let Lily slip inside before scanning the crowd and joining her in the back of the car. The car pulled away from the curb and out into the city traffic. I wished she had fought, caused a scene, but she trusted me and that would be her downfall.
“I have to admit, you surprise me, Colt. ” Danny pulled a pack of cigarettes from his pocket and stuck one between his lips. The skin around his eyes crinkled as he smiled.
“This is Lily. Lily this is my friend Danny. ” Danny grinned, clearly amused that I had called him a friend.
“Nice to meet you. ” Lily nodded and smiled politely, but I could see the nervousness in her eyes. Her body leaned toward mine and I could smell her
“Is it?” He was like a cat playing with a frightened mouse. I rolled my eyes as I rubbed my palm over my forehead. “Why don’t you clue her in on why she is here?” Danny leaned forward to look me in the eye. I narrowed my eyes, knowing there was nothing I could do to change the course of events now. I should have thrown out her number, went on to find the next mark, but my curiosity had gotten the best of me and now Rose would pay for it.
“I figured that would be best done inside where there can’t be a scene,” I replied through gritted teeth. He only laughed at my response as he took a drag from his cigarette, filling the car with smoke. Lily pressed herself back into her seat and I could see the gears beginning to turn. The nervousness rolled off her, and I was worried she would have a panic attack like she had had when we were younger.
“I should be getting home now. ” Her voice was a soft whisper and her eyes vacant. She had already checked out to keep from dealing with the fear.
I looked at Danny and back to Lily, leaning in close so she would keep calm. If she could feel the heat of my body she would start to relax.
“I thought we could go back to my place for a drink. How does that sound?” I kept my voice low and soothing.
“I really shouldn’t. ” I could hear the fear in her voice but she tried her hardest to hide it. That was one of the things I had loved about Rose: her strength.
“I insist. ” Her eyes finally met mine, and I did my best to keep mine cold. I wasn’t the boy that was going to swoop in and save her when she needed me. I was the monster. If Danny suspected any differently, neither of us would make it out of this car. I did my best to shut off my feelings for the past and focused on the pain that I had felt after she’d left.
Chapter Two
Trying to Save You
The car pulled into the alley beside my apartment building, and I couldn’t get Lily out of it fast enough. I had fucked up. Not only was I putting her in danger, but she didn’t have a wealthy father that could pay the ransom we needed. Danny kept Lily’s purse as I pulled her from the car and guided her to the fire escape that I often used as a personal entrance.
“This isn’t funny, Cole. ”
“It’s Colt. I grew up and I’m not fucking laughing, sweetheart. ” I was too close to finally getting what I needed. My plan was almost finished, and I couldn’t let any feelings for Rose as a child get in the way of all of this. A lot of people were counting on me.
I heard her heels clank against the metal stairs, mimicking that of her frantic heartbeat.
“Why are you doing this? Why?” Sobs broke through her pleas as I guided her through the window. I glanced around to make sure we were pulled away before slipping inside. Lily backed away from me. This was normally the point where I would make a few threats but also reassure them that everything would be fine if they just followed the rules. I couldn’t do it this time. It wasn’t going to be fine because the ransom would never come. I had to think of a plan. I was suffocating.
I grabbed my hoodie and pulled it over my head, causing Lily to gasp. I had forgotten about my gun. I pulled it from the front of my pants and set it on the windowsill behind me.
“I’m not going to hurt you. ”
“You are already hurting me. ”
I dropped my arms to my sides and sighed. How could she say that? I was the one who protected her. She ran from me.
“You’re a tough girl and you have dealt with a lot worse than this. These next two weeks will be like a fucking vacation for you if you do what you’re told. ”
“Two weeks?”
“I need to take a fucking shower and clear my mind. ”
I watched the wheels begin to turn in her mind. She was planning her escape. I smiled and shook my head.
“Let’s go. ”
“Where?” She backed up against my old leather couch, knocking a few books that were precariously stacked behind it onto the floor. I grabbed her arm and pulled her toward the spare bedroom. I motioned to her strappy sandals with my hands and she reluctantly slid them off.
