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  I turned and looked. A short roundish man with a mustache was trying to check in. “No,” I said. “That’s Dr. Onofrio.”

  “Oh, yes,” Abey said, consulting his program book. “He’s speaking tonight at the opening ceremonies. On the Heisenberg uncertainty principle. Are you going?”

  “I’m not sure,” I said, which was supposed to be a joke, but Abey didn’t laugh.

  “I must meet Dr. Gedanken. He’s just gotten funding for a new project.”

  I wondered what Dr. Gedanken’s new project was—I would have loved to work with him.

  “I’m hoping he’ll come to my workshop on the wonderful world of quantum physics,” Abey said, still watching the desk. Amazingly enough, Dr. Onofrio seemed to have gotten a key and was heading for the elevators. “I think his project has something to do with understanding quantum theory.”

  Well, that let me out. I didn’t understand quantum theory at all. I sometimes had a sneaking suspicion nobody else did, either, including Abey Fields, and that they just weren’t willing to admit it.

  I mean, an electron is a particle except it acts like a wave. In fact, a neutron acts like two waves and interferes with itself (or each other), and you can’t really measure any of this stuff properly because of the Heisenberg uncertainty principle, and that isn’t the worst of it. When you set up a Josephson junction to figure out what rules the electrons obey, they sneak past the barrier to the other side, and they don’t seem to care much about the limits of the speed of light, either, and Schrödinger’s cat is neither alive nor dead till you open the box, and it all makes about as much sense as Tiffany’s calling me Dr. Gedanken.

  Which reminded me, I had promised to call Darlene and give her our room number. I didn’t have a room number, but if I waited much longer, she’d have left. She was flying to Denver to speak at C.U. and then coming on to Hollywood sometime tomorrow morning. I interrupted Abey in the middle of his telling me how beautiful Racine was in the winter and went to call her.

  “I don’t have a room yet,” I said when she answered. “Should I leave a message on your answering machine, or do you want to give me your number in Denver?”

  “Never mind all that,” Darlene said. “Have you seen David yet?”

  To illustrate the problems of the concept of wave function, Dr. Schrödinger imagines a cat being put into a box with a piece of uranium, a bottle of poison gas, and a Geiger counter. If a uranium nucleus disintegrates while the cat is in the box, it will release radiation, which will set off the Geiger counter and break the bottle of poison gas. Since it is impossible in quantum theory to predict whether a uranium nucleus will disintegrate while the cat is in the box, and only possible to calculate uranium’s probable half-life, the cat is neither alive nor dead until we open the box.

  —FROM “THE WONDERFUL WORLD OF QUANTUM PHYSICS,” A SEMINAR PRESENTED AT THE ICQP ANNUAL MEETING BY A. FIELDS, PH.D., UNIVERSITY OF NEBRASKA AT WAHOO

  I completely forgot to warn Darlene about Tiffany, the model-slash-actress.

  “What do you mean, you’re trying to avoid David?” she had asked me at least three times. “Why would you do a stupid thing like that?”

  Because in St. Louis I ended up on a riverboat in the moonlight and didn’t make it back until the conference was over.

  “Because I want to attend the programming,” I said the third time around, “not a wax museum. I am a middle-aged woman.”

  “And David is a middle-aged man, who, I might add, is absolutely charming. In fact, he may be the last charming man left in the universe.”

  “Charm is for quarks,” I said and hung up, feeling smug until I remembered I hadn’t told her about Tiffany. I went back to the front desk, thinking maybe Dr. Onofrio’s success signaled a change.

  Tiffany asked, “May I help you?” and left me standing there.

  After a while I gave up and went back to the red and gold sofas. “David was here again,” Dr. Takumi said. “He said to tell you he was going to the wax museum.”

  “There are no wax museums in Racine,” Abey said.

  “What’s the programming for tonight?” I said, taking Abey’s program away from him.

  “There’s a mixer at six-thirty and the opening ceremonies in the ballroom and then some seminars.”

  I read the descriptions of the seminars. There was one on the Josephson junction. Electrons were able to somehow tunnel through an insulated barrier even though they didn’t have the required energy. Maybe I could somehow get a room without checking in.

