‘Pissing yourself are you?’ said the chief pirate.
Ali was so scared that he just told the truth.
‘Protecting my treasure,’ he said, and his reply was so stupid that it made the pirate laugh. He pulled out his own cock and held it under Ali’s nose.
‘This is treasure. You aren’t worth a flea’s ransom.’
Ali sucked it. What else could he do? He had never done it before, but desperation is a good teacher and he soon found his tongue as fluent as any whore’s in the marketplace.
The pirate grunted.
‘Why kill you when we could sell you?’
And that is how Ali found himself in the apartments of the Italian envoy to the Turks.
Trembling, hungry, dirty and alone, Ali sat on the floor and wondered what could become of him. Two servants entered. One filled a copper bath, while the other laid out food and fresh clothes. Neither spoke to Ali until they had finished their tasks. Then one said, ‘You are to eat and bathe and dress yourself and be ready at sundown.’
‘Ready for what?’
‘The Princess.’
I unstrapped myself and lay in the bath. I reckoned I should make a clean breast of it, though my breasts were not the part in dispute. As a woman, what would be my fate? Mercy or death?
As a boy, I had nothing to look forward to, except perhaps …
‘Sexual congress,’ said the Princess.
She was walking round and round me as though I were a fountain, pausing now and then to dabble her hands. She was beautiful, young, haughty.
‘I am to be married in one month, and my husband wishes me to learn something of the arts of love. He has appointed you to teach me.’
‘I know nothing,’ I said.
‘That is why you have been chosen. You are only a boy and can do me neither hurt nor insult. You will be gentle. You will be slow. If I do not like you I shall behead you.’
‘Yourself?’
‘Of course not.’
‘Lady,’ I said, ‘there must be many in your kingdom better equipped than I am.’
‘They have not your treasure,’ she said. ‘We have heard how you feared less for your life than for your member.’
‘My treasure is not what you think it is.’
‘I think nothing. Kiss me.’
I kissed her. It wasn’t so bad.
Days and nights passed. I kissed her mouth and her neck. I kissed her breasts and her belly. I kissed her lower than her belly and was pleased with the ripples of pleasure I found there. She was dainty and sweet, a dish of figs in fine weather.
We were approaching the inevitable, but we weren’t there yet.
Days and nights. Days and nights connected by rivets of pleasure. Our furnace of love heated time and welded together the separateness of the hours, so that time became what the prophet says it is—continuous, unbroken.
To me, these days will never end. I am always there, in that room with her, or if not I, the imprint of myself—my fossil-love and you discover it.
‘Take off your trousers and let me see you.’
So this was the moment. All would be revealed. I no longer cared. Come death, come life, there is a part to play and that is all.
Hesitatingly, I let down the blue and gold of my trousers. There was a silence. Then the Princess said …
‘I have never seen a man before.’
(You’re not seeing one now.)
‘The stories I have heard … the fleshiness, the swelling … but you are like a flower.’
(This was true.)
She touched my bulbs.
‘They are like sweet chestnuts.’
(Tulips, my darling, tulips.)
She stroked the waxy coating I kept fresh to protect them. The tips of her fingers glistened.
‘What do you call these?’
‘This one is Key of Pleasure, and this one is Lover’s Dream.’ I said this quite sincerely because it was so.
‘And what do you call this?’
Her fingers had reached the centre now. I had to think fast.
‘I call it my Stem of Spring.’
She laughed delightedly and kissed the red flower, its petals fastened tight into a head. Fortunately my mother had made it quite secure and the Princess could play with it all she liked.
Then a strange thing began to happen. As the Princess kissed and petted my tulip, my own sensations grew exquisite, but as yet no stronger than my astonishment, as I felt my disguise come to life. The tulip began to stand.
I looked down. There it was, making a bridge from my body to hers.
I was still wearing my tunic and the Princess could not see the leather belt that carried everything with it. All she could see, all she could feel, was the eagerness of my bulbs and stem.
I kneeled down, the tulip waving at me as it had done on the hillside that afternoon I cut it down.
Very gently the Princess lowered herself across my knees and I felt the firm red head and pale shaft plant itself in her body. A delicate green-tinted sap dribbled down her brown thighs.
All afternoon I fucked her.
terrible thing to do to a flower
Night. I’m sitting at my screen. There’s an e-mail for me. I unwrap it. It says—
That was a terrible thing to do to a flower.
I tap back, ‘When you came on-line you said you wanted to be transformed.’
‘Into a flower-fucking Princess?’
‘Well, your alias is Tulip.’
‘That wasn’t my idea of romance.’
‘Was it romance you wanted?’
‘Doesn’t everyone?’
‘Download Romeo and Juliet.’
‘Teenage sex.’
‘Wuthering Heights.’
‘The weather’s awful and I hate the clothes.’
‘Heat and Dust.’
‘I’m allergic to dust.’
‘The Passion.’
