‘Do you believe in it all?’ Ruth asked cautiously.
‘I have never seen anything myself, but I believe she did. And his being scornful of her did nothing to stop it happening to her. She told me she used to summon the spirits when she was a child; she used to encourage all the things that happened to her. Then when she met your father she realised it wasn’t normal and she became terribly upset. She was torn in two.’
Ruth glanced across at her miserably. ‘I didn’t help. I didn’t understand what was happening, then when I was older I just began to hate him because he made her life a misery. I left home as soon as I could.’
‘Don’t feel guilty. It was a complex relationship. As a child, you couldn’t have hoped to understand what was happening.’
‘Can I ask you something?’ Ruth found she liked this woman and she trusted her. ‘In spite of all his threats, Daddy kept all my mother’s things. He locked them upstairs in the spare room cupboards. Her clothes and family items, which I thought he’d made her get rid of. I thought he’d burnt them all. That’s what he told me, but he hadn’t.’ She hesitated. ‘Timothy appears to have gone through it all pretty thoroughly. I think he has taken some of it away.’
‘Oh no!’
‘The family pictures are missing and the silver. I remember Mummy showing me spoons and forks, wrapped in soft black cloths; they had what I now realise were family crests on them. There were candlesticks. And there was her jewellery. I know the only thing Daddy ever gave her was her wedding ring, but she had pretty jewellery which she used to let me try on when I was a little girl. As far as I remember she never wore any of it, but it was still there when I left home.’
‘And now it’s gone?’
‘Yes.’
‘You should tell the police.’
‘I would, but I have no way of proving it was still there. I don’t suppose you saw it?’
Sally shook her head. ‘I never went upstairs. I very seldom went in at all, to be honest. She came here. I did drop in to see your father every now and then after she died, but we always went into the kitchen. He would give me a cup of Nescafé and we would chat for a wee bit and that was it. He was a very lonely man after she went. I’m not surprised to hear he kept her stuff, the old hypocrite.’ There was another pause. ‘She gave me some of her books to take care of, Ruth, and I have them still. She was afraid he would burn them after one particular quarrel they had, and I said she could put them in my spare room. She came round sometimes to read them. I kept them after she died. I wasn’t sure what to do with them, to be honest. They’re yours now. Books about the family and books about all sorts of New Age stuff.’
Ruth felt a surge of excitement. ‘I’d love to have them. Thank you.’
There was a pause.
‘Your father talked to her, you know. After she died. I heard him once or twice when I came over. I could hear his voice when I was going to ring the doorbell. I confess I listened at the letter box. He was talking, arguing, crying.’ For a moment Ruth thought Sally was going to cry herself. ‘And he didn’t just talk to Lucy.’
Ruth froze.
Sally wasn’t looking at her. She was studying her hands in her lap. ‘It seemed that he was talking to Lord Erskine. Lucy told me that he would sometimes appear to her. He was kind and understanding and gave her the courage to stay with Donald. Naturally,’ she looked up at last with a wan smile, ‘I assumed she was going off her head.’
‘You’re saying his ghost appeared to her?’ Ruth found her mouth had gone dry.
‘I’m not sure that he was what you or I would call a ghost. After all, why would he haunt a terraced house in Morningside? No. Lucy used to call him up, summon him, in some way; like summoning the spirits of the dead. You know?’
‘And you are telling me Daddy called him too?’ Ruth felt her whole body stiffen with disbelief. ‘That’s just not possible. He wouldn’t.’
‘No, I don’t suppose he did.’ Sally’s shoulders slumped. ‘Perhaps he did it without meaning to. Perhaps he called out to him in his anger or anguish or whatever at losing Lucy and never expected, or even imagined for a second, that the man would respond.’
Ruth smiled grimly. ‘That must have given him a shock.’
‘Your father never stopped loving your mother, my dear.’ Sally glanced at her, uncomfortable with the sudden show of emotion. ‘He was the kind of man who finds it difficult to express himself. He came from a generation and a background which was …’ she hesitated, ‘very buttoned up.’ She smiled. ‘I know he was cruel to your mother, and I know when he hated something he found it easier to say so than when he loved something. But he did love her.’
