But perhaps, I thought as I straightened up, I’m not very real here after all, because my body has to be in a trance back at the stadium. Then I thought, I keep having to do what this man tells me. In a minute he’s going to say, Go on, die. And I shall do that wherever I am.
I said, “So he—she’s not a totem.”
“I didn’t say that,” the man said. “She wouldn’t have come to you if she wasn’t. I simply meant that she’s as much flesh and blood as Slatch is.” He reached out and rubbed the head of the spotted cat. His hand was thin and all sinews, the sort of strong, squarish hand I’d always wished I had, full of power. The cat gazed at me from under it sarcastically. See? it seemed to say.
I knew it was only seconds before he was going to tell me to die, and I started to play for time like anything. “And this wood,” I said. “Is this wood real, then?”
His thin black eyebrows went up, irritably. “All the paths and places beyond the worlds have substance,” he said.
“Even …” I made a careful gesture toward the turquoise oval, making it slow in order not to annoy that spotted cat. “Even if you can see that from here? They can’t both be real.”
“Why not?” he more or less snapped. “You have a very limited notion of what’s real, don’t you? Will it make you any happier to be somewhere you regard as real?”
“I don’t kn—” I began to say. Then I choked it off because we were suddenly back in the concrete passage under the seats of the stadium and a little patter of applause was coming from overhead. I was standing in front of this man and his killer cat, exactly as I had been under the tree, but the black panther wasn’t there. She must be relieved! I thought, and I took a quick look round for my body, which I was sure had to be sitting against the wall in a trance.
It wasn’t there. I could see the place where it had been by the scuff marks that my heels had made on the floor. But I was the only one of me there. The time seemed to be much later. The light coming in from the grids slanted the other way and looked more golden. I could feel that the patter of clapping was faint and tired overhead, at the end of a long day.
This is only a dream! I told myself in a panic. Someone can’t have made off with my body! Can they?
“You were in the wood in your body, too,” the man told me, as if I was almost too stupid for him to bother with. In here he seemed even more powerful. He wasn’t much taller than me, and a lot skinnier, but he was like a nuclear bomb standing in that passage, ready to go off and destroy everything for miles. His cat was pure semtex. It stared up at me and despised me, and its eyes were deep and glassy in the orange light.
“If you’re going to kill me,” I said, “you might as well tell me who you are and who hired you. And why. You owe me that.”
“I owe you nothing,” he said. “I was interested to know why someone thought you worth eliminating, that’s all. And I don’t think you are. You’re too ignorant to be a danger to anyone. I shall tell them that when I refuse the commission. That should make them lose interest in you—but if they send anyone else after you, you’d better come to me. I’ll teach you enough to protect yourself. We can settle the fee when you arrive.”
He sort of settled his weight a different way. I could tell he was ready to leave. I was all set to burst with relief—but the spotted cat was not pleased at all. Its tail swished grittily against the floor, and I just hoped the man could control it. It was a big creature. Its head came almost up to my chest, and its muscles were out in lumps on its neck. I knew it was longing to tear my throat out.
Then the man settled his weight toward me again. I was so terrified I felt as if I was melting. His eyes were so yellow and cutting. “One other thing,” he said. “What are you doing here in a world that has nothing to do with you, masquerading as a mage?”
“I don’t know,” I said. “This is a dream, really.”
One of his eyebrows went up. He had been pretty contemptuous of me all along. Now he really despised me. “It is?” he said, and shrugged his leather-covered shoulders. “People’s capacity to deceive themselves always amazes me. If you want to live past the age of twenty, you’d be well advised to learn to see the truth at all times. I’ll tell you that for nothing,” he said. Then he did turn and go. He swung round, and he walked away as if he couldn’t bear the sight of me any longer. The cat rose up on its muscle-bound tiptoes and walked after him, swinging its tail rudely.
“Wait a moment!” I called after him. “Who are you, for heaven’s sake?”
I’d expected him just to go on walking away, but he stopped and looked over his shoulder, giving me the benefit of his lightning-strike profile again. “Since you put it like that,” he said, “I’m generally known as Romanov. Ask your little mages about me if you like.”
Then he turned his head away and went on walking, and the cat after him, round the curve of the corridor and out of sight. In spite of the way he’d made me feel, I nearly laughed. He and that cat—they both walked the same way.
I hoped they’d run into the soldier on guard round there, but I knew they wouldn’t. The soldier would have come off worst anyway.
3
RODDY
ONE
Grandad must have done the trick. Though there was a coldness between England and Scotland after this—and there still is—both armies moved back from the border, and nobody talked about the Scottish King much or even mentioned the poor old Merlin. Instead, the Court and the media began worrying about the Meeting of Kings that was due to happen on the Welsh border soon. Will Logres and the Pendragon meet in peace? That sort of thing. In between, they went back to being angry about Flemish trading practices, just as usual.
