And he perhaps understood that his memory of Rosemary Belair was haloed by her power. That he was praying to a god to make him something more than a common piece of clay. That he begged for power, unlimited riches, for beauty, for any and all the achievements so that his fellowman would mark his presence on this earth, and so he would not drown silently in the vast ocean of mankind.
When he showed Hock’s check to Irene, it was to impress her, to prove to her that someone cared enough about him to give him such a vast amount of money as a casual gift. She was not impressed; in her experience it was a commonplace that friends shared with each other and she even said that a man of Hock’s vast wealth could have easily given away a bigger amount. When David offered to give her half the amount of the check so that she could go to India immediately, she refused. “I always use my own money, I work for a living,” she said. “If I took money from you, you would feel you have rights over me. Besides, you really want to do it for Campbell, not me.”
He was astounded by her refusal and her statement of his interest in Campbell. He had simply wanted to be rid of both of them. He wanted to be alone again to live with his dreams of the future.
Then she asked him what he would do if she took half the money and went to India, what he would do with his half. He noticed she did not suggest he go to India with her. He also noted that she had said “your half of the money,” so that in her mind she was accepting his offer.
Then he made the mistake of telling her what he would do with his twenty-five hundred.
“I want to see the country and I want to see Kennedy’s inauguration,” he said. “I thought it might be fun, something different. You know, take my car and drive through the whole country. See the whole United States. I even want to see the snow and ice and feel real cold.”
Irene seemed lost in thought for a moment. Then she went striding briskly through the apartment as if counting her possessions in it. “That’s a great idea,” she said. “I want to see Kennedy too. I want to see him in person or I’ll never really be able to know his karma. I’ll put in for my vacation, they owe me tons of days. And it will be good for Campbell to see the country, all the different states. We’ll take my van and save on motel bills.”
Irene owned a small van, which she had fitted out with shelves to hold books and a small bunk for Campbell. The van was invaluable to her because even when Campbell was a little infant she had taken trips up and down the state of California to attend meetings and seminars on Eastern religions.
David felt trapped as they started off on their trip. Irene was driving—she liked to drive. Campbell was between them, one little hand in David’s hand. David had deposited half the check in Irene’s bank account for her trip to India, and now his twenty-five hundred would have to be used for three of them instead of only one. The only thing that comforted him was the .22-caliber handgun nestling in its leather glove, the glove in his jacket pocket. The East of America had too many robbers and muggers, and he had Irene and Campbell to protect.
To Jatney’s surprise they had a wonderful time the first four days of leisurely driving. Campbell and Irene slept in the van and he slept outside in the open fields until they hit cold weather in Arkansas; they had swung south to avoid the cold as long as possible. Then for a couple of nights they used a motel room, any motel on the route. It was in Kentucky that they first ran into trouble.
The weather had turned cold and they decided to go into a motel for the night. The next morning they drove into town for breakfast in a café/newspaper store.
The counterman was about Jatney’s age and very alert. In her egalitarian California way, Irene struck up a conversation with him. She did so because she was impressed by his quickness and efficiency. She often said it was such a pleasure to watch people who were truly expert at the work they did, no matter how menial. She said this was a sign of good karma. Jatney never really understood the word “karma.”
But the counterman did. He too was a follower of the Eastern religions, and he and Irene got into a long and involved discussion. Campbell became restless, so Jatney paid the bill and took him outside to wait. It was a good fifteen minutes before Irene came out.
“He’s a really sweet guy,” Irene said. “His name is Christopher, but he calls himself Krish.”
Jatney was annoyed by the wait but said nothing. On the walk back to the motel Irene said, “I think we should stay here for a day. Campbell needs a rest.”
They spent the rest of the morning and afternoon shopping, though Irene bought very little. They had a very early supper in a Chinese restaurant. The plan was to go to bed early so that they could travel east before dark.
