Adam decided that if we had grew up in the same town all our lives, that we would have been double trouble long before the paint war. I like the idea of that, the two of us as little kids causing trouble. It's nice not always going to the same person to talk to or hang out with. Don't get me wrong, Brianna's the greatest, but she has her own life and we already know each other so well. There are few stories to exchange anymore. Besides, she likes Adam too, they crack each other up.
He didn't ask about Ian, which is good, because I think I just might have cried. Even now my eyes are stinging. Despite what you may think, even if you're the one breaking their heart, you can still be upset and sad. And then spend the next week moping around the house. He was my first boyfriend after all. Ah damn now I am crying. Shit the ink's beginning to smear, have to stop for now.
Oh now it's raining. Ugh. I think I'm going to take a nap, and get lost in my dreams. Anything that keeps me from thinking right now.
Chapter 48
Ah Halloween, a holiday where taking candy from a stranger is acceptable. I'm spending my night passing out candy for mom, who is still in the bathroom I think. Nothing's been sitting well with her stomach lately, except for the occasional apple or pint of ice cream. But for the most part it's just coming back up. Not that it bothers her that much. She's been calm so far, which leaves me to wonder when that will stop. Not the most exciting night for either of us.
I have so far ate at least three fun size candy bars. And we're almost out. Hopefully no one riots. Those little kids can get mean when they want candy. At least when the nights over I can rest, here of course, because I don't really want to walk home in the dark. Been a while since I've been in my old bedroom. There is the doorbell, more trick or treaters.
Chapter 49
November already, and this time I was just too busy to write, which is why it's the first day of thanksgiving break. Which I've been waiting for, it seems like there's been twice the work this school year. Or maybe I just payed better attention last time. That could be it too. I must admit that I am sick of seeing Hannah and Brianna's cutesy displays of affection. This has nothing to do with me being single, I swear. You just don't notice it as much when they're not together for a week straight.
A lot of things have occurred in the past couple of weeks. Where should I start with this list? Hmm well...
Oh I know, Cindy and I have formed this strange new relationship. We talk from time to time, and it's never anything insulting. Weird, but she has changed some over these past couple months, and is not the evil butt munch she once was. We do have a few things in common, like books and songs.
Mom sold the house after buying the one on the other side of Adams house. Apparently the people in this neighborhood are just in a hurry to move far far away. So far it looks nice on the inside, she's an interior decorator, so it's always going to look good. Dan, her boyfriend, and I painted all the rooms on weekends when we had the time. Quite the bonding moment, he's really nice and cares a great deal for her.
The final piece of interesting news is that I'm moving in with her. It's time that I live with my parents again, or at least one of them. And dad's enjoying the single life. We talk each week now, so it's not like I don't have anything to do with him anymore. Besides mom could use some help, and I want my brother or sister to grow up with me under the same roof. Then there's also the tiny fact that Adam's room is across from mine.
OH. Almost forgot, Dan's going to propose next week. Until then it's a secret that I will guard with my life.
Chapter 50
Well I still have some boxes stacked in the corner, otherwise my bedroom is now done. The walls are painted mint green, and it's quite spacious. And the icing on the cake is that I've scared the crap out of Adam. When I was moving boxes around, I looked over to see what he was doing, to see him dancing like a dork in front of his mirror. Took him twenty minutes to notice, but when he did, his face was redder than a ripe tomato.
So was mine, but I was laughing so hard I fell off bed. Loud enough that mom came waddling into the room to make sure I was okay. She still doesn't understand what was so funny.
Chapter 51
Tonight's the night! Dan is going to propose over a candle lit dinner at home, and I'll be spending the night at Brianna's. It's been awhile since we've hung out together, just the two of. And we have a lot to catch up on. So I'm pretty excited, first though school. Which I'm going to be late too if I don't get going.
Chapter 52
Just got off the phone with mom, she still doesn't know how I managed not to tell her about Dan proposing. Like I can't keep a secret. Okay so maybe I'm not good at keeping secrets. It's not like I knew for months though, just a week. She asked me to be her maid of honor though, and I said yes of course. I'm happy for her.
Chapter 53
It started snowing! So I'm waiting for Adam to get home, so we can build a snowman. Also I'm at his house because I'm babysitting for his mom while she runs some errands. This family can get crazy sometimes, but the little kids are sweet. Hope's getting ready to go outside, and Ginger is slowly but surely giving into my masterful powers of persuasion. You are never to old to make snowmen. And Claire's with Angel, because she favors her when Mrs. Cross is away.
And I hear the crunch of snow, which might be Ad.
Chapter 54
On the bright side, it's a Saturday. The downside is I'm sick, a result from yesterdays snow fight. First it was building a snowman together, and then next we were shoving each other into the snow. The younger ones watched us giggling, hell even Claire was smirking from the window. Got out of hand pretty quickly, but I was declared victorious, and we all went back inside for hot chocolate.
Then I left to change, because I was soaking wet. So now I have a cold, and am curled up in bed, relaxing while surrounded by a mountain of tissues. I regret nothing whatsoever.