Nobody seemed to be suspecting Dad anymore. Grandad only stayed with the Court until the King had spared a moment to have a friendly chat with Dad, and then he left, saying he had a book to finish. The new Merlin left, too. Part of his duties at the start of his tenure was to visit every place of power in the country, and a few in Wales, too, and attune himself to them. I think he was hoping that Grandad would go with him and advise him. He looked wistful when Grandad left. This Merlin was one of those who get what they want by looking wistful, but that never works with Grandad, so he was on his own. He climbed wistfully into the little brown car Grandad had helped him buy and chugged away.
We went back to normal. That is to say, we were rumbling along in buses most of the time, with rumors flying about where we were going next—although nobody ever knows that until a few hours before we get to wherever it is. The King likes to keep the Court and the country on their toes.
The unusual thing was the exceptionally fine weather. When I asked Dad about it, he said the King had asked him to keep it that way until the Meeting of Kings at the edge of Wales. So at least we were warm.
We spent three unexpected days in Leeds. I think the King wanted to inspect some factories there, but after the usual flustered greeting by the city council it was blissful. We stayed in houses. Mam squeezed some money out of Sybil and took me and Grundo shopping. We got new clothes. There was time. We had civilized lessons in the mornings, sitting at tables in a room, and we could explore the city in the afternoons. I even enjoyed the riding lessons—which I don’t much usually—out on the moorlands in the hot sun, riding past the carefully repaired green places where there had been mines and quarries.
“I’m going to be Mayor of Leeds when I grow up,” Grundo announced as we rode against the sky one morning. “I shall live in a house with a bathroom.” He meant this so much that his voice went right down deep on the word bathroom. We both hate the bath tents, even though the arrangements are quite efficient and there is usually hot water from the boiler lorry and towels from the laundry bus. But you get out of your canvas bath to stand shivering on wet grass, and there is always wind getting into the tent from somewhere.
We were sad when we had to leave. Off we went, the whole procession of the Court. We spread for miles. The King is often half a day ahead in his off
icial car, with his security and his wizards and advisers beside him. These are followed by all sorts of Court cars, everything from the big square limousine with tinted windows belonging to the Duke of Devonshire to the flashy blue model driven by Sir James; Sir James had turned up again when we were leaving Leeds. The media bus hurries along after the cars, trying to keep up with events, and a whole string of administrative buses follows the media—with Mam in one of them, too busy even to look out of a window—and then the various lorries lumber after the buses. Some lorries are steaming with food or hot water, in case these are needed when we stop, and some are carrying tents and soldiers and things. The buses for the unimportant people follow the lorries. We are always last.
It often takes a whole day to go twenty miles. Parliament is always proposing that fine new roads get built so that the King—and other people—could travel more easily, but the King is not in favor of this, so they don’t get done. There are only two King’s Roads in the entire country, one between London and York and the other between London and Winchester. We spend most of our journeys groaning round corners or grinding along between hedges that clatter on both sides of our bus.
It was like that for the two days after we left Leeds. The roads seemed to get narrower, and on the second day the countryside beyond the windows became greener and greener, until we were grinding among hills that were an almost incredible dense emerald color. By the evening we were rumbling through small lanes, pushing our way past foamy banks of white cow parsley. Our bus got stuck crossing a place where a small river ran across the lane, and we arrived quite awhile after the rest of the Court.
There was a castle there, on a hill. It belonged to Sir James, and the King was staying in it. Although it looked quite big, we were told that most of it was rooms of state and there was no space in it for anyone except the King’s immediate circle. Everyone else was in a camp in fields just below the gardens. By the time we got there, it looked as if the camp had been there for days. In the office tents, Mam and her colleagues were hard at work on their laptops, making the most of the daylight, and Dad was in the wizards’ tent being briefed about what magic would be needed. And the teachers were looking for us to give that day’s lessons.
“We must get a look inside that castle,” Grundo said to me as we were marched off to the teaching bus.
“Let’s try after lessons,” I said.
But during lessons we discovered that the King had one of his ritual duties that night. Everyone with any magical abilities was required to attend. This meant Grundo and me, as well as Alicia and the old Merlin’s grandchildren and six of the other children.
“Bother!” I said. I was really frustrated.
Then at supper someone said that we were going to be here at Castle Belmont for days. The King liked the place, and it was near enough to the Welsh border that he could go to meet the Welsh King in a week’s time without needing to move on.
I said that was good news. Grundo said morosely, “Maybe. That’s the worst of arriving late. Nobody tells you things.”
Nobody had told us anything about the ritual duty, except that it began at sunset somewhere called the Inner Garden. After we’d changed into good clothes, we followed everyone else as they went there and hoped someone would tell us what to do when we got to the place. We straggled after the line of robed wizards and people in Court dress, past beds of flowers and a long yew hedge, and then on a path across a lawn toward a tall, crumbly stone wall with frondy creepers trailing along its top.
“I know I’m going to hate this,” Grundo said. Rituals don’t agree with him. I think this is because his magic is back to front. Magical ceremonies often make him dizzy, and once or twice he has disgracefully thrown up in holy places of power.
