"I'm going to fetch the hot water," he told Willie. "You stay just there--dinna move about--and I'll be with ye in a moment."
Willie, engaged in an unsuccessful effort to get the bit into his own mouth, ignored this but made no move to follow him.
Jamie took a bucket and put his head into the factor's office, where Mr. Grieves was talking to Mr. Lowens, a farmer whose land abutted that of Dunsany's estate. Grieves nodded to him, and he came in, going to dip hot water from the cauldron kept simmering in the back of the hearth. The factor's office was the only warm place in the stable block, so was often a gathering place for visitors.
He made his way back, careful with the heavy, steaming bucket, and found Willie still sitting on his stool but having now succeeded in entangling his head and arms in the bridle, which he'd evidently tried to put on.
"Elp!" Willie said, thrashing wildly. "Elp, elp, elp!"
"Aye, I'll help ye, ye wee gomerel. Here, then." Jamie set down the bucket and went to assist, thanking his guardian angel that Willie hadn't managed to strangle himself. No wonder the little fiend required two nursemaids to watch him.
He patiently untangled the bridle--how could a child who couldn't dress himself tie knots like that?--and hung it up, then, with an admonition to Willie to keep well back, poured the hot water into the bran tub.
"Ye want to help stir?" He held out the big worn paddle--which was roughly as tall as Willie--and they stirred the mash, Willie clinging earnestly to the lower part of the handle, Jamie to the upper. The mix was stiff, though, and Willie gave up after a moment, leaving Jamie to finish the job.
He'd just about finished ladling the mash into buckets for distribution to the mangers when he noticed that William had something in his mouth.
"What's that ye've got in your mouth?"
Willie opened his mouth and picked out a wet horseshoe nail, which he regarded with interest. Jamie imagined in a split second what would have happened if the lad had swallowed it, and panic made him speak more roughly than he might have.
"Give it here!"
"Mo!" Willie jerked his hand away and glowered at Jamie under wispy brows that nonetheless were well marked.
"Nnnnn," Jamie said, leaning down close and glowering in his turn. "Nnnnno."
Willie looked suspicious and uncertain.
"Mo," he repeated, but with less surety.
"It's 'no,' believe me," Jamie assured him, straightening up and pulling the bucket of mash closer. "Ye've heard your auntie Isobel say it, have ye not?" He hoped Isobel--or someone--said it to Willie on occasion. Not often enough, he was sure of that.
Willie appeared to be thinking this over and, in the process, absently raised the nail to his mouth again and began licking it. Jamie cast a wary look toward the door, but no one was watching.
"Does it taste well?" he asked casually. The question of taste appeared not to have occurred to Willie, who looked startled and frowned at the nail, as though wondering where it had come from.
"Es," he said, but uncertainly.
"Give me a taste, then." He leaned toward the child, putting out his tongue, and Willie blinked once, then obligingly reached the nail up. Jamie folded his hand very gently around Willie's fist and drew his tongue delicately up the length of the nail. It tasted, naturally enough, of iron and horse hoof, but he had to admit that it wasn't a bad taste at all.
"It's no bad," he said, drawing back--but keeping his hand round Willie's. "Think it would break your teeth, though, if ye chewed it."
Willie giggled at the idea.
"It would break the horses' teeth, too, see? That's why we dinna leave such things lyin' about in the stable." He gestured through the open door of the tack room toward the row of stalls, where two or three equine heads were poking out, inquisitive as to the whereabouts of their dinner.
"Horsie," Willie said, very clearly.
"Horse, indeed," Jamie said, and smiled at him.
"Horsie eat dis?" Willie leaned curiously over the mash tub, sniffing loudly.
"Aye, they do. That's good food--not like nails. No one eats nails."
Willie had clearly forgotten the nail, though he was still holding it. He glanced at it and dropped it, whereupon Jamie picked it up and tucked it into his breeches. Willie promptly stuck a small hand into the mash and, liking the sticky feel of it, laughed and slapped his hand a couple of times on the quivering surface of the molasses-laced grain. Jamie reached out and took him by the wrist.
"Now, then," he said. "Ye wouldna like it if Deke put his hoof into your dinner, would ye?"
