He liked the rational sense of her words and returned to the fish, enjoying it more with each bite. Scudi, he saw, was eating as much as he even though she was much smaller. He liked the delicate flick of her chopsticks into the bowl and at the edge of her mouth.
What a beautiful mouth, he thought. He remembered how she had given him that first breath of life.
She caught him staring and he quickly returned his attention to his bowl.
“The sea takes much energy, much heat,” she said. “I wear a dive suit as little as possible. Hot shower, much hot food, a warm bed—these are always needed. Do you work the Islander subs topside, Brett?”
Her question caught him off guard. He’d begun to think that she had no curiosity about him.
Maybe I’m just some kind of obligation to her, he thought. If you save someone, maybe you’re stuck with them.
“I’m a surface fisherman for a contractor named Twisp,” he said. “He’s the one that
I most want to get word to. He’s a strange man, but the best in a boat I’ve seen.”
“Surface,” she said. “That’s much danger from dashers, isn’t it? Have you seen dashers?”
He tried to swallow in a suddenly dry throat. “We carry squawks. They warn us,
you know.” He hoped that she wouldn’t notice the dodge.
“We’re afraid of your nets,” she said. “Sometimes visibility is bad and they can’t be seen. Mermen have been killed in them.”
He nodded, remembering the thrashing and the blood and Twisp’s stories of other Mermen deaths in the nets. Should he mention that to Scudi? Should he ask about the strange reaction of the Maritime Court? No … she might not understand. This would be a barrier between them.
Scudi sensed this, too. He could tell because she spoke too quickly. “Would you not prefer to work in your subs? I know they are soft-bellied, not like ours at all, but …”
“I think … I think I’d like to stay with Twisp unless he goes back to the subs. I’d sure like to know if he’s all right.”
“We will rest and when we wake, you will meet some of our people who can help. Mermen travel far. We pass along the word. You will hear of him and he of you … if that’s your wish.”
“My wish?” He stared at her, absorbing this. “You mean I could choose to … disappear?”
She shrugged her eyebrows, accenting the gamin look. “Where you want to be is where you should be. Who you want to be is the same, not so?”
“It can’t be that simple.”
“If you have not broken the law, there are possibilities down under. The Merman world is big. Wouldn’t you like to stay here?” She coughed and he wondered if she had been about to say “stay here with me?” Scudi suddenly seemed much older, more worldly. Talk among the Islanders gave Brett the impression that Mermen had an extra sophistication, a sense of belonging anywhere they went, of knowing more than Islanders.
“Do you live alone?” he asked.
“Yes. This was my mother’s place. And it’s close to where my father lived.”
“Don’t Merman families live together?”
She scowled. “My parents … stubborn, both of them. They couldn’t live together. I lived with my father for a long time, but … he died.” She shook her head and he saw the memories pain her.
“I’m sorry,” he said. “Where’s your mother?”
“She is dead too.” Scudi looked away from him. “My mother was net-bound less than a year ago.” Scudi’s throat moved with a convulsive swallow as she turned back to him. “It has been difficult … there is a man, GeLaar Gallow, who became my mother’s … lover. That was after …” She broke off and shook her head sharply.
“I’m sorry, Scudi,” he said. “I didn’t mean to bring back painful—”
“But I want to talk about it! Down here,there is no one I can … I mean, my closest friends avoid the subject and I …” She rubbed her left cheek. “You are a new friend and you listen.”
“Of course, but I don’t see what …”
“After my father died, my mother signed over … You understand, Brett, that my father was Ryan Wang, there was much wealth?”
Wang! he thought. Merman Mercantile. His rescuer was a wealthy heiress!
“I … I didn’t …”
“It is all right. Gallow was to be my stepfather. My mother signed over to him control of much that my father left. Then she died.”
“So there’s nothing for you.”
“What? Oh, you mean from my father. No, that is not my problem. Besides, Kareen Ale is my new guardian. My father left her … many things. They were friends.”
“What … you said there’s a problem.” “Everyone wants Kareen to marry Gallow and Gallow pursues this.”
Brett noted that Scudi’s lips tightened every time she spoke Gallow’s name. “What is wrong with this Gallow?” he asked.
Scudi spoke in a low voice. “He frightens me.”
“Why? What’s he done?”
“I don’t know. But he was on the crew when my father died … and when my
mother died.”
“Your mother … you said a net …”
“An Islander net. That is what they said.”
He lowered his gaze, remembering his recent experience with a Merman in the net.
Seeing the look on his face, Scudi said: “I have no resentment toward you. I can see that you are sorry. My mother knew the danger of nets.”
“You said Gallow was with your parents when they died. Do you …”
“I have never spoken of this to anyone before. I don’t know why I say it to you, but you are sympathetic. And you … I mean …”
“I owe you.”
“Oh, no! It is nothing like that. It’s just … I like your face and the way you listen.”
Brett lifted his gaze and met her staring at him. “Is there no one who can help you?” he asked. “You said Kareen Ale … everyone knows about her. Can’t she—”
“I would never say these things to Kareen!”