Chapter 55
Still sick but joined by my fellow sick people, Adam, Brianna, Ginger and Hope. We're downstairs piled on the couch eating pizza, drinking sprite and chocolate milk and watching Christmas movies on the hallmark channel. Not the worst way to spend a Saturday.
Adam keeps asking me what I'm writing about, and is getting annoyed that I won't tell him. Now he's sticking his tongue out at me. Aw how cute, and childish.
Chapter 56
Lately something been feeling well blah in my life. So I decided it was time to change. My hair that is. Now instead of the usual brown locks, I've dyed my hair dark blue. Personally I like it. Dad and mom on the other hand don't. Dad looked like he was going to explode, and Mom almost crapped herself.
Now I'm sure they think I'm doing this to act out, really though, I'm doing it for me.
And it's semi permanent, so it's going to be awhile before it washes out. And it's not like I have a Mohawk. Jeez like they never made any decisions to change their hair that their parents hated?
Chapter 57
Nobody likes what I've done to my hair. They lied off their asses though. However I can see right through them, and I don't care. I'm sticking with this till the end. Eventually they'll get used to seeing me with blue hair instead of brown. Also went out earlier, little Christmas shopping, got yelled at by some old lady.
Called me a punk. Because dying my hair makes me a punk. What will I do next? Skip school? Get a piercing? Oh my god, I'm out of control! People really need to broaden their horizons. I did however get half of my Christmas list done with.
Where did I get the money? Oh yeah that's right, I got a job in September, working at the grocery store. For the most part I'm a cashier, put when they need me to, I stock shelves. It's an alright job, and helped me prove my point to my parents
, that I dyed my hair on my dime.
Chapter 58
The evil little sneak has found my diary, so I'm stuck writing on a piece of paper for now. When I find him, I will kick his ass. Nobody has ever read it before, and I can just imagine him smirking as he reads it. No really, I can see him through my window, reading my diary. I'm going to kill him.
He's too busy reading to see me getting ready. At least the element of surprise will be on my side. All I have to do is convince his sisters not to let him know I'm there, which shouldn't be too hard. What with all the pranks he's pulled on them, oh I've heard the story's.
Chapter 59
Well I've got you back diary, and I kicked Adams butt. With a pillow. And things got weird between us really fast. So maybe not hang out with him for a while. At least alone. After I beat him with his pillow, while he tried not to laugh at how, according to him, ridiculous I looked, I managed to wrestle my diary away from him. He tried to stop me, and I ended up tripping over a pair of his shoes on the way out.
Adam offered me his hand, so I yanked him down with me. We both seemed more aware of each others closeness, which was pretty close, he was practically sitting on me. Then I got up, and left in a hurry, without another word.
Chapter 60
Today I have so many things to do, luckily it's Friday. I need to finish my Christmas shopping, help mom decide on a date for the wedding, help Dan pick out a gift for mom. Get started on my art project, get art supplies. Babysit for the Cross's after school while Mr. & Mrs. Cross finish their Christmas shopping. Finish painting the nursery.
And call dad, see how he is. Then find out if Hannah and Aunt Jean are staying with us or at grandma and grandpas. Finally call Brianna and help her pick out a gift for Hannah. Such a busy day ahead, and school hasn't even started yet. Oh and call Ad back, see what he wanted. Maybe to see why I've been avoiding him for the past three days.
Might get awkward if I don't find out what he wants, and then run into him while I'm watching his sisters.
Chapter 61
The nerve of some people in this town. He had the audacity to accuse me of filling his locker with paint. What the hell! I didn't for starters, but he can shove his accusations where the good lord split him.
Doesn't even ask, just starts pointing fingers. So of course I ignore him, until in french he becomes so annoying that I start just telling him off in French, and swearing at him as well. The French teacher was a little impressed, but also not tolerating this teen drama crap.
So we got sent to the counselor's office to talk it out. Honestly I would have rather been sent to the principals. There was talk of feelings, wrongfully accused people being completely innocent, and more swearing, all in French. Ms. Child's got so sick of us that she finally let us leave and told us to stay away from each other. Right before she mentioned they found the culprit.
There was a trail of paint leading back to their locker. It was some kid who thought it would be funny to play a prank. Adam's face went whiter than a sheet, but I was done with him. So I left before he could say another word to me. Which was an hour ago, and when my parents find out they'll be super pissed that I ditched school. It's only two more classes though, then break begins.
It's times like these that I can't wait until I'm headed off to college. Life was so much easier when I was five. Boys had cooties and I was happy.
Chapter 62
I don't know how much clearer I can make myself short of painting myself opaque. He keeps trying to get me to talk to him even though I've made myself perfectly clear. When someone is mad you give them time to cool off, and when they're upset too, you leave them alone until they're ready to talk.
Which he's not doing so far.
I watched Angel and Hope like I promised I would, and just as I was leaving he got home. Tried to talk but I just rushed out. His mom invited me over for dinner, but I had to run out and finish shopping.
Even now Ad's trying to get my attention by holding up signs.
Chapter 63
Hannah's here! And everyone's getting ready. I do mean everyone, we're bundling up to go Christmas caroling because some of us are lacking Christmas spirit according to a certain nosy cousin and her girlfriend. Who just happened to invite the neighbors. Like I don't know what they're up to, I see the looks they exchange.