"Heeheeheeheehee."
"Well, then. Here, wipe your hand and ye can help me put the mash out." He pulled a relatively clean handkerchief from his shirtsleeve, but Willie ignored it, instead licking the sweet, sticky stuff from his fingers with every evidence of enjoyment.
Well, he had told the lad it was food, and it was wholesome enough--though he sincerely hoped Mrs. Peggy wasn't about to reappear, or they'd both be for it.
Peggy didn't reappear, and they spent a companionable quarter hour pouring mash, then forking fresh hay from the stack outside into a wheelbarrow and trundling it into the stable. On the way back, they met Mr. Lowens, looking satisfied. Whatever haggling he'd been doing with Grieves, he thought he'd got the best of it.
"MacKenzie," he said, with a cordial nod. He smiled at William, who, Jamie noticed with some dismay, had molasses down his shirt and a good deal of hay sticking out of his hair. "That your lad, is it?"
For an instant, he thought his heart would leap straight out of his mouth. He took a quick gulp of air, though, and answered calmly, "No, sir. This would be the young earl. The Earl of Ellesmere."
"Oh, aye?" Lowens laughed and squatted down to speak to Willie directly. "Knew your father, I did. Randy old bugger," he remarked to Jamie. "But he knew his horses, old Earl did. Going to be a good horseman, too, are you?" he said, returning his attention to Willie.
"Es!"
"Good lad, good lad." He reached out and ruffled Willie's hair. Willie glowered at him. "Breeched already? You're young for that." He affected to sniff deeply. "Smell a bit ripe. You've not shit yourself, have you, my lord?" He chuckled fatly, amused at his own wit.
William's eyes narrowed, in a way that reminded Jamie vividly of his own sister about to go berserk. He thanked God again that the boy's features were rounded and snub, and prepared to grab him if he tried to kick Mr. Lowens in the shins.
Instead, though, the young earl merely glared up at the farmer and said loudly and distinctly, "NNNNNNO!"
"Oh!" said Lowens, laughing. "My mistake. My apologies, my lord."
"We must be going, sir," Jamie said hastily, before William could execute any of the thoughts that were clearly going through his mind. He swung the boy off his feet and held him upside down by the ankles. "It's time for his lordship's tea."
6
Summoning
PEGGY NEVER DID COME BACK. JAMIE CARRIED WILLIAM--now right side up--back to the house and delivered him to one of the kitchen maids, who told him that Peggy was "took bad" but that she would bring his little lordship along to Lady Isobel.
Willie objected vociferously to this proposal--so vociferously that Isobel herself appeared--and was pacified only by the promise that he could visit the stable again tomorrow. Jamie carefully avoided Isobel's hard eye and absented himself as quickly as he could.
He wondered whether William would come back. Isobel wouldn't bring him, he was sure of that. But if Peggy felt better, and if William insisted--William struck him as being singularly stubborn, even for a child of two. He smiled at the thought.
Can't think where he gets that, he thought, and quite suddenly wondered whether his other son was the same. Claire's son.
Lord, he thought automatically, as he did whenever thought of them came to his mind, that she might be safe. She and the child.
How old would his first child be now? He swallowed a thickness in his throat but continued doggedly in his train of thought. Claire had b
een two months gone with child when she'd stepped through the stones and back to Frank.
"God bless you, ye bloody English bastard," he said through his teeth. It was his customary prayer when Frank Randall came to his mind--something he tried to avoid happening, but now and then ... "Mind them well!"
Two months gone, and that had been April the 16, Anno Domini 1746. Now it was April again, and 1760. If time went on in a normal fashion--and he saw no reason why it should not--then the child would be almost fourteen.
"Christ, he's nearly a man," he whispered, and his hand closed tight on the fence rail, so tight he felt the grain of the wood.
As with Frank Randall, Jamie tried to keep from thinking too much or too specifically of Claire or of the unknown child. It hurt too much, brought home to him too vividly what he had had, and what he had lost.
