"So Miss Bell is now in her element."
"She was so good to us."
"Good for us, perhaps. She certainly kept me in order. You were always the perfect pupil, Olivia."
"Oh no. You were the clever one. That's what pupils should be if they are to be a credit to their teachers."
"They should be well mannered, docile . . . and good . . . and those were the things you were."
"You're laughing at me."
"I would never laugh at you, dear Olivia. I laugh with you."
"I see there is a difference. Oh ... I must tell you. Do you remember Rosie Rundall ... or Rosie Russell as she now is?"
"Yes, indeed I do."
"She's become a rich woman. She runs a modiste's establishment. She wrote to me asking for my patronage, so of course I went along. She is just the same . . . the Rosie we knew, but she is very important now. She sits in a sort of salon at the back of the shop . . . No, I mustn't call it a shop . . . It's an establishment. She sells the most fantastic hats to the wealthy. A hat has to be a "Rose" hat nowadays. At the races . . . garden parties . . . everywhere . . . there are Rosie's hats."
"I am so glad. She was very helpful to us, wasn't she?"
"Oh yes. Except on that one occasion. Do you remember when she was going to open the door to let you in? When you were Cleopatra
"I remember." I was thinking of the first time I had met Jeremy. Rupert of the Rhine ... the excitement ... it was all coming back. There were too many memories in this house. Olivia was remembering too.
"She left suddenly," said Olivia. "She had to go away . . . some business or other. She had to leave at once and there was no time to explain. Well, I can tell you she is a very important lady now. I believe she has more than one of these ... er ... establishments."
"She is a very clever woman. Did she marry?"
"No. At least not as far as I know. You must go and see her while you're here. I was there just before Livia was born and I told her you would be coming for the christening. She was very interested and said she hoped she would be able to see you."
"I shall certainly go along to see Rosie."
"We'll arrange it."
We went on talking. I wished I did not feel so disturbed but now I was bracing myself for the encounter with Jeremy which must surely come soon.
I did not sleep very well that night. Too many memories were crowding into my mind. How could it be otherwise in this house where so much had happened? I thought of Jago, who would doubtless be sleeping peacefully in his hotel bedroom, of Olivia in her cocoon of happiness which shut out the unpleasantness of the world. I wondered about Jeremy and what he was feeling about meeting me again; and dominating my thoughts, which was not an unusual state for me to be in, was Paul. What was it like for him to be with Gwennie, to try to make a normal marriage out of what I believed for him was a travesty of one?
As we make our beds so must we lie on them. Olivia had made a cosy feather-bed for herself, Paul one of nails.
Mine was not yet complete. Which would it be?
Olivia came into my bedroom while I was dressing.
"I couldn't wait for you to come down. Did you sleep well? It's just as it used to be. Breakfast from eight till nine. You help yourself from the dishes on the sideboard. Remember?"
"Yes, except that for most of my time we were eating in the nursery."
"Jeremy came in late last night. After you'd retired. He asked a lot about you. I told him how well you are and how much you were liking Cornwall. He was so pleased."
"Very good of him," I said, and once again my irony was lost on Olivia.
"He does care about you a lot, Caroline. He was ever so upset. I think of it sometimes. You see, if it had worked out for you . . . which is perhaps what it should have done ..."
"What nonsense! It worked out in the best possible way it could. From my point of view it was all for the best."
"Do you really mean that?"
"I do indeed."
"I'm so glad. I have worried quite a lot."
I touched her brow. "I don't like to see wrinkles there. You must be happy. You've got exactly what you need. All this . . . and Livia too."
"But I do want you to be happy. Is there . . . anyone?"
"The trouble with all you married women is that you want everyone else to be in the same plight."
"Not plight, Caroline. Happy state."
"If that's how you feel, I'm delighted. You will have to watch over Livia because I'm rather taken with her, and I might decide to carry her back to Cornwall with me . . . snatch her away when you're not looking."
"Oh, Caroline, I'm so pleased you like her!"
We went into breakfast together and when we were about to leave the table, Jeremy appeared.
He seemed to be quite at ease and I tried to look the same, but I felt anger surging up within me. I wished I could forget that night at the ball, all our meetings . . . and then that cruel letter.
He was svelte.
"You look well, Jeremy," I said. "All this ..." I waved my hand. "It suits you."
"We're happy, aren't we, Olivia?" he said.
She smiled at him. I guessed her feelings were too strong for words and I thought: She is far too good for him. And yet she loves him and he has made her happy. I must grant him that.
"Olivia was determined that you should be a godparent," he said.
"You know you wanted Caroline for that too."
"I knew Caroline would be the perfect godmother."
"How nice of you to have such a high opinion of me."
"I hope you are going to stay with us for some time and not run away as soon as you have come."
I thought, I can't stay long here. I shall be saying something bitter to him. I shall be telling him what I think of him. I must get away as soon as I can.
"I'm learning about the management of the estate in Cornwall," I said. "It is so interesting. I mustn't stay away too long."
"We shall have to insist that she comes back soon, Jeremy."
"We shall indeed, my dear."
"She adores Livia already."
