CHAPTER XVII
A Reprieve
The first two letters from Jean were so long, that one imagined she musthave sat up most of the night to get them off.
"I don't mind telling you that I felt very miserable when I got to myrooms," she said among other things. "I drove here all right, and thedoor was opened by a servant who didn't seem to know who I was. Thenshe produced a secretary who looked at me very closely as though to seewhether I was respectable or not. She took me up to my room, and it'slike a little state-room, without the fun of a bunk. There's one littleslippy window which looks out on the gardens, and across the gardensthere are high houses, with occasionally people at the windows. Onegirl with a pink bow in her hair sits at a window all day long.Sometimes she leans out with her elbows on the sill, and looks down, andthen she draws them in again and sits looking straight over at me.She's quite pretty. But what a life! It must be dreadful only havingone room and nothing to do in it. My piano hasn't come, and until itarrives, it's like being the girl with the pink bow. At home it'sdifferent, we can always pull flowers, or fix our blouses or dosomething of that sort. The girls here don't seem to mind whether oneis alive or dead. I think they are cross at new arrivals. I sat lastnight at dinner at a little table all by myself, on a slippery linoleumfloor, and thought it horrid. Then it would have been fun to go to thedrawing-room ('to play to papa,' how nice that sounds), but the girlsmelted off by themselves. I looked into the drawing-room and thought itawful, so I ran up to my room and stayed there. The girl with the pinkbow was at her window again, and I really could have slain her, I don'tknow why."
Then "I'm to have my first lesson to-morrow. I'm so glad. Because Ican't practise, even although my piano has come. A girl who writes madethe others stop playing last night in the drawing-room because it gaveher a headache. It makes me think that no one will want to hear mesing. I suppose they think I'm very countrified.
"I think the real reason why I can't practise is because I'm not verywell. London food doesn't seem so nice as ours, and I still have thatfunny feeling that I had when I started. I suppose you are all havingjolly times. You would know that girls lived in this house. It's allwicker furniture, and little green curtains, and vases of flowers. I'veonly gone out to see about my lesson, except to the post and quite nearhere. I don't like going out much yet. Isobel's directions were agreat help."
This letter stopped rather abruptly. So much so that Mr. Leighton wasfar from happy about Jean. He bothered unceasingly as to whether heshould have allowed her to go. Mrs. Leighton enlarged his anxiety byher own fears. Jean's growing so much faster and taller than any oneelse had been a point in her favour with her mother a few years before,and Mrs. Leighton had never got over the certainty that Jean must bedelicate in consequence.
"I hope she won't have appendicitis," said she mournfully.
"Oh, mummy," said Mabel, "Jean is only home-sick."
Jean wrote another desponding letter.
"Home-sick or not home-sick, if Jean is ill, she has got to be nursed,"said Mrs. Leighton.
"Jean has never been ill in her life," Mabel pointed out. "She hasn'teven felt very home-sick. It will pass off, mummy dear."
But it didn't.
Jean sat, in dismal solitude, in the room looking over to the girl withthe pink bow, and she thought she should die. She did not like thewords of encouragement which came from home. Every one was trying to"buck her up" as though she were a kid. No one seemed to understandthat she was ill.
At the fifth day of taking no food to speak of and not sleepingproperly, and with the most lamentable distaste of everything and everyone around possessing her, she detected at last an acute little painwhich she thought must be appendicitis.
She went out, wired home "I am in bed," and came back to get into it.
Once the girls in the house heard that she was ill, they crowded intoher room with the kindest expressions of help and sympathy. Theybrought her flowers and fruit, and one provided her with books. Thenthey came in, as Lance had promised, and made tea for her. Jean tookthe tea and a good many slices of bread and butter, and felt some of theweight lifted. It might not be appendicitis after all.
And she never dreamed of the havoc which her telegram might create.Towards the evening, she got one of her effusive visitors to send offanother telegram. "Feeling better," this one declared.
