Natalie had taken nothing from the bungalow except for the hijab, which was wrapped around her neck like a scarf. She was gazing at the sun, low over Mount Carmel, and listening intently to the news on the radio. There had been another stabbing, another fatality, this time in the Roman ruins at Caesarea. The perpetrator was an Israeli Arab from a village located inside the heavily Palestinian corner of the country known as the Triangle. He would be receiving no urgent care from the doctors at Hadassah; an Israeli soldier had shot him dead. In Ramallah and Jericho there was jubilation. Another martyr, another dead Jew. God is great. Soon Palestine will be free again.
Ten miles south of Caesarea was Netanya. New apartment towers, white and balconied, rose from the dunes and cliff tops along the edge of the Mediterranean, conferring upon the city an outward air of Rivieran opulence. The interior quarters, however, retained the khaki Bauhaus grit of pioneer Israel. Dina found a space on the street outside the Park Hotel, where a Hamas suicide bomber murdered thirty people during Passover in 2002, and walked with Natalie to Independence Square. A squadron of young boys played a game of tag around the fountain, watched over by women in ankle-length skirts and headscarves. The women, like the children, were speaking French. So were the habitués of the cafés along the edge of the esplanade. Usually, they were overrun in late afternoon, but now, in the fading tawny light, there were plenty of tables to be had. Soldiers and police kept watch. The fear, thought Dina, was palpable.
“Do you see them?”
“There,” replied Natalie, pointing across the square. “They’re at their usual table at Chez Claude.” It was one of several new establishments that catered to Netanya’s growing French-Jewish community. “Would you like to meet them? They’re really quite lovely.”
“You go. I’ll wait here.”
Dina sat on a bench at the edge of the fountain and watched Natalie moving across the esplanade, the ends of the blue hijab dancing like pennants against her white blouse. Blue and white, observed Dina. How wonderfully Israeli. Unconsciously, she rubbed her damaged leg. It pained her at the damnedest times—when she was tired, when she was under stress, or, she thought, watching Natalie, when she regretted her behavior.
Natalie walked a straight line to the café. Her father, lean, gray, and very dark from the sea and the sun, looked up first, surprised to see his daughter coming toward him across the paving stones of the square, dressed as an Israeli flag. He placed a hand on his wife’s arm and nodded in Natalie’s direction, and a smile spread over the old woman’s noble face. It was Natalie’s face, thought Dina, Natalie in thirty years. Would Israel survive another thirty years? Would Natalie?
Natalie swerved from her path, but only to avoid a child, a girl of seven or eight, chasing down a stray ball. Then she kissed her parents in the French fashion, on each cheek, and sat down in one of the two empty chairs. It was the chair that, perhaps not coincidentally, presented Dina with her back. Dina watched the older woman’s face. Her smile evaporated as Natalie recited the words Gabriel had composed for her. I’m going to be away for a while. It’s important you not try to contact me. If anyone asks, say I’m doing some important research and can’t be disturbed. No, I can’t tell you what it’s about, but someone from the government will be coming around to check on you. Yes, I’ll be safe.
The stray ball was now bounding toward Dina. She captured it beneath her foot and with a flick of her ankle sent it back toward the girl of seven or eight, a small act of kindness that sent a stab of pain down her leg. She ignored it, for Natalie was again kissing the cheeks of her parents, this time in farewell. As she crossed the square, the setting sun on her face, the blue scarf fluttering in the breeze, a single tear streaked her face. Natalie was beautiful, observed Dina, even when she was crying. She rose and followed her back to the car, which was parked outside the crumbling hotel where thirty had died on a sacred night. It’s what we do, Dina told herself as she shoved the key into the ignition. It’s who we are. It’s the only way we are going to survive in this land. It is our punishment for having survived.