“Just until I take a shower. I won’t keep you in there if you’re a good girl. ”
“Why are you doing this to me?”
“Why not?” I asked as I pulled the door closed and secured the lock. It was hard to pretend that this girl didn’t mean something to me at one point. I was a different person back then. I was a scared little boy. I had bigger things to deal with now, and number one on that list was getting what was owed me. Rose was going to have to trust me that this was all part of a bigger plan. I would do whatever I could to get her out of it, but from the moment she stepped out onto that sidewalk, she was already involved. I wanted to open the door and tell her everything that was happening, but giving her that knowledge could get us both killed. Instead I pulled off my dark-gray T-shirt and tossed it on the counter.
I stepped into my bathroom and turned on the sink. As I waited for t
he water to get cold, I looked at my own reflection. My hair was a little longer, and the blond had darkened, and my body was now covered in tattoos, but I could still see that pussy-whipped little boy looking back at me. I couldn’t go back to who I was. I had struggled for years to work past losing everyone I had cared about, and I wouldn’t go back to that.
I splashed some water on my face and let it run down my jaw and drip onto my chest. I was no longer weak. I had worked endlessly to build myself up to be the toughest motherfucker on the block. I had made a name for myself in this world and that was who I was now. I turned off the sink and turned on the shower, hoping it would be loud enough to drown out Rose’s sobbing.
I kept the water ice cold, washing away the memories and the anger that filled me. I needed to remember why I was doing this. I needed to keep myself focused. She wasn’t that girl and, even if she was, that girl had abandoned me. I had no love left inside and I wouldn’t throw away everything twice for someone who didn’t deserve it.
After I had gone over the plan in my head no less than a hundred times, I got out of the shower and put my game face on.
I wrapped a towel around my waist, leaving the water to drip off me and keep me cool. After I had avoided the situation as long as I possibly could, I pulled on a pair of gray sweatpants and grabbed the keys from my jeans so I could open the lock on the spare bedroom door. Lily sat in the far corner, curled up in a ball like countless others had before her. She was a paycheck, a means to an end.
“Are you gonna…” The words caught in her throat, too unbearable to speak aloud.
“I’m not a fucking rapist,” I spat as I turned and left the room, leaving the door open for her to come out. I grabbed my gun off the windowsill and stuck it in a kitchen drawer, with a false bottom, before finding a couple of cans of tuna in the cupboard. The floorboard squeaked as Lily came out of the room. I heard her pause and I knew what she was looking for.
“You don’t think I’m stupid enough to leave the gun out for you, do you?” I asked with a laugh as I grabbed the mayonnaise from the fridge.
“Why am I here?” she asked as she rounded the corner.
“Are you asking the meaning of life?”
“This isn’t funny, Cole!”
“This isn’t a joke. This is life or fucking death, Lily. I am trying to save you. ”
She looked terrified. Good. Maybe she would soon understand the seriousness of the situation.
“Sit,” I said as I pulled out the bread from the cabinet. She took a seat on one of the bar stools on the other side of the counter.
“Save me from who?” Her voice broke.
“From me, darlin’. ” I slid the plate in front of her. “Now eat. ”
I took my plate into the living room and sat down on the couch. I couldn’t eat next to her like we were friends. I needed to keep my distance. Just the smell of her triggered painful memories.
“Who was that guy? The coworker?”
“Just a coworker. We both teach history at Jameson High. ” She took another bite of her food.
“Are you going to sneak out to meet me tonight?” I wrapped my arms tighter around Rose’s waist, drawing small circles with my thumb on her lower back.
“I’ll try. ” She pressed her lips against mine.
She pulled back and sighed as she fumbled with the collar of my shirt.
“What is it? I can tell when something is bothering you. ” I brushed the bright-red hair from her forehead.
“My stepdad had some of his friends over last night. ”
“Did they touch you?” Murderous rage consumed me. Rose was mine and the thought of anyone else putting their fucking hands on her killed me.
“No. God, no. They were talking about your father. ” She looked up at me with her deep brown eyes. I clenched my jaw, trying not to let myself get upset in front of her.
“What did they say?”