“But remember: to be forgiven, you have to believe in the possibility of forgiveness. You have to ask for it, and it will be given. Do you understand?”
I nodded. My eyes were hot. I dredged up the words from my childhood, from dark confessionals inhabited by unseen priests and a God who was terrible in His mercy.
“Bless me, Father, for I have sinned . . .”
And the words spilled out of me like a cancer given form, a torrent of sins and regrets purging themselves from my body. And in time, I heard two words in return, and Bartek’s face was close to mine as he whispered them in my ear.
“Te absolvo,” he said. “Do you hear me? You are absolved.”
I heard him, but I could not believe.
V
Through these years I’ve seen days that I won’t miss at all,
But then God knows I’ve been as high as the sun.
Through it all you kept me warm,
holding on to my hand,
but now you’re on your own.
Pinetop Seven, “Tennessee Pride”
Epilogue
The days fall like leaves. All is quiet now.
The marsh grass is blackened, and when the wind blows from the southeast it carries with it the smell of smoke. Someone found the charred body of a mute swan floating in the water, and the burned remains of shrews and hares have been discovered in the charred undergrowth. The dog no longer likes to venture where the fire burned, and so the twin boundaries of his world are represented by events from the recent past: flames rising where no flames should have been, and a deformed man drowning slowly in a pool of bloodied water as a pregnant woman watches him die.
I traced the young prostitute named Ellen to Tenth Avenue, just a couple of blocks from Times Square. After the death of G-Mack, I heard that she’d been taken under the wing of a new pimp, a middle-aged serial abuser of women and children who called himself Poppa Bobby, and liked his girls to call him Poppa or Daddy. It was after midnight, and I watched single men hover around the street girls like hawks circling wounded prey. Natives drifted past the hookers, by now immune to such sights, while late-night tourists darted uneasy looks at them, the glances of the men perhaps lingering for a moment too long before returning to the street ahead or the faces of their partners, a little moisture falling softly and secretly upon the seeds of their discontent.
Ellen was different now. Before, she had maintained a veneer of toughness, and had carried herself with a confidence that, if she did not actually feel it in reality, was still a sufficiently strong counterfeit of the original to enable her to live the life that had been forced upon her. But now as I watched her stand on the corner, a cigarette in her right hand, she looked lost and fragile. Something had broken within her, and she appeared even younger than she was. I imagined that would have suited Poppa Bobby just fine, as he could then sell her to men with such tastes as a fourteen-or fifteen-year-old, and they would inflict themselves upon her with greater ferocity as a result.
I could see Poppa Bobby about halfway down the block, leaning against the window of a convenience store, pretending to read a newspaper. Like most of the pimps, he kept his distance from the women under him. When a john approached one of his “team”, as he called them, the girl would usually commence walking toward Bobby, in part so as not to attract the attention of any curious cops who might be watching by carrying on a conversation with a stranger at a street corner, but also to allow the pimp to fall in behind, maybe eavesdrop on the negotiations to make sure the girl wasn’t trying to rip him off. Whenever possible, Bobby preferred to have nothing to do with the clients themselves. It made them uneasy, he knew, to deal with a man, shattering whatever illusions they might have had about the transaction in which they were engaged. In addition, if the john turned out to be an undercover cop, then there was nothing to connect Bobby to the girl.
I watched a man casing Ellen from the subway entrance. He was small and pale, with a Dodgers cap pressed down low on his head. The cap failed to hide his eyes, instead causing the hunger in them to shine more brightly in the shadow of its peak. His right hand worried relentlessly at a small silver cross that dangled from a leather strap on his left wrist: a misguided offering from a priest or a therapist, perhaps, so that when he felt the urge upon him he could touch it and derive from it the strength to resist his appetites, except the touching of the cross had instead become an element of his preparations, the icon an extension of his sexuality, each stroke ratcheting his excitement up a notch so that sex and worship became inextricably bound together in a single act of transgression.
Eventually he decided to make a move on her, but I slipped past him and got to her first. He seemed about to say something, but I raised a finger to him in warning and, reluctantly, he backed away, melting into the crowds until he could find another outlet for his cravings.
Unseen by him, a dark figure detached itself from a wall and followed him.
It took Ellen a moment to recognize me. When she did, she tried to move around me, hoping to attract Poppa Bobby’s attention. Unfortunately, Poppa Bobby was otherwise engaged. He was sandwiched between two large Italian-Americans, one of whom had a big gun pressed into Poppa Bobby’s side. Tony Fulci was laughing. His arm was draped around Bobby’s shoulder, and he had clearly just told Bobby to laugh along with him, because Bobby’s mouth split reluctantly like a dropped orange. Tony’s brother Paulie was behind the two men, with his right hand in the pocket of his leather jacket and his left clenched by his side, forming a fist like the business end of a sledgehammer. They led Bobby to a dirty white van, its motor running. Jackie Garner was sitting in the driver’s seat. He nodded to me, barely perceptibly, before Bobby was hustled into the back and the van pulled away.
