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  “I won’t,” Vivien said automatically. “If I did, I suspect that Lord Lane would haunt me from the grave. However, I do care for the boy, Victoria. He is so sweet and earnest and endearing. I doubt any man that honorable has ever loved me before. I know now that it was foolish and wrong of me to even consider his proposal. But I couldn’t help being swept away by him for a little while.”

  Victoria reached out and squeezed her sister’s hand. “What will you do now? I hope you will stay with me and let me care for you until the baby is born.”

  Vivien responded with a decisive shake of her head. “I’ll go to Italy, I think. I have many friends there, and I have need of some amusement after the past month. Besides, there is a particular gentleman…a count, actually…who has pursued me for years. And he’s rich as Croesus.” She smiled with pleasurable anticipation, all trace of wistfulness vanishing. “I think it may be time to let him catch me.”

  “But you can’t continue to live that way,” Victoria murmured, stricken. “Not after the baby comes.”

  “Of course I can. Don’t worry, I shan’t allow the baby to suffer in any way. He or she will have the best of everything; you can rest assured of that. As soon as it’s born and I regain my figure, I’ll find a new protector and figure out some arrangement for the child. Lord knows I’ll have servants aplenty to help me care for it.”

  Victoria was aware of a sensation of heavy disappointment at her sister’s words. “But aren’t you tired of living as some man’s mistress? I’ll do whatever I can, and so will Mr. Morgan, to help you find a new situation.”

  “I don’t want a new situation,” Vivien said matter-of-factly. “I like being a courtesan. It’s pleasant, easy, and profitable. Why shouldn’t I continue in a profession at which I happen to excel? And please spare me the remarks about decency and honor…I think there’s a certain kind of honor in doing something to the best of one’s ability.”

  Victoria shook her head sorrowfully. “Oh, Vivien…”

  “Enough,” her sister said in a brisk voice. “I don’t care to discuss it further. I’m going to Italy, and that’s that.”

  “You must promise me something,” Victoria persisted. “If you eventually decide you don’t want the child, don’t give it to servants or strangers to raise. Please. I can’t stand the thought that a member of our family might…well, just send it to me.”

  Vivien stared at her with a skeptical frown. “How odd. Why would you want anything to do with Lord Gerard’s bastard?”

  “Because it’s your child too…and my niece. Or nephew. Give me your promise, Vivien.” As her sister continued to hesitate, Victoria added, “You owe it to me.”

  “Oh, all right…I promise.” Stretching out her slippered feet, Vivien motioned for her to bring a cushioned stool covered in petit point flowers. As Victoria removed her sister’s shoes and arranged her feet on the stool, she was aware of Vivien’s speculative stare. “You haven’t mentioned a word about your relationship with Mr. Morgan,” Vivien remarked with deceptive idleness.

  Victoria glanced up at her twin’s keen blue eyes. “What did he tell you when he came here?”

  Vivien laughed and coiled a stray lock of glinting cinnamon hair around her finger. “What little he didn’t tell me, I was able to guess. Now, fess up, Victoria…Has he come up to scratch yet?”

  Blushing, Victoria gave a slight nod. “He has proposed to me, yes.”

  “And have you accepted?”

  Victoria shook her head reluctantly. “I have a few doubts about the suitability of the match.”

  “Oh, good God,” Vivien murmured, looking at her with a touch of loving exasperation. “You’ve been thinking too much again. Well, let me hear your worries.”

  It was a pleasure for Victoria to unburden herself to the only person in the world who truly understood the way her life had been until now. “I don’t know if this is what Father would have wanted for me,” she said. “I don’t know if a woman like me is meant for such a life. Oh, Vivien, Mr. Morgan is such a remarkable man—I can’t help fearing that he’ll need more than I can provide. We’re not similar in character, background, or temperament…I don’t think anyone would consider us a suitable match—”

  “Then why didn’t you refuse him?”

  “Because I love him. It’s just that I’m afraid we’re not truly right for one another.”

