I wish it would stop. I thought it had. It always takes me unawares. I never remember. I always say next time I'll take no notice, but I never do. I mustn't sit here thinking about it; I must do something else at once.
He plunged into the beck, pulled himself out on the further side, scuttered up the bank and shook the water off. The wet ground was no different, but about two hundred yards away, at the foot of the hillside where it rose above the bog, he could now see a kind of platform of smooth grass, a square, flat-topped, steep-sided mound jutting out from the foot of the hill. It was so plainly artificial that at first he took it for another hallucination, and sat watching it to see whether the figure in the brown tweed coat would reappear. But all remained empty and quiet, and at length, half-hoping to find a whitecoat to whom he could give himself up, he ran across the intervening distance and up the steep bank.
On top was a levelled space of turf and small stones, perhaps half the size of a lawn tennis court. It was completely empty, but on the further side, where the foot of Great Blake Rigg, the south face of the Grey Friar, rose like a wall, was a symmetrical, dark opening lined and arched with stones--a doorway without a door--as wide as a man is tall and almost twice as high, apparently leading underground into the heart of the mountain.
Snitter sat staring in astonishment. There were no signs of human use or occupation, no sounds from inside the cavern, no man-smells that he could perceive. He went cautiously closer. He could hear currents of air whispering and echoing within. "There's a garden in its ear," thought Snitter, "but there's no one there, unless they're hiding or asleep. There's more in this than meets the nose, if I'm any judge." The only smells were those of clean stones and subterranean moisture. Keeping close to one wall and ready to run on the instant, he crept inside.
He found himself in an empty, spacious tunnel, more or less the size of the opening itself, its high, barrel vault smoothly and regularly arched with flat stones set close together, edge outwards, its floor a clean, dry shale of similar, loose stones. Some of these rocked slightly under his paws, but otherwise the ground was even and without faults. The tunnel ran back into the heart of the mountain and from the movement of air, as well as the tiny echoes he could hear, he realized that it must be very deep.
He moved forward, looking about him. As he went on, the dim light from the cave mouth receded, but otherwise there was no change. The tunnel remained level, arched above and shaled below. He came to the mouth of a drift running in from one side, and stopped to smell and listen. It was dry, chill but not cold, and apparently not very deep. As he turned to go back to the main shaft, he saw the opening to the fell as a distant semi-circle of dark blue, with one star twinkling in the middle.
Half an hour later, Snitter found Rowf where he had left him, asleep under a patch of bog myrtle. There was a light drizzle of rain, though the moon, setting in the west, was clear of cloud.
"Rowf, come back! Listen! Listen to me!"
"Why didn't you go? I thought you'd gone, I told you to go."
"I have gone. The mouse-hole, Rowf, the gully in the floor--it's real--we're mice--"
"Oh, let me alone, you brain-sick puppy!"
"The whitecoats can't catch the mice, Rowf! It's safe in the rhododendrons--I mean the hole in the floor--"
"It's a pity they didn't cut your head off while they were about it. You couldn't talk nonsense then. My leg feels like a door in the wind--"
Snitter made a great effort. "There's a place, Rowf, a place-secret, dry, out of the rain. I believe we couldn't be found there."
"Couldn't be found there?"
"By men--whitecoats or farmers--anyone."
"Why not? They must have made it."
"Yes, and come to that they made the gullies in the floor, where the mouse lived. Rowf, you're wet through--"
"It's clean water--"
"You'll get fever." Snitter nipped his fore-leg and dodged away as Rowf snarled and clambered shakily to his feet. "I'm sure I've found something good."
"How can there be anything good in a place like this?"
"Come and see."
When at last he had persuaded Rowf across the beck and up the steep bank to the grassy platform, the moon had set and they could barely make out the mouth of the cavern. Snitter led the way in, hearing behind him the clattering of the shale as Rowf limped on his painful leg. In the blackness of the first drift he lay down and waited for Rowf to join him.
