The others say morphing makes even Rachel look bad and I can understand. It strains the definition of beauty. But to me, she looked natural and strong. I liked watching her change. She was an eagle now.
And down into a dive!
We both screamed. Rotating wildly as we plummeted toward Earth in free fall from an insane height. The sand and hills and wharves raced toward us as we dropped. An awesome rush.
I cried, giddy.
We spread our wings, like parachutes. Caught the air just above a whitecap breaking on shore. We found a thermal and caught the free ride. Up and up and up again. Circle after circle. World’s greatest carnival ride.
she shouted, awed by the sheer joy of flying.
We weren’t a hawk and eagle on this morning. We were two humans. Rejoicing in the greatest pleasure we’d ever known. Enjoying the gift Elfangor had given us. Rising toward the brilliant, dazzling sun.
* * *
“My patience is about to end,” Taylor said quietly.
* * *
Pain.
Pleasure.
Pain.
Who was I? Where?
* * *
I lay on my back in the cube, staring into an interrogation light.
The sun. I watched it burn and shimmer. Intense and warming.
ARE YOU HAPPY, TOBIAS?
I remembered the Ellimist. The voice that came from everywhere and nowhere.
* * *
And I flapped down from the beam in Cassie’s barn to see the clothes Rachel picked for Ax’s day at school. Smiling at Marco’s sarcasm: “Rachel, he looks like he’s going to the country club to play polo. He’s like a bully magnet. Even I want to beat him up.”
And Ax: “Yes, I am fully human. Mun. Hyew-mun. Human. Huh-yew-mun.”
Then, the time I stood next to Cassie. Over a large flowerpot on her back porch. We’d all come over to see them. Two baby rabbits. “Parsley” and “Pansy” Marco had named them.
“Go ahead, Tobias. It’s your turn.” Cassie smiled encouragement. I stepped forward with my lettuce leaf. Reached a hand over those two tiny, vulnerable little lives. Trusting now, because we’d nurtured them.
And the moonlit night I galloped across the field behind Cassie’s barn. Ax just behind me. He said the grass there was of superior quality. Richer soil.
Skr-eet. Skr-eet. Skr-eet.
A deafening alarm. Blinking lights.
I closed my eyes again. Still feeding with Ax. Still crushing lush grass underhoof.
* * *
I felt the pleasure ray shutting down. I realized I was in the cube.
“Your time is up. Do you understand that? You can never escape your morph. You will be a bird till you die.”
Who said that? Rachel? Taylor, the sub-visser?
Me?
“You vile little bird!” she shrieked. “Who are you? To sacrifice your body! Do you realize what you’ve done?”
Still in a stupor I rolled over and saw her pacing in front of my cube, thinking visibly. Running through her options. If she couldn’t present Visser Three with a new Andalite-Controller, what was left?
Her fear was obvious. It twisted her face. It made her breath come short and fast.
While she’d tortured me her desperation had grown.
“The Andalite bandits. Give me their location!” She stamped her foot on the floor like a frustrated, tired child. “Tell me where they are. I demand it! Where are your friends?”
I was silent.
“Your childish loyalty is amusing. But you’ll learn, Andalite.” She spoke the words bitterly and with emphasis. “You’ll learn that it’s foolish to protect your friends. Friends always betray you.”
I answered instinctively, forgetting to keep up my guard.
“Oh, wouldn’t they?” she snapped. She walked back to the table. Toward the three-color device. I could tell she had more to say, but she bottled it, and said simply, “I pity your innocence.”
Right then I had only one thought. If I could distract her, maybe the torture would stop. If I could draw her out, maybe she’d forget to press the button. For a moment. At least for a moment.
I said, desperate.
She stiffened. “You do not ask the questions, Andalite!” she roared. “I ask. You answer.”
Her hand hovered dangerously above the red circle.
I couldn’t take any more. I couldn’t. The hawk was defeated. The human, defeated. Me, whatever I was, I was defeated.
No more. No more pain. No more memory.
Milk-white fingers brushed the button’s surface.
Get her to talk! Appeal to her sense of power. Her pride …
I blurted out. Almost immediately I wished I hadn’t. Complimenting this monster made me ill.
But she froze.
Her fingers lifted from the button —
“Yes,” she said, “I know.”
— and touched the side of her face. “There was a time when I … this body … was the prettiest and most popular girl in her school. When I had a party, everyone …”
I’d struck a nerve. Keep going. Keep her hand from the button.
“Shut up, Andalite. Be silent, and suffer.”
That stopped her.
She looked hard at me. She knew I was trying to provoke her. She knew I was trying to delay the pain.
She also knew I was right.
I said.
“No.”
The sub-visser snorted derisively. “He needs me. I’m his expert on humans.”
“Not like me!” she yelled, flying into a sudden rage. “I’m a voluntary, do you not know that? This girl, this human, chose this life, chose to invite me in to take control! Why? Why? Because she’d seen humans as they truly were. She chose us over her own people. Why? Because humans are weak and petty and stupid and we will rule them all, we will make them ours, all of them!”