Say what I like. Let him be. He might have been half a man once....Keep a good look−out.' He disappeared below, leaving his mates facing one another, and more impressed than if they had seen a stone image shed a miraculous tear of compassion over the incertitudes of life and death.....
In the blue mist spreading from twisted threads that stood upright in the bowls of pipes, the forecastle appeared as vast as a hall. Between the beams a heavy cloud stagnated; and the lamps surrounded by halos burned each at the core of a purple glow in two lifeless flames without rays. Wreaths drifted in denser wisps.
Men sprawled about on the deck, sat in negligent poses, or, bending a knee, drooped with one shoulder against a bulkhead. Lips moved, eyes flashed, waving arms made sudden eddies in the smoke. The murmur of voices seemed to pile itself higher and higher as if unable to run out quick enough through the narrow doors.
The watch below in their shirts, and striding on long white legs resembled raving somnambulists; while now and then one of the watch on deck would rush in, looking strangely over−dressed, listen a moment, fling a rapid sentence into the noise and run out again; but a few remained near the door, fascinated, and with one ear turned to the deck.−−`Stick together, boys,' roared Davis. Belfast tried to make himself heard. Knowles grinned in a slow, dazed way. A short fellow with a thick clipped beard kept on yelling periodically:−−`Who's afeard? Who's afeard?' Another one jumped up, excited, with blazing eyes, sent out a sting of unattached curses and sat down quietly. Two men discussed familiarly, striking one another's breast in turn, to clinch arguments. Three others, with their heads in a bunch, spoke all together with a confidential air, and at the top of their voices. It was a stormy chaos of speech where intelligible fragments tossing, struck the ear. One could hear:−−Ìn the last ship'−−`Who cares? Try it on any one of us if−−.' `Knock under'−−`Not a hand's turn'−− `He says he is all right'−− Ì always thought'−−`Never mind.....' Donkin, crouching all in a heap against the bowsprit, hunched his shoulder−blades as high as his ears, and hanging a peaked nose, resembled a sick vulture with ruffled plumes. Belfast, straddling his legs, had a face red with yelling, and The Nigger of the Narcissus
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with arms thrown up, figured a Maltese cross. The two Scandinavians, in a corner, had the dumbfounded and distracted aspect of men gazing at a cataclysm. And, beyond the light, Singleton stood in the smoke, monumental, indistinct, with his head touching the beam; like a statue of heroic size in the gloom of a crypt.
He stepped forward, impassive and big. The noise subsided like a broken wave: but Belfast cried once more with uplifted arms:−−`The man is dying I tell ye!' then sat down suddenly on the hatch and took his head between his hands. All looked at Singleton, gazing upwards from the deck staring out of dark corners, or turning their heads with curious glances. They were expectant and appeased as if that old man, who looked at no one, had possessed the secret of their uneasy indignations and desires, a sharper vision, a clearer knowledge. And indeed standing there amongst them, he had the uninterested appearance of one who had seen multitudes of ships, had listened many times to voices such as theirs, had already seen all that could happen on the wide seas. They heard his voice rumble in his broad chest as though the words had been rolling towards them out of a rugged past. `What do you want to do?' he asked. No one answered. Only Knowles muttered−−Àye, aye,' and somebody said low:−−Ìt's a bloomin' shame.' He waited made a contemptuous gesture.−−Ì have seen rows aboard ship before some of you were born,' he said slowly, `for something or nothing; but never for such a thing.−−' `The man is dying, I tell ye,' repeated Belfast woefully, sitting at Singleton's feet.−−Ànd a black fellow, too,' went on the old seaman, Ì have seen them die like flies.' He stopped, thoughtful, as if trying to recollect gruesome things, details of horrors, hecatombs of niggers. They looked at him fascinated. He was old enough to remember slavers, bloody mutinies, pirates perhaps; who could tell through what violences and terrors he had lived! What would he say? He said:−−`You can't help him; die he must.' He made another pause. His moustache and beard stirred. He chewed words, mumbled behind white hairs; incomprehensible and exciting, like an oracle behind a veil.....−−`Stop ashore−−sick.−−Instead−−bringing all this head wind. Afraid. The sea will have her own.−−Die in the sight of land. Always so. They know it−−long passage−−more days, more dollars.−−you keep quiet.−−What do you want? Can't help him.' He seemed to wake up from a dream. `You can't help your selves,' he said austerely, `Skipper's no fool. He has something in his mind. Look out−−I say! I know 'em!' With eyes fixed in front he turned his head from right to left, from left to right, as if inspecting a long row of astute skippers.−−`He said 'e would brain me!' cried Donkin in a heartrending tone. Singleton peered downwards with puzzled attention, as though he couldn't find him.−−`Damn you!' he said vaguely, giving it up. He radiated unspeakable wisdom, hard unconcern, the chilling air of resignation. Round him all the listeners felt themselves somehow completely enlightened by their disappointment, and, mute, they lolled about with the careless ease of men who can discern perfectly the irremediable aspect of their existence. He, profound and unconscious, waved his arm once, and strode out on deck without another word.