Later Ruth relayed the conversation to Harriet on the phone.
‘Your father talked to him!’ Harriet was incredulous. ‘Dear God! You have to try to speak to him yourself!’ Her excitement was instant and infectious. ‘You absolutely have to. What are you waiting for?’
‘That’s all very well for you to say!’ Ruth was once more seated at the kitchen table at Number 26. ‘The idea appals me. Oh no, Harriet. I don’t believe a word of it. Absolutely not.’
‘But we know he was a spirit guide! He knows how to talk to people. Have you read that book yet?’
‘No, I haven’t. And I don’t believe all this stuff. You know I don’t!’
‘Why not? He’s not going to hurt you, is he. You are his however-many-greats-granddaughter for goodness’ sake! Did that woman, your neighbour, actually hear his voice through the door?’
‘Yes. No.’ Ruth was becoming flustered. ‘Of course she didn’t! She heard Daddy talking to himself.’
‘Go on. Try. You have to.’
‘No!’
‘I dare you.’
‘What, and discuss philosophy? Politics?’
‘No. Or at least not straight away. Ask him if he minds talking to you. Tell him you’re interested in him. Do it now. Then call me back.’
The phone went dead.
Thomas
I knew Ruth wnted to speak with me; but I also knew she was terrified that it might happen. She was a brave woman, and in that she was Lucy’s daughter, but she was also her father’s child and alone in a dark and gloomy house. My own father had tried to distract me from the consequences of the gift of second sight, and from my precocious insistence that I knew best; if this young woman had the same tendencies, I knew she would have to be brought to the realisation gently and somehow taught, as I was taught, to handle it with care. For the time being, I contented myself with thinking back to my childhood and wondering how she would confront the truths of my life if she persisted in following the paths of her research, and, on this occasion, I left her to her thoughts and dreams rather than give in to the temptation to appear.
9
Lord Buchan studied his youngest son carefully. Tom was twelve now, clever, cheeky and precocious. He was standing in front of his father looking at this moment extremely sheepish. ‘Well, boy, did you do it?’ the earl sighed. They had been here before. With his eldest brother now in the army and Harry at university, Tom had been left at home with his sisters to be tutored by their mother. Agnes was a brilliant woman and she had taught all her children in turn, imbuing in them her own passion for learning as well as her strict religious views, and yet here was Tom, still running wild in the streets, this time caught stealing from a stall in the Grassmarket below the great castle walls. His excuse, given with passionate indignation, was not a denial but an explanation that there could be no crime for he had stolen from a rich man, who could well afford the loss, to give to a poor one. Lord Buchan sighed. The boy had no idea that, had he been a poor man himself, he would have faced the direst penalties for what he had done. Only a substantial bribe had bought off the indignant stallholder, a bribe they could not afford. Poverty, though, was relative. His paltry two hundred pounds a year would be an undreamed of fortune to the would-be recipient of his son’s intended largess.
‘I am sending you away, Tom. Mr Bu
chanan shall be your tutor and you will go to Kirkhill to learn discipline and study until you are ready to go to the High School.’ He did not add that they could not afford to send him to the school, otherwise he would have been there already. David and Harry were the lucky ones. Money had been scraped together for their education and now for David’s commission in the army, and enough for Harry to study law, but for this third son, probably the brightest of them all, there was little left in the coffers.
Tom looked down at his feet. He managed to master his conflicting emotions; relief that he was not to be beaten; horror at the thought of a tutor of his own and delight that he would once more be in the country. He loved the old tower house of Kirkhill, with the Brox Burn, the broad wild valley of Strathbrock and its distant views of the Pentland Hills, the River Almond less than an hour’s walk away. There he would be able to study all the things which fascinated him most, botany and birds and animals, and when the rain streamed down the windows he could read his way through the mildewed books which remained abandoned in the library.