She did not know that just before this point, Mr. Leighton haddetermined to fetch her home from London. The whole household was indespair. Mrs. Leighton wanted to start with him in the morning. Mr.Leighton was not only anxious, he was in a passion with himself for everhaving let Jean go.
"Madness," he said, "madness. I cannot stand this any longer."
Isobel hated to see people display feeling, and this excitement about agirl with a headache annoyed her infinitely. She was invited out todinner with Mabel, and Mabel would not go.
"Papa is in such a state," Mabel said, "I could not possibly go out andleave him like this. Let us telephone that we cannot come."
Isobel checked the protest that rose to her calm lips. She was ready ina filmy black chiffon gown, and her clear complexion looked startlinglyradiant in that framing. She had quite determined to go to the dinnerparty.
"Let me telephone for you, Mabel," she said with rather a nice concernin her voice. "Then it won't take you away from your father."
Mabel abstractedly thanked her.
"Say Jean is ill please, and that papa is in fits about her. TheGardiners will understand."
Isobel telephoned.
She came back to Mabel with her skirts trailing in little flauntingwaves of delicate black.
"They beg me to come. It's so disorganizing for a dinner party. Whatshall I do?" she asked in an interrogative manner.
Mrs. Leighton said, "Oh, do go, Isobel," politely. "Why should anybodystay at home just because we were so foolish as to let Jean go off toLondon alone?"
"Oh, well," said Isobel lightly, "when you put it like that, I must."
She went to telephone her decision.
It was nearly four weeks afterwards when, in quite an unexpected manner,Betty discovered that she never telephoned that second time at all.Isobel had arranged her going from the start, adequately.
Mabel was left alone with the anxious parents when Jean's secondtelegram came in. It opened Mabel's eyes to the fact that perhaps foronce Jean was really homesick. It was so much like the way she herselfwould have liked to have acted on some occasions and dared not. Jeanhad never been ill or been affected by nerves before, and had thereforeno confidence in recoveries. No doubt her interest in the new experiencehad made her imagination run away with her. She disliked London andwanted to get out of it--that was clear enough. But after just six daysof it--with everybody laughing at her giving in! The thing was not tobe thought of.
It seemed to Mabel that her own difficult experiences lately, all thehard things she had had to bear, culminated in this sudden act of dutywhich lay before her. She must clear out--go to Jean and help herthrough.
"Oh, papa," she said, "please let me go."
Mr. Leighton jumped as though she had exploded a bomb.
"What, another," asked he; "isn't one enough! No, indeed! I've hadquite enough of the independence of girls by this time. There's to beno more of it. Jean is coming home, and you will all stay at home--forever."
He never spoke with more decision. Mrs. Leighton had reached the pointwhere she could only stare.
Mabel sat down to her task of convincing them. She looked verydainty--almost fragile in the delicate gown of the particular colour ofheliotrope which she had at last dared to assume. A slight pallor whichMrs. Leighton had noticed once or twice of late in Mabel had erased thebright colour which was usual with her. She spoke with a certain kind ofmaturity which her mother found a little pathetic.
"You see, papa, it's like this. If you go to Jean now, in allprobabili
ty whenever she sees you she will be as right as the mail, justas the rest of us are when we've been home-sick. Then she will beawfully disgusted that she made so much of it when she finds out what itis, and it won't be coming home like a triumphant prima donna for her tocome now, will it? She will fall awfully flat, don't you think? AndCuthbert and Lance and you, papa, will go on saying that girls are nogood for anything. You will take all the spirit out of us at last."
"She mustn't go on being ill in London," said Mrs. Leighton. "We can'tstand the anxiety."
"Let me go up for a week or two, and see her started," pleaded Mabel."I've been there, you know, and know a little about it, and she wouldhave time to feel at home. If I find her really ill, I could send foryou. Jean wouldn't feel an idiot about it if I went up just to see herstarted."
Then Mabel fired her last shot.
"It would be good for me, mummy. I've been so stuck lately. Won't youlet me go?"
Something in Mabel's voice touched her mother very much.