Brett studied Scudi for a moment, seeing the shock and fear in her face. He already had a sense of the wildness in Merman life from the stories told among Islanders. Violence was no stranger down here, if the stories were to be believed. But what Scudi suggested …
“You wonder if Gallow had anything to do with the deaths of your parents,” he said.
She nodded without speaking. “Why do you suspect this?”
“He asked me to sign many papers but I pleaded ignorance and consulted Kareen. I don’t think the papers he showed her were the same ones he brought to me. She has not said yet what I should do.”
“Has he … ” Brett cleared his throat. “What I mean is … you are … that is, sometimes Islanders marry young.”
“There has been nothing like that, except he tells me to hurry and grow up. It is all a joke. He says he is tired of waiting for me.”
“How old are you?”
“I will be sixteen next month. You?”
“I’ll be seventeen in five months.”
She looked at his net-calloused hands. “Your hands say you work hard, for an Islander.” Immediately, she popped a hand over her mouth. Her eyes went wide.
Brett had heard Merman jokes about lazy Islanders sunning themselves while Mermen built a world under the sea. He scowled.
“I have a big mouth,” Scudi said. “I find someone at last who can really be my friend and I offend him.”
“Islanders aren’t lazy,” Brett said.
Scudi reached out impulsively and took his right hand in hers. “I have only to look at you and I know the stories are lies.”
Brett pulled his hand away. He still felt hurt and bewildered. Scudi might say something soothing to smooth it over, but the truth had come out involuntarily.
I work hard, for an Islander!
Scudi got to her feet and busied herself removing the dishes and the remains of their meal. Everything went into a pneumatic slot at the kitchen wall an
d vanished with a click and a hiss.
Brett stared at the slot. The workers who took care of that probably were Islanders permanently hidden from view.
“Central kitchens and all this space,” he said. “It’s Mermen who have things easy.”
She turned toward him, an intent expression on her face. “Is that what Islanders say?”
Brett felt his face grow hot. “I don’t like jokes that lie,” Scudi said. “I don’t think you do, either.”
Brett swallowed past a sudden lump in his throat. Scudi was so direct! That was not the Islander way at all, but he found himself attracted by it.
“Queets never tells those jokes and I don’t either,” Brett said.
“This Queets, he is your father?”
Brett thought suddenly about his father and his mother—the butterfly life between intense bouts of painting. He thought about their downcenter apartment, the many things they owned and cared for—furniture, art work, even some Merman appliances. Queets, though, owned only what he could store in his boat. He owned what he truly needed—a kind of survival selectivity.
“You are ashamed of your father?” Scudi asked.
“Queets isn’t my father. He’s the fisherman who owns my contract—Queets Twisp.”
“Oh, yes. You do not own many things, do you, Brett? I see you looking around my quarters and …” She shrugged.
“The clothes on my back were mine,” Brett said. “When I sold my contract to Queets, he took me on for training and gave me what I need. There isn’t room for useless stuff on a coracle.”
“This Queets, he is a frugal man? Is he cruel to you?”
“Queets is a good man! And he’s strong. He’s stronger than anyone I’ve ever known. Queets has the longest arms you’ve ever seen, perfect for working the nets. They’re almost as long as he is tall.”
A barely perceptible shudder crossed Scudi’s shoulders. “You like this Queets very much,” she said.
Brett looked away from her. That unguarded shudder told it all. Islanders made Mermen shudder. He felt the pain of betrayal deep in his guts. “You Mermen are all the same,” he said. “Mutants don’t ask to be that way.”
“I don’t think of you as a mutant, Brett,” she said. “Anyone can see that you’re normalized.”
“There!” Brett snapped, glaring at her. “What’s normal? Oh, I’ve heard the talk: Islanders are having more ‘normal’ births these days … and there’s always surgery. Twisp’s long arms offend you? Well, he’s no freak. He’s the best fisherman on Pandora because he fits what he does.”
“I see that I’ve learned many wrong things,” Scudi said, her voice low. “Queets Twisp must be a good man because Brett Norton admires him.” A wry smile touched her lips and was gone. “Have you learned no wrong things, Brett?”
“I’m … after what you did for me, I should not be talking to you this way.”
“Wouldn’t you save me if I were caught in your net? Wouldn’t you …”
“I’d go in after you and damn the dashers!”
She grinned, an infectious expression that Brett found himself answering in kind.
“I know you would, Brett. I like you. I learn things about Islanders from you that I didn’t know. You are different, but …”
His grin vanished. “My eyes are good eyes!” he snapped, thinking this was the difference she meant.
“Your eyes?” She stared at him. “They are beautiful eyes! In the water, I saw your eyes first. They are large eyes and … difficult to escape.” She lowered her gaze. “I like your eyes.”
“I … I thought …”
Again, she met his gaze. “I’ve never seen two Islanders exactly alike, but Mermen are never exactly alike, either.”
“Everyone down under won’t feel that way,” he accused. “Some will stare,” she agreed. “It is not normal to be curious?”
“They’ll call me Mute,” he said.
“Most will not.”
