You give me a moon to reach for,
a hope for our own Heaven,
like frozen winter icing
cried down from a night-blue sky
and blown upwards towards the stars.
Separation
Time and distance
keep us strangers,
yet lovers,
in the memory of what has been.
For, although we cannot be together,
our hearts remain entwined
and the sweet passing of love between us
is remembered,
even when we are so far apart…
Sad Love
Summer Night
A whisper of a summer thought
Suspended in the air is caught
Upon the sweetness of your words,
Is harmonised by song of birds.
A glassy lake so blue and deep
Surrounds our silent minds in sleep;
We wake with pale moon high above,
Look on reflections of our love.
A drop of rain before the dawn,
Shows that autumn has been born.
The dew glows in the tears I cry –
The words you speak tell me goodbye.
Only We Understand
Moondust on a single rose,
Starshine in the sand –
Glimpses of a world which
Only lovers understand.
Suns’ rays in a shady wood,
Diamonds on the sea;
Nature’s beauty understood
By you - by love - by me.
Crystal dewdrops on the grass,
Fields of molten corn.
Rose is crushed beneath your feet;
A lovers heart is torn.
Ziggy
Tiny kitten cute and small,
Big grey eyes enchanting all,
Soft and fluffy, full of fun –
You don’t know what you have done.
Your charms and sweetness cover mine,
He cuddles you and all the time
I feel neglected - he wants you,
And I want him – what can I do?
He’ll let me go, he won’t know why
But, little kitten, you can’t cry…
Sweet Pain
Sweet Pain you kill me deep inside,
Then heal me with your smile;
You say you understand,
But you are laughing all the while.
You hold my heart within your hands
And, playing, let it drop.
But teasing games you play
Are games I never want to stop.
You fool around, you take my love,
Then run away again.
But I just take the hurt,
Because I love you, my Sweet Pain.
Mummies and Daddies
My picture book is on the floor,
My teddy’s on the chair,
My mummy’s crying in her room
‘Cos daddy doesn’t care.
I know that he has gone away,
He came to say goodbye –
But I want daddy here with me,
Then mummy wouldn’t cry.
I wish that he would hurry home
To laugh and play with me;
But mummy says he won’t be back –
Not even after tea.
Memento
A loving letter
A faded rose
A dying love
And no-one knows.
A special dress
A lock of hair
A broken heart
And who will care…
A silver locket,
Diamond ring –
Who knows the pain
That love can bring?
Don’t
Don’t make it harder for me
To say goodbye,
Don’t lift the sorrow from me,
Don’t even try.
Don’t tell me that you love me;
You don’t know how.
Don’t tell me that you need me,
It’s over now.
Don’t kiss my lips so sweetly
Before we part;
Don’t leave until tomorrow –
Don’t break my heart.
Stone Love
Wind blows cold into the night,
Whispering words, you hold me tight;
Look into your cool grey eyes –
Flame of doubt within me dies.
Burning kisses lead temptation,
Love is only imitation;
Stronger union cannot be,
For you do not belong to me.
The End
Don’t try to tell me
That we are through,
Your heart has told me
What mine already knew;
Two people who are trying
To carry on, still
Clinging to chances –
We’ve had our fill.
You know I love you,
Know how I feel,
That I am crying,
That my tears are real.
No-one can change you –
God knows I’ve tried –
You said you loved me:
I know you lied.
Just get it over,
Tell me, then go…
As our love was over
A long time ago.
Each and Every Time
Each star of every evening
each flame of sparkling shine
will burn away eternity
as will this heart of mine.
Each glow of twilight’s darkness,
each shadow in the blue,
will need each other to exist
as I will still need you.
Each dawn of every sunrise,
each re-birth of the day,
will slowly fade, return, but then
like you will go away…
Colours of my Life
Grey for the mood that I am in now,
Blue is the colour when I wonder how –
How you will ever belong to just me:
How much I want you, you never can see.
Red for the anger to know I was wrong,
Brown for the emptiness now you are gone.