  “If we were in Racine,” Abey said, looking at his watch, “we’d already be checked in and on our way to dinner.”

  Dr. Onofrio emerged from the elevator, still carrying his bags. He came over and sank down on the sofa next to Abey.

  “Did they give you a room with a semi-naked woman in it?” Dr. Whedbee asked.

  “I don’t know,” Dr. Onofrio said. “I couldn’t find it.” He looked sadly at the key. “They gave me 1282, but the room numbers only go up to seventy-five.”

  “I think I’ll attend the seminar on chaos,” I said.

  The most serious difficulty quantum theory faces today is not the inherent limitation of measurement capability or the EPR paradox. It is the lack of a paradigm. Quantum theory has no working model, no metaphor that properly defines it.

  —EXCERPT FROM DR. GEDANKEN’S KEYNOTE ADDRESS

  I got to my room at six, after a brief skirmish with the bellboy-slash-actor who couldn’t remember where he’d stored my suitcase, and unpacked.

  My clothes, which had been permanent press all the way from MIT, underwent a complete wave function collapse the moment I opened my suitcase, and came out looking like Schrödinger’s almost-dead cat.

  By the time I had called housekeeping for an iron, taken a bath, given up on the iron, and steamed a dress in the shower, I had missed the “Mixer with Munchies” and was half an hour late for Dr. Onofrio’s opening remarks.

  I opened the door to the ballroom as quietly as I could and slid inside. I had hoped they would be late getting started, but a man I didn’t recognize was already introducing the speaker. “—and an inspiration to all of us in the field.”

  I dived for the nearest chair and sat down.

  “Hi,” David said. “I’ve been looking all over for you. Where were you?”

  “Not at the wax museum,” I whispered.

  “You should have been,” he whispered back. “It was great. They had John Wayne, Elvis, and Tiffany the model-slash-actress with the brain of a pea-slash-amoeba.”

  “Shh,” I said.

  “—the person we’ve all been waiting to hear, Dr. Ringgit Dinari.”

  “What happened to Dr. Onofrio?” I asked.

  “Shh,” David said.

  Dr. Dinari looked a lot like Dr. Onofrio. She was short, roundish, and mustached, and was wearing a rainbow-striped caftan. “I will be your guide this evening into a strange new world,” she said, “a world where all that you thought you knew, all common sense, all accepted wisdom, must be discarded. A world where all the rules have changed and it sometimes seems there are no rules at all.”

  She sounded just like Dr. Onofrio, too. He had given this same speech two years ago in Cincinnati. I wondered if he had undergone some strange transformation during his search for room 1282 and was now a woman.

  “Before I go any farther,” Dr. Dinari said, “how many of you have already channeled?”

  Newtonian physics had as its model the machine. The metaphor of the machine, with its interrelated parts, its gears and wheels, its causes and effects, was what made it possible to think about Newtonian physics.

  —EXCERPT FROM DR. GEDANKEN’S KEYNOTE ADDRESS

  “You knew we were in the wrong place,” I hissed at David when we got out to the lobby.

  When we stood up to leave, Dr. Dinari had extended her pudgy hand in its rainbow-striped sleeve and called out in a voice a lot like Charlton Heston’s, “O Unbelievers! Leave not, for here only is reality
!”

  “Actually, channeling would explain a lot,” David said, grinning.

  “If the opening remarks aren’t in the ballroom, where are they?”

  “Beats me,” he said. “Want to go see the Capitol Records building? It’s shaped like a stack of LPs.”

  “I want to go to the opening remarks.”

  “The beacon on top blinks out ‘Hollywood’ in Morse code.”

  I went over to the front desk.

  “Can I help you?” the clerk behind the desk said. “My name is Natalie, and I’m an—”

  “Where is the ICQP meeting this evening?” I said.

  “They’re in the ballroom.”

  “I’ll bet you didn’t have any dinner,” David said. “I’ll buy you an ice cream cone. There’s this great place that has the ice cream cone Ryan O’Neal bought for Tatum in Paper Moon.”