“Keep swallowing,” I warned him as we went in under the old stone gateway.
Inside, it was all new and fresh and different. There was a garden inside the old walls—a garden inside a garden—cupped inside its own small valley and as old and green as the hills. There was ancient stonework everywhere, worn flagstones overhung with flowering bushes, or isolated arches beside stately old trees. There were lawns that seemed even greener than the lawns outside. Above all, it was alive with water. Strange, fresh-smelling water that ran in conduits of old stone and gushed from stone pipes into strange, lopsided stone pools or cascaded in hidden places behind old walls.
“This is lovely!” I said.
“I think I agree,” Grundo said. He sounded quite surprised.
“Fancy someone like Sir James owning a place like this!” I said.
It was hard to tell how big this Inner Garden was. You hardly noticed all the finely dressed people crowding into it. It seemed to absorb them, so that they vanished away among the watery lawns and got shadowy under the trees. You felt that twice as many people would hardly be noticed in here.
But that was before Sybil took charge and began passing out candles to the pages. “Everyone take a candle—you, too, Your Majesty—and everyone who can must conjure flame to them. Pages will light the others for those who can’t,” she instructed, bustling about barefoot, with her green velvet skirts hitched up. She bustled up to the King and personally called fire to his candle. The Merlin lit Prince Edmund’s for him. I was interested to see that the Merlin was back. He looked much less stunned and wistful than he had before. But as light after light flared up, sending the surrounding garden dark and blue, I found I was not liking this at all. It seemed to me that this place was intended to be dusky and secret, and only to be lit by the sunset light coming softly off the waters. The candles made it all glittery.
Grundo and I looked at one another. We didn’t either of us say anything, but we both pretended we were finding it hard to call light. Because we knew Sybil knew we never had any problems with fire, we backed away into some bushes and behind a broken wall and hoped she would forget we were there.
Luckily she was busy after that, far too busy to notice us. She was always very active doing any working, but I had never known her as active as she was then. She spread her arms wide, she raised her hands high and bent herself backward, she bent herself forward and made great beckonings, she made huge galloping leaps, and she raised loud cries to the spirit of the garden to come and vitalize us all. Then she twirled off, with her arms swooping this way and that, to the place where the nearest water came gushing out of a stone animal’s head, where she snatched up a silver goblet and held it under the water until it overflowed in all directions. She held it up to the sky; she held it to her lips.
“Ah!” she cried out. “The virtue in this water! The power of it!” With her hair swirling and wrapping itself across her sweating face, she brought the goblet to the King. “Drink, Sire!” she proclaimed. “Soak up the energy, immerse yourself, revel in the bounty of these healing waters! And everyone will do the same after you!”
The King took the goblet and sipped politely. As soon as he had, the Merlin filled another goblet and presented it to Prince Edmund.
“Drink, everyone!” Sybil caroled. “Take what is so freely given!” She began filling goblets and passing them around as if she was in a frenzy. Everyone caught the frenzy and seized the goblets and downed them as if they were dying of thirst.
This is all wrong! I thought. Some magics do require a frenzy, I know, but I was fairly sure this garden was not one of them. It was a quiet place. You were supposed to—supposed to—I remember searching in my head for what the garden was really like and having a hard job to think, because Sybil’s workings had set up such a loud shout of enchantment that it drowned out most other thoughts—you were supposed to dwell with the garden, that was it. You were supposed to let the garden come to you, not suck it up in a greedy riot like this. It was a small island of otherwhere and full of strength. But it was quiet strength, enclosed in a great bend of the River Severn, which meant that it certainly belonged to the Lady of Severn, who also ruled the great crescent of forest to the south. It seemed to me that this garden might
even be her most secret place. It ought to have been hushed and holy. Sir James—I could see him in the distance half lit by candles, tipping up his goblet and smacking his lips—Sir James must be supposed to guard the secret place, not open it to frantic magic making, not even for the King.
I don’t know how I knew all this, but I was sure of it. I murmured to Grundo, “I’m not doing any of this drinking.”
“She’s doctored the waters somehow,” he answered unhappily.
Grundo usually knew what his mother had been up to. I believed him. “Why?” I whispered.
“No idea,” he said, “but I’m going to have to drink some of it. She’ll know if I don’t.”
“Then let’s go and see if there’s a place higher up where she hasn’t got at it,” I said.
We moved off quietly sideways, in the direction the water was coming from, clutching our unlit candles and trying to keep out of sight. Nobody noticed us. They were all waving candles and passing goblets about, laughing. People were shouting out, “Oh! It’s so refreshing! I can feel it doing me good!” almost as if they were all drunk. It was easy to keep in the shadows and follow the waters. The waters flowed down in several stone channels—I had a feeling that each channel was supposed to give you some different goodness—that spread from one of the lopsided pools near the top of the slope.
“How about this?” I asked Grundo beside this pool. It was very calm there and twilit, with just a few birds twittering and a tree nearby breathing out some strong, quiet scent. I could see Grundo’s head as a lightness, gloomily shaking.