For a long time they lay silently together on the dry stones. At last Snitter said, "Wouldn't there be a chance, do you think; if only we could go on killing food? It's deep--right down inside your head--and warm--out of the wind--and we could go a long way in if we had to--no one could find us--"
Rowf, lying stretched out on his side, raised his head sleepily. "Come over here; we might as well keep each other warm. Unless it's some sort of trap--you know, suppose a whitecoat suddenly comes in and makes light--"
"There's no smell of men at all."
"I know. They made it, but they've gone. Or else it's like the drains--"
"No, it isn't like the drains," answered Snitter. "We must always remember that, too. The whitecoats couldn't get down the drains; not even the tobacco man could. But they could come down here all right if they wanted to; perhaps while we were asleep. So they mustn't find out we're here at all."
"Unless they know now. Unless they can see us now."
"Yes--but somehow I feel they can't. How does it smell to you?"
Rowf made no answer for a long time. At last he said, "I believe--I'm almost afraid to believe, but yes, I do believe you're right, Snitter. And if you are--"
"Yes?"
"It'll prove that we were right to escape after all; and we'll have a chance to prove--to ourselves anyway--that dogs can live without men. We'll be wild animals; and we'll be free."
FIT 3
Sunday the 17th October
I
t was not until some twelve hours later, on Sunday morning, that Tyson, his cap not actually removed (an action as unthinkable as for Santa Claus to shave his whiskers) but thrust vertically to the back of his head as a kind of cryptic token of a kind of cryptic respect, stood facing Mr. Powell outside the staff common room at Lawson Park.
"Ay, theer's the two on them gone," he said for the second time. "Ah thowt Ah'd better let thee knaw, like, first thing off. Theer noan anywheers int' block, but happen theer noan that far awaay."
"Are you sure they're not still in the block?" asked Mr. Powell. "I mean to say, there doesn't seem any way they could have got out, really. Are you sure they've not crept in behind something?"
"Theer noan int' block," repeated Tyson, "and Ah reckon theer nowheers about t' plaace at all. But happen they'll noan have gone far."
"It'd be much the best thing if we could find them today," said Mr. Powell. "You and me, I mean. Then there'd be no reason for either Dr. Boycott or Mr. Fortescue to know anything about it at all. They're both away till tomorrow morning, so that gives us twenty-four hours."
"Soombody moosta seen 'em, like," said Tyson. "Lasst time they were fed were Friday neet, so they'll 'ave had a go to get some groob out of soomwheers." He paused. "Happen they might a bin chasin' sheep ont' fell an' all. That'd be a reet do, that would. That's offence against law, tha knaws, bein' in possession of dog as woorries sheep."
"Oh, my God!" said Mr. Powell, appalled by the sudden thought that he might be held personally responsible. "Tell me again how you found they were gone."
"Well, like Ah toald thee, it were Sat'day evening when Ah coom in at usual time, to feed animals an' that," said Tyson. "An' Ah seen reet awaay that yon black dog, seven-three-two, were gone out of it caage. Door were oppen, see, an' spring o' catch were broaken. It moosta snapped some time affter Friday neet, for it were awreet then."
Tyson had, in fact, taken a screwdriver to the catch mechanism of the pen door. It was not that he was afraid of dismissal, or even that he cared particularly about reproof from the Director or
from Dr. Boycott. It was, rather, that in some curious, scarcely conscious manner, he felt that by breaking the spring of the catch he was actually altering what had happened. After all, if the spring had snapped of its own accord, on account of metal fatigue or some fault in the steel, then that would have explained the dogs' escape. Now the spring had snapped, and therefore it did account for the escape-to himself as well as to others--and saved a lot of pointless speculation and inquiry. In Tyson's world, things that had happened had happened, and inquiry was a waste of time. If, for example, matters had so fallen out that it had been Tom who had reported the dogs' escape to himself, he would simply have cuffed his head and sworn at him, whether Tom were to blame or not (much as the Aztecs used to execute messengers who brought bad news) and then begun to try to put things right. The spring was now deemed to have snapped; a state of affairs not vastly different, come to that, from the building of Animal Research itself having attracted deemed planning permission from the Secretary of State.
"But the other dog," said Mr. Powell, "eight-one-five? What happened there?"
"It had pooshed oop wire along bottom with it noase," said Tyson. "Coople o' staples had pulled out, and it moosta scrambled oonder an' joined t' oother dog."