Gone from my future and into my past –
But our hearts both knew that it never could last.
Yellow with fear which I feel when I know,
Know you don’t need me, you want me to go.
Go on alone, without knowing why
I love you so much – I wish I could cry.
Green for the envy when you are not mine –
I am not yours – and that suits you fine.
Fine is the day when I know you’ll be back,
But up until then, my colour is black.
Time to Forget
Chase the night into the morning,
Lose the sun and find the rain,
Make our love into a memory
Never to return again.
Turn the stars to drops of water –
Let them fall like morning dew -
For the sky above can never
Be how it once was with you.
Throw the minutes into hours,
Turn the hours into days,
That I may forget my sorrow
In confusion of Time’s haze.
Make the autumn turn to winter,
Hide my tears in falling snow;
Take my heart and throw the pieces
To the coldest winds that blow.
Black Moods
The Hurt
I felt a funny hurt inside,
I couldn’t make it out.
I couldn’t cry, I couldn’t laugh,
I couldn’t even shout.
It tore a funny place inside,
This strongly painful ache,
But when I felt a tear creep out
I knew I’d got heartbreak.
Behind the Tears
Behind the tears we try to hide
The hurt we feel, the selfish pride,
The broken dreams and plans we made,
The memories that will not fade.
Behind the plastic laugh and smile,
Our hearts are breaking all the while
But fools like me just cannot lie –
Our sorrows fall out when we cry.
Star
Through the open curtains, I see a star
Sparkling with a softened sharpness,
Folding a peaceful glow into the black of night.
Nothing moves, except the smouldering facets of the star.
I wonder if anyone else has seen its beauty
Or is it just there?
Just a glimmer in the darkness,
Surrounded by the drowsy early hours.
Eternity lingers on the perennial ray of silver
Thrown through time and space to greet my eyes.
As I watch, the star flickers,
Is extinguished as a desolate cloud creeps across the sky.
It appears again, blinking farewell to the temporary obstruction.
Looking at the star, I see myself.
Alone, full of strangely beautiful reflections.
Thriving on the peace of solitude.
But, unlike the star, I never reappear after the clouds.
I stay hidden under their choking loneliness.
A soft loneliness.
Impossible loneliness.
The star found a way out on its own.
I’m on my own trying to find a way out.
So I’m not really like the star –
Not at all…
Yesterday’s Tomorrow
I can’t explain the ways I’ve tried to bring back yesterday,
Yet when I do, I can’t find you, can only find today
And all the hope my words once held was unchained by a sigh,
As all the love we both once knew has sadly passed us by.
I see you in the strength I need, as friendship sweet and true –
Then all my fading dreams are gone, are vanished, just like you.
Ideals I once could name are dead, although their memories stay;
I must have you to light my mind before I lose my way.
I can’t explain the ways I’ve tried to bring back yesterday,
Yet when I try, I always cry, I always find today.
Bring back your life, I want to live, I need your faith to trust;
Before my soul is hidden deep and heart is falling dust.
Empty Land
I’m walking through this empty land
With no-one by my side;
Life’s easier to understand
When there’s nowhere to hide.
The emptiness of flat, dead ground
Is easier to bear
Than pretty scenes that haunt your mind
When you’re alone, yet there.
No flowers thrive within this earth
To pick and keep forever;
Their blooms just wilt, then fade and die
To last for now and never.
I’m running through this empty land
With no sun up above,
To take life’s sorrow in my hand
And crush the flower of love.
Words and Pictures
The words I write cannot express the way I really feel,
My eyes are blind to happiness, my mind flat and unreal.
No colours tint the picture of the loneliness I draw
As all the scenes are black and grey and empty as before.
The diary which I write each day leaves nothing to be said,
As all the words and phrases lose their place inside my head.
The life I sculpt lies broken as I carve my time in vain,
Until the fragments become whole and I can start again.
The Record
A record plays softly and tells of lost love,
I’m trapped inside four walls with ceiling above.