PART TWO
ONE OF US
21
NAHALAL, ISRAEL
NEXT MORNING THE STAFF OF Hadassah Medical Center was informed via e-mail that Dr. Natalie Mizrahi would be taking an extended leave of absence. The announcement was thirty words in length and a masterpiece of bureaucratic murk. No reason was given for the sabbatical, no date of return was mentioned. This left the staff with no option but to speculate about the reasons for Natalie’s sudden departure, a pursuit they engaged in freely, for it gave them something to talk about other than the stabbings. There were rumors of a serious illness, rumors of an emotional breakdown, rumors of a homesick return to France. After all, said one sage from cardiology, why in the world would anyone with a French passport actually choose to live in Israel at a time like this? Ayelet Malkin, who considered herself Natalie’s closest friend at the hospital, found all these theories inadequate. She knew Natalie to be of sound mind and body and had heard her speak many times of her relief to be in Israel, where she could live as a Jew without fear of assault or rebuke. Moreover, she had worked a twenty-four-hour shift with Natalie that week, and the two women had shared a gossipy dinner during which Natalie made no mention of any pending leave of absence. She thought the entire thing reeked of official mischief. Like many Israelis, Ayelet had a relative, an uncle, who was involved in secret government work. He came and went without warning and never spoke of his job or his travels. Ayelet decided that Natalie, fluent in three languages, had been recruited as a spy. Or perhaps, she thought, she had always been one.
While Ayelet had stumbled upon something resembling the truth, she was not technically correct, as Natalie was to learn on her first full day in Nahalal. She was not going to be a spy. Spies, she was told, are human sources who are recruited to spy against their own intelligence service, government, terrorist organization, international body, or commercial enterprise. Sometimes they spied for money, sometimes for sex or respect, and sometimes they spied because they were coerced, owing to some blemish in their personal life. In Natalie’s case, there was no coercion, only persuasion. She was from that point forward a special employee of the Office. As such, she would be governed by the same rules and strictures that applied to all those who worked directly for the service. She could not divulge secrets to foreign governments. She could not write a memoir about her work without approval. She could not discuss that work with anyone outside the Office, including members of her family. Her employment was to commence immediately and would terminate upon the completion of her mission. However, if Natalie wished to remain with the Office, suitable work would be found for her. A sum of five hundred thousand shekels was placed in a bank account bearing her real name. In addition, she would be paid the equivalent of her monthly salary from Hadassah. An Office courier would look after her apartment during her absence. In the event of her death, two million shekels would be paid to her parents.
The paperwork, briefings, and stern warnings consumed the entire first day. On the second her formal education commenced. She felt rather like a graduate student in a private university of one. In the mornings, immediately following breakfast, she learned techniques for replacing her own identity with an assumed one—tradecraft, they called it. After a light lunch she embarked on Palestinian studies, followed by Islamic and jihadist studies. No one ever referred to her as Natalie. She was Leila, no family name, only Leila. The instructors spoke to her only in Arabic and referred to themselves as Abdul, Muhammad, or Ahmed. One two-person team of briefers called themselves Abdul and Abdul. Natalie called them Double-A for short.
The last hour of daylight was Natalie’s exclusively. With her head spinning with Islam and jihad, she would set out for training runs along the dusty farm roads. She was never permitted to go alone; two armed security guards followed her always in a dark-green ATV. Often she returned to the house to find Gabriel waiting, and they would walk a mile or two through
the perfumed twilight of the valley. His Arabic was not sufficiently fluent for prolonged conversation, so he addressed her in French. He spoke to her about her training and her studies but never about his childhood in the valley or its remarkable history. As far as Leila was concerned, the valley represented an act of colonial theft and dispossession. “Look at it,” he would say, pointing toward the Arab village on the hillock. “Imagine how they must feel when they see the accomplishments of the Jews. Imagine their anger. Imagine their shame. It is your anger, Leila. It is your shame.”
