He answered, a trifle vacantly: “Why do you?”
“Because it will make Helen jealous.”
He became as if suddenly galvanised into attention. “What! Jealous! Jealous!—Of whom?—Of what?—Of you having me to take you home?”
Clare shook her head. “Oh, no. Of you having me to take home.”
He thought a moment and then said: “What, really?—Do you mean to tell me that—”
“Yes,” she interrupted. “And of course you don’t understand it, do you?—Men never understand Helen.”
“And why don’t they?”
“Because Helen doesn’t like men, and men can never understand that.”
He rejoined, heavily despondent: “Then I expect she dislikes me venomously enough. For it was I who asked her to play the piano, wasn’t it?”
“She wouldn’t dislike you any more for that,” replied Clare. “But let’s not discuss her. I hate gossiping about my friends.”
They chattered intermittently and inconsequently about books after that, and at the corner of High Street she insisted on his leaving her and proceeding to the general post office by the shortest route.
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CHAPTER II
I
In the morning he was awakened by Hartopp the School House porter ringing his noisy hand-bell through the dormitories. He looked at his watch; it was half-past six. There was no need for him to think of getting up yet; he had no early morning form, and so could laze for another hour if he so desired. But it was quite impossible to go to sleep again because his mind, once he became awake, began turning over the incidents of the day before and anticipating those of the day to come. He lay in bed thinking and excogitating, listening to the slow beginnings of commotion in the dormitories, and watching bars of yellow sunshine creeping up the bed towards his face. At half-past seven Hartopp tapped at the door and brought in his correspondence. There was a letter from home and a note, signed by the Head, giving him his work time-table. He consulted it immediately and discovered that he was put down for two forms that morning; four alpha in drawing and five gamma in general supervision.
His letter from home, headed “Beachings Over, near Framlingay, Essex. Tel. Framlingay 32. Stations: Framlingay 2½ miles; Pumphrey Bassett 3 miles,” ran as follows:
“MY DEAR KEN,—This will reach you on the first morning of term, won’t it, and your father and I both want you to understand that we wish you every success. It seems a funny thing to do, teaching in a boarding-school, but I suppose it’s all right if you like it, only of course we should have liked you to go into the business. I hope you can keep order with the boys, anyhow, they do say that poor Mr. Rideaway in the village has an awful time, the boys pour ink in his pockets when he isn’t looking. Father is going on business to Australia very soon and wants me to go with him, perhaps I may, but it sounds an outlandish sort of place to go to, doesn’t it. Since you left us we’ve had to get rid of Jukes—we found him stealing a piece of tarpaulin—so ungrateful, isn’t it, but we’ve got another under-gardener now, he used to be at Peverly Court but left because the old duke was so mean. Dick goes back to Marlborough to-day—they begin the same day as yours. By the way, why did you choose Millstead? I’d never heard of it till we looked it up, it isn’t well-known like Harrow and Rugby, is it. We had old Bennett and Sir Guy Blatherwick with us the last week-end, Sir Guy told us all about his travels in China, or Japan, I forget which. Well, write to us, won’t you, and drop in if yon get a day off any time—your affectionate mother, FANNY.”
After he had read it he washed and dressed in a leisurely fashion and descended in time for School breakfast at eight. Hartopp showed him his place, at the head of number four table, and he was interested to see by his plate a neatly folded Daily Telegraph. Businesslike, he commented mentally, and he was glad to see it because a newspaper is an excellent cloak for nervousness and embarrassment. His mother’s hint about his being possibly a bad disciplinarian put him on his guard; he was determined to succeed in this immensely important respect right from the start. Of course he possessed the enormous advantage of knowing from recent experience the habits and psychology of the average public-schoolboy.
But breakfast was not a very terrible ordeal. The boys nearest him introduced themselves and bade him a cheerful good morning, for there is a sense of fairness in schoolboys which makes them generous to newcomers, except where tradition decrees the setting-up of some definite ordeal. Towards the end of the meal Pritchard walked over from one of the other tables and enquired, in a voice loud enough for at any rate two or three of the boys to hear: “Well, Speed, old man, did you have a merry carousal at the Head’s last night?”