He hadn't been able to avoid thinking of them, living in the cave on his own estate at Lallybroch, during the first years after Culloden. There was too little to occupy his mind, and they had crept in, his family, glimmering in the smoke when he sat by his wee fire--when he'd felt safe enough to have one--shining in the starlight when he sat outside the cave at night watching the heavens, seeing the same stars that they must see, taking comfort in the everlasting light that lay softly on him and his.
Then he'd imagined his son and holding a small, solid body on his knee, the child's heart beating against his own--and his hands curved without his willing it, remembering now what Willie felt like in his arms.
HE WAS CARRYING a huge basket of rotted manure up to the kitchen garden next morning when Morgan, one of the footmen, appeared from behind a wall and hailed him.
"Hoy, MacKenzie! You're wanted!"
He was surprised; it was mid-morning, not a usual time for visiting or errands. He'd have to catch that wee bitch Venus, presently enjoying herself in the back pasture. And the thought of driving the pony trap, with Lady Isobel's slitted eyes burning holes in his flesh, was less than appealing. It wasn't as though he had a choice, though, and he set the basket down, safely off the path, then straightened up, dusting his hands against his thighs.
"Aye, I'll have the trap round in a quarter hour."
"Not the trap," Morgan said, impatient. "I said you're wanted."
He glanced at the man, startled.
"Who wants me?"
"Not me, I assure you." Morgan had a long nose, and he wrinkled it ostentatiously, looking at the greenish-brown crumbles and smears on Jamie's clothes. "If there was time, I'd make you change your shirt, but there's not. He said at once, and he meant it."
"Lord Dunsany?" Jamie asked, ignoring the footman's barb.
"Who else?" Morgan was already turning away. He looked back over his shoulder and jerked his head. "Come on, then!"
HE FELT STRANGE. The polished wood floor echoed under his tread and the air smelled of hearth ash, books, and flowers. He smelled of horses, horseshit, and his own bitter sweat. Since the day he'd come to Helwater, he'd only twice been farther into the house than the kitchen where he took his meals.
Lord Dunsany had received John Grey and him in the study on that first day, and now the butler--back stiff with disapproval--led him down the corridor to the same door. The wooden panels were carved with small rosettes; he had noticed them so intensely on his first visit that seeing them again recalled his emotions on that day--and gave him now a feeling as though he had missed the bottom step of a flight of stairs.
His immediate assumption on hearing the summons was that Isobel had seen him outside Wilberforce's house and decided to eliminate the possibility of his telling on her by informing her father of the truth of William's paternity, and his heart was in his throat, his mind filled with half-formed notions between outright panic and ... something else. Would Dunsany cast the boy out? If he did.... A faint, breathtaking vision of himself walking away from Helwater, his son in his arms, came to him--but vanished at once as the door opened.
There were three men in Lord Dunsany's study. Soldiers, in uniform. A lieutenant and two private soldiers, he thought, though it had been a long time since he'd troubled with the distinctions of English uniform.
"This is MacKenzie," Lord Dunsany said, with a small nod at him. "Or rather ... Fraser."
The officer looked him up and down, assessing, but his face gave nothing away. A middle-aged man, with a sour look. He didn't offer his name.
"You're to go with these men, Fraser," Dunsany said. His face was old, his expression remote. "Do as they tell you."
He stood mute. Damned if he'd say, "Yes, sir," and double-damned if he'd knuckle his forehead like a servant. The officer looked sharply at him, then at Dunsany, to see whether this insubordination was to be punished, but, finding nothing but weariness in the old man's face, shrugged slightly and nodded to the privates.
They moved purposefully toward him, one taking him by each arm. He couldn't avoid it but felt the urge to jerk himself free. They led him into the hall and out the front door; he could see the butler smirking from his pantry and two of the maids hanging wide-eyed and openmouthed out of the upper windows as the men emerged onto the drive, where a coach stood waiting.
"Where are ye taking me?" he asked, with what calmness he could.
The men glanced at each other; one shrugged.
"You're going to London," he said.
"To visit the Queen," the other said, and sniggered.
He had to duck to enter the carriage and, in doing so, turned his head. Lady Isobel stood in the window, mouth open in shock. William was in her arms, small head laid in sleep on her shoulder. Behind them, Betty smiled at him, maliciously pleased.
