Read The Roominghouse Madrigals: Early Selected Poems, 1946-1966 Page 15


  sucks red steam

  from his

  cigar

  I’ll be glad when it’s all

  over

  the noise is

  terrible and I’m afraid to go and

  buy a

  paper.

  The Gypsies Near Del Mar

  they live down by the sea…these men

  and you see them going to the gray public bath

  like colonels on parade;

  they have trailers and dogs and wives and children

  in that importance; they crawl upon the rocks

  as turtles do and dream sun-dreams

  turtle-dreams

  that do not hurt;

  —or you see them singly…standing with their poles

  the sea climbing their ankles and ignored like some

  useless oil

  and their long lines search and wait beyond the breakers,

  a vein from life to life and calm brisk death.

  I have never seen their fish, or their gods

  or the color of their eyes—though I imagine

  the palest shade of pink,

  like small-sweet pickled onions, and their bellies

  like the bellies of jellyfish hiding in flowers

  beneath the rock.

  they are there all year, I’m told…these same men

  with their rusty lives. when it rains the sand gets wet,

  not as bad as mud, and they never die: you see

  their fires at night as you drive back from the track,

  nothing moving except the flame a little and the sea

  changing shape, and you can see the threads of smoke

  easing into the sky;

  and as their camp goes by, leaving you vacant

  you stare again into a world of red tail lights

  and turn on the radio

  and through the glass like the hand of some

  forgotten god

  you watch

  a gull dip over your car

  and then rise and fly out toward the sea.

  6 A.M.

  naked

  unarmored

  before the open window

  sitting at the table

  drinking tomato juice

  the publicly unpardonable part

  of my body

  below the table

  I watch

  a man in an orange robe

  and bedroom slippers

  shit his dog upon the lawn

  both of them

  tempered by sparrows.

  we are losers; even at high noon

  or late evening

  none of us dresses well

  in this neighborhood

  none of us studies the grace of high

  finance

  successfully enough

  to shake

  ugly things away

  (like needing the rent or

  drinking 59 cent wine).

  yet now

  the wind comes through the window

  cool,

  as pure as a cobra;

  it is a sensible time

  undivided

  either by

  explanation

  deepeyed cats

  life insurance or

  Danish kings.

  I finish the

  tomato

  juice and

  go to

  bed.

  A Trick to Dull Our Bleeding

  practically speaking

  the great words of great men

  are not so great.

  nor do great nations nor great beauties

  leave anything but the residue

  of reputation to be slowly

  gnawed away.

  nor do great wars seem so great,

  nor great poems

  nor first-hand legends.

  even the sad deaths

  are not now so sad,

  and failure was nothing but a

  trick

  to keep us going,

  and fame and love

  a trick to dull our bleeding.

  and as fire becomes ash and steel

  becomes rust, we become

  wise

  and then

  not so wise.

  and we sit in chairs

  reading old maps,

  wars done, loves done, lives done,

  and a child plays before us like a monkey

  and we tap our pipe and yawn,

  close our eyes and sleep.

  pretty words

  like pretty ladies,

  wrinkle up and die.

  Rose, Rose

  rose, rose

  bark for me

  all these centuries in the sun

  you have heard men sing

  to break like the stems that held you

  you have sat in the hair of young girls

  like roses themselves, feeling like roses,

  and you know, you know what happened

  I gave roses to a lady once and she put them

  on her dresser and hugged them and smelled them

  and now the lady is gone and the roses are gone

  but the dresser is there, I see the dresser

  and on the boulevards I see you again

  alive again! yes!

  and, I am still

  alive.

  rose, rose

  bark for me

  walking last night

  feeling my flesh fat about my girth

  old dreams faint as fireflies

  I came upon a flower

  and like a giant god gone mad

  yanked off its head

  and then put the petals in my pocket

  feeling and tearing

  soft insides, ha so!—

  like defiling a virgin.

  she hugged you, she loved you

  and she died, and

  in my room, hand out of pocket,

  the first night’s drink, and

  along the edge of the glass,

  the same same scarlet

  virgin and thorn, my hand

  my hand my hand; bark, rose

  teeth of centuries blooming

  in the sun, vast god damned

  god pulling these poems out

  of my head.