But they had been in their motel room for only a few hours when Irene suddenly said she was going to take a little drive through town and maybe pick up a bite to eat. She left, and David played checkers with the little boy, who beat him in every game. The child was an amazing checkers player. Irene had taught him when he was only two years old. At one point Campbell raised his elegant head with the broad brow and said, “Uncle Jat, don’t you like to play checkers?”
It was nearly midnight before Irene returned. The motel was on a little high ground, and Jatney and Campbell were looking out the window when the familiar van pulled into the parking lot, followed by another car.
Jatney was surprised to see Irene get out of the passenger side, since she always insisted on driving. From the driver’s side the young counterman called Krish emerged and gave her the car keys. She gave a sisterly kiss in return. Two young men got out of the other car, and she gave them sisterly little pecks. Irene started walking toward the motel entrance and the three young men put their arms around one another and serenaded her. “Good night, Irene,” they sang, “Good night, Irene.” When Irene entered the motel room and still heard them singing, she gave David a brilliant smile.
“They were so interesting to talk to I just forgot the time,” Irene said, and she went to the window to wave to them.
“I guess I’ll have to go and tell them to stop,” David said. Through his mind ran flashes of him firing the handgun in his pocket. He could see the bullets flying through the night into their brains. “Those guys are much less interesting when they sing.”
“Oh, you couldn’t stop them,” Irene said. She picked up Campbell. Holding him in her arms, she bowed to acknowledge their homage and then pointed to the child. The singing stopped immediately. And then David could hear the car moving out of the parking lot.
Irene never drank. But she sometimes took drugs. Jatney could always tell. She had such a lovely brilliant smile on drugs. She had smiled that way one night when he had been waiting up for her in Santa Monica. In that dawn light he had accused her of being in someone else’s bed. She had replied calmly, “Somebody had to fuck me, you won’t.”
Christmas Eve they were still on the road and slept in another motel. It was cold now. They would not celebrate the Christmas season; Irene said that Christmas was false to the true spirit of religion. David did not want to bring back memories of an earlier, more innocent life. But he did buy Campbell a crystal ball with snow flurries, over the objections of Irene. Early Christmas morning he rose and watched the two of them sleep. He always carried the handgun in his jacket now, and he touched the soft leather of its glove. How easy and kind it would be to kill them both, he thought.
Three days later they were in the nation’s capital. They had a fair amount of time until the inauguration. David made up the itinerary of all the sights they would see. And then he made a map of the inaugural parade. They would all go see Francis Kennedy take the oath of office as President of the United States.
BOOK
VI
INAUGURATION DAY
CHAPTER
26
On Inauguration Day, the President of the United States, Francis Xavier Kennedy, was awakened at dawn by Jefferson to be groomed and dressed. The early gray light was actually cheery because a snowstorm had begun. Huge white flakes covere
d the city of Washington, and in the bulletproof tinted windows of his dressing room Francis Kennedy saw himself imprisoned in those snowflakes, as if he were imprisoned in a glass ball. He said to Jefferson, “Will you be in the parade?”
“No, Mr. President,” Jefferson said. “I have to hold the fort here in the White House.” He adjusted Kennedy’s tie. “Everybody is waiting for you downstairs in the Red Room.”
When Kennedy was ready, he shook Jefferson’s hand. “Wish me luck,” he said. And Jefferson went with him to the elevator. Two Secret Service men took him down to the ground floor.
In the Red Room they were all waiting for him. The Vice President, Helen Du Pray, was stunningly regal in white satin. The President’s staff were reflections of the President, all in formal clothes. Arthur Wix, Oddblood Gray, Eugene Dazzy and Christian Klee formed their own little circle, solemn and tense with the importance of the day. Francis Kennedy smiled at them. His Vice President and these four men were his family.
When President Francis Xavier Kennedy stepped out of the White House, he was astonished to see a vast sea of humanity that filled every thoroughfare, that seemed to blot out all the majestic buildings, overflowed all the TV vans and media people behind their special ropes and marked grounds. He had never seen anything like it, and he called to Eugene Dazzy, “How many are out there?”