Outside there are people but here I’m alone;
Time heals all wounds yet my memories have grown.
Sunlight forms sharply cut shapes on the floor,
Blinding me to clear blue skies I once saw.
There’s nothing left now, only sad empty days
And a cold lonely room with a record that plays.
Lessons Learned
Acorns to Oak Trees
Time alone has changed our lives,
Stale acorns spring up strong;
With all the passing of the years,
We couldn’t dare be wrong.
We never dreamt we’d feel this way –
We thought all would be fine –
But acorns turn to oaks, you know,
And so’s this heart of mine.
A Strangers’ Smile
Many strangers
come to the beach
each
with their own reasons.
During the other seasons
the beach is deserted,
but summer
is the season of the sun.
And, now that it’s begun,
many strangers
come here
swimming in the sea,
sometimes smiling at me,
but not always knowing why.
They try
to fit into my world,
to share my sun,
to be a part of the sea, and the shore.
But sometimes
a stranger will break my heart,
and leave me just a smile
and a memory,
like you did once before…
Oh, I do hate to be beside the seaside
Summer is here again
bringing back
the pain
of long ago.
Shimmering sea
so deep and blue
can’t drown my memories
of you.
It’s true
that the sun is still hot,
but not
that it warms my heart.
Coloured pebbles
hurt my toes –
but no-one knows
how you once hurt me.
It’s all over now,
buried in life’s sand,
yet I can’t understand
why you went away.
I see my face
in a rockpool,
and try to trace
your name upon the water.
Tiny ripples
run from my fingers
to the outside…
And I just can’t hide
my salty tears
as they are lost
and forgotten
in the tide of years.
Summer Longing
A whisper of a breeze murmurs softly in your hair,
I look into your deep blue eyes to see how much you care.
The sun burns hot and catches on the traces of your smile,
We lie down in the cool green grass and dream a little while.
Ripples on a nearby stream repeat their melody,
While singing birds and swaying trees supply a harmony.
Your burning lips rest on my cheek, your hand lies soft in mine
As melting kisses, tender looks, are blended into time.
Day runs into twilight, throwing shadows on the ground,
My heartbeat jumps to tell you of this sweet new life I’ve found.
Yet if I did, our love might fade away into the night –
Our unfurled waiting future might just vanish out of sight.
You look at me, a strange new look I’ve never seen before
Then pick a flower, silently, and smile – nothing more.
But then you shake your head and brush away a falling tear,
I dry your eyes then gently hold your trembling body near.
We can’t go on, it’s over, soft words hidden in a sigh.
There’s nothing left be
tween us, so I’m sorry, it’s goodbye.
I can’t believe you’ve left me, won’t believe you, though it’s true:
Each minute is an hour, each day a lifetime without you.
Although I don’t know what went wrong and probably never will,
I see your face in my mind, hear your words resounding still.
So now our time is over, leaving longing in my heart;
I wish I’d said I love you long before we had to part…
It’s Sad
It’s sad to know that this last time
My love is imitation,
And mocking kisses, hidden smiles,
Are pure infatuation.
It’s sad to love without the hurt
When good-byes are for real,
When tender thoughts and shattered heart
Are not the things I feel.
It’s sad to not forget the past,
When feelings were much stronger;
To sit and cry the unreal tears
For love that is no longer.
The Healing
You taught me how to trust again,
Gave me sun and took the rain,
Brought me love and happiness,
Warmed my heart with sweet caress.
Kissed my lips and made me feel
The peace of being loved for real,
You changed my dark nights into day,
Did all this then went away…
This Last Time
I don’t know if you wondered why
I turned away to say goodbye –
But if you ever need to know,
I didn’t really want to go.
Yet had I stayed a moment longer,
Feelings felt would just grow stronger;
So it’s best if you don’t know
Why this last time I had to go.
Love
Love is a story
told in one word,
when your heart believes every
new lie it has heard.
Love is a picture
of sunsets and dreams,
when your mind believes all
is all that it seems.
Love is a tune