Belfast was lost in a round−eyed meditation. One or two vaulted heavily into upper berths, and, once there, sighed; others dived head first inside lower bunks−−swift, and turning round instantly upon themselves, like animals going into lairs. The grating of a knife scraping burnt clay was heard. Knowles grinned no more.
Davies said, in a tone of ardent conviction:−−`Then our skipper's looney.' Archie muttered:−−`My faith! we haven't heard the last of it yet!' Four bells were struck.−−`Half our watch below is gone!' cried Knowles in alarm, then reflected, `Well, two hours sleep is something towards a rest,' he observed consolingly. Some already pretended to slumber; and Charley, sound asleep, suddenly said a few slurred words in an arbitrary, blank voice.−−`This blamed boy has worrums!' commented Knowles from under a blanket, and in a learned manner. Belfast got up and approached Archie's berth.−−`we pulled him out,' he whispered sadly.−−Ànd now we will have to chuck him overboard,' went on Belfast, whose lower lip trembled.−−`Chuck what?'
asked Archie.−−`Poor Jimmy,' breathed out Belfast.−−`He be blowed!' said Archie with untruthful brutality, and sat up in his bunk;Ìt's all through him. If it hadn't been for me, there would have been murder on board this ship!'−−`Tain't his fault, is it?' argued Belfast, in a murmur; Ì've put him to bed....and he ain't no heavier than an empty beef−cask,' he added, with tears in his eyes. Archie looked at him steadily, then turned his nose to the ship's side with determination. Belfast wandered about as though he had lost his way in the dim forecastle, and nearly fell over Donkin. He contemplated him from on high for awhile. Àin't ye going to turn in?' he asked. Donkin looked up hopelessly.−−`That black−'earted Scotch son of a thief kicked me!' he The Nigger of the Narcissus
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whispered from the floor, in a tone of utter desolation.−−Ànd a good job, too!' said Belfast, still very depressed; `You were as near hanging as damn−it to−night, sonny. Don't you play any of your murthering games around my Jimmy! You haven't pulled him out. You just mind! 'Cos if I start to kick you'−−he brightened up a bit−−ìf I start to kick you, it will be Yankee fashion−−to break something!' He tapped lightly with his knuckles the top of the bowed head. `You moind, me bhoy!' he concluded, cheerily. Donkin let it pass.−−`Will they split on me?' he asked, with pained anxiety.−−`Who−−split?' hissed Belfast, coming back a step. Ì would split your nose this minyt if I hadn't Jimmy to look after! Who d'ye think we are?' Donkin rose and watched Belfast's back lurch through the doorway. On all sides men slept, breathing calmly. He seemed to draw courage and fury from the peace around him. Venomous and thin−faced, he glared from the ample
misfit of borrowed clothes as if looking for something he could smash. His heart leaped wildly in his narrow chest. They slept! He wanted to wring necks, gouge eyes, spit on faces. He shook a dirty pair of meagre fists at the smoking lights. `Ye're no men!' he cried, in a deadened tone. No one moved. `Yer 'aven't the pluck of a mouse!' His voice rose to a husky screech. Wamibo blinked, uncomprehending but interested. Donkin sat down heavily; he blew with force through quivering nostrils, he ground and snapped his teeth, and, with the chin pressed hard against the breast, he seemed busy gnawing his way through it, as if to get at the heart within.....
In the morning the ship, beginning another day of her wandering life, had an aspect of sumptuous freshness, like the spring−time of the earth. The washed decks glistened in a long clear stretch; the oblique sunlight struck the yellow brasses in dazzling splashes, darted over the polished rods in lines of gold, and the single drops of salt water forgotten here and there along the rail were as limpid as drops of dew, and sparkled more than scattered diamonds. The sails slept hushed by a gentle breeze. The sun, rising lonely and splendid in the blue sky, saw a solitary ship gliding close−hauled on the blue sea.