"Who wouldn't adore Livia?" I said. "Livia is adorable and there is no more to say."
We talked for a little while and Jeremy, who clearly felt the strain as much as I did, said he must be off. He had business to attend to.
When he had gone, Olivia asked what I would like to do and I said I should like to go and see Rosie.
"But of course."
"I shan't want to buy one of her hats. I can't think what use I would have for one of her fashionable creations in Lancarron."
"Rosie wouldn't expect you to buy a hat. She'd just be delighted to see you. But as a matter of fact I wanted to give you a hat ... for the christening. A present. You know how you always liked surprise presents."
"Oh, Olivia . . . no!"
"Oh, please yes. Why shouldn't I give you a present. I want to."
"I know," I said, "it is such a fashionable occasion that what I have simply wouldn't fit."
"What does that matter? Please, Caroline, it would please me so much."
There was a knock on the door and a maid entered. She announced that a gentleman was here and asking for Miss Tressidor.
I knew who it was before he was brought in.
"This is Mr. Jago Landower," I told Olivia.
"And this is the divine Olivia. I have heard so much about you."
"I've heard of you, too," said Olivia.
"I hope your sister did not malign me."
"I think I gave a fairly true picture," I said.
"Oh did you? That causes me some considerable alarm."
Olivia laughed. She clearly liked his handsome looks and merry manner.
"She made you sound most attractive," she said.
"And kept quiet about my misdemeanours. Caroline, I have misjudged you."
"You mustn't take too much notice of what he says," I told Olivia. "This is his usual way of talking."
"I trust i
t does not displease Mistress Olivia?"
"I like it," said Olivia.
"And where is the blessed infant?"
"All infants, blessed or otherwise, are in their nurseries at this hour," I said.
"I was hoping for a glimpse."
I looked at him in exasperation, knowing that he was not in the least interested in the baby, but trying to win Olivia's good graces.
"Oh, if you really would like it ..." began Olivia.
"If I left this house without seeing this wonder baby I should consider life had cheated me."
Olivia said: "Come on!" and started to lead the way to the nursery.
"You are ridiculous," I snapped at him.
"I know," he whispered back. "But so charming."
We went into the nursery and he made a good job in feigning an immense interest in the baby. He even held her in his arms and Livia seemed contented that he should do so.
"You see I have her approval," he said. "She is already aware of my masculine charms."
Olivia thought he was very amusing.
When we left the nursery I said: "We were going out."
"Allow me to accompany you."
"I have ordered the brougham," said Olivia.
"Then may I join you?"
"There is nothing I should like more," replied Olivia, "but we are going to pay a visit to a milliner."
"To get a hat for the ceremony? My help will be invaluable. I'm a connoisseur of ladies' hats."
"It's a hat for Caroline."
"How interesting!"
"I suppose Rosie makes the hats. There won't be time before the christening," I said.
"Oh, Rosie is certain to have something there. She does make specially but she has large stocks and I don't think you will be very difficult to suit."
"What fun!" said Jago. "What a delightful way in which to spend a morning."
"Would you like some refreshment before we go, Mr ..."
"Call me Jago, and I am going to call you Olivia. After all, we are not strangers, are we? We have met through our go-between, dear Caroline. I feel I know you so well."
"It's lovely to see you," said Olivia warmly. "I've always wanted to meet some of the people Caroline wrote about. You're almost exactly as I imagined you."
"But not quite. Better or worse?"
"You're much more handsome and amusing."
"Oh, Caroline, you've been misrepresenting me, after all."
"You don't know him yet, Olivia."
"She has a sharp tongue, your sister."
"She always did have that-—repartee, isn't it? I was never clever enough for it."
" 'Be good sweet maid and let who will be clever.' Your sister Caroline brings out the erudition in me ... which I must confess is a little sparse."
"Olivia was asking about refreshments," I said. "We have just had breakfast."
"Well, so have I. Let's set about choosing this hat, shall we? I'm all agog."
Olivia looked very pretty in her pale blue gown with a hat to match. A little matronly, yes, but how becoming that was! Happiness had changed her, even given her a little of that confidence which she had once lacked to such a large extent. It surprised me that a man like Jeremy could have done that for her. I wondered whether she irritated him as Gwennie did Paul. She was a very different person from Gwennie. There was none of that self-assertion which I believed was anathema to men. My observations told me that men liked to consider themselves supreme. In the short time I had seen Olivia and Jeremy together I realized that she was subservient to him although she had provided him with what he needed for a life of ease. It was different with Gwennie. She never ceased to remind her husband that his residence in the house of his forefathers was only possible because of her good will.
We pulled up before Rosie's establishment. A man in livery opened the door and ushered us in. A woman in black and white came forward hastily.
"Oh, Mrs. Brandon, Madam, good morning!"
Olivia said: "Good morning, Ethel. We shall be wanting a hat for my sister, Miss Tressidor."
Ethel clasped her hands and regarded me with ecstasy as though supplying a hat for me was a task which would please her more than anything in the world.
"But first," said Olivia, "we should like to see Madam Russell herself."