  Vivien made a scoffing sound. “Let’s dispense with the nonsense, Victoria. This isn’t a question of suitability, yours or his. You’re perfectly capable of accustoming yourself to new circumstances…and marrying a man of good fortune, though untitled, is not exactly a hardship.” Vivien rolled her eyes and sighed. “It is so like you to analyze a situation until you’ve made it ten times more complicated that it really is! Just as Father used to do.”

  “Father was a wonderful man,” Victoria said, stiffening.

  “Yes…a wonderful, virtuous, lonely martyr. After Mama left him, Father retreated into his shell and hid from the world. And you stayed with him and tried to atone for everything that had happened by becoming exactly like him. You’ve been living in this same damned cottage, poring over the same bloody books. It’s morbid, I tell you.”

  “You don’t understand—” Victoria began hotly. “Don’t I?” Vivien interrupted. “I understand your fears better than you do. It’s always been safer for you to hide here alone than take the chance of loving someone and have him leave you. That’s what your real worry is. Mama abandoned you, and now you expect the same of anyone else you might love.”

  The ring of truth in the words stunned Victoria. She stared at her sister while her eyes prickled with tears. “I suppose…” she began, the sudden tightness of her throat making it difficult to speak. Vivien was right—she had never been the same after her mother had left her. The ability to be comfortable with love, to trust someone with her heart, had been stripped away from her, forcing her to build layers of self-protection that no one could reach through. Until Grant.

  But he deserved her trust. He deserved to be loved without reservation or fear, without anything being held back. All she had to do was find the strength within herself.

  “It was so much easier when Father was still alive,” Victoria said. “I convinced myself that he was all I needed. We kept each other from feeling lonely. But now that he’s gone…” She stopped, biting her lip as the tears overflowed.

  Vivien sighed and stood with difficulty, reaching into the tiny drawer of a side table to procure a handkerchief. She dropped the linen square into Victoria’s lap. “That was two years ago,” she commented. “It’s about time to carry on with the rest of your life.”

  Mopping her face with the soft linen, Victoria nodded vigorously. “Yes; I know,” she said in a muffled voice. “I’m tired of mourning. I’m tired of being alone. And I love Grant Morgan so much that I can’t bear the thought of losing him.”

  “Thank God,” her twin said in a heartfelt tone. “I daresay even Father would say you’ve done penance for long enough. And while we’re on the subject, I’m going to tell you something I’ve always wanted to say…Loving a man doesn’t make you a ‘bad woman,’ as you always believed Mama and I were.”

  “No, I never thought—”

  “Yes, you did. I have a fairly good idea of the things Father said about me and Mama behind our backs. And some of them were probably well deserved.” Her voice turned self-mocking. “I admit, I may be rather too free with my favors. But I know one thing for certain—giving yourself to a man when you love him, as you have with Morgan, is not wrong. Moldering here in Forest Crest, on the other hand, is a crime. Therefore, I’m leaving this godforsaken village as soon as I can arrange it, and I’d advise you to do the same. By all means, marry Grant Morgan—I daresay you could do much worse.”

  “Somehow,” Victoria said wryly, “I had the impression you and he did not like each other. What has happened to change that?”

  “Oh, I still don’t like him,” Vivien assured her with
a quick laugh. “Not really. Except…well, it’s obvious that he loves you, otherwise he wouldn’t have made that ridiculous apology you had required of him.”

  “He did?” Victoria asked in wondering delight. “He truly brought himself to tell you he was sorry?”

  “Yes, he confessed everything and asked for my forgiveness.” A catlike smile appeared on Vivien’s face. “I’ll admit, there was something rather sweet about watching him gag on that apology, simply because you asked it of him. So if I were you, I would marry the man, if you desire to keep from breaking his heart. Or…” She paused as another idea seemed to inspire her. “Or you could come with me! We could go to Venice or Paris…Do you realize the kind of attention that two sisters with our looks would attract? I’ll teach you everything I know about men, and…Good Lord, we would make a king’s ransom!”

  Victoria looked up at her sister’s animated face and shook her head decisively. “Ick.”

  “It’s a good idea,” Vivien said defensively. “Pity you haven’t got just a bit more imagination and fewer scruples.”