As her training progressed, she learned techniques for determining whether she was being followed. Or whether her flat or office was bugged. Or whether the person she assumed to be her best friend, or her lover, was in fact her worst enemy. The teaching team of Abdul and Abdul instructed her to assume she was being followed, observed, and listened to at all times. This was not a problem, they said, so long as she remained faithful to her cover. A proper cover was like a shield. The typical undercover Office field agent spent far more time maintaining his cover than actually gathering intelligence. Cover, they told her, was everything.
During the second week at the farm, her Palestinian studies took a decidedly harder turn. The entire Zionist enterprise, she was told, was based upon a myth—the myth that Palestine was a land without a people waiting for a people without a land. In fact, in 1881, the year before the first Zionist settlers arrived, the population of Palestine was 475,000. The vast majority were Muslim and were concentrated in the Judean Hills, the Galilee, and the other portions of the land that were then habitable. Roughly that same number of people were driven into exile during al-Nakba, the catastrophe of Israel’s founding in 1948. And still another wave fled their villages in the West Bank after the Zionist conquest of 1967. They languished in the refugee camps—Khan Yunis, Shatila, Ein al-Hilweh, Yarmouk, Balata, Jenin, Tulkarm, and dozens more—and dreamed of their olive groves and lemon trees. Many kept the deeds to property and homes. Some even carried keys to front doors. This unhealed wound was the seedbed of the Arab world’s grief. The wars, the suffering, the lack of economic progress, the despotism—all this was the fault of Israel.
“Spare me,” groaned Natalie.
“Who said this?” demanded one of the Abduls, a cadaverous-looking creature, pale as milk, who was never without a cigarette or a cup of tea. “Was it Natalie or was it Leila? Because Leila does not question these assertions. Leila knows in her bones they are true. Leila drank it with her mother’s milk. Leila heard it from the lips of her kin. Leila believes the Jews to be descendants of apes and pigs. She knows they use the blood of Palestinian children to make their matzo. She thinks they are an intrinsically evil people, children of the devil.”
Her Islamic studies grew more rigid, too. After completing a crash course in the basics of ritual and belief, Natalie’s instructors immersed her in the concepts of Islamism and jihad. She read Sayyid Qutb, the dissident Egyptian writer regarded as the founder of modern Islamism, and slogged her way through Ibn Taymiyyah, the thirteenth-century Islamic theologian who, according to many experts in the field, was the wellspring for it all. She read Bin Laden and Zawahiri and listened to hours of sermons by a Yemeni-American cleric who had been killed in a drone strike. She watched videos of roadside bombings of American forces in Iraq and surfed some of the more salacious Islamic Web sites, which her instructors referred to as jihadi porn. Before switching off her bedside lamp at night, she always read a few lines of Mahmoud Darwish. My roots were entrenched before the birth of time . . . In dreams she walked through an Eden of olive groves and lemon trees.
The technique was something akin to brainwashing, and slowly it began to work. Natalie packed away her old identity and life and became Leila. She did not know her family name; her legend, as they called it, would be given to her last, after a proper foundation had been poured and a frame constructed. In word and deed, she became more pious, more outwardly Islamic. In the evenings, when she ran along the dusty farm roads, she covered her arms and legs. And whenever her instructors were talking about Palestine or Islam, she wore her hijab. She experimented with several different ways of securing it but settled on a simple two-pin method that showed no hair. She thought she looked pretty in the hijab, but didn’t like the way it focused attention on her nose and mouth. A partial facial veil would solve the problem, but it wasn’t consistent with Leila’s profile. Leila was an educated woman, a doctor, caught between East and West, present and past. She walked a tightrope that stretched between the House of Islam and the House of War, that part of the world where the faith was not yet dominant. Leila was conflicted. She was an impressionable girl.
They taught her the basics of martial arts but nothing of guns, for knowledge of weaponry didn’t fit Leila’s profile, either. Then, three weeks into her stay at the farm, they dressed her from head to toe as a Muslim woman and took her for a heavily guarded test drive in Tayibe, the largest Arab city in the so-called Triangle. Next she visited Ramallah, the seat of Palestinian authority in the West Bank, and a few days later, and on a warm Friday in mid-May, she attended Friday prayer services at the al-Aqsa Mosque in the Old City of Jerusalem. It was a tense day—the Israelis forbade young men from entering the Noble Sanctuary—and afterward there was a violent protest. Natalie briefly became separated from her undercover security guards. Eventually, they dragged her, choking on tear gas, into the back of a car and spirited her back to the farm.
