When I came to the garage door, Father threw me the keys high in the air. I made the imaginary gesture of removing a catcher’s mask, adjusted my glasses, and made the catch near my mother’s prize camellia bushes. The twins cheered. My father bowed, then loaded a large inner tube into the backseat and instructed Trevor to hold on to it tightly as the convertible sped its way toward James Island.
“Does Mr. Ferguson know we’re coming to his plantation?” I asked him.
“He does, and he knows why you’re coming. I told him we’d pick up the Chevy tomorrow.”
“Make sure you meet us when we make it to the Ashley,” I said.
“I called Jimmy Wiggins at the marina. He’s lending me his Boston Whaler. I’ll be doing a little fishing when you come out of the creek.”
“You fishing for whales?” Sheba asked.
“No, sweetie, that’s just the name of the boat.”
When I started the car, I had one great worry, but I had a plan for how to deal with it. I’d still told no one about the man in the alley, concocting a bike wreck to explain my bruised face. Since my attacker had taken on an aura of omnipotence and mystery, I worried about him following us, trailing after us like a mako shark following the scent of a wounded grouper through the grottoes of a coral reef. But if this man pursued us on this day, he would have to know the streets of Charleston as well as I did. I was both a native of the city and a paperboy to boot, so a map had imprinted itself on my brain.
I gunned the car down Lockwood Boulevard, then made a sharp right and shot through the streets beside the city’s hospital before swinging left on Ashley Boulevard, checking my rearview mirror as I turned sharply down each street. By the time I reached the Savannah highway, I was certain we were not being followed, and I relaxed and joined the twins in their animated conversation as I turned south, psycho-free and happy to be a teenage boy, at long last.
I was light-headed as I listened to the twins talk nonsense. Trevor leaned between us from the backseat. When he felt me relax, he invited me into their country of delicious, ridiculous banter. In the life I had lived, the free-flowing chatter of teenagers was unfamiliar. I found it joyous and liberating as we made our way across the Ashley River Bridge and headed out toward Folly Beach Road.
“Leo, it’s my thought that Sheba should marry Elvis Presley next year.”
“Isn’t Elvis married?” I asked.
“A mere inconvenience. One glimpse of Sheba and Elvis would be sprinting toward the nearest divorce court. I’ve never met the man who could put up the slightest resistance to my sister’s pagan charms. Except for a man like me, of course. You know what I mean, Leo? Surely you know that I’m drawn to other compass points.”
“Compass points?” I asked. Though I was desperate to be sophisticated, I lacked the foggiest notion of what he was talking about.
“Leo is a pure innocent,” Sheba said. “You talk good, but you never know what you’re talking about. And I disagree about Elvis. I don’t see myself as a home breaker. More like a nurse or a goddess.”
“Ah!” Trevor said. “She lays out her life in all its simplicity.”
“I was thinking about marrying Paul McCartney. I can tell by his eyes that he’s a soul mate. Through him, I could jump-start my acting career, play Juliet on the London stage, and meet the queen of England. I’d love to meet the queen. I sense her loneliness and it’s obvious that Prince Philip was a marriage of convenience, not of passion. I could keep her confidences while guiding Paul into making the right career moves.”
“I live for beauty,” Trevor said, apropos of nothing. “I will always go where beauty leads me.”
“I admire beauty,” Sheba answered him, “but art is what drives me. I want to be the leading actress of my time. I’d like to marry three or four of the most fascinating men in my era. But I want to make the whole world laugh and cry and be happy to be alive because my acting has touched them so deeply.”
“Well spoken,” Trevor said. He turned to me and asked, “What are your grandest ambitions, Leo? Hold nothing back. You and your father took up arms to protect us the other night, so you’ve become heroic in our eyes.”
Tongue-tied and uncomfortable, I found myself inadequate to utter a word to these otherworldly twins. My dream of being with Sheba again one night was beginning to seem like the most absurd thing on earth. Should I tell them that I planned to wed Sophia Loren or become secretary general of the United Nations or take my vows and become the first American Pope? My mind raced as we sped out on James Island and I thought about some burning desire to be an astronaut, to study the mating habits of blue whales, to convert all of China to Roman Catholicism. All of these half-baked lies clustered around my tongue when I finally said, “I’m thinking about being a journalism major in college.”