"That's not going to be so easy to explain," mused Mr. Powell. "That was an important dog, too, that eight-one-five. Adult domesticated dog--they're never easy to get hold of for this sort of work. It had had a tricky brain operation and was waiting for tests. There'll be hell to pay."
"Ay, well, Ah thowt thee'd want to knaw as soon as possible," said Tyson virtuously. "Theer were nobody here yesterday neet"--and here he contrived to suggest (not unsuccessfully, since Mr. Powell was almost young enough to be his grandson and unable-why did he try, one wonders?--to conceal the signs of his origin among people very much like Tyson) that he himself had been the only dutiful and conscientious employee of Lawson Park at his post on a Saturday evening--"but Ah coom oop first thing this morning to see if Dr. Boycott were here. Ah'll joost have to be shiftin' along now." For if a search there were going to be, Tyson had no intention of spending his Sunday in participation.
"You say they must have run right through the block?" asked Mr. Powell.
"Well, theer were box of mice knocked ont' floor like, in pregnancy unit. Dogs moosta doon it, noothin' else could 'uv."
"Oh, blast and damn!" cried Mr. Powell, visualizing the complaints from and correspondence with the general medical practitioners and other appointed representatives of the putatively pregnant young women. A sudden thought struck him. "Then they must have gone through the cancer unit, Tyson--the rat block?"
"Ay, they would that."
"I say, they didn't get into Dr. Goodner's place, did they?" asked Mr. Powell quickly.
"Nay, it were locked reet as ever. There's noon goes in theer but hisself."
"But you're absolutely certain--er, Mr. Tyson--that they didn't get in there?"
"Oh ay. He'll tell thee hisself."
"Well, thank the holies for that, anyway. That would have been the end, that would. Well, I suppose I'd better have a look round the place myself and then if they don't turn up I'll go out and see if I can find anyone who's seen them. I shan't tell the police--that'll be for the Director to decide. Dammit," said Mr. Powell, "someone must have seen 'em--they've got those green collars on, plain as day. Very likely someone'll ring up later. Well, thanks, Mr. Tyson. And if you hear anything yourself, ring up and leave a message for me, won't you?"
Some say that deep sleep is dreamless and that we dream only in the moments before awakening, experiencing during seconds the imagined occurrences of minutes or hours. Others have surmised that dreaming is continuous as long as we are asleep, just as sensation and experience must needs continue as long as we are awake; but that we recall--when we recall at all--only those margins and fragments which concluded the whole range of our imagining during sleep; as though one who at night was able to walk alive through the depths of the sea, upon his return could remember only those light-filtering, green-lit slopes up which he had clambered back at last to the sands of morning. Others again believe that in deep sleep, when the gaoler nods unawares and the doors fall open upon those age-old, mysterious caverns of the mind where none ever did anything so new-fangled as read a book or say a prayer, the obscure forces, sore labour's bath, that flow forth to cleanse and renew, are of their nature inexpressible--and invisible, therefore, to dreaming eyes--in any terms or symbols comprehensible to the mind of one alive, though we may know more when we are dead. Some of these, however (so runs the theory), floating upwards from psychic depths far below those of the individual mind, attract to themselves concordant splinters and sympathetic remnants from the individual dreamer's memory--much as, they say, the fairies, poor wisps of nothing, used to glean and deck themselves with such scraps and snippets of finery as humans might have discarded for their finding. Dreams, then, are bubbles, insubstantial globes of waking matter, by their nature rising buoyant through the enveloping element of sleep; and for all we know, too numerous to be marked and remembered by the sleeper, who upon his awakening catches only one here or there, as a child in autumn may catch a falling leaf out of all the myriads twirling past him.