  Spain Sits Like a Hidden Flower in My Coffeepot

  it is like tanks come through Hungary and

  I am looking for matchsticks to

  build a soul

  it is the hunger of the intestine

  and feeling sorry for a

  radio dropped and broken last Tuesday night

  Gertrude knows what is left of me

  but she can hardly boil an egg and

  she can’t boil me

  or put me together like

  matchsticks

  but some day I must send you

  some of her poems or

  her old shoe once worn by a

  duchess

  there isn’t anybody on the street now

  the street is empty and

  Spain sits like a hidden flower

  in my coffeepot as

  the audience applauds the bones of

  Vivaldi

  and I could go on

  tossing phrases like

  burning candles

  but I leave that to the

  acrobats

  a loaf of bread

  dog bark

  babycry

  the matchless failure of

  bright things

  her leaning forward

  over a cup of tea

  telling me—

  you are a kind man

  you are a very kind

  man

  the eyes believing dynasties of softness

  the hands touching my neck

  the cars going by

  the snails sleeping with pictures of Christ

  I phrase the ending like hatchets

  or a bush burned down

  and kiss a staring

  greenblue

/>   eye

  greenblue eye

  like faded drapes the light burned through

  and my god

  another woman another night

  going on

  the rats are thimbles in cats’ paws when it

  rains in Miami

  and the fence falls down

  the world is on its back

  legs lifted

  and I enter again

  into the

  sweat and stink and torture—

  a very kind man

  gentle as a knife

  the brilliant hush of parrots

  Gertrude lives in a place by the freeway

  and I live here—

  the mice the garbage the lack of air

  the gallantry

  and

  outside of here:

  young girls skipping rope

  strong enough to hang the men

  now nowhere

  about

  me?:

  I dreamed I drank an Arrow shirt

  and stole a broken

  pail.

  Thermometer

  As my skin wrinkles in warning like

  paint on a burning wall

  fruitflies with sterile

  orange-grey

  eyes

  stare at me

  while I dream of lavender ladies as impossible

  and beautiful as

  immortality

  as my skin wrinkles in warning

  I read The New York Times

  while spiders wrestle with ants in shaded roots

  of grass

  and whores lift their hands to heaven for

  love

  while the white mice

  huddle in controversy over a

  piece of cheese

  as my skin wrinkles in warning

  I think of Carthage and Rome and

  Berlin

  I think of young girls crossing their

  nylon legs at bus stops

  as my skin wrinkles in warning like

  paint on a burning wall

  I get up from my chair to drink water

  on a pleasant afternoon

  and I wonder about water

  I wonder about me,

  a warm thermometer kind of wonderment

  that rises like a butterfly

  in a distilled pale yellow afternoon

  and then I walk back out

  and sit on my chair

  and don’t think anymore—

  as to the strain of broken ladders and old war

  movies—

  I let everything

  burn.

  Eaten by Butterflies

  maybe I’ll win the Irish Sweepstakes

  maybe I’ll go nuts

  maybe

  maybe unemployment insurance or

  a rich lesbian at the top of a hill

  maybe re-incarnation as a frog…

  or $70,000 found floating in a plastic sack

  in the bathtub

  I need help

  I am a fat man being eaten by

  green trees

  butterflies and

  you

  turn turn

  light the lamp

  my teeth ache the teeth of my soul ache

  I can’t sleep I

  pray for the dead streetcars

  the white mice

  engines on fire

  blood on a green gown in an operating room in

  San Francisco

  and I am caught

  ow ow

  wild: my body being there filled with nothing but

  me

  me caught halfway between suicide and

  old age

  hustling in factories next to the

  young boys

  keeping pace

  burning my blood like gasoline and

  making the foreman

  grin

  my poems are only scratchings

  on the floor of a

  cage.