The summer went much as Tom had planned. He enjoyed enormously his lessons in the improvised schoolroom above the stables. Mr Buchanan, though strict, was a brilliant teacher; he was inclined to allow the boy his head between lessons, identifying, as Tom’s father had done, a streak of brilliance there that he believed would be best channelled by allowing the boy free rein as far as possible.
When the end of Tom’s exile came it was unexpected and deliriously exciting. His brother Harry rode out from Edinburgh with the news.
‘We are giving up the flat in Edinburgh. It’s too expensive,’ Harry said candidly as he sat with Tom over a plate of scones, spread with butter from the mains. He had brought a letter for Mr Buchanan, who sat near them reading it, his expression thoughtful. ‘Papa has taken a house in St Andrews and you are to attend the high school there. Mama is pleased with the development,’ he hesitated for only a fraction of a second, a hesitation into which Tom read a multiplicity of meanings, ‘and we are to go at once.’ On the far side of the table Mr Buchanan looked from one boy to the other with quiet satisfaction. Neither noticed. ‘Anne is not coming with us,’ Harry added wistfully.
Tom looked up. He had stuffed another scone into his mouth and was chewing with much enjoyment. ‘What is she going to do? Has Mama found her a husband?’ he asked when at last he could speak.
‘She’s going to Bath.’
‘Bath?’ Tom stared at his brother in astonishment. ‘In England?’
‘She has been writing to Lady Huntingdon about the church and God and stuff, and she is going to go and help with all that.’ Harry waved his hand in the air expansively. ‘Mama thinks she will be happier there. I heard her tell Papa that Anne is not made to marry.’ He frowned, catching sight of Mr Buchanan’s expression as he glanced up from his letter. ‘We’ll see her often,’ he hurried on. ‘Papa says perhaps we’ll go and visit her.’ Both boys were fond of their eldest sister. She was kind and amusing and had mothered them in ways for which their real mother had little inclination.
Once the plan was voiced it all happened very quickly. Mr Buchanan left for a position at Glasgow University. Friends and servants were left behind with fond farewells and promises of an eventual return. The family’s furniture and clothes and belongings were loaded onto a ship at Leith and sent off to Fife ahead of them, and before the autumn gales had set in they were ensconced in their new home.
Tom was delighted that at last he would be going to school, little realising that one of the reasons for his parents’ move from Edinburgh was, at the strong recommendation of his tutor, to save enough money to pay his fees. He enjoyed St Andrews. He began to study at the university, taking classes in mathematics and natural philosophy and attending Richard Dick’s school of Latin with Harry. He learned to dance, he watched the soldiers on parade and the ships in the harbour, and he explored the countryside and the coastline at every opportunity, striding out with his thumb stick and a bag of food over his shoulder in all weathers. He loved the sea; the waves crashing onto the rocky shore throwing spume high into the air, the roar of the water echoing in the ruins of the castle and the gaunt skeleton of the ancient cathedral that rose so starkly above the cliffs. He shivered as he stood looking out across incalculable distances, setting his shoulders against the long-dead voices that called out from the ancient stones around him.
In the cliff below the spot where he was standing his mother had laid claim to the cave where, so the story went, St Rule had landed on the shores of the ancient kingdom of Fife, bringing with him the precious relics of St Andrew, relics long ago lost to the furies of John Knox and his reformers. The cave was a dark, mysterious place but his mother had had it transformed with seashells, and chairs and tables, and, after she had had steps cut into the cliff to make it easier to reach, she held tea parties there. He disapproved. In some secret place within his soul he thought of the cave as sacred, and besides he knew the locals thought his mother mad. Not that she worried about such things; she had no time for St Andrew, nor for the opinion of her neighbours.
It was here he met the boy. Sheltering in the cave when his mother was busy elsewhere and the icy winds had driven everyone off the streets, Tom caught sight of a lad about his own age, standing by the entrance, looking out to sea. ‘Hey!’ Tom called. He ran to catch him up, but the boy was ahead of him, jumping down the cliff path towards the rocks below the castle. The boy stopped as he reached the sand, glancing back over his shoulder, waiting for Tom, then he ran on, his hair wet with the rain, his jacket flying open in the wind.
