"You knew?" he asked.
She nodded. "He's come to me recently . . . in my dreams. He tells me that it's okay. He's forgiven now. That he would have joined God soon anyway. I didn't understand what he meant."
"Have you experienced any visions while awake?" he asked.
She shook her head. "Just dreams." Her voice was distant. "Soon I'll be with him. That's all that keeps me going. For eternity, Jakob and I will be together. He tells me that in the dream." She looked at Katerina. "You asked me how it was to be apart. Those years of separation are inconsequential compared with forever. If nothing else, I'm a patient woman."
He needed to nudge her toward the point of it all. "Irma, where is what Jakob sent to you?"
She stared down into her beer. "I have an envelope Jakob told me to give to you."
"I need it."
Irma rose from the table. "It's next door in my apartment. I'll be right back."
The old woman lumbered out of the restaurant.
"Why didn't you tell me about Clement?" Katerina asked, as the door closed. The frigid tone matched the temperature outside.
"I would think the answer is obvious."
"Who knows?"
"Only a few."
She stood from the table. "Always the same, isn't it? Lots of secrets in the Vatican." She slipped on her coat and headed for the door. "Something you seem quite comfortable with."
"Just like you." He knew he shouldn't have said it.
She stopped. "I'll give you that one. I deserve it. What's your excuse?"
He said nothing and she turned to leave. "Where are you going?"
"For a walk. I'm sure you and Clement's lover have much more to talk about that doesn't include me, either."
SIXTY-FOUR
Katerina's mind swirled with confusion. Michener had not trusted her with the fact that Clement XV took his own life. Valendrea surely must know--otherwise Ambrosi would have urged her to learn what she could about Clement's death. What in the world was happening? Missing writings. Seers talking to Mary. A pope committing suicide after secretly loving a woman for six decades. Nobody would believe any of it.
She stepped from the inn, buttoned her coat, and decided to head back toward the Maxplatz and walk off her frustration. Bells pealed from all directions signaling noon. She swiped the quickening snow from her hair. The air was cold, parched, and sullen, like her mood.
Irma Rahn had opened her mind. Where years ago she'd forced Michener into a choice, driving him away, hurting them both in the process, Irma had ventured down a less selfish path, one that reflected love, not possession. Maybe the old woman was right. It mattered not about a physical connection. What counted was possessing the heart and mind.
She wondered if she and Michener could have enjoyed a similar relationship. Probably not. Times were different. Yet here she was, back with the same man, seemingly on the same tortuous path of love lost, then found, then tested, then--that was the question. Then, what?
She continued to walk, finding the main plaza, crossing a canal, and spotting the onion-domed twin towers of St. Gangolf's.
Life was so damn complicated.
She could still see the man from last night standing over Michener, knife in hand. She hadn't hesitated in attacking him. After, she'd suggested going to the authorities, but Michener had nixed the idea. Now she knew why. He couldn't risk the exposure of a papal suicide. Jakob Volkner meant so much to him. Maybe too much. And she now understood why he'd journeyed to Bosnia--searching for answers to questions his old friend had left behind. Clearly that chapter in his life could not be closed, because its ending had yet to be written. She wondered if it ever would be.
She kept walking and found herself back at the doors to St. Gangolf's. The warm air seeping from inside beckoned her. She entered and saw the gate for the side chapel, where Irma had been cleaning, remained open. She stepped past and stopped at another of the chapels. A statue of the Virgin Mary, cradling the Christ child in her arms, gazed down with the loving look of a proud mother. Surely a medieval representation--that of an Anglo-Saxon Caucasian--but an image the world had grown accustomed to worshiping. Mary had lived in Israel, a place where the sun burned hot and skin was tanned. Her features would have been Arabic, her hair dark, her body stout. Yet European Catholics would never have accepted that reality. So a familiar feminine vision was fashioned--one the Church had clung to ever since.
And was she a virgin? The Holy Spirit endowing her womb with the son of God? Even if that was true, the decision would have certainly been her choice. She alone would have consented to the pregnancy. Why then was the Church so opposed to abortion and birth control? When did a woman lose the option to decide if she wanted to give birth? Had not Mary established the right? What if she'd refused? Would she still have been required to carry that divine child to term?
She was tired of puzzling dilemmas. There were far too many with no answers. She turned to leave.
Three feet away stood Paolo Ambrosi.
The sight of him startled her.
He lunged forward, spinning her around and hurling her into the chapel with the Virgin. He slammed her into the stone wall, her left arm twisted behind her back. Another hand quickly compressed her neck. Her face was pressed against the prickly stone.
"I was pondering how I might separate you from Michener. But you did it for me."
Ambrosi increased the pressure on her arm. She opened her mouth to cry out.
"Now, now. Let's not do that. Besides, there is no one here to hear you."
She tried to break free, using her legs.
"Stay still. My patience with you is exhausted."
Her response was more struggling.
Ambrosi yanked her away from the wall and wrapped an arm around her neck. Instantly, her windpipe was constricted. She tried to break his hold, digging her fingernails into his skin, but the diminishing oxygen was causing everything before her to wink in and out.
She opened her mouth to scream, but there was no air to form the words.
Her eyes rolled upward.
The last thing she saw, before the world went black, was the mournful glare of the Virgin, which offered no solace for her predicament.
SIXTY-FIVE
Michener watched Irma as she stared out the window toward the river. She'd returned shortly after Katerina left, carrying a familiar blue envelope, which now lay on the table.
"My Jakob killed himself," she whispered to herself. "So sad." She faced him. "Yet he was still buried in St. Peter's. In consecrated ground."
"We couldn't tell the world what happened."