“He can write about us, Sheba,” Trevor said, his voice animated. “He can spread our fame far and wide.”
“We’ll give him scoops,” she said. “That’s what a journalist needs more than anything: scoops.” At that moment, I had entered the whimsical, make-believe world of two kids whose lives would have proven all but unbearable if they had not set their imaginations free. It was a world where all the rules of civilized life had been smashed into shards and remade.
Though I had never been to the Secessionville Plantation, my father had given me precise directions, and I easily found the dirt road that brought us within sight of the mythic plantation. It was set on high ground, presiding over a vast acreage of marshlands that stretched for miles, the length and breadth of James Island Creek and the Folly River. Mr. Ferguson waved from the porch and gave us a thumbs-up sign; his pretty wife called down to see if we needed anything before we began our adventure.
Trevor’s bathing suit was so skimpy it looked as though it were made by sewing two yarmulkes together. “It’s European,” he explained. Sheba’s bathing suit was a flesh-colored bikini revealing enough to make me believe she could have her pick between Elvis and Paul McCartney, had either been lucky enough to join us that day.
“Do you like my bathing suit, Leo?” she asked.
“What bathing suit?” I answered, and both twins laughed.
For the first time in my life, I set foot on the floating dock where my parents had fallen in love well over thirty years before. Since my father had revealed the story of their courtship, I started planning to make this watery trip alone. But I wanted to share it with two new friends, one of whom had pocketed away my virginity forever. I threw the inner tube into the retreating tide—it was the exact hour that the moon had issued the recall papers to all the waters of the marsh. As we stepped onto the dock, the tides turned, exactly as I had planned it. We dove into the warm, sweet waters and came up to the inner tube laughing, then began our long, slow-motion float out toward the Atlantic, which in its immensity and silence, waited for all things.
In the summertime, the saltwater that floods the creeks and bays and coves of South Carolina is warm and sun-shot and silken to the touch. It did not hurt or shock to enter the water, but soothed and washed away the frazzled nerves of our runaway week. The creek was dark with the nutrients gathered in the great salt marsh; you could not see your hand if you opened your eyes underwater. We were swimming in a part of the Atlantic that the state of South Carolina had borrowed for a while. Now the tide was hurtling back, drawing the essence of its marshes, the blue crabs lying in wait for stragglers who would soon be prey. As the tide receded, the oysters would be locked tight, retaining a shot-glass-ful of seawater that would hold them until the next full tide; the flounders hidden in the mudflats; the mullets flashing in quicksilver sea grass; the small sharks nosing around for carrion; the blue herons straight-legged and heraldic in their motionless hunt; the snowy egrets—the only creatures in the Low Country whose name invoked winter—staring at the shallows for the quick run of minnows. I let the twins take it all in, and we remained wordless for the first hundred yards, remarkable only in our stillness and the rightness of the m
oment.
Finally, I heard Trevor ask his sister, “Is this it?”
“Close. Very close. I can’t be sure yet.”
“You’re right. We’ll have to see how it ends.”
“You could cut your foot on a broken beer bottle,” she said. “Develop a case of tetanus, then die. Worse than dying, no one knows you here. There wouldn’t be a soul at your funeral.”
“I want thousands at my funeral, Sheba. That is a must.”
“No tetanus, then.” Sheba looked toward Sullivan’s Island and then back to the white chessboard of the city. The marsh held the deepest green of summer, the green of vestments, chameleons, or rain forests. The spartina grass threw off a bright, show-offy green that could change its aura when a cloud passed between the sun and the creek, invoking jade or olive oil in the ever-shifting light. Its green was infinite in the moment we found marshes alive in our newfound friendship.
“This could be it, Trevor,” Sheba said as we became part of the tide, the tube spinning in slow circles.
“What are you two talking about?” I asked. “No fair keeping secrets.”