Speed replied, a little coldly: “I had a pleasant time.”
“I suppose now,” went on Pritchard, dropping his voice a little, but still not sufficiently to prevent the nearest boys from hearing, “you realise what I meant yesterday.”
“What was that?”
“When I said that you’d find out soon enough what she was like.”
Speed said crisply: “You warned me yesterday against talking shop. I might warn you now.”
“But that isn’t shop.”
“Well, whether it is or not I don’t propose to discuss it—now—and here.”
Almost without his being aware of it his voice had risen somewhat, so that at this final pronouncement the boys nearest him looked up with curiosity tinged with poorly-concealed amusement. It was rather obvious that Pritchard was unpopular.
Speed was sorry that he had not exercised greater control over his voice, especially when Pritchard, reddening, merely shrugged his shoulders and went away.
The boy nearest to Speed grinned and said audaciously: “That’ll take Mr. Pritchard down a peg, sir!”
Speed barked out (to the boy’s bewilderment): “Don’t be impertinent!”
For the rest of the meal he held up the Telegraph as a rampart between himself and the world.
II
He knew, at the end of the first school day, that he had been a success, and that if he took reasonable care he would be able to go on being a success. It had been a day of subtle trials and ordeals, yet he had, helped rather than hindered by his peculiar type of nervousness, got safely through them all.
Numerous were the pitfalls which he had carefully avoided. At school meals he had courteously declined to share jam and delicacies which the nearest to him offered. If he had he would have been inundated immediately with pots of jam and boxes of fancy cakes from all quarters of the table. Many a new Master at Millstead had finished his first meal with his part of the table looking like the counter of an untidy grocer’s shop. Instinct rather than prevision had saved Speed from such a fate. Instinct, in fact, had been his guardian angel throughout the day; instinct which, although to some extent born of his recent public-school experience, was perhaps equally due to that curious barometric sensitiveness that made his feelings so much more acute and clairvoyant than those of other people.
At dinner in the Masters’ Common-Room he had met the majority of the staff. There was Garforth, the bursar, a pleasant little man with a loving-kindness overclouded somewhat by pedantry; Hayes-Smith, housemaster of Mllner’s, a brisk, bustling, unimaginative fellow whose laugh was more eloquent than his words; Ransome, a wizened Voltairish classical master, morbidly ashamed of being caught in possession of any emotion of any kind; Lavery, housemaster of North House (commonly called Lavery’s), whose extraordinary talent for delegating authority enabled him to combine laziness and efficiency in a way both marvellous and enviable; and Poulet, the French and German Master, who spoke far better English than anybody in the Common-Room, except, perhaps, Garforth or Ransome. Then, of course, there was Clanwell, whom Speed had already met; Clanwell, better known “Fish-cake,” a sporting man of great vigour who would, from time to time, astonish the world by donning a black suit and preaching from the Millstead pulpit a sermon of babbling meekness. Speed liked him; liked all of them, in fac
t, better than he did Pritchard.
At dinner, Pritchard sat next to him on one side and Clanwell on the other. Pritchard showed no malice for the incident of that morning’s breakfast-time, and Speed, a little contrite, was affable enough. But for all that he did not like Pritchard.
Pritchard asked him if he had got on all right that day, and Speed replied that he had. Then Pritchard said: “Oh, well of course, the first day’s always easy. It’s after a week or so that you’ll find things a bit trying. The first night you take prep, for instance. It’s a sort of school tradition that they always try and rag you that night.”
Clanwell, overhearing, remarked fiercely: “Anyway, Speed, take my tip and don’t imagine it’s a school tradition that any Master lets himself be ragged.”
Speed laughed. “I’ll remember that,” he said.
He remembered it on the following Wednesday night when he was down to take evening preparation from seven until half-past eight. Preparation for the whole school, except prefects, was held in Millstead Big Hall, a huge vault-like chamber in which desks were ranged in long rows and where the Master in charge sat on high at a desk on a raised dais. No more subtle and searching test of disciplinary powers could have been contrived than this supervision of evening preparation, for the room was so big that it was impossible to see clearly from the Master’s desk to the far end, and besides that, the acoustics were so peculiar that conversations in some parts of the room were practically inaudible except from very close quarters. A new Master suffered additional handicap in being ignorant of the names of the vast majority of the boys.