"Do come in, please," begged Ethel, "and I will tell Madam. The gentleman will come too?"
"Oh yes, Miss Ethel. He wants to be present," said Jago, passing a very experienced glance over Ethel's charms which were considerable. I noticed speculation in his eyes. Ethel was aware of it, too. No doubt she was accustomed to such looks from the men who accompanied their womenfolk into the establishment. She preened a little as we followed her into a small room elegantly furnished. The curtains and carpet were the colour of lapis lazuli and even had streaks of gold in them.
When Ethel had gone I whispered, "Imagine. All this is Rosie's."
"Rosie is very clever, obviously," said Olivia.
"Who is the priestess of this holy temple?" asked Jago.
"She's Rosie, who has come up in the world."
Ethel returned and asked us to follow her. We were taken to a room with the same coloured rich furnishings and I noticed that the blue-and-gold motif was repeated throughout the establishment.
A woman rose from a desk as we entered. She was tall, very slim and clad in black; her hair was piled high on her head and that with her high heels gave her elegance and height. But the eyes were as mischievous as ever.
"Why," she cried, "if it is not Miss Caroline!"
I went to her and hugged her, reacting on impulse.
"Oh, Rosie," I said, "I hardly recognized you amidst all this splendour."
"It's the same old Rosie. Well, not quite the same ... a bit older and much wiser. That's how it should be, eh? And the gentleman?"
"Mr. Jago Landower. He comes from Cornwall."
He bowed to her.
"It is so good of you to allow me to enter this holy of holies."
"I like that," she said. "Holy of holies, eh? I wish I'd thought of that."
"He thinks he can help me choose a hat," I said.
"Is this for the christening?" asked Rosie.
I nodded.
"I have the very thing."
"I knew you would have," cried Olivia. "Isn't it wonderful to see her here, Rosie?"
"It's a great pleasure."
"What a marvellous establishment you have here," said Jago. "I wish I wore lovely hats with whirly feathers."
"You would have to go back a few centuries," I told him. "I think they'd become you rather well."
"Of course they would. How boring to be in this age! As far as dress is concerned, I mean."
"I should hardly think the rest of it is boring for you, Mr. Landower," said Rosie. "Now I'm sending for champagne. This is a celebration. How long is it since I saw you, Miss Caroline?"
"Quite a long time."
"And here you are in London for the christening. What a fine baby she is, eh? And you're going to be the proud godmother."
"Yes, I'm pleased and honoured by that."
"Of course I'd want Caroline to be my baby's godmother," said Olivia.
The champagne was brought. Rosie asked Jago to pour it out, which he did and brought it round to us all, his eyes bright with pleasure. He was enjoying this.
I whispered to him: "I hope you are finding your trip worth while."
"Completely," he answered. "Thank you for letting me come."
"I didn't let you. You came uninvited."
"Nevertheless, I shall be at the christening. I have already asked Olivia for an invitation."
"Which has been granted?"
"With alacrity."
Rosie herself presided over the selection of my hat. I was seated before a mirror and several were brought out for me to try on. She wanted to know what my dress would be. It was to be the same one which I had worn for my mother's wedding and once at Landower. Cream-coloured, I explained, and I had an em
erald brooch which my mother had given me.
Rosie decreed that the hat must be emerald green. It really was rather enchanting and everyone agreed that it suited me admirably. There was an ostrich feather—half green, half cream, which shaded my eyes.
"Perfect!" cried Jago.
"Yes," agreed Rosie. "You are right."
Rosie wanted to give me the hat as a present, but Olivia insisted on paying for it. When I saw the price I was a little alarmed. I was clearly not rich enough to shop at Rosie's establishment.
I said I must pay for the hat myself, although I should be impoverished for some time to come; but at last Olivia won the day. She wanted to give me a present, she said, and would be very hurt if I did not accept this hat which was clearly meant for me.
Before we left I had a word with Rosie.
"I'd like to talk to you . . . sometime," she said.
"Oh . . . what about?"
"Something . . . Could you come alone?"
"Is there something wrong?"
She lifted her shoulders. "I'd like to talk ... all the same," she said enigmatically.
I said I would make sure of seeing her again before I went back to Cornwall.
We went back to the house.
Olivia asked Jago if he would care to stay for luncheon and he accepted with enthusiasm.
Two days later the christening took place. It was a solemn and moving occasion. Naturally Aunt Imogen was present and she was quite affable to me though somewhat aloof. I felt a new responsibility. This little child was my goddaughter.
I was so proud and went out and paid more than I could afford for a silver porringer on which I had her initials engraved.
I spent a good deal of time in the nursery. I think Nanny Loman found me rather a nuisance but she bore with me patiently because no doubt she thought I should not be there long; but Olivia was delighted with my interest in her baby.
"It makes me very happy," she said. "I feel safer now. If anything happened to me you'd be there to look after Livia."
"What do you mean ... if anything happened to you?"
"Well, if I wasn't here."
"But why shouldn't you be here? You're not likely to pass over Livia to her doting godmother, are you?"
"I mean if I wasn't here ..."
"If you were to die, you mean?"