The men pressed three deep abreast of the mainmast and opposite the cabin−door. They shuffled, pushed, had an irresolute mien and stolid faces. At every slight movement Knowles lurched heavily on his short leg.
Donkin glided behind backs, restless and anxious, like a man looking for an ambush. Captain Allistoun came out suddenly. He walked to and fro before the front. He was grey, slight, alert, shabby in the sunshine, and as hard as adamant. He had his right hand in the side−pocket of his jacket, and also something heavy in there that made folds all down that side. One of the seamen cleared his throat ominously.−−Ì haven't till now found fault with you men,' said the master, stopping short. He faced them with his worn, steely gaze, that by an universal illusion looked straight into every individual pair of the twenty pairs of eyes before his face. At his back, Mr. baker, bloomy and bull−necked, grunted low; Mr. Creighton, fresh as paint, had rosy cheeks and a ready, resolute bearing. Ànd I don't now,' continued the master; `but I am here to drive this ship and keep every man−jack aboard of her up to the mark. If you knew your work as well as I do mine, there would be no trouble. You've been braying in the dark about ``See to−morrow morning!'' Well, you see me now.
What do you want?' He waited, stepping quickly to and fro, giving them searching glances. What did they want? Jimmy was forgotten; no one thought of him, alone forward in his cabin, fighting great shadows, clinging to brazen lies, chuckling painfully over his transparent deceptions. No, not Jimmy; he was more forgotten than if he had been dead. They wanted great things. And suddenly all the simple words they knew seemed to be lost for ever in the immensity of their vague and burning desire. They knew what they wanted, but they could not find anything worth saying. They stirred on one spot, swinging, at the end of muscular arms, big tarry hands with crooked fingers. A murmur died out.−−`What is it−−food?' asked the master, `you know the stores had been spoiled off the Cape.'−−`We know that, sir,' said a bearded shell−back in the front rank−−`Work too hard−−eh? Too much for your strength?' he asked again. There was an offended silence.−−`We don't want to go shorthanded, sir,' began at last Davies in a wavering voice, ànd this 'ere black−−.... '−−Ènough!' cried the master. He stood scanning them for a moment, then walking a few steps this way and that began to storm at them coldly, in gusts violent and cutting like the gales of those icy seas that had known his youth.−−`Tell you what's the matter? Too big for your boots. Think yourselves damn good men. Know half your work. Do half your duty. Think it too much. If you did ten times as much it wouldn't be enough.'−−`We did our best by her, sir,' cried some one with shaky exasperation.−−`Your best,'
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stormed on the master; `You here a lot on shore, don't you? They don't tell you there your best isn't much to boast of. I tell you−−your best is no better than bad. You can do no more? No, I know, and say nothing. But you stop your caper or I will stop it for you! Stop it!' He shook a finger at the crowd. Às to that man,' he raised his voice very much; às to that man, if he puts his nose out on deck without my leave I will clap him in irons. There!' The cook heard him forward, ran out of the galley lifting his arms, horrified, unbelieving, amazed, and ran in again. There was a moment of profound silence during which a bow−legged seaman, stepping aside, expectorated decorously into the scupper. `There is another thing,' said the master calmly. He made a quick stride and with a swing took an iron belaying−pin out of his pocket. `This!' His movement was so unexpected and sudden that the crowd stepped back. He gazed fixedly at their faces, and some at once put on a surprised air as though they had never seen a belaying−pin before. He held it up. `This is my affair. I don't ask you any questions, but you all know it; it has got to go where it came from.' His eyes became angry.
The crowd stirred uneasily. They looked away from the piece of iron, they appeared shy, they were embarrassed and shocked as though it had been something horrid, scandalous, or indelicate, that in common decency should not have been flourished like this in broad daylight. The master watched them attentively.
`Donkin,' he called out in a short, sharp tone.