Both twins laughed, then Sheba explained, “You don’t know us very well, Leo. And we don’t know you. Your mother doesn’t like us and she’ll break up whatever friendship we might’ve had. We’re too flamboyant for most people. We know that. And you’ve met our mother, a nut bag who gets knee-walking drunk.”
Her brother interrupted, “But it’s not all her fault. Our mom’s had a hard life. Sheba and I weren’t born in a rose garden, if you get my drift.”
“When we were little kids, Trevor and I decided to live a world of total make-believe. We got stuck with a bad script. Too much Dracula, not enough Disney.”
“You’re talking in code,” Trevor said to his sister. “As you’ve pointed out, Leo is one of God’s innocents, and I think we should let him remain so.”
“Might be a little too late for that,” Sheba said, winking at me and confirming my earlier intuition: that to Sheba, sex wasn’t ruled by notions of love and responsibility, and cast about with the shadow of the Stations of the Cross. To Sheba, sex was—and this was so bizarre that I could hardly fathom it—possibly a matter of fun. I was so astounded by the notion that I ducked my head underwater, where I thought even the fish might notice my blush.
When I rose to the air and the light, the particular magic of the tide’s flow, the slinking sunlight, the turquoise blue of the sky, and the magisterial silence of the marsh had put the twins in a prayerlike trance again. We did not have to move unless we came too near the shore or had to kick away from sandbars. We were tide-carried and tide-possessed.
Then Sheba said it again. “This is it. You’re right, Trevor. We’re in the middle of it, and it’s so nice to recognize it.”
“What’s it?” I cried out. “You keep talking about it, and I don’t know what in the hell either of you are talking about.”
Sheba said, “The perfect moment. Trevor and I have been looking for it our whole lives. We thought we had it before, but something always came along to ruin it.”
“Quiet,” Trevor remarked. “Don’t jinx it. This all could fall apart on us.”
“Last year we went out whale watching in Oregon. Our mother took us,” Sheba said. “We were just along for the ride, but then the whales started coming. The ocean seemed full of them. They were migrating north with their babies. Trevor and I looked at each other. We’d been so unhappy. But then we were in the front of the boat, just the two of us. We held hands and looked at each other, then back at the whales, and said, ‘This is it,’ at the same time.”
“That’s before our mother vomited. She said it was seasickness, but we knew it was bourbon,” Trevor said. “Needless to say, it did not turn out to be the perfect day. Didn’t even make the cut for the top ten.”
“Leo doesn’t need to hear this, Trevor,” Sheba said. “He’s had a perfect life. He’s so innocent.”
“Ah, you’re new in town,” I said. “Have you heard about my brother, Steve?”
“We thought you were an only child,” Trevor said.
“I am now. But let me tell you a little story. I had the nicest and best-looking brother in the world, and I thought the happiest. When I was nine, I found him in our bathtub after he’d slit his throat and wrists. I spent the next years talking to shrinks. I thought the sadness would kill me. It almost did. But I’m getting over it. Perfect life? I don’t think so, Sheba. And just so you know: I have zero friends my own age. Zero.”
Both twins reached over and touched me, Trevor grabbing my arm, and Sheba my hand.
“Two.” Sheba said it with emotion.
“You got two now,” Trevor said. “We can love you twice as well as anyone else because we’re twins.”
“Have you ever told another teenager about Steve?” Sheba asked.
“Not once,” I said. “But everyone in Charleston knows about it.”
Trevor said, “But we were the ones you chose to tell about it. It’s an honor, Leo.”
“A great honor,” Sheba agreed. “Let’s make room for Steve. Let’s invite him to float down the creek with us.”
She moved closer to me and so did Trevor. There was an empty space where my brother should have been.
“Steve,” I heard Sheba say. “Is that you, sweetheart?”
“Of course it’s him,” Trevor said. “How could he refuse an invitation to this party?”
“I don’t see him,” I said.
“You’ve got to feel him,” Sheba said, a patient instructor. “We’re going to teach you all about the pleasures of make-believe.”