  Destroying Beauty

  a rose

  red sunlight;

  I take it apart

  in the garage

  like a puzzle:

  the petals are as greasy

  as old bacon

  and fall

  like the maidens of the world

  backs to floor

  and I look up

  at the old calendar

  hung from a nail

  and touch

  my wrinkled face

  and smile

  because

  the secret

  is beyond me.

  About the Author

  CHARLES BUKOWSKI is one of America’s best-known contemporary writers of poetry and prose, and, many would claim, its most influential and imitated poet. He was born in Andernach, Germany, to an American soldier father and a German mother in 1920, and brought to the United States at the age of three. He was raised in Los Angeles and lived there for fifty years. He published his first story in 1944 when he was twenty-four and began writing poetry at the age of thirty-five. He died in San Pedro, California, on March 9, 1994, at the age of seventy-three, shortly after completing his last novel, Pulp (1994).

  During his lifetime he published more than forty-five books of poetry and prose, including the novels Post Office (1971), Factotum (1975), Women (1978), Ham on Rye (1982), and Hollywood (1989). Among his most recent books are the posthumous editions of What Matters Most Is How Well You Walk Through the Fire (1999), Open All Night: New Poems (2000), Beerspit Night and Cursing: The Correspondence of Charles Bukowski and Sheri Martinelli 1960-1967 (2001), and The Night Torn Mad with Footsteps: New Poems (2001).

  All of his books have now been published in translation in over a dozen languages and his worldwide popularity remains undiminished. In the years to come, Ecco will publish additional volumes of previously uncollected poetry and letters.

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  BY CHARLES BUKOWSKI

  The Days Run Away Like Wild Horses Over the Hills (1969)

  Post Office (1971)

  Mockingbird Wish Me Luck (1972)

  South of No North (1973)

  Burning in Water, Drowning in Flame: Selected Poems 1955—1973 (1974)

  Factotum (1975)

  Love Is a Dog from Hell: Poems 1974—1977 (1977)

  Women (1978)

  Play the Piano Drunk /Like a Percussion Instrument/ Until the Fingers Begin to Bleed a Bit (1979)

  Shakespeare Never Did This (1979)

  Dangling in the Tournefortia (1981)

  Ham on Rye (1982)

  Bring Me Your Love (1983)

  Hot Water Music (1983)

  There’s No Business (1984)

  War All the Time: Poems 1981—1984 (1984)

  You Get So Alone at Times That It Just Makes Sense (1986)

  The Movie: “Barfly” (1987)

  The Roominghouse Madrigals: Early Selected Poems 1946—1966 (1988)

  Hollywood (1989)

  Septuagenarian Stew: Stories & Poems (1990)

  The Last Night of the Earth Poems (1992)

  Screams from the Balcony: Selected Letters 1960—1970 (1993)

  Pulp (1994)

  Living on Luck: Selected Letters 1960s—1970s (Volume 2) (1995)

  Betting on the Muse: Poems & Stories (1996)

  Bone Palace Ballet: New Poems (1997)

  The Captain Is Out to Lunch and the Sailors Have Taken Over the Ship (1998)

  Reach for the Sun: Selected Letters 1978—1994 (Volume 3) (1999)

  What Matters Most Is How Well You Walk Through the Fire: New Poems (1999)

  Open All Night: New Poems (2000)

  The Night Torn Mad with Footsteps: New Poems (2001)

  Beerspit Night and Cursing: The Correspondence of Charles Bukowski & Sheri Martinelli 1960—1967 (2001)

  Copyright

  THE ROOMINGHOUSE MADRIGALS: EARLY SELECTED POEMS 1946-1966. Copyright © 1960
, 1962, 1965, 1968, 1988 by Charles Bukowski. All rights reserved under International and Pan-American Copyright Conventions. By payment of the required fees, you have been granted the non-exclusive, non-transferable right to access and read the text of this e-book on-screen. No part of this text may be reproduced, transmitted, down-loaded, decompiled, reverse engineered, or stored in or introduced into any information storage and retrieval system, in any form or by any means, whether electronic or mechanical, now known or hereinafter invented, without the express written permission of HarperCollins e-books.

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