At dinner, before the ordeal, the Masters in the Common-Room had given Speed jocular advice. “Whatever you do, watch that they don’t get near the electric-light switches,” said Clanwell. Pritchard said: “When old Blenkinsop took his first prep they switched off the lights and then took his trousers off and poured ink over his legs.” Garforth said: “Whatever you do, don’t lose your temper and hit anybody. It doesn’t pay.”
“Best to walk up and down the rows if you want them to stop talking,” said Ransome. Pritchard said: “If you do that they’ll beat time to your steps with their feet.” Poulet remarked reminiscently: “When I took my first prep they started a gramophone somewhere, and I guessed they’d hidden it well, so I said: ‘Gentlemen, anyone who interrupts the music will have a hundred lines!’ They laughed and were quite peaceable afterwards.”
Speed said, at the conclusion of the meal: “I’m much obliged to everybody for the advice. I’ll try to remember all of it, but I guess when I’m in there I shall just do whatever occurs to me at the moment.” To which Clanwell replied, putting a hand on Speed’s shoulder: “You couldn’t do better, my lad.”
Speed was very nervous as he took his seat on the dais at five to seven and watched the school straggling to their places. They came in quietly enough, but there was an atmosphere of subdued expectancy of which Speed was keenly conscious; the boys stared about them, grinned at each other, seemed as if they were waiting for something to happen. Nevertheless, at five past seven all was perfectly quiet and orderly, although it was obvious that little work was being done. Speed felt rather as if he were sitting on a powder-magazine, and there was a sense in which he was eager for the storm to break.
At about a quarter-past seven a banging of desk-lids began at the far end of the hall.
He stood up and said, quietly, but in a voice that carried well: “I don’t want to be hard on anybody, so I’d better warn you that I shall punish any disorderliness very severely.”
There was some tittering, and for a moment or so he wondered if he had made a fool of himself.
Then he saw a bright, rather pleasant-faced boy in one of the back rows deliberately raise a desk-lid and drop it with a bang. Speed consulted the map of the desks that was in front of him and by counting down the rows discovered the boy’s name to be Worsley. He wondered how the name should be pronounced—whether the first syllable should rhyme with “purse” or with “horse.” Instinct in him, that uncanny feeling for atmosphere, embarked him on an outrageously bold adventure, nothing less than a piece of facetiousness, the most dangerous weapon in a new Master’s armoury, and the one most of all likely to recoil on himself. He stood up again and said: “Wawsley or Wurssley—however you call yourself—you have a hundred lines!”
The whole assembly roared with laughter. That frightened him a little. Supposing they did not stop laughing! He remembered an occasion at his own school when a class had ragged a certain Master very neatly and subtly by pretending to go off into hysterics of laughter at some trifling witticism of his.
When the laughter subsided, a lean, rather clever-looking boy rose up in the front row but one and said, impudently: “Please, sir, I’m Worsley. I didn’t do anything.”
Speed replied promptly: “Oh, didn’t you? Well, you’ve got a hundred lines, anyway.”
“What for, sir?”—in hot indignation.
“For sitting in your wrong desk.”
Again the assembly laughed, but there was no mistaking the respectfulness that underlay the merriment. And, as a matter of fact, the rest of the evening passed entirely without incident. After the others had gone, and when the school-bell had rung for evening chapel, Worsley came up to the dais accompanied by the pleasant-faced boy who dropped the desk-lid. Worsley pleaded for the remission of his hundred lines, and the other boy supported him, urging that it was he and not Worsley who had dropped the lid.
“And what is your name?” asked Speed.
“Naylor, sir.”
“Very well, Naylor, you and Worsley can share the hundred lines between you.” He added smiling “I’ve no doubt you’re neither of you worse than anybody else but you must pay the penalty of being, pioneers.”
They went away laughing.