“Where are they taking him?” said Ellen.
“It doesn’t matter.”
“Will he be back?”
“No.”
She looked distraught.
“What am I gonna do without him? I got no money, no place to go.”
Her teeth worried at her lower lip. I thought she was about to cry.
“Your name is Jennifer Fleming,” I said. “You come from Spokane, and you’re seventeen years old. Your mother reported you missing six months ago. Her boyfriend has since been charged with assault, possession of a controlled substance with intent to supply, and sexual abuse of a minor based upon photographs found in the apartment he shared with your mom. The photographs were dated. You were fifteen when they were taken. Your mom claims that she didn’t know it was going on. Is that true?”
Jennifer was crying now. She nodded.
“You don’t have to go home yet, if you don’t want to. I know a woman who runs a shelter upstate. It’s pretty, and you’ll have some time to think. You’ll have your own room, and there are green fields and woods to walk in. If you like, your mom can come visit you and you can talk about stuff, but you don’t have to see her until you’re ready.”
I didn’t know what to expect from her. She could have walked away, and found shelter with some of the older women. After all, she had no reason to trust me. Men like G-Mack and Poppa Bobby had probably offered her protection too, and extracted a heavy price in return.
But she didn’t walk away. She dried her tears with the back of her hand, and suddenly she was just a lost girl. The woman she had been forced to become disappeared entirely, and the child that she still was took her place.
“Can we go now?” she said.
“Yes, we can go now.”
Her eyes moved sideways, looking past me. I turned to see two men approaching. One was skinny and black, with gold chains at his wrist and neck. The other was a fat white man wearing a red padded jacket and worn sneakers.
“Fuck you doing?” said the white guy. “Where’s Bobby at?”
“Look over your shoulder,” I said.
“What?”
“You heard me: look over your shoulder.”
He did. It was a quick movement, like a dog s
napping at a fly. Over by the subway, barely ten feet from us, Angel stood watching. Louis was just rejoining him. He dropped something into a trash can as he walked. It looked like a Dodgers cap.
Angel waved. Tubby tapped his buddy on the shoulder and the slim black man turned to see what the problem was.
“Shit,” he said.
“If you don’t walk away now, those men will kill you.”
They exchanged a look.
“I never did like Bobby anyway,” said the white guy.
“Who’s Bobby?” said the black guy.
They walked away and I left with Jennifer, Angel and Louis staying with us until we had retrieved my car from the parking garage. We drove northwest beneath starless skies. Jennifer slept for part of the journey, then found a station that she liked on the radio. Emmylou Harris was singing Lennon and McCartney’s “Here, There and Everywhere”, one of those cover versions that most people had never heard but that most people should.
“Is this okay?” she said.
“It’s fine.”
“I like the Beatles. Their version is better, but this is good too. It’s sadder.”
“Sometimes sad is good.”
“Are you married?” she asked suddenly.
“No.”
“Got a girlfriend?”
I wasn’t sure how to answer.
“I used to, but not any more. I have a little girl, though. I had another daughter once, but she died. Her name was Jennifer too.”
“Was that why you came back for me, because we have the same name?”
She thought about the question. “If it was, would that be enough?”
“I guess. What will happen to Poppa Bobby?”
I didn’t answer.
“Oh,” she said, and she said nothing else for a time. Then: “I was there, y’know, the night G-Mack got killed. That wasn’t his real name. His real name was Tyrone.”
We were driving along the highway now, away from the interstate. There was little traffic. Ahead of us, red lights ascended into the air like fireflies as a distant car scaled a dark, unseen hill.
“I didn’t see the man who killed him,” she said. “I left before the police came. I didn’t want any trouble. They found me, though, and they asked me about that night, but I told them that I wasn’t with him when he died.”
She stared out the window. Her face was reflected in the glass.
“I can keep a secret, is what I’m saying,” she said. “I won’t tell. I didn’t see the man who killed Tyrone, but I heard what he said before he pulled the trigger.”
She didn’t turn her face away from the glass.
“I won’t tell anyone else,” she said. “Just so you know, I won’t ever tell another soul.”
“What did he say?” I asked.
“He said, ‘She was blood to me.’”
There are still boxes in the hallway, and clothes on the chairs. Some of them are Rachel’s, some are Sam’s. They buried Ellis Chambers’s son Neil today, but I did not attend the funeral. We save those whom we can save. That is what I tell myself.
The house is so very quiet.