"That was his one complaint with the Church. Truth is so rare. Ironic that his legacy is now dependent on a lie."
Which seemed nothing unusual. Like Jakob Volkner, Michener's entire career had been based on a lie. Interesting how alike they'd turned out to be. "Did he always love you?"
"What you mean is, were there others? No, Colin. Only me."
"It would seem, after a while, that you both would have needed to move on. Didn't you wish for a husband, children?"
"Children, yes. That's my one regret in life. But I knew early on that I wanted to be Jakob's and he wished the same from me. I'm sure you realized that you were, in every way, his son."
His eyes moistened at the thought.
"I read that you found his body. That must have been awful."
He didn't want to think about the image of Clement on the bed, the nuns readying him for burial. "He was a remarkable man. Yet I now feel like he was a stranger."
"There's no need to feel that way. There were just parts of him that were his alone. As I'm sure there are parts of you he never knew."
How true.
She motioned to the envelope. "I could not read what he sent me."
"You tried?"
She nodded. "I opened the envelope. I was curious. But only after Jakob died. It's written in another language."
"Italian."
"Tell me what it is
."
He did, and she listened in amazement. But he had to tell her that no one left alive, save for Alberto Valendrea, knew what the document in the envelope actually said.
"I knew something was bothering Jakob. His letters the last few months were depressing, even cynical. Not like him at all. And he wouldn't tell me anything."
"I tried, too, but he wouldn't say a word."
"He could be like that."
From the front of the building he heard a door open, then bang shut. Footsteps echoed across a plank floor. The restaurant was to the rear, beyond a small lobby alcove and a staircase leading to the upper floors. He assumed it was Katerina returning.
"May I help you?" Irma said.
He was facing away from the doorway, toward the river, and turned to see Paolo Ambrosi standing a few feet behind him. The Italian was dressed in loose-fitting black jeans and a dark buttondown shirt. A gray overcoat fell to his knees and a maroon scarf draped his neck.
Michener stood. "Where's Katerina?"
Ambrosi did not answer. Michener liked nothing about the smug look on the bastard's face. He stood and rushed forward, but Ambrosi calmly withdrew a gun from his coat pocket. He stopped.
"Who is this?" Irma asked.
"Trouble."
"I am Father Paolo Ambrosi. You must be Irma Rahn."
"How do you know my name?"
Michener stayed between them, hoping Ambrosi would not notice the envelope on the table. "He read your letters. I couldn't get them all last night before I left Rome."
She brought a knuckle to her mouth and a gasp seeped out. "The pope knows?"
He motioned to Ambrosi. "If this son of a bitch knows, Valendrea knows."
She crossed herself.
He faced Ambrosi and understood. "Tell me where Katerina is."
The gun stayed on him. "She's safe, for now. But you know what I want."
"And how do you know I have it?"
"Either you do or this woman does."
"I thought Valendrea said it was mine to find." He hoped Irma kept quiet.
"And Cardinal Ngovi would have been the recipient of any delivery you made."
"I don't know what I would have done."
"I assume you do now."
He wanted to pound the arrogance off Ambrosi's face, but there was still the matter of the gun.
"Katerina's in danger?" Irma asked.
"She is fine," Ambrosi made clear.
Michener said, "Frankly, Ambrosi, Katerina is your problem. She was your spy. I don't give a damn anymore."
"I'm sure she will be brokenhearted to hear that."
He shrugged. "She got herself into this mess, it's her problem to get herself out." He wondered if he was jeopardizing Katerina's safety, but any show of weakness could be fatal.
"I want Tibor's translation," Ambrosi said.
"I don't have it."
"But Clement did send it here. Correct?"
"I don't know that . . . yet." He needed time. "But I can find out. And there's one other thing." He pointed to Irma. "When I do, I want this lady left out of everything. This doesn't concern her."
"Clement involved her, not me."
"If you want the translation, that's a condition. Otherwise, I'll give it to the press."
There was a momentary flicker in Ambrosi's cold demeanor. He almost smiled. Michener had guessed right. Valendrea had sent his henchman to destroy the information, not retrieve it.
"She's a nonparticipant," Ambrosi said, "provided she hasn't read it."
"She doesn't read Italian."
"But you do. So remember the warning. You will severely limit my options if you choose to ignore what I'm saying."
"How would you know if I read it, Ambrosi?"
"I'm assuming the message is one that's hard to conceal. Popes have shaken before it. So let it be, Michener. This doesn't concern you any longer."
"For something that doesn't concern me, I seem to be right in the middle. Like the visitor you sent calling last night."
"I know nothing about that."
"Same thing I'd say, if I were you."
"What of Clement?" Irma asked, a plea in her voice. She was apparently still thinking of the letters.
Ambrosi shrugged. "His memory is in your hands. I don't want the press involved. But if that occurs, we are prepared to leak certain facts that will be, to say the least, devastating to his memory . . . and yours."
"You will tell the world how he died?" she asked.
Ambrosi glanced over at Michener. "She knows?"
He nodded. "As you do, apparently."
"Good. That makes things easier. Yes, we would tell the world, but not directly. Rumor can do far more harm. People still believe the sainted John Paul I was murdered. Think what they would write about Clement. The few letters we have are damning enough. If you treasure him, as I believe you do, then cooperate in this matter and nothing will ever be known."
Irma said nothing, but tears soaked her cheeks.
"Don't cry," Ambrosi said. "Father Michener will do the right thing. He always does." Ambrosi backed toward the door, then stopped. "I'm told that the famous Bamberg crib circuit begins tonight. All the churches will be displaying nativity scenes. A Mass is said in the cathedral. Quite an audience attends. It starts at eight. Why don't we beat the crowd and exchange what each of us wants