"What's wrong with you, Kyle?" Lily's voice snapped out. Imperious. Demanding. "Keep him under. Do you think I can do this when he's awake? We're going to lose him to shock if he doesn't die from blood loss."
"He's fighting it," a man answered. "I swear, I'm afraid to give him more. He might not come back. He won't go under. I've never had a patient react like this before."
Through the netting, Thorn saw Lily bend over Sam. "Don't fight it, Sam. Go to sleep and let me take care of you. Don't fight me."
Azami.
There it was again. Her name. But it was Sam, not her father calling to her. It was Sam, still connected to her mind, reading her memories of childhood. That child who had been used for experiment after evil, bloody, torturous experiment. Her body sliced open--usually without anesthesia so the doctor could gauge her ability to withstand pain. So many experiments from depriving her oxygen, forcing her underwater into a cold pool to see how long she could hold out and if they could bring her back. The enhancements that Whitney believed were complete failures. Her DNA tampered with. Forcing the other girls to use their gifts on her to perfect their abilities.
I will not have you destroying my record, Thorn. You are such a disappointment to me and I've given you every opportunity--far more than anyone else.
She knew even if she clapped her hands over her ears, she would never stop that voice from telling her that her brain was useless to him, but at least he could dissect her body and examine her so he could avoid inadvertently creating other useless subjects like her again. If she would only behave and cooperate, he could test new medicines and procedures before trying them on his more valuable subjects.
He had operated without anesthesia many times to judge the body's ability to withstand pain before it gave out. He'd stopped and restarted her heart just as many times. Her heart had grown so weak Dr. Whitney had believed she would die anyway, so he'd finally thrown her away--into the alley of one of the worst streets where human trafficking and sex traders plied their slaves.
Sam knew too much. He knew who she was. If she could hear Whitney's voice echoing through her mind, so could Sam. He was sharing her mind, her memories, every horrid detail. She swallowed hard, sweat beading on her skin. It never once had occurred to her, when assessing all the risks to her coming to the GhostWalker compound, that someone would share her mind and uncover her childhood shame. Those terrible years of torment and vulnerability.
"You'll have to give him more. I'm going to lose him." This time there was desperation in Lily's voice.
"He's turning his head, Lily, trying to look . . ." The voice trailed off.
Thorn looked up to see both Lily and the other man looking toward her, following that slow head turn Sam made even in his barely conscious state. They knew he was looking at her. To warn them? They'd probably think that, but he was trying to reach out--to help her. He was every bit as selfless as her father had been.
Mamoru Yoshiie simply appeared from the darkness, a small, almost thin man in a gray kimono and wide leg trousers, split-toed socks, and sandals. Behind him were two young boys, one thirteen, the other ten. Yoshiie had stood over her, shaking his head at the small group of thugs who had begun to gather close to see what he would do to her. Later, she learned, the thugs were the feared yakuza, who ran the sex and drugs in this part of the city. They bowed slightly to Yoshiie and slowly gave way as he bent to lift her into his arms.
Thorn had been so frightened. She was tiny, her weight no more than a feather to the older man. He stared into her eyes and peace descended. She had never felt like that again with anyone--until Sam.
She closed her eyes. She should let Sam go. She should be glad he was slipping away. Her heart slammed hard in her chest. The scars burned like fire. The little girl wouldn't stop screaming. Even her fingernails hurt where she'd torn them off trying to get out of the small box they'd stuffed her into on the trip back to Japan.
She forced air through her lungs. There was no letting Sam go, not even to save her own life. There might be no chance for them, but Sam Johnson needed to be in the world. She rejected Dr. Whitney's assessment that he wasn't worth anything. She wouldn't throw him away, not when she'd been inside of him and knew he was worth all the gold in the world. Her father would never have thrown him away. Just as he'd saved Daiki and Eiji and his beloved daughter, Azami, he would have plucked Sam from any danger and raised him to know how to take care of himself.
Don't, Sam. Not for me. It was a long time ago. Let them work on you. Just go to sleep.