“Queets says words are just funny ripples in the air or printed squiggles.” Scudi laughed. “I would like to meet this Queets. He sounds like a wise man.”
“Nothing much ever bothered him except losing his boat.”
“Or losing you? Will that bother him?”
Brett sobered. “Can we get word to him?”
Scudi touched the transphone button and voiced his request over the grill in the wall. The response was too quiet for Brett to hear. She did it casually. He thought then that this marked the difference between them more firmly than his own overlarge eyes with their marvelous night vision.
Presently, Scudi said: “They will try to get word to Vashon.” She stretched and yawned.
Even yawning, she was beautiful, he thought. He glanced around the room, noting the closeness of the two cots. “You lived here with just your mother?” he asked. Immediately, he saw the sad expression return to Scudi’s face and he cursed himself. “I’m sorry, Scudi. I should not keep reminding you of her.”
“It’s all right, Brett. We are here and she is not. Life continues … and I do my mother’s work.” Again, that gamin grin twisted her mouth. “And you are my first roommate.”
He scratched his throat, embarrassed, not knowing the moral rules between the sexes down under. What did it mean to be a roommate? Stalling for time, he asked: “What is this work of your mother’s that you do?”
“I told you. I mathematic the waves.”
“I don’t know what that means.”
“Where new waves or wave patterns are seen, I go. As my mother did and both her parents before her. It is a thing for which our family has a natural talent.”
“But what do you do?”
“How the waves move, that tells us how the suns move and how Pandora responds to that movement.”
“Oh? Just from looking at the waves, you … I mean, waves are gone just like that!” He snapped his fingers.
“We simulate the waves in a lab,” she said. “You know about wavewalls, I’m sure,” she said. “Some go completely around Pandora several times.”
“And you can tell when they’ll come?”
“Sometimes.” He thought about this. The extent of Merman knowledge suddenly daunted him. “You know we warn the Islands when we can,” she said.
He nodded.
“To mathematic the waves, I must translate them,” she said. She patted her head absently, exaggerating her gamin appearance. “Translate is a better word than mathematic,” she said. “And I teach what I do, of course.”
Of course! he thought. An heiress! A rescuer! And now an expert on waves!
“Who do you teach?” he asked, wondering if he could learn this thing she did. How valuable that would be for the Islands!
“The kelp,” she said. “I translate waves for the kelp.”
He was shocked. Was she joking, making fun of Islander ignorance?
She saw the expression on his face because she went on, quickly: “The kelp learns. It can be taught to control currents and waves … when it returns to its former density, it will learn more. I teach it some of the things it must know to survive on Pandora.”
“This is a joke, isn’t it?” he asked.
“Joke?” She looked puzzled. “Don’t you know the stories of the kelp as it was? It fed itself, it moved gases in and out of the water. The hylighters! Oh, I would love to see them! The kelp knew so many things, and it controlled the currents, the sea itself. All of this the kelp did once.”
Brett gaped at her. He recalled schooltime stories about the sentient kelp, one creature alive as a single identity in all of its parts. But that was ancient history, from the time when men had lived on solid land above Pandora’s sea.
“And it will do this again?” he whispered.
“It learns. We teach it how to make currents and to neutralize waves.”
Brett thought about what this might mean to Island life—drifting on predictable currents in predictable depths. They could follow the weather, the fishing … An odd turn o
f thought put this out of his mind. He considered it almost unworthy, but who could know for certain what an alien intelligence might do?
Scudi, noting his expression, asked: “Are you well?”
He spoke almost mechanically. “If you can teach the kelp to control the waves, then it must know how to make waves. And currents. What’s to prevent it from wiping us out?”
She was scornful. “The kelp is rational. It would not further the kelp to destroy us or the Islands. So it will not.”
Again, she stilled a yawn and he recalled her comment that she had to go back to work soon.
The ideas she had put into his head whirled there, though, leaving him on edge, driving away all thought of sleep. Mermen did so many things! They knew so much!
“The kelp will think for itself.” He recalled hearing someone say that, a conversation at the quarters of his parents—important people talking about important matters.
“But that could not happen without Vata,” someone had said in response. “Vata is the key to the kelp.”
That had begun what he remembered as a sprightly and boo-inspired conversation, which, as usual, ran from speculative to paranoid and back.
“I’ll turn out the light for your modesty,” Scudi said. She giggled and touched the light down through dim to barely shadow. He watched her fumble her way to her bed.
It’s dark to her, he thought. For me she just turned down the glare. He shifted on the edge of his bed.
“You have a girlfriend topside?” Scudi asked.
“No … not really.”
“You have never shared a room with a girl?”
“On the Islands, you share everything with everyone. But to have a room, two people alone, that’s for couples who are new to each other. For mating. It is very expensive.”
“Oh, my,” she said.
In the shadow-play of his peculiar vision he watched her fingers dance nervously over the surface of her cot.
“Down under we share for mating, yes, but we also share rooms for other reasons. Work partners, schoolmates, good friends. I mean only for you to have one night of recovery. Tomorrow there will be others and questions and tours and much noise …” Still her hands moved in that nervous rhythm.