  A stew of potatoes, kidney beans, and chopped greens and onions simmered atop the small cast-iron range. The appetizing scent filled the cottage and drifted out the open windows. Remembering the many times she had made the dish for her father, Victoria smiled wistfully. Her father had never been a great lover of food, regarding it solely as a necessity for the body rather than something to be enjoyed. On the rare occasions when Victoria had made plum pudding, or brought currant buns from the bakery, he had nibbled at the treats and quickly lost interest. The only times she had ever seen him eat heartily, and with obvious enjoyment, was when she had made vegetable stew.

  “Father,” she murmured fondly, pausing in the task of folding clothes and packing them in an ancient leather truck, “I hope you won’t mind that I want to marry a man so unlike you.” Grant was a physical man with a strong appetite for life. He would never choose to hide away from the world as she and her father had done. Instead, he wrestled with dangerous, complex, often sordid problems. He saw the worst of humanity, whereas the Devanes had preferred to contemplate only the best of it. And yet…she thought her father might have liked Grant after all, if only to admire his utter fearlessness when it came to dealing with the realities of life.

  Humming tunelessly, Victoria went to stir the stew and add a pinch of salt to the pot. Returning to her packing, she began to fold an old knitted shawl when she heard a demanding knock at the door. The entire cottage seemed to vibrate from the force of the blows.

  Perplexed, a bit uneasy, she went to answer the door. She stepped back with a slight gasp as she saw Grant standing there. He was breathtakingly handsome, dressed in a striking black coat, black stock, silver-gray waistcoat, and charcoal breeches. The clothes were simple but perfectly tailored to fit his broad shoulders and lean torso. The vibrant force of his personality struck her anew…He looked large, dangerous, and even a bit irate. However, as Victoria stared into his smoldering green eyes, she felt no fear, only an instinctive desire to kiss his hard mouth and make it soften against her own.

  “Hello,” she said, self-consciously smoothing her hair, which hung in a disheveled braid down her back. His resplendent appearance made her conscious that she was wearing an old, worn gown, a faded flower-print muslin that was suitable only for chores in the house and garden. She smiled into his dark face, prolonging the delicious moment before she threw herself into his arms. “What are you doing here?”

  “You took too long,” he muttered with a scowl. The statement brought a surprised laugh from her. “We agreed I would stay here a week.”

  “It’s been a week.”

  “It’s been precisely two and a half days,” she informed him.

  “It seemed like a bloody year.”

  Victoria shivered in pleasure as she felt him reach for her waist and pull her body against his. “I missed you, too,” she confessed with a smile. His hand lifted to the side of her face, gently cradling her cheek, his palm hot on her skin.

  “Where is Vivien?” he asked.

  “She has already left for London. She’s had enough of country life. And so have I.” Victoria gestured toward the half-filled trunk and the pile of folded clothes beside it. “I was coming back early,” she admitted. “I found I didn’t have as much to sort through as I thought.”

  “And our engagement?” he asked with a set face. “Do you have an answer for me?”

  “Yes,” she said, her voice suddenly catching with emotion. “Yes, I’ll marry you…if you still want me.”

  “Only for a lifetime,” Grant said thickly, staring into her small, radiant face.

  Her eyes closed as he lowered his mouth to hers, not with the urgency she had expected, but with a slow, searing tenderness that pulled a pleasured respiration from her chest. His lips caressed hers so lightly, playfully, imparting intimate heat and moisture until she pushed herself up at him in a search for something deeper. And he gave it to her, sealing his mouth over hers and using his tongue to reach inside her. She moaned and responded eagerly, unable to get close enough to his hard masculine body, unable to hold him tightly enough.

  Suddenly Grant pulled his mouth away and laughed breathlessly, his green eyes filled with tender warmth. “I’ll have to teach you patience someday,” he murmured, his warm hands sliding up and down her sides.

  “Why?”

  For some reason the question made him laugh again. “It’s much better when you don’t go charging into it at full tilt.”

  “But I like it that way,” she said in a provocative tone.

  Smiling, Grant kissed her again, her mouth and chin and throat, and murmured his love to her as his hands worked on the fastenings at the back of her threadbare muslin gown. One elbow-length sleeve drooped away from her shoulder, and then the other, and his mouth traveled to the freshly exposed skin.