I can feel such pain in you.
She took a breath and deep inside, she stilled.
His voice swamped her. Brought her warmth, but she felt that terrible loneliness that echoed through his tone. Sadly she knew how he felt. He'd been in her, all that heat and strength, and when he was gone, she'd been aware of just how alone she'd been for too many years. She didn't know how it would ever be possible to have him in her life--not when she had no choice but to complete what she'd set out to do--but with him alive there was always a chance. In any case, the world needed a man of compassion and strength and duty such as Sam Johnson.
Don't leave me. Please just let the doc take care of you. She couldn't quite stop that small pleading in her voice. He shook her. Crawled inside of her. Moved her when few things--or people--did. She had just left herself raw and exposed and more vulnerable than she'd been in years. She guarded her emotions far more than she did her body. She trusted few people. It had taken years to fully trust her father and brothers and yet she'd just given herself to Sam.
Don't leave me. To a woman like Thorn, that was the epitome of weakness. She ducked her head and kept her expression perfectly blank.
Warmth slipped into her mind, filling the cold spaces, and shoved hard at the heavy open door of her childhood memories. He was saving her sanity even as he was slipping away. She kept breathing, in and out, stilling the terrible inner trembling. Whitney was gone. His voice. His eyes staring at her. She was alive and she was whole.
Sam. She whispered his name in her mind. Thankful for him. Afraid for him.
"Put him out," Lily called, fear edging her voice. She sounded almost desperate.
They knew. They all knew about her now. Her gaze jumped to Tucker's. She forced another calming breath. They knew she was telepathic, but that didn't mean they knew about her childhood.
Could she put Sam out? She moved into his mind. He was definitely fighting the anesthesia--for her. Because she was upset and he was worried for her. She soothed him, assured him, and pushed him subtly toward acceptance. She knew the exact moment he succumbed, going out, drifting away from her so that she felt a wrenching separation and once again, she was utterly alone.
"Thank you," Lily called, her voice muffled.
"Just save him," Thorn said, loud enough for the doctor to hear. She forced air to continue breathing. Breathing in. Breathing out. Presenting that absolutely serene countenance to anyone watching her--and they were watching--even more closely now.
This time she initiated leaving the surgical tent. She couldn't breathe in there. Tucker and the redheaded man followed her out. She got as far as the trees on shaking legs and stopped, leaning against a solid trunk and drawing in breath.
"Are you armed?" Tucker asked.
Her eyebrow shot up. "Of course I'm armed. I'm Daiki Yoshiie's bodyguard. He's had more threats against him than your president. I have permits to carry weapons, even in your country." She spoke with great dignity, pitching her voice low, as if his question was totally ludicrous. She wasn't altogether certain what she would do if he commanded her to surrender her weapons. And no way was she going to submit to a search.
"You brought down the helicopter."
Tucker made it more of a statement than a question. She supposed he knew because Sam didn't carry a bow and arrows and he must have received a report from whoever was cleaning up the bodies.
She didn't blink. Didn't show emotion. "It was necessary for our surviv
al."
Tucker pulled a water bottle from his pack. "You must be thirsty."
She regarded the proffered bottle carefully. They were still treating her as a guest, yet her guard, the redheaded soldier, was definitely on alert. His gaze hadn't left her no matter what was going on around him.
"Thank you." She took the bottle and indicated the soldier. "Is he assigned to make certain I don't go crazy and kill everyone here?" She injected a faint note of humor into her voice.
Tucker gave her an easy smile that didn't quite reach his eyes. "This was a very coordinated and well-planned attack on your brother and perhaps you as well. Sam was assigned to keep you safe. Ian McGillicuddy has that honor now."
She turned and smiled at McGillicuddy. He was a big man, his red hair spilling across his forehead and his green eyes piercing and intelligent. He was guarding her all right, but it wasn't necessarily to keep her safe. She saluted him with the water bottle and took a long, cooling drink.
McGillicuddy nodded, but he didn't smile and he didn't take his eyes from her.