‘Never heard of it.’
‘Oh well …’
‘Come on, this is your job. You say you write stories. Write me a story.’
‘Freedom just for one night, you said.’
‘Yes.’
‘All right, but if I start this story.…’
‘Yes?’
‘It may change under my hands.’
The screen was dimming. The air was heavy. You and I, separated by distance, intimate of thought, waited. What were we waiting for—fingers resting lightly on the board like a couple of table-turners?
You said, ‘Who are you?’
‘Call me Ali.’
‘Is that your real name?’
‘Real enough.’
‘Male or female?’
‘Does it matter?’
‘It’s a co-ordinate.’
‘This is a virtual world.’
‘OK, OK—but just for the record—male or female?’
‘Ask the Princess.’
‘That was just a story.’
‘This is just a story.’
‘I call this a true story.’
‘How do you know?’
‘I know because I’m in it.’
‘We’re in it together now.’
There was a pause—then I tapped out, ‘Let’s start. What colour hair do you want?’
‘Red. I’ve always wanted red hair.’
‘The same colour as your tulip?’
‘Look what happened to that.’
‘Don’t panic. This is a different disguise.’
‘So what shall I wear?’
‘It’s up to you. Combat or Prada?’
‘How much can I spend on clothes?’
‘How about $1000?’
‘My whole wardrobe or just one outfit?’
‘Are you doing this story on a budget?’
‘You’re the writer.’
‘It’s your story.’
‘What happened to the omniscient author?’
‘Gone interactive.’
‘Look … I know this was my ide
a, but maybe we should quit.’
‘What’s the problem? This is art not telephone sex.’
‘I know, and I said I wanted the freedom to be somebody else—just for one night.’
‘So let’s do it.’
‘I have an early start tomorrow. I should wash my hair. I really think …’
‘It’s too late.’
‘What do you mean, it’s too late?’
‘We’ve started. We’re here.’
‘But where are we?’
‘You tell me. Where are we?’
‘Paris. We’re in Paris. There’s the Eiffel Tower.’
‘Yes, I can see it too. It’s evening, the sun’s going down …’
‘And we’re in Paris …’
NEW DOCUMENT
We were walking together on the broad cobbled path that banks along the Seine. Behind us, the Friday-night cars were queuing in a wrapper of brake lights and exhaust haze; the toxic red of hometime.
On the path as we walked, your sweater tied round your shoulders, compact joggers, moving faster, swerved to avoid us, while lovers, moving slower, stopped in our way, paused to light each other’s cigarettes or to kiss.
We were not lovers.
Then.
The evening was stretching itself. The day’s muscle had begun to relax. A girl in Lycra fixed her date for the night on her mobile phone. A man in a trenchcoat let his phone ring and ring, smiling to everyone as they glanced at his briefcase going off like an alarm.
At the boat quays couples were waiting to join one of the neon-lit dinner and dance boats, while on other boats—the barges—a cat washed itself by a smoking funnel and a woman with her hair in a scarf threw coffee into the water.
So many lives, and ours too, tangled up with this night, these strangers. Strangers ourselves.
Slightest accidents open up new worlds.
We were both staying at the same hotel. We had arrived the day before, and in the lobby our partners had suddenly spotted one another and thrown their arms around each other like they were old friends. Not surprising, because they were old friends.
You and I had never met. We hung back smiling shyly, slightly irritated by all this bonhomie we couldn’t share. Then the plan had been made for the next night, to eat at a restaurant nearby, and would it matter—no, it would be fun—if those two long-lost buddies went on ahead, and you and I walked to the restaurant together, getting to know each other.
Simple. Easy.
Yes.
Not knowing you, and knowing that small talk is not my best point, I started to tell you about George Mallory, the Everest mountaineer. I’m putting him in a book I’m writing, and strangers often like to hear how writers write their books. It saves the bother of reading them.
‘So you’re a writer?’
‘Yes.’
‘I’ve never heard of you.’
‘No.’
‘Have you had anything published?’
‘Yes.’
‘Can I buy it in the shops?’
‘Yes.’
‘What, here in Paris?’
‘Yes.’
‘In French?’
‘Yes.’
‘In English too?’
‘Yes.’
‘Oh really?’
(I said small talk is not my best point.)
‘So you’re a writer?’
‘Yes.’
‘What kind of things do you write?’
‘Fiction, mostly.’
‘Stuff you make up?’
‘Yes.’
‘I prefer real life.’
‘Why is that?’
‘No surprises.’
‘Don’t you like surprises?’
‘Not since my fifth birthday when I was given an exploding cake.’
‘Could you eat it?’
‘The candles were little sticks of dynamite and they blew the cream and sponge all over the room.’
‘What did you do?’
‘Scraped it off the walls. Tried to act normal.’
‘Difficult …’
‘Oh yes.’
(Then she paused. Then she said …) ‘To me that’s life—a cake with little sticks of dynamite on the top.’