Donkin dodged behind one, then behind another, but they looked over their shoulders and moved aside. The ranks kept on opening before him, closing behind, till at last he appeared alone before the master as though he had come up through the deck. Captain Allistoun moved close to him. They were much of a size, and at short range the master exchanged a deadly glance with the beady eyes. They wavered,−−`You know this,' asked the master.−−`No, I don't,' answered the other with cheeky trepidation.−−`You are a cur. Take it,'ordered the master. Donkin's arms seemed glued to his thighs; he stood, e yes front, as if drawn on parade. `Take it,'
repeated the master, and stepped closer; they breathed on one another. `Take it,' said Captain Allistoun again, making a menacing gesture. Donkin tore away one arm from his side.−−`Vy hare yer down hon me?' he mumbled with effort as if his mouth had been full of dough.−−Ìf you don't.... ' began the master. Donkin snatched at the pin as though his intention had been to run away with it, and remained stock still holding it like a candle. `Put it back where you took it from,' said Captain Allistoun, looking at him fiercely. Donkin stepped back opening wide eyes. `Go, you blackguard, or I will make you,' cried the master, driving him slowly backwards by a menacing advance. He dodged, and with the dangerous iron tried to guard his head from a threatening fist. Mr. Baker ceased grunting for a moment.−−`Good! By Jove,' murmured appreciatively Mr. Creighton in the tone of a connoisseur.−−`Don't tech me,' snarled Donkin, backing away.−−`Then go. Go faster.'−−`Don't yer 'it me.....I will pull yer hup afore the magistryt.....I'll show yer hup.' Captain Allistoun made a long stride and Donkin, turning his back fairly, ran off a little, then stopped and over his shoulder showed yellow teeth.−−`Further on, fore−rigging,' urged the master, pointing with his arm.−−`Hare yer goin' to stand by and see me bullied,' screamed Donkin at the silent crowd that watched him.
Captain Allistoun walked at him smartly. He started off again with a leap, dashed at the fore−rigging, rammed the pin into its hole violently . Ì will be heven with yer yet,' he screamed at the ship at large and vanished beyond the foremast. Captain Allistoun spun round and walked back aft with a composed face, as though he had already forgotten the scene. Men moved out of his way. He looked at no one.−−`That will do, Mr. Baker. Send the watch below,' he said quietly. Ànd you men try to walk straight for the future,' he added in a calm voice. He looked pensively for a while at the of the impressed and retreating crowd. `Breakfast, steward,' he called in a tone of relief through the cabin door.−−Ì didn't like to see you−−Ou gh!−−give that pin to that chap, sir,' observed Mr. Baker; `he could have bust−−Ough!−−bust your head like an
eggshell with it.'−−Ò! he!' muttered the master absently. `Queer lot,' he went on in a low voice. Ì suppose it's all right now. Can never tell tho', nowadays, with such a....years ago; I was a young master then−−one China voyage I had a mutiny; real mutiny, Baker. Different men tho'. I knew what they wanted: they wanted to broach cargo and get at the liquor. Very simple.....We knocked them about for two days, and when they had enough−−gentle as lambs. Good crew. And a smart trip I made.' He glanced aloft at the yards braced sharp up. `Head wind day after day,' he exclaimed bitterly. `Will we never get a decent slant this passage?'−−`Ready, sir,' said the steward appearing before them as if by magic and with a stained napkin in his hand.−−Àh! All right. Come along Mr. Baker−−it's late−−with all this nonsense.'
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Chapter 5
A heavy atmosphere of oppressive quietude pervaded the ship. In the afternoon men went about washing clothes and hanging them out to dry in the unprosperous breeze with the meditative language of disenchanted philosophers. Very little was said. The problem of life seemed too voluminous for the narrow limits of human speech, and by common consent it was abandoned to the great sea that had from the beginning enfolded it in its immense grip; to the sea that knew all, and would in time infallibly unveil to each the wisdom hidden in all the errors, the certitude that lurks in doubts, the realm of safety and peace beyond the frontiers of sorrow and fear. And in the confused current of impotent thoughts that set unceasingly this way and that through bodies of men, Jimmy bobbed up upon the surface, compelling attention, like a black buoy chained to the bottom of a muddy stream. Falsehood triumphed. It triumphed through doubt, through stupidity through pity, through sentimentalism. We set ourselves to bolster it up, from compassion from recklessness, from a sense of fun. Jimmy's steadfastness to his untruthful attitude in the face of the inevitable truth had the proportions of a colossal enigma−−of a manifestation grand and incomprehensible that at times inspired a wondering awe; and there was also, to many, something exquisitely droll in fooling him thus to the top of his bent. The latent egoism of tenderness to suffering appeared in the developing anxiety not to see him die. His obstinate non−recognition of the only certitude whose approach we could watch from day to day was as disquieting as the failure of some law of nature. He was so utterly wrong about himself that one could not but suspect him of having access to some source of supernatural knowledge. He was absurd to the point of inspiration. He was unique, and as fascinating as only something inhuman could be; he seemed to shout his denials already from beyond the awful border. He was becoming immaterial like an apparition; his cheekbones rose, the forehead slanted more; the face was all hollows, patches of shade; and the fleshless head resembled a disinterred black skull, fitted with two restless globes of silver in the sockets of eyes. He was demoralising.