  “If I had know you were coming,” Victoria said, “I would have worn a pretty gown and ribbons in my hair—”

  “I prefer you to wear nothing at all.”

  Which was soon to be the case, she realized, as he pushed the gown over her hips and let it fall to the floor. Her chemise followed as he eased the straps down her arms and tugged it downward until it, too, was discarded. She stood before him in only her drawers, stockings, and shoes, her bare breasts trembling as she shivered in the slight breeze that came in through the window. The heat of his hands was startling as they gently cupped the pale mounds, her nipples contracting tightly in his palms. Her breath quickened, and she leaned back against the cool plaster wall behind her. He kissed her mouth, her parted lips, with deep, stroking kisses that somehow soothed and excited her at the same time. She whimpered as she felt him take the peaks of her breasts in his fingertips, pulling, softly pinching. Sliding his fingers beneath her breasts, he lifted the warm, silken weights and opened his lips over one aching nipple. He drew her deep inside his mouth, suckling the taut peak, tickling with his tongue, and she writhed as a delicious throbbing began low in her body.

  “Touch me,” she begged, gasping as he turned his attention to her other breast, and her hips jerked forward involuntarily.

  “Where?” he asked softly, and as she felt him smile against her breast, she knew he was teasing. Impatiently she fumbled with the tapes to her drawers, longing to be rid of the garment. To her frustration, she discovered the tapes had somehow become knotted, and her efforts to free them only made the tangle worse.

  Grant pushed her hands away from the tightening knots and kissed her bare midriff. “Don’t move,” he murmured.

  “Why? What are you—” She broke off and squeaked in alarm as she saw the flash of a long spearpoint knife. Before she could move, the blade had sliced through the knotted tapes and the legs of the drawers, and the thin linen fell in shreds at her feet.

  “Grant,” she said, her voice slightly higher-pitched than usual, “that th-thing makes me nervous.”

  He grinned as he slid the knife back into his bo
ot. “It’s proven to be useful on a number of occasions.”

  “Yes, but I don’t—”

  “Here, lift your foot.” Sinking to his knees before her, he removed one shoe, then the other, and began to reach for the tops of her stockings. He paused, however, his hands sliding to the sides of her hips. “I think we’ll leave these on,” he murmured. “I like the way they frame your—”

  “Grant,” Victoria protested, blushing all over as he continued to stare at her. She had never felt so vulnerable, standing before him virtually naked, whereas he was still fully dressed.

  The pads of his thumbs passed gently over the tender, almost transparent skin at the tops of her thighs, where a faint lavender tracery of veins was visible. “I’m going to buy you stockings of silk and lace,” he said softly. “Black ones. And jeweled garters with ribbons.”

  Victoria could barely speak. “Let’s go into the bedroom,” she said faintly.

  “Not yet.” His fingertips combed gently through the tangle of spicy hair, separating the glinting curls. “How lovely you are.”

  Victoria quivered, grateful for the support of the wall behind her back as she stood between Grant’s spread knees. He leaned forward, kissing her stomach, exploring the delicate edge of her navel with the tip of his tongue. His own breath was coming fast and hard, fanning over her skin in steamy pulses. She must have made some small sound, for he glanced up into her face with hot green eyes.

  “Do you want me to kiss you, Victoria?”

  She nodded, her wild blush deepening.

  Though his face was taut with passion, she saw the barest hint of a smile touch his lips. “Where?”

  I can’t, she thought in mortified excitement, clenching her hands into fists at her sides. Grant was still, staring at her with a provoking mixture of amusement and desire, clearly waiting for her to make the next move. The tension increased until the very air seemed to spark with heat, and Victoria burned with scarlet color. Unable to stop herself, she reached out with shaking hands and slid her fingers beneath the thick dark locks of his hair, and guided his head to the place she most wanted it. She felt the blazing heat of his mouth cover her, his tongue searching the tender flesh, arrowing to the sensitive bud where her desire centered. Her knees weakened, and she would have collapsed had his hands not cupped beneath her buttocks, gripping and steadying her. Moaning, she strained against the sliding, tormenting delight of his tongue, until she began to stiffen at the imminent approach of climax.