"Won't Robin miss you?" she asked in a teasing, but anxious way. "Youdon't tell us, Mabel, whether you want Robin to miss you or not. Andthat's one of the main things, isn't it?"
Mabel started, and her eyes grew wide with a fear of what they might saynext.
"It's all right, Mabs! Don't you worry if you don't want to talk aboutit," said her father cheerily. There was a reserve in all of themexcept Jean which kept them from expressing easily what they were notalways willing to hide.
"Oh," said Mabel, "I think I did want to, but n-never could. I don'tthink I want to be c-coupled with Robin any more. It was fun when I wasrather s-silly and young, but it's different now."
She looked at her father quite sedately and quietly.
"I think Robin thinks a good deal more of Isobel and I'm glad," she saidquite determinedly. "The fact is, I was sure I would be glad ifsomething like that happened. I was sure before Isobel came."
Mr. Leighton patted her shoulder.
"Thank you, my dear, for telling us. You're just to do as you likeabout these things. Difficult to talk about, aren't they? Remember, Idon't think much of Robin now, or that sister of his. They could havearranged it better, I think. Never mind. I shall be glad to have youfind worthier friends." He patted her shoulder again, and looked overat Mrs. Leighton. She was surreptitiously wiping her eyes. Mabel satstrong and straight and rather radiant as though a weight were lifted.
"I don't think," said Mr. Leighton to his wife in a clear voice, "Idon't think that either you or I would be of greater service to Jeanthan Mabel could be! Now, do you, my dear, seriously, do you?" He keptan eye on her to claim the answer for which he hoped.
"I don't think so, John," said Mrs. Leighton.
"Then could you get ready for the 8.50 to-morrow morning?" asked Mr.Leighton of Mabel.
Mabel hugged him radiantly for answer.
"I don't know how I can live without two of you, even for a week," hesaid. "But then, I won't be selfish. Make the most of it and a successof it, and I shall always be glad afterwards that you went."
It was no joke to have to prepare in one evening for a visit to London.Elma's heart stopped beating when she heard of the arrangement.
"Oh, Mabs, and I shall be left with that--bounder!"
The word was out.
Never had Elma felt so horrified. Years she had spent in listening torefinements in language, only to come to this. Of her own cousin too!
"Oh, Mabs, it's shameful of me. And it will be so jolly for Jean. Andyou too! Oh, Mabs, shall I ever go to London, do you think?"
"You go and ask that duck of a father of ours--now--at present--thisinstant, and he will promise you anything in the world. No, don't,dear. On second thoughts he needs every bit of you here. Elma! Playup now. Play up like the little brick you are. You and Betty play up,and I'll bless you for ever. Don't you know I'm skipping all thatracketing crowd. I'm skipping Robin. I'm skipping Sarah! Think ofskipping the delectable Sarah!" She shook her fist in the direction ofthe Merediths' house. "And what is more, dear Elma, I am skippingIsobel."
She said that in a whisper.
They had all the feeling that Isobel was a presence, not always a merephysical reality.
Elma had not seen Mabel in such a joyous mood for weeks.
"And it's also because I feel I can soon square up Jean, and make herfit," said Mabel; "so that I'm of some use, you see, in going. I'mquite sure Jean is only home-sick after all."
She trilled and sang as she packed.
"Won't you be home-sick yourself, Mabel?" asked Elma anxiously.
"I have to get over that sooner or later. I shall begin now," saidMabel.
"Won't it be beastly in that girls' club?" wailed Betty.
"Oh, I'm sure it will," quivered Mabel. She sank in a heap on thefloor.
"Whatever possessed Jean to go off on that wild chase, I can't think,"cried Betty.
"I know," said Elma.
"What?"
"Isobel."
The gate clicked outside and there were voices. Betty crept to thewindow-sill and looked over. Mabel and Elma stood silent in the room.Crunching footsteps and then Isobel's voice, then Robin's, then"Good-night."
Mabel, with a smothered little laugh, flung a blouse into her trunk.
"Isn't it ripping, I'm going to London," said she.