  “A channeler’s in the ballroom,” I told Natalie. “I’m looking for the ICQP.”

  She fiddled with the computer. “I’m sorry. I don’t show a reservation for them.”

  “How about Grauman’s Chinese?” David said. “You want reality? You want Charlton Heston? You want to see quantum theory in action?”

  He grabbed my hands. “Come with me,” he said seriously.

  In St. Louis I had suffered a wave function collapse a lot like what had happened to my clothes when I opened the suitcase. I had ended up on a riverboat halfway to New Orleans that time. It happened again, and the next thing I knew I was walking around the courtyard of Grauman’s Chinese Theatre, eating an ice cream cone and trying to fit my feet in Myrna Loy’s footprints.

  She must have been a midget or had her feet bound as a child. So, apparently, had Debbie Reynolds, Dorothy Lamour, and Wallace Beery. The only footprints I came close to fitting were Donald Duck’s.

  “I see this as a map of the microcosm,” David said, sweeping his hand over the slightly irregular pavement of printed and signed cement squares. “See, there are all these tracks. We know something’s been here, and the prints are pretty much the same, only every once in a while you’ve got this”—he knelt down and pointed at the print of John Wayne’s clenched fist—“and over here”—he walked toward the box office and pointed to the print of Betty Grable’s leg. “And we can figure out the signatures, but what is this reference to ‘Sid’ on all these squares? And what does this mean?”

  He pointed at Red Skelton’s square. It said, “Thanks Sid We Dood It.”

  “You keep thinking you’ve found a pattern,” David said, crossing over to the other side, “but Van Johnson’s square is kind of sandwiched in here at an angle between Esther Williams and Cantinflas, and who the hell is May Robson? And why are all these squares over here empty?”

  He had managed to maneuver me over behind the display of Academy Award winners. It was an accordionlike wrought-iron screen. I was in the fold between 1944 and 1945.

  “And as if that isn’t enough, you suddenly realize you’re standing in the courtyard. You’re not even in the theater.”

  “And that’s what you think is happening in quantum theory?” I said weakly. I was backed up into Bing Crosby, who had won for Best Actor in Going My Way. “You think we’re not in the theater yet?”

  “I think we know as much about quantum theory as we can figure out about May Robson from her footprints,” he said, putting his hand up to Ingrid Bergman’s cheek (Best Actress, Gaslight) and blocking my escape. “I don’t think we understand anything about quantum theory, not tunneling, not complementarity.” He leaned toward me. “Not passion.”

  The best movie of 1945 was The Lost Weekend. “Dr. Gedanken understands it,” I said, disentangling myself from the Academy Award winners and David. “Did you know he’s putting together a new research team for a big project on understanding quantum theory?”

  “Yes,” David said. “Want to see a movie?”

  “There’s a seminar on chaos at nine,” I said, stepping over the Marx Brothers. “I have to get back.”

  “If it’s chaos you want, you should stay right here,” he said, stopping to look at Irene Dunne’s handprints. “We could see the movie and then go have dinner. There’s this place near Hollywood and Vine that has the mashed potatoes Richard Dreyfuss made into Devil’s Tower in Close Encounters.”

  “I want to meet Dr. Gedanken,” I said, making it safely to the side-walk. I looked back at David.

  He had gone back to the other side of the courtyard and was looking at Roy Rogers’s signature. “Are you kidding? He doesn’t understand it any better than we do.”

  “Well, at least he’s trying.”

  “So am I. The problem is, how can one neutron interfere with itself, and why are there only two of Trigger’s hoofprints here?”

  “It’s eight fifty-five,” I said. “I am going to the chaos seminar.”

  “If you can find it,” he said, getting down on one knee to look at the signature.

  “I’ll find it,” I said grimly.

  He stood up and grinned at me, his hands in his pockets. “It’s a great movie,” he said.

  It was happening again. I turned and practically ran across the street.

  “Benji IX is showing,” he shouted after me. “He accidentally exchanges bodies with a Siamese cat.”