"Sam said my brothers are safe. I hope they're under a tight guard."
"Yes, of course. Kadan and Nico have them inside the compound. It's a fortress. No one can get to them there," Tucker said.
The concentrated smell of blood made her stomach lurch--an unusual reaction, so it had to be the aftermath of her memories bombarding her. She hoped that door was firmly closed. Glancing toward the tent, she didn't try to keep the worry from her face.
"I thought it was a through and through and that he'd be fine."
"You couldn't have known. Sam's tough," Tucker added. "Once he went back twice for wounded and no one realized he'd been shot twice himself. We didn't know until he was in the helicopter heading home and he just sort of passed out. That's Sam."
She liked Tucker all the more for the genuine respect and affection in his voice. "He was extremely efficient in the firefight. We were greatly outnumbered. The enemy spoke in English, Spanish, and Farsi. Two of the soldiers were murdered by their own people, presumably to keep them from talking."
"The bullets were concentrated in the mouth, destroying teeth and faces. Soldiers must have mopped up after your kills, making certain to slow down identification. Have there been specific threats against your family?" Tucker asked.
"There are always threats." Thorn looked around for a place to sit. Her legs were beginning to get a little strength in them, but she knew she needed recovery time. "I'd like to sit down if you don't mind." She said it more for McGillicuddy's benefit than for Tucker's. She didn't want to make any sudden moves and have the man shoot her. She forced her legs to work--to glide soundlessly through the vegetation until she found a suitable spot to sink onto the ground gracefully.
"I'm sorry," Tucker said immediately, looking remorseful. "I should have found you somewhere comfortable right away."
"I think we both had other things on our minds," Thorn said truthfully. "The adrenaline's wearing off."
"We can get you back up to the compound if you're anxious to see your brothers." Tucker sounded reluctant but willing.
Thorn didn't blame him. Clearly he wanted to make certain Sam remained alive. She shook her head, sending him a quick smile. "I think I'll stick around. You know how it is. When you're in combat with someone, you get close fast. He was pretty amazing. I want to know firsthand that he's going to make it."
"Are you telepathic?"
The question was so casual, the tone equally so, that for a moment it almost didn't register. Tucker Addison was very smooth at interrogation without seeming to be. He acted as if he was making innocent conversation. Thorn took her time, fussing with the pins in her hair, restoring a semblance of order as she looked up toward the blue sky. Night was still a few hours off, but the wind was picking up, blowing a few clouds overhead.
"Yes. I haven't spoken to another telepath since my childhood." That was strictly honest. "I found it exhilarating, shocking, and a little frightening that Sam had such a strong ability. I could hear him when he spoke to me." She flashed a small smile and reached for a leaf, examining the thin veins running through it. "The gift came in quite handy during the battle."
"Why wouldn't Sam let Lily put him under?" Tucker crouched down opposite her, his gaze intent on her face.
Thorn shrugged. It was always better to stick as close to the truth as possible. "He was worried about me. We fought together, and I think he believed I was his responsibility--at least that's what it felt like to me. He stepped between me and the soldiers several different times. I told him I was fine and that I'd stay close. That seemed to satisfy him."
She was back to the game of wits, and her confidence was coming back. She knew how to be Azami Yoshiie, inside and out. She was samurai through and through. Her father's daughter. That eight-year-old child, with all of her insecurities and terrible memories, was locked behind the door. Azami just had to keep her there.
So far, Tucker was making polite conversation, slipping in a clever question every now and then, but he hadn't asked the significant question--where had she gotten second-generation Zenith. It wasn't on the market as of yet. No one should know about it. So how had she? And how had she acquired it? Good questions that would require real answers. She knew he would wait until she was inside the compound where the GhostWalker teams would easily have the upper hand.
"I think a good cup of tea would be excellent right now," Thorn said. She loved the tea ritual her father had often used to calm her when, as a child, she was unable to find her center. Just the thought of her father comforted her and continued to infuse her with confidence.