Earlier, I walked down to the seashore. The wind was coming from the east, but I felt a warm breeze on my face when I looked inland, and I heard voices whisper to me in passing as the sea called to them, welcoming them into its depths, and I closed my eyes and let them wash over me, their touch like silk upon me and their grace momentarily resonating in some deep part of me before it dissipated and was gone. I looked up but there were no stars, no moon, no light.
And in the darkness beyond night, Brightwell waits.
I have been sleeping, seated in a wicker chair on the gallery, wrapped in a blanket. Despite the cold, I do not want to be inside, lying in the bed where, so recently, she too once lay, looking at the empty reminders of our life together. Now something has awoken me. The house is no longer silent. There is a creak from a kitchen chair. A door closes. I hear what might be footsteps, and the laughter of a child.
We told you that she would go away.
It was my decision. I will add no more names to the palimpsest of the heart. I will make reparation, and I will be forgiven my sins.
The wind chime in the hallway casts its song into the still, dark night, and I feel a presence approach.
But we will never leave.
All is well, all is well.
Acknowledgments
Much of the historical detail is this novel is based on fact, and the monasteries mentioned are all real. In particular, the ossuary at Sedlec is much as I have described it, although far more impressive visually than I could convey in words. Anyone interested can pay a virtual visit through my website (www.johnconnollybooks.com) but if you are lucky enough to find yourself in the Czech Republic, then Sedlec is worth a trip. I would like to express my thanks to the staff at the ossuary, to Vladímira Saiverová and Jarmila Palasová at the Philip Morris company, and to my Czech guide Marcela Kršková for their kindness and assistance in researching the Sedlec sections of this book. I am also grateful to the wonderful Luis Urrea, author of The Devil’s Highway, for his help with matters of translation. As always, any mistakes are my fault, not theirs.
Finally, I would like to thank Sue Fletcher, my editor at Hodder & Stoughton, and Emily Bestler, my editor at Atria, for their kindness, advice, and support. Thanks also to Swati Gamble, Kerry Hood, Lucy Hale, Sarah Branham, Judith Curr, Louise Burke, and all the staff at both publishing houses who have done so much for my books; to Chuck Antony; to Darley Anderson and his staff, for looking out for me; to Heidi Mack, my wonderful web maven; to my mother and Brian; and to Jennie, Cameron, and Alistair for, well, you know . . .
The following books and articles proved useful in my research:
Books
Altová, Blanka — Sedlec Cistercian Monastery (Hora, 2001)
Aries, Philip — The Hour of Our Death (Knopf, 1981); Western Attitudes toward Death (Marion Boyers, 1976)
Binski, Paul — Medieval Death: Ritual and Representation (British Museum Press, 1996)
Chlíbec, Horyna, Jirásek, Novák, Pinkava — Memento Mori (Torst, 1998)
Goodrick-Clarke, Nicholas — The Occult Roots of Nazism (Tauris Parke, 2004)
Heald, David and Kinder, Terry L. — Architecture of Silence: Cistercian Abbeys of France (Harry N. Abrams, 2000)
Henry, Mark R. — The US Army in World War II (Osprey, 2001)
Leroux-Dhuys, Jean-François — Cistercian Abbeys: History and Architecture (Könemann, 1998)
Levenda, Peter — Unholy Alliance (Continuum, 2003)
Link, Luther — The Devil (Reaktion, 1995)
Pagels, Elaine — The Origins of Satan (Allen Lane, 1995)
Prophet, Elizabeth Clare — Fallen Angels and the Origins of Evil (Summit University Press, 2000)
Tice, Paul (and Fra Poggius) — Hus the Heretic (The Book Tree, 2003)
Tobin, Stephen — The Cistercians: Monks and Monasteries of Europe (The Herbert Press, 1995)
Articles
Duffy, Peter — “Blitzkrieg Cabbie” (New York Press,
March 24–30, 2004)
Gray, Jeffrey — “Code of Quiet” (Village Voice, June 25, 2002)
Prout, Jade — “Mayhem & the Maine-iac” (The Portland Phoenix, March 26, 2004)
Thompson, Ginger — “On Mexico’s Mean Streets, The Sinners Have a Saint” (The New York Times, March 26, 2004)
THE UNQUIET
John Connolly
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CONTENTS
The Unquiet
Copyright
Dedication
Part I
Prologue
Old Orchard Beach, Maine, 1986
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Part II
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Chapter 10
Chapter 11
Chapter 12
Chapter 13
Chapter 14
Part III
Chapter 15
Chapter 16
Chapter 17
Chapter 18
Chapter 19
Chapter 20
Chapter 21
Chapter 22
Chapter 23
Chapter 24
Chapter 25
Part IV
Chapter 26
Chapter 27
Chapter 28
Chapter 29
Part V
Chapter 30
Chapter 31
Chapter 32
Chapter 33
Chapter 34
Chapter 35
Part VI
Chapter 36
Chapter 37
Part VII
Epilogue
Acknowledgments