Dazzy said, “A hell of a lot more than we figured. Maybe we need a battalion of marines from the naval base to help us control traffic.”
“No,” the President said. He was surprised that Dazzy had responded to his question as if the multitudes were a danger. He thought it a triumph, a vindication of everything he had done since the tragedies of last Easter Sunday.
Francis Kennedy had never felt surer of himself. He had foreseen everything that would happen, the tragedies and the triumphs. He had made the right decisions and won his victory. He had vanquished his enemies. He looked over at the huge crowd and felt an overwhelming love for the people of America. He would deliver them from their suffering, cleanse the earth itself.
Never had Francis Kennedy felt his mind so clear, his instincts so true. He had conquered his grief over the death of his wife, the murder of his daughter. The sorrow that had fogged his brain had cleared away. He was almost happy now.
It seemed to him that he had conquered fate and by his own perseverance and judgment had made possible this present and glorious future. He stepped out in the snow-filled air to be sworn in and then lead the inaugural parade down Pennsylvania Avenue to start on his road to glory.
David Jatney had registered himself and Irene and Campbell in a motel a little over twenty miles from Washington, D.C., because the capital itself was jammed. The day before the inauguration, they drove into Washington to see the monuments, the White House, the Lincoln Memorial and all the other sights of the capital. David also scouted the route of the inaugural parade to discover the best place to stand.
On the great day they rose at dawn and had breakfast at a roadside diner. Then they went back to the motel to dress in their best clothes. Irene was uncharacteristically careful setting and brushing her hair. She wore her best faded jeans, a red shirt and a green floppy sweater over it that David had never seen before. Had she kept it hidden or had she bought it here in Washington? he wondered. She had gone off by herself for a few hours, leaving Campbell with him.
It had snowed all night and the ground was covered white. Big flakes were lazily drifting through the air. In California there was no need for winter clothing, but on the trip East they had bought windbreakers, a bright red one for Campbell because Irene claimed she could easily find him then if he strayed, Jatney a serviceable bright blue, and Irene a creamy white, which made her look very pretty. She also bought a knitted cap of white wool and a tasseled cap for Campbell in bright red. Jatney preferred to be bareheaded—he hated any kind of covering.
On this inauguration morning they had time to spare, so they went out into the field behind the motel to build Campbell a snowman. Irene had a spasm of giddy happiness and threw snowballs at Campbell and Jatney. They both very gravely received her missiles but did not throw any back. Jatney wondered at this happiness in her. Could the thought of seeing Kennedy in the coming parade have caused it? Or was it the snow, so strange and magical to her California senses.
Campbell was entranced by the snow. He sifted it through his fingers, watching it disappear and melt in the sunshine. Then he began cautiously destroying the snowman with his fists, punching tiny holes in it, knocking off the head. Jatney and Irene stood a little distance away, watching him. Irene took Jatney’s hand in hers, an unusual act of physical intimacy on her part.
“I have to tell you something,” she said. “I’ve visited some people here in Washington—my friends in California told me to look them up. And these people are going to India and I’m going with them, me and Campbell. I’ve arranged to sell the van, but I’ll give you money out of it so you can fly back to Los Angeles.”
David let her hand go and put his hands in the pockets of his windbreaker. His right hand touched the leather glove that held the .22 handgun, and for a moment he could see Irene lying on the ground, her blood eating up the snow.
When the anger came he was puzzled by it. After all, he had decided to come to Washington in the pitiful hope that he might see Rosemary, or meet her and Hock and Gibson Grange. He had dreamed these past days that he might even be invited to another dinner with them. That his life might change, that he would get a foot in the door that opened into power and glory. So wasn’t it natural for Irene to want to go to India to open the door into a world she yearned for, to make herself something more than an ordinary woman with a small child working at jobs that could never lead to anything? Let her go, he thought.