“How did it make you feel?” asked Gabriel that evening, as they walked through the cool evening air of the valley. By then, Natalie was no longer running, for running didn’t fit Leila’s profile, either.
“It made me angry,” she said without hesitation.
“At whom?”
“The Israelis, of course.”
“Good,” he replied. “That’s why I did it.”
“Did what?”
“Provoked a demonstration in the Old City for your benefit.”
“You did that?”
“Trust me, Natalie. It really wasn’t that difficult.”
He didn’t come to Nahalal the next day or for five days after that. Only later would Natalie learn that he had been in Paris and Amman preparing for her introduction into the field—operational spadework, he called it. When finally he returned to the farm it was at noon on a warm and breezy Thursday, as Natalie was becoming acquainted with some of the unique features of her new mobile phone. He informed her that they were going to take another field trip, just the two of them, and instructed her to dress as Leila. She chose a green hijab with embroidered edges, a white blouse that concealed the shape of her breasts and hips, and long pants that left only the insteps of her feet visible. Her pumps were Bruno Magli. Leila, it seemed, had a soft spot for Italian footwear.
“Where are we going?”
“North,” was all he said.
“No bodyguards.”
“Not today,” he answered. “Today I am free.”
The car was a rather ordinary Korean sedan, which he drove very fast and with an uncharacteristic abandon.
“You seem to be enjoying yourself,” observed Natalie.
“It’s been a long time since I’ve been behind the wheel of a car. The world looks different from the backseat of an armored SUV.”
“How so?”
“I’m afraid that’s classified.”
“But I’m one of you now.”
“Not quite,” he answered, “but we’re getting close.”
They were the last words he spoke for several minutes. Natalie slipped on a pair of stylish sunglasses and watched a sepia-toned version of Acre slide past her window. A few miles to the north was Lohamei HaGeta’ot, a kibbutz founded by survivors of the Warsaw Ghetto uprising. It was a tidy little farming community of neat houses, green lawns, and regular streets lined with cypress. The sight of an obviously Israeli man driving a car in which a veiled woman was the sole passenger elicited glances of only mild curiosity.
“What’s that
?” asked Natalie, pointing toward a white conical structure rising above the rooftops of the kibbutz.
“It’s called Yad Layeled. It’s a memorial for the children killed in the Holocaust.” There was a curious note of detachment in his voice. “But that’s not why we’re here. We’re here to see something much more important.”
“What’s that?”
“Your home.”
He drove to a shopping center just north of the kibbutz and parked in a distant corner of the lot.
“How charming,” said Natalie.
“This isn’t it.” He pointed toward a patch of uncultivated land between the car park and Highway 4. “Your home is out there, Leila. The home that was stolen from you by the Jews.”
He climbed out of the car without another word and led Natalie across a service road, into a field of weeds and prickly pear and broken blocks of limestone. “Welcome to Sumayriyya, Leila.” He turned to face her. “Say it for me, please. Say it as though it is the most beautiful word you’ve ever heard. Say it as though it is the name of your mother.”
“Sumayriyya,” she repeated.
“Very good.” He turned and watched the traffic rushing along the highway. “In May 1948 there were eight hundred people living here, all Muslims.” He pointed toward the arches of an ancient aqueduct, largely intact, running along the edge of a field of soy. “That was theirs. It carried water from the springs and irrigated the fields that produced the sweetest melons and bananas in the Galilee. They buried their dead over there,” he added, swinging his arm to the left. “And they prayed to Allah here”—he placed his hand on the ruins of an arched doorway—“in the mosque. They were your ancestors, Leila. This is who you are.”