That night Speed went into Clanwell’s room for a chat before bedtime, and Clanwell congratulated him fulsomely on his successful passage of the ordeal. “As, a matter of fact,” Clanwell said, “I happen to know that they’d prepared a star benefit performance for you but that you put them off, somehow, from the beginning. The prefects get to hear of these things and they tell me.. Of course, I don’t take any official notice of them. It doesn’t matter to me what plans people make—it’s when any are put into execution that I wake up. Anyhow, you may be interested to know that the members of School House subscribed over fifteen shillings to purchase fireworks which they were going to let off after the switches had been turned off! Alas for fond hopes ruined!”
Clanwell and Speed leaned back in their armchairs and roared with laughter.
III
At the end of the first week of life at Millstead, Speed was perfectly happy. He seemed to have surmounted easily all the difficulties that had confronted or that could confront him, and now there stretched away into the future an endless succession of glorious days spent tirelessly in the work that he loved. For he loved teaching. He loved boys. When he got over his preliminary, and in some ways rather helpful nervousness he was thoroughly at home with all of them. He invited those in his house to tea, two or three at a time, almost every afternoon. He took a deep and individual interest in all who showed distinct artistic or musical abilities. He plunged adventurously into the revolutionising of the School’s arts curriculum; he dreamed of organising an exhibition of art work in time for Speech Day, of reviving the moribund School musical society, of getting up concerts of chamber music, of entering the School choir for musical festivals. All the hot enthusiasm of youth he poured ungrudgingly into the service of Millstead, and Millstead rewarded him by liking him tremendously. The boys liked him because he was young and agreeable, yet not condescendingly so; besides, he could play a game of cricket that was so good-naturedly mediocre that nobody, after witnessing it, could doubt that he was a fellow of like capabilities with the rest. The Masters liked him because he was energetic and efficient and did not ally himself with any particular set or clique among them.
Clanwell sa
id to him one evening: “I hope you won’t leave at the end of the term, Speed.”
Speed said: “Why on earth should I?”
“We sometimes find that people who’re either very good or very bad do so. And you’re very good.”
“I’m so glad you think so.” His face grew suddenly boyish with blushes.
“We all think so, Speed. And the Head likes you. We hope you’ll stay.”
“I’ll stay all right. I’m too happy to want to go away.”
Clanwell said meditatively: “It’s a fine life if you’re cut out for it, isn’t it? I sometimes think there isn’t a finer life in the whole world.”
“I’ve always thought that.”
“I hope you always will think it.”
“And I hope so too.”
Summer weather came like a strong flood about ten days after the opening of term, and then Millstead showed herself to him in all her serene and matchless beauty. He learned to know and expect the warm sunshine waking him in the mornings and creeping up the bed till it dazzled his eyes; he learned to know and to love the plick-plock of the cricket that was his music at he sat by the open window many an afternoon at work. And at night time, when the flaring gas jets winked in all the tiny windows and when there came upwards the cheerful smell of coffee-making in the studies, it was all as if some subtle alchemy were at work, transforming his soul into the mould and form of Millstead. Something fine and mighty was in the place, and his soul, passionately eager to yield itself, craved for that full possession which Millstead brought to it. The spell was swift and glorious. Sometimes he thought of Millstead almost as a lover; he would stroll round at night and drink deep of the witchery that love put into all that lie saw and heard; the sounds of feet scampering along the passage outside his door, the cold lawns with the moon white upon them, the soft delicious flower-scents that rose up to his bedroom window at night. The chapel seemed to him, to put it epigrammatically, far more important because it belonged to Millstead than because it belonged to Christ. Millstead, stiff-collared and black-coated on a Sunday morning, and wondering what on earth it should do with itself on Sunday afternoon, touched him far more deeply than did the chatter of some smooth-voiced imported divine who knew Millstead only from spending a bored week-end at the Head’s house. To Speed, sitting in the Masters’ pew, and giving vent to his ever-ready imagination, Millstead seemed a personification of all that was youthful and clear-spirited and unwilling to pay any more than merely respectful attention to the exhortations of elders.