Irene said, “Don’t be mad. You don’t even like me anymore. You would have ditched me if it hadn’t been for Campbell.” She was smiling, a little mockingly but with a touch of sadness.
“That’s right,” David Jatney said. “You shouldn’t take the little kid to wherever the hell you feel like going. You can barely look out for him here.”
That made her angry. “Campbell is my child,” she said. “I’ll bring him up as I please. And I’ll take him to the North Pole if I want to.”
She paused for a moment and then said, “You don’t know anything about it. And I think you’re getting a little queer about Campbell.”
Again he saw the snow stained with her blood, little flashing rivers, a prickling of red dots. But he said with complete control, “What exactly do you mean?”
“You’re a little weird, you know,” Irene said. “That’s why I liked you in the beginning. But I don’t know exactly how weird you are. I worry about leaving Campbell with you sometimes.”
“You thought that, and then you left him with me anyway?” Jatney said.
“Oh, I know you wouldn’t harm him,” Irene said. “But I just thought me and Campbell should split and go on to India.”
“It’s OK,” David said.
They let Campbell completely destroy the snowman, then they all got into the van and started the twenty-mile drive into Washington. When they pulled into the interstate, they were astonished to see it full of cars and buses as far as the eye could see. They managed to inch into the traffic, but it took four hours before the endless monstrous steel caterpillar spilled them into the capital.
The inaugural parade wound through the broad avenues of Washington, led by the presidential cavalcade of limousines. It progressed slowly, the enormous crowd overflowing the police barricades at spots and impeding progress. The wall of uniformed police began to crumble under the millions of people who pushed against them.
Three cars full of Secret Service men preceded Kennedy’s limousine with its bulletproof glass bubble. Kennedy stood inside that glass bubble so that he could acknowledge the cheers of the multitude as he rode through Washington. Little waves of people surged up to the limousine itself, then were driven back by the inner circ
le of Secret Service men outside the car. But each little wave of frantic worshipers seemed to lap closer and closer. The inner circle of guards were pressed back against the presidential limousine.
The car directly behind Francis Kennedy held more Secret Service men armed with heavy automatic weapons, and other Secret Service men on foot ran alongside it. The next limousine carried Christian Klee, Oddblood Gray, Arthur Wix and Eugene Dazzy. The limousines were barely moving, Pennsylvania Avenue was becoming awash with the crowd, stopping the advance of the cavalcade. Majestically, large flakes of snow descended and formed a white mantle over the crowd.
The car carrying the presidential staff came to a complete stop, and Oddblood Gray looked out the window. “Oh shit, the President is getting out and walking,” he said.
“If he’s walking we have to walk with him,” Eugene Dazzy said.
Gray looked at Christian Klee, and said, “Look—Helen’s getting out of her car, too. This is dangerous. Chris, you have to stop him. Use that veto of yours.”
“I haven’t got it anymore,” Klee said.
Arthur Wix said, “I think you’d better call a whole lot more Secret Service men down here.”
They all got out of the car and formed a wall to march behind their President.
The large snowflakes were still swirling in the air, but they felt no more substantial on the body of Francis Kennedy than the Communion wafer had felt on his tongue when he was a child. For the first time he wanted to touch physically the people who loved him. He walked up the avenue and shook the hands of those people who pierced the police-manned barriers and then the ring of Secret Service men assembled around him. Every so often a tiny wave of spectators managed to wash through, pushed on by the mass of a million spectators behind them. They crested over the Secret Service men who had tried to form a wider circle around their President. Francis Kennedy shook the hands of these men and women and kept his pace. He could feel his hair getting wet from the snow, but the cold air exhilarated him, as did the adulation of the crowd. He was not conscious of any tiredness, or discomfort, though there was an alarming numbness in his right arm and his right hand was swollen from being gripped so often and so harshly; Secret Service men were literally tearing the devoted supporters away from their President. A pretty young woman in a creamy wind-breaker had tried to keep holding his hand and he had had to wrench it back to safety.