Tucker's white teeth flashed at her. "You're the second woman to suggest tea in a situation like this. I have to admit, I drank it with her, but I'm a coffee man myself."
"The tea ritual is always comforting," she said. "It's always nice after a battle."
He raised his eyebrow. "Do you often go into battle?"
"I was trained from the time I was a child in the way of the samurai by my father. It is a way of life, and the use of weapons as well as hand-to-hand combat is part of the lifestyle. Of course along with traditional weapons and fighting technique, we were required to master the modern arts of warfare as well as weapons. So, I guess you can say, I often go into battle. We keep up our skills. Our company provides this training for our employees. My brothers and I often instruct as well as train in order to stay sharp."
"Your father must have been an unusual man."
Thorn nodded. "Most unusual and wonderful. I miss him every day." Her soft voice was infused with the warmth of a million memories.
The thought of her father brought her even more confidence and completely settled the last of the nerves in her stomach. Daiki and Eiji were both men of honor, like her father. She had never thought to meet a man who might live up to what her father and brothers were--until she met Sam. She knew his mind intimately. He would sacrifice his own happiness for the good of his team. He would sacrifice willingly his life for theirs. He knew what duty and honor were and stood for both.
Thorn found it strange that when she had finally set into motion her plan to track down Whitney and serve him justice or at the very least cut off his supporters and put him on the run, she found a man she could believe in--one she could trust.
"Life is very strange," she murmured aloud.
"That it is," Tucker agreed. "We had no idea we'd be cleaning up a full-scale assault on our guests. We don't always use this road. It's a private one we put in ourselves. In the winter it's completely impassable. We use snowmobiles or winter vehicles on the public road. It's odd that they would set up an ambush here. How could they possibly know we would use this route to bring you and your brothers up to the compound?"
Thorn turned the question over in her mind. "There are two routes and you never choose one ahead of time?"
Tucker shook his head. "We deliberately set no pattern when we're traveling."
"Maybe that's why they had
the second helicopter and it came late to the party," she speculated. "They might have had a welcoming committee on both roads. A helicopter and two vehicles per road. Once they knew the route they could call for the others to back them up. They weren't that far away. A Jeep could cut through the forest and a helicopter just had to fly like a bird in a straight line."
Tucker nodded. "Not bad."
She sent him a small smile. "A test? Or not bad for a girl? You already knew that, didn't you?"
He grinned at her. "Our women are on the feisty side, just like you. You sit there very demure and look sweet, but you're a tiger in sheep's clothing. If Sam's all worried about you, he's worried about the wrong woman."
Thorn inclined her head. "You might tell him that when he wakes up."
CHAPTER 7
Sam struggled into a sitting position, his lungs screaming for air, sweat dripping down his face into his eyes. He threw an arm over his stinging eyes and took a deep breath, fighting for air. Blood thundered in his ears and his throat felt swollen and raw. He swore and shoved at the damp, springing curls spilling onto his forehead. He was never going to sleep again, that much was clear.
He'd seen a lot of really ugly things in his life, but his nightmares of torturing children--little girls--horrified him. He could never get to the child, no matter how hard he tried. He woke exhausted, in a panic, bile rising, every muscle in his body tight with tension and his mind in chaotic horror for the small child.
"What is it, Sam?" Lily Whitney-Miller asked. She handed him a damp washcloth. "You aren't sleeping more than a couple minutes at a time and you wake up like this. Your pulse rate is out of control. Can you tell me what's happening? You've been like this for nearly seventy-two hours."
He swallowed down another curse, took the cool cloth and rubbed his face, breathing in and out to regain some semblance of control. "Nightmares. They're bad, Lily. I've never had anything like this in my life."
"What kinds of things are you dreaming about?"
"Doctors torturing children--little girls." He cleared his throat to manage an intelligent sound. "Operating unnecessarily on them, Lily. Over and over." He was going to keep to himself that the "little girls" was always specifically one girl--Azami. He couldn't close his eyes without seeing that child being dissected without anesthesia.