They need to learn how to be subtle because they are far from it.
Chapter 64
I think everyone agrees when I say caroling was horrible. 1oo% a complete failure. Where to start, where to start...
First H & B kept shoving me next to Adam all night, finally shoving me into him hard enough that we went crashing to the ground during Oh Holy Night. Aunt Jean looked ready to kill both of them on the spot. Until mom started giggling, which drew the attention away from me and Adam. Soon she was laughing so hard she almost slipped and fell on her butt.
Then everyone but the two of us started laughing. I got up, just shook my head at Han and Bri, and took off for home. Good thing I have my own key, but bad thing because I forgot it. So I sat on the front step and waited for everyone to get back. Which was varied speeds. Claire was the first back and asked me what was wrong with me and Ad.
I told her everything, from him stealing my diary, to him accusing me of filling his locker with paint.
And I learned quite a bit, like that he's been going through a rough patch with his girlfriend. Something I didn't know. Maybe it's time I talk with him, instead of running away.
Chapter 65
Well I am grounded. Which I can't think of the last time I was. Anyways I went over to Adam's so we could talk. And before you roll your eyes and think yeah sure, we were in the kitchen and Claire knew we were there. Also he's grounded too, for sneaking me over at 3 am. We talked and I found out that Cindy's old friend Wendy, who hates me so passionately it's like an art form, is his girlfriend.
She doesn't like our friendship, is bossy and demanding. And not in a good way either. He thinks she's going to give him an ultimatum. Stop talking to me or break up with her. And while I don't see the appeal for her, or really see how she could be sweet to him but the devil to everyone else, that's not fair.
So despite that every brain cell is calling me stupid, I'm going to have a chat with Wendy. Because Adam deserves to be happy. And because I didn't have time for a better plan as mom was dragging me out the front door.
Chapter 66
We had a nice little chat, Wendy and I. And like most cliche thing like this, girlfriend hates boyfriends best friend blah blah blah. I hate cliches, I truly do. Which is completely ironic given that I'm like a walking cliche. The chat with her? Went horrible, so horrible I doubt it could have been any worse. But we did come to a compromise.
She doesn't force him to stop talking to me or break up with her. Instead when's she's with him, I won't be. And we spend a little less time together as it is. Wendy might hate me, but she does appear to like Adam. And he's my friend who deserves to be happy even if his girlfriend is one flying monkey away from being a wicked witch.
Chapter 67
Can you smell that diary? Well your an inanimate object so I guess not. Love is in the air, snow is falling and I can smell waffles and bacon. Today is the day before Christmas eve. So like the eve of Christmas eve. I am still grounded for the stunt I pulled five days ago. And before you question it, I ran into the witch at the mall. Anyways Adam is happy as can be, so Hannah and Brianna, Mom and Dan. Also Dad's found someone he likes, a nice lady from the hospital.
Even aunt Jean is out on a date right now. Sure I could go
for a boy at school, but the one I want is already taken. Yes I finally admit it, I like Adam. A lot. But he's with her, and I'm not gonna mess that up. Love freaking sucks when you're the lonely one.
Chapter 68
Hey so viciously stabbing your breakfast is a sign that somethings wrong with your kid. Mom was concerned, and Dan just stayed out of it. Smart guy. Didn't want to talk about it then, and I still don't now. Maybe it's time I let someone set me up on a date, god knows all of my friends want to.
Hopefully time, and a maybe dating someone knew will help me forget all about Ad. Maybe I'll even move on with someone new, and this will be nothing more than a crush. Because I really want some of the happiness that everyone else has.
Chapter 69
So it's done, Brianna has set me up with this guy she knows. And has promised that he's super nice, and funny. Yeah I think I'll be the one to decide that. She did not however say who it was, hence the brief description. Oh and that he is excited for our date, because he has a crush on me. The date is tonight, which is short notice for me, but she apparently had it set up a while ago. I've gotten off my grounding for three hours, so hopefully it will be worth it.
Worst of all I don't know what to wear. And Hannah isn't here yet, and I need her help because suddenly everything I own isn't right. WHERE ARE YOUR FRIENDS WHEN YOU NEED THEM?!
*Update*
I look hot. Oh so very hot on this cold winters evening. Maybe I'll able to melt the snow with just one touch. I'm so nervous. Why must first dates be so hard?
Chapter 70
She sent me on a date with Cole Greyson, the school most popular guy. Mostly because he's in sports, football I think. I was not aware that she knew him, or was friends with him. So I am defiantly going to call her in the morning. He was nice, and alright funny. But we have very little in common, football is not my area of expertise, and writing is not his.
Sometimes I wonder what Brianna hides up her sleeves. Cole's cute, and the date was pleasant, but I don't know.
Chapter 71
So Cole is her cousin, something she never told me. And like me, she is trying to push us together, in the hope's we'll start dating. According to her, he enjoyed our date and would like to see me again. She practically screamed it over the phone at me, she was so excited. Then she gave me his number so I could call him.