He never found out the boy’s name but they played together often, exploring the ruins of the castle and the cathedral, the boy leading him down hidden steps to the sea gate, running along the great curtain wall, balancing high above the sea, climbing off the stones and leaping down the stairs by the postern gate. They spent hours together scrambling on the ruins, on the cliffs, chasing along the sands at low tide, until the reluctant scholar was recalled to his books by his tutors.
It was the day that Harry came to find him and bring him home that he last saw his friend.
‘Mama has sent me to fetch you,’ Harry called. ‘We have visitors from the south with messages from Anne.’
Tom had been throwing stones into the sea, laughing, competing with the other boy as to who could throw them furthest, skimming them above waves that for once were calm.
‘I’ll have to go!’ he called, turning.
The boy had gone. He left no footprints in the sand.
‘Who were you talking to?’ Harry enquired as they jogged down South Street towards their house.
‘No one.’ Tom managed to look nonchalant as he stopped to empty some stones from his shoe. ‘I was shouting at the gulls.’
He knew Harry didn’t believe him, but he didn’t care.
He was happy and excited; not for one moment did he realise that he was about to be given the first great shock and disappointment of his young life.
‘I can no longer afford your fees!’ Lord Buchan was striding up and down the room, his daughter’s letter in his hand. Tom was standing before him white-faced. ‘I am sorry, Tom. If there was another way I would take it, I promise you.’
‘But the university! You promised! I am already going to lectures—’
‘No. It’s not possible and we can’t stay here after all. I am sorry. The fees for your brothers have taken every penny we have.’ The earl’s face was grey with worry and fatigue. ‘You must understand, Tom, that as the youngest your needs have to come last. David will inherit the title when my time comes; and Harry will go into the law. We have to find another way forward for you, and Anne has suggested we join her in Bath. She has a house there, thanks to her friend Lady Huntingdon, and she feels your mother and I could be of use to her in spreading the message about Methodism.’ He glanced at his son’s face; the devastation he saw there was a physical blow. ‘I am sorry, Tom. I know how much store you set by continuin
g your studies and going on to a profession.’
‘And Harry?’ Tom asked. ‘Is he to go to Bath too?’
‘No.’ His father shook his head. ‘He will visit us, when he can, but he will remain here at St Andrews. I have managed to find him somewhere to lodge.’
‘So, what will become of me?’ Tom managed to keep his voice steady. He took a deep breath. ‘I suppose it will be the army, like David?’ Could he imagine himself as a soldier? The idea had never crossed his mind, but that was the traditional destiny of a younger son.
His father gave him a look of deep compassion. ‘Commissions in the army cost money, Tom. But we will face that decision when we must. Anne has many friends and contacts in Bath. I am sure something will turn up. I am praying every day that God will provide for you.’ He smiled at the boy, well aware that Tom was fighting back tears. His heart ached for his precocious youngest son.
On his last day in St Andrews, Tom went back to the castle to look for his friend. A fierce wind had arisen, tearing at his jacket, threatening to push him off the cliffs, screaming through the ruins, streaking the sky with rain. Huge waves rolled in over the rocks, smashing themselves against the foot of the cliffs, hurling spray high into the sky. Tom looked round helplessly. Where was he? Somehow he had thought the boy would be here, but there was no sign of him in the remains of the courtyard or beneath the tower or in the shelter of the remaining walls.
His shoulders slumped with disappointment as he stood looking out at the wild sea, its distances shrouded with bellying cloud. His friend was one of the dead. He had always known that, always recognised that the boy must have drowned in the sea and that his longing for companionship and the life he had so cruelly lost so young had brought him back to the shore. ‘May God bless you,’ he whispered. ‘I shall miss you.’
10
‘No, of course I didn’t try it.’ When Harriet rang Ruth the next morning, she laughed. ‘This is me you’re talking to, Hattie. I do not, never would, try to summon ghosts.’