  Thursday, 9–10 P.M. “The Science of Chaos.” I. Durcheinander, University of Leipzig. A seminar on the structure of chaos. Principles of chaos will be discussed, including the butterfly effect, fractals, and insolid billowing. Clara Bow Room.

  I couldn’t find the chaos seminar. The Clara Bow Room, where it was supposed to be, was empty. A meeting of vegetarians was next door in the Fatty Arbuckle Room, and all the other conference rooms were locked. The channeler was still in the ballroom. “Come!” she commanded when I opened the door. “Understanding awaits!”

  I went upstairs to bed.

  I had forgotten to call Darlene. She would have left for Denver already, but I called her answering machine and told it the room number in case she picked up her messages. In the morning I would have to tell the front desk to give her a key. I went to bed.

  I didn’t sleep well. The air conditioner went off during the night, which meant I didn’t have to steam my suit when I got up the next morning. I got dressed and went downstairs.

  The programming started at nine o’clock with Abey Fields’s Wonderful World workshop in the Mary Pickford Room, a breakfast buffet in the ballroom, and a slide presentation on “Delayed Choice Experiments” in Cecil B. DeMille A on the mezzanine level.

  The breakfast buffet sounded wonderful, even though it always turns out to be urn coffee and donuts. I hadn’t had anything but an ice cream cone since noon the day before, but if David were around, he would be somewhere close to the food, and I wanted to steer clear of him. Last night it had been Grauman’s Chinese. Today I was likely to end up at Knott’s Berry Farm. I wasn’t going to let that happen, even if he was charming.

  It was pitch-dark inside Cecil B. DeMille A. Even the slide on the screen up front appeared to be black. “As you can see,” Dr. Lvov said, “the laser pulse is already in motion before the experimenter sets up the wave or particle detector.”

  He clicked to the next slide, which was dark gray. “We used a Mach-Zender interferometer with two mirrors and a particle detector. For the first series of tries we allowed the experimenter to decide which apparatus he would use by whatever method he wished. For the second series, we used that most primitive of randomizers—”

  He clicked again, to a white slide with black polka dots that gave off enough light for me to be able to spot an empty chair on the aisle ten rows up. I hurried to get to it before the slide changed, and sat down.

  “—a pair of dice. Alley’s experiments had shown us that when the particle detector was in place, the light was detected as a particle, and when the wave detector was in place, the light showed wavelike behavior, no matter when the choice of apparatus was made.”

  “Hi,” David said. “You’ve mis
sed five black slides, two gray ones, and a white with black polka dots.”

  “Shh,” I said.

  “In our two series, we hoped to ascertain whether the consciousness of the decision affected the outcome.” Dr. Lvov clicked to another black slide. “As you can see, the graph shows no effective difference between the tries in which the experimenter chose the detection apparatus and those in which the apparatus was randomly chosen.”

  “You want to go get some breakfast?” David whispered.

  “I already ate,” I whispered back, and waited for my stomach to growl and give me away. It did.

  “There’s a great place down near Hollywood and Vine that has the waffles Katharine Hepburn made for Spencer Tracy in Woman of the Year.”

  “Shh,” I said.

  “And after breakfast, we could go to Frederick’s of Hollywood and see the bra museum.”

  “Will you please be quiet? I can’t hear.”

  “Or see,” he said, but he subsided more or less for the remaining ninety-two black, gray, and polka-dotted slides.

  Dr. Lvov turned on the lights and blinked smilingly at the audience. “Consciousness had no discernible effect on the results of the experiment. As one of my lab assistants put it, ‘The little devil knows what you’re going to do before you know it yourself.’”

  This was apparently supposed to be a joke, but I didn’t think it was very funny. I opened my program and tried to find something to go to that David wouldn’t be caught dead at.

  “Are you two going to breakfast?” Dr. Thibodeaux asked.

  “Yes,” David said.

  “No,” I said.

  “Dr. Hotard and I wished to eat somewhere that is vraiment Hollywood.”

  “David knows just the place,” I said. “He’s been telling me about this great place where they have the grapefruit James Cagney shoved in Mae Clarke’s face in Public Enemy.”