Be this as it may, how terrible, to some, can be the return from those dark sea-caves! Ah, God! we stagger up through the surf and collapse upon the sand, behind us the memory of our visions and before us the prospect of a desert shore or a land peopled by savages. Or again, we are dragged by the waves over coral, our landfall a torment from which, if only it would harbour us, we would fly back into the ocean. For indeed, when asleep we are like amphibious creatures, breathing another element, which reciprocates our own final act of waking by itself casting us out and closing the door upon all hope of immediate return. The caddis larva crawls upon the bottom of the pond, secure within its house of fragments, until in due time there comes upon it, whether it will or no, that strange and fatal hour when it must leave its frail safety and begin to crawl, helpless and exposed, towards the surface. What dangers gather about it then, in this last hour of its water-life--rending, devouring, swallowing into the belly of the great fish! And this hazard it can by no means evade, but only trust to survive. What follows? Emergence into the no-less-terrible world of air, with the prospect of the mayfly's short life, defenceless among the rising trout and pouncing sparrows. We crawl upwards towards Monday morning; to the cheque book and the boss; to the dismal recollection of guilt, of advancing illness, of imminent death in battle or the onset of disgrace or ruin. "I must be up betimes," said King Charles, awakening for the last time upon that bitter dawn in January long ago, "for I have a great work to do today." A noble gentleman, he shed no tears for himself. Yet who would not weep for him, emerging courageous, obstinate and alone upon that desolate shore whither sleep had cast him up to confront his unjust death?
When Snitter woke in the near-darkness of the shaft, it was to the accustomed sense of loss and madness, to the dull ache in his head, the clammy sensation of the torn and sodden dressing above his eye and the recollection that he and Rowf were masterless fugitives, free to keep themselves alive for as long as they could in an unnatural, unfamiliar place, of the nature of which they knew practically nothing. He did not even know the way back to Animal Research or whether, if they did return, they would be taken in. Perhaps the whitecoats or the tobacco man had already decreed that they were to be killed. He had several times seen the latter remove sick dogs from their pens, but had never seen him bring one back. He remembered Brot, a dog who, like himself, had been put to sleep by the whitecoats, but had woken to find that he was blind. Brot had blundered about his pen for several hours before the tobacco man, coming in at his usual time in the evening, had taken him away. Snitter could recall clearly the desperate and hopeless tone of his yelping. He himself had no fear of going blind; but what if his fits and visions were to increase, perhaps to possess him altogether, so that--He started up from where he was lying on the dry
shale.
"Rowf! Rowf, listen, you will kill me, won't you? You could do it quite quickly. It wouldn't be difficult. Rowf?"
Rowf had woken in the instant that Snitter's body ceased to touch his own.
"What are you talking about, you crazy little duffer? What did you say?"
"Nothing," answered Snitter. "I meant if I ever change into wasps, you know--maggots--I mean, if I fall into the gutter--oh, never mind. Rowf, are you still broken?"
Rowf got up, put his injured front paw gingerly to the ground, winced and lay down again.
"I can't run on it. Anyway, I'm bruised and stiff all over. I shall go on lying here until I feel better."
"Just imagine, Rowf, if all these stones suddenly turned into meat--"
"If what?"
"Biscuits dropping out of the roof--"
"Lie down!"
"And an animal came in, without teeth or claws, all made of horse liver--"
"What do you mean? How could that happen?"
"Oh, I saw it rain from the ground to the clouds--black milk, you know--"
"You've made me feel hungry, damn you!"
"Are we going out, like--you know, like last night?"
"I can't do it now, Snitter. Not until I feel better. Another battering like that--we'll just have to wait a bit. Tomorrow--"
"Let's go back to where it's lying," said Snitter. "There'll be a good deal left."
He pattered quickly over the shale towards the vaulted opening, Rowf limping behind him. It was afternoon and the red October sun, already sinking, was shining straight up the length of Dunnerdale beneath. Far below the tawny, glowing bracken and the glittering stealth of the tarn, Snitter could see cows in green fields, grey stone walls, red-leaved trees and whitewashed houses, all clear and still as though enclosed in golden glass. Yet the sun itself, which imparted this stillness, did not share it, seeming rather to swim in the blue liquidity of the sky, wavering before the eyes, a molten mass floating, rocking, drifting westward in a fluid that slowly cooled but could not quench its heat. Snitter stood blinking on the warm turf near the entrance, scenting the dry bracken and bog myrtle in the autumn air. The dressing fell across his eye and he tossed up his head.