‘That doesn’t sound like a life with no surprises.’
‘Oh, but it is. That’s just what it is. You see, I know it’s going to blow up in my face.’
I looked sideways at her as we walked. To me she seemed confident and poised in soft black jeans, white shirt, a slash of lipstick, and a handbag built to take a credit card and a make-up brush. Her sweater was a ribbed cashmere crewneck, tied like a sack, hanging like a dancer.
Simple.
Expensive.
‘What brings you to Paris?’ (Small talk, not bad.)
‘The Eiffel Tower.’
‘Do you like towers?’
‘I like structures without cladding.’
‘OK, it’s a good motto.’
‘I try to let the lines show through. Not on my face, of course, but elsewhere. My work, my life, my body.’
(Suddenly, very badly, I wanted to see her body. I suppressed the thought.)
‘Clean living?’ I said.
‘Hardly.’
‘What then?’
‘Clear space. The easiest thing in the world is to wallpaper yourself from head to foot and put an armchair in your stomach.’
‘Sounds uncomfortable.’
‘Oh no, it’s very comfortable. That’s why people do it.’
‘But not you.’
(She suddenly took my hand.) ‘This is where I feel things.’
(She guided my hand over the low waistband of her jeans.) ‘Excitement, danger …’
(She flattened my hand on her abdomen and held it there.)
‘Sex. And to go on feeling I have to keep some empty space.’
(Suddenly she let my hand drop. I looked at it sadly.)
She said, ‘What about you? What brings you to Paris?’
‘A story I’m writing.’
‘Is it about Paris?’
‘No, but Paris is in it.’
‘What is it about?’
‘Boundaries. Desire.’
‘What are your other books about?’
‘Boundaries. Desire.’
‘Can’t you write about something else?’
‘No.’
‘So why come to Paris?’
‘Another city. Another disguise.’
We went up onto a little wooden bridge and lounged against the metal rail. The broad view of the river was a cine-film of the weekend, with its amateur, hand-held feel of lovers and dogs and electric light and the spontaneous, unsteady movement of people crossing this way and that, changing their minds, pausing, going out of focus, looming too close. The ribbon of film that was the moving river fluttered and unrolled and projected itself against the open sky and the jostle of the Ile de la Cité.
Frame by frame, that Friday night was shot and exposed and thrown away, carried by the river, by time, canned up only in memory, but in itself, scene by scene, perfect.
I thought, ‘This is all I have, all I can be sure of. The rest is gone. The rest may not follow.’
There was a woman near me, eating an ice cream with the intensity of a sacrament. The look on her face, her concentration, belonged to the altar.
A man knelt down and fastened his Scottie dog into a little tartan coat. Feet passed round him. His fingers fumbled with the buckles.
A child, holding its mother’s hand, was crying over a punctured Mickey Mouse balloon and then, the limping, failing helium ears and deflating black nose lurched over the railing and slipped down flat on the water.
Away it went—mouse, dog, ice cream, now. Already we were in another now, and the pink of the sky had faded.
‘Where’s the restaurant?’ you said.
‘I don’t know. I thought you knew.’
‘No—I thought you knew.’
‘Well, what was the name?’
> ‘Ali’s. A Turkish place.’
‘Are you sure?’
‘We can call the hotel. The concierge will know.’
‘We’re going to be late.’
‘There’s plenty of time.’
She smiled and rested her arm around my shoulders. I tried to look natural.
‘Are you usually so friendly with strangers?’
‘Always.’
‘Any particular reason?’
‘A stranger is a safe place. You can tell a stranger anything.’
‘Suppose I put it in my book?’
‘You write fiction.’
‘So?’
‘So you won’t lash me to the facts.’
‘But I might tell the truth.’
‘Facts never tell the truth. Even the simplest facts are misleading.’
‘Like the times of the trains.’
‘And how many lovers you’ve had.’
I looked at her curiously. Where was this leading?
‘How many have you had?’
‘Nine forty-eight,’ she said, sounding like a platform announcement.
‘Was that the previous one or the one here now?’
‘The one here now is not listed in the timetable.’
‘What does that mean?’
‘It means I’m married, but not to him.’
‘Then to whom?’
‘Oh, to a man built like a dining car—solid, welcoming, always about to serve lunch.’
‘Don’t you like that?’
‘There are nights when I’d prefer a couchette.’
‘Is that why you’re in Paris?’
‘And there are nights when I’d prefer nothing at all.’
‘A structure without cladding.’
‘As you get older, the open spaces start to close up.’
‘You seem to have slipped through.’
‘I get reckless. I risk more than I should.’
‘Have you left your husband?’
‘No, just lied to him.’
‘Can you lie to someone you love?’
‘It’s kinder than telling the truth.’
‘Are you still close?’
‘As close as two people growing apart can be.’
She walked ahead, her sweater swinging against her back. Then she turned to me.