“But you’ve got to believe in it too for us to make it real,” Trevor said. “Is it in you, Leo?”
“Then Steve knows it,” Sheba said quickly. “He’s the one who’s really nervous about this meeting. Speak to him.”
“Hey, Steve,” I said, my voice breaking. “God, I’ve missed you. No one ever needed a brother more than I did.”
Then I cracked like a pane of glass, and the twins broke with me. They cried to see me cry, as hard as I did. My tears mingled with the saltwater of the tides, until there were no more tears, and all the tides of sorrow had drained the marshes inside me dry. We floated in absolute silence for the next five minutes.
Then I said, “I ruined your perfect moment.”
“No, you didn’t,” Sheba said. “You added to it. You told us something true about yourself. That never happens.”
“You gave us a part of your self,” Trevor said. “Perfect doesn’t just mean happy. Perfect can have lots of different parts.”
“Do you know why I brought you to this dock today? Do you know why we’re floating toward Charleston Harbor right now?” I asked.
“No,” Sheba said. “Does Steve know this story? You’ve got to include him. We’ve taken you into our imaginary world, Leo. You’ve got to take it seriously.”
I looked over at the imaginary spot where my brother lived in the running-down exit of tides. “Steve, you’re going to love this story most of all.”
And I told the story of the summer my mother and father fell in love. The twins listened to the entire story without interrupting me once.
“Now, that’s a love story,” Trevor said, finally.
We came out of the creek into the slightly rougher waters of Charleston Harbor, still prisoners of a tide that grew in strength and power once we hit the waters of the Ashley River. The sun was beginning to set and the river turned citron-colored before it deepened into a full-bodied gold. Panic set in briefly when I did not see Father or any boat, then I spotted him waving. He had tied the Boston Whaler to a buoy and seemed to be fishing with great pleasure, probably in no hurry for us to float into the pickup zone. I think Father was so happy to see me spending time with kids my own age, he might have left us floating until midnight if not for the safety factor.
As the tides moved us swiftly toward the rendezvous with my father, I told the twins something I felt I
had to tell them, in spite of my resolve to keep it to myself. The day had been so special that I worried about spoiling it, but I didn’t think I had much choice.
“Sheba, Trevor,” I said with great tentativeness, “I don’t know how to say this. I’ve never spent a more wonderful day than today. But just yesterday, a man attacked me. It was in an alleyway. That’s how I got this black eye. He put a knife to my throat. He said he would kill me and my parents. He saw us together, Sheba, and knew that you’d spent the night at my house. He wore a mask. He painted one of those things on my face, just like the one on your door. I’ve never been so scared.”
“You just ruined it, Leo,” Sheba said coldly. “Ruined the perfect day.”
“That’s it. Puff. Gone, just like that,” Trevor said, turning away from me.
“I didn’t mean to spoil anything,” I said. “I’m worried about you two.”
“We can take care of each other,” Sheba said. “Always have, always will.”
My father started the engine and moved out toward the center of the river to meet us. He threw out an anchor, idled the engine, and pulled us aboard one at a time. For several hours, we had floated in the saltwater, and now it felt good to dry ourselves with the beach towels and slake our thirst with the iced-down Coca-Cola Father had brought in the coolers.
“Your mother drove me out to the plantation. I picked up the car and the clothes you left behind,” Father said, as he handed us paper bags full of our summer clothes and flip-flops. In silence, Trevor and I pulled off our bathing trunks and pulled on shorts and T-shirts. I could not have been sorrier that I had mentioned the man in the alley. I thought I had lost the friendship of the twins forever by my indiscretion, though I could not imagine what my real crime consisted of or why they had both seemed so repulsed by the revelation.
From the marina, we crossed Lockwood Boulevard and turned up Sinkler Street, where all of us lived. My father was still delighted and managed to sustain a conversation with both the twins. We walked them to their house, where we could see their mother watching television in the front room. When I told Sheba good-bye, she surprised me by hugging me and kissing me on the cheek. “It was a perfect day. I’ll explain it to Trevor. But it could not have been better.”