SECTION II
Force Majeure
7
When a Man Is Tired of London,
He Is Tired of Life
THE SOLDIERS GAVE HIM A SERVICEABLE CLOAK TO WEAR AND food at the taverns and inns, shoving it indifferently across the table toward him, ignoring him while they talked, save an occasional sharp glance to be sure he wasn't getting up to something. What, exactly, did they think he might do? he wondered. If he'd ever meant to escape, he could have done it much more easily from Helwater.
He gathered nothing from their conversation, which seemed mostly regimental gossip, bawdy remarks about women, and low jokes. Not a word as to their destination.
At the second stop, there was wine--decent wine. He drank it cautiously; he hadn't tasted anything stronger than small beer in years, and the lush flavor clung to his palate and rose like smoke inside his head. The soldiers shared three bottles--and so did he, welcoming the slowing of his racing thoughts as the alcohol seeped into his blood. It would do him no good to think, until he knew what to think about.
He tried to keep his mind off their unknown destination and what might await him there, but it was like trying not to think of a--
"Rhinoceros," Claire said, with a muffled snort of amusement that stirred the hairs on his chest. "Have you ever seen one?"
"I have," he said, shifting her weight so she rested more comfortably in the hollow of his shoulder. "In Louis's zoo. Aye, that would stick in the mind."
Abruptly, she vanished and left him sitting there, blinking stupidly into his wine cup.
Had it really happened, that memory? Or was it only his desire that now and then brought her so vividly to life, in snatched moments that left him desperate with longing but strangely comforted, as though she had in fact touched him briefly?
He became aware that the soldiers had all stopped talking and were staring at him. And that he was smiling. He looked back at them over his cup, not altering his expression.
They looked away, uneasy, and he went back to his wife, for the moment tranquil in his mind.
THEY DID TAKE HIM to London.
He tried not to gawk; he was aware of the soldiers casting covert glances at him, sly smiles. They expected him to be impressed, and he declined to give them the satisfaction--but he was impressed, nonetheless.
So this was London. It had t
he stink of any city, the narrow alleys, the smell of slops and chimney smoke. But any large city has its own soul, and London was quite different from either Paris or Edinburgh. Paris was secretive, self-satisfied; Edinburgh solidly busy, a merchants' town. But this ... It was rowdy, churning like an anthill, and gave off a sense of pushing, as though the energy of the place would burst its bonds and spill out over the countryside, spill out into the world at large. His blood stirred, despite his fears and the tooth-jolting ride.
The Jacobite soldiers would talk about London, early in the campaign, when they were victorious and London seemed a plum within their grasp. Wild tales--almost none of them had ever seen a city, before they came to Edinburgh. Talk of gold plates in the taverns, streets with gilded carriages thick as lice ...
He remembered Murdo Lindsay, bug-eyed at the description of boozing kens, where the poor clustered in dark cellars, drowning the misery of life in Holland gin.
"Whole families!" Murdo exclaimed. "All of them, dead drunk! If even the poor folk can afford to stay drunk for days at a time, what must the rich ones be like?"
He'd smiled then, amused. He smiled now, bitter.
As the campaign had turned, withering in the cold, when the army camped at Derby, shivering while the commanders argued whether to push on or not, the soldiers had still talked of London. But they talked in whispers then, and not of gold plates and Holland gin. They talked of the gallows, of the famous Bridge, where the heads of traitors were displayed. Of the Tower.
That thought sent a qualm through him. Christ, could they be taking him there? He was a convicted traitor, though paroled these past four years. And he was the grandson of Lord Lovat, who had met his death on the block at that same Tower. He hadn't been fond of his grandfather, but crossed himself and murmured "Fois air Anam ..." under his breath. Peace on his soul.
He wondered what the devil the Tower of London looked like. He'd imagined it, of course, but God only knew what the reality was. It was big, though; it had to be big. So he'd have a bit of warning, seeing it. He'd be prepared.
Aye, prepared for prison? he thought. The idea of it, of cold stone and small spaces, endless days, months, and years in a cage as life and body dwindled inexorably away, shriveled his heart. And William. He would never see William again. But they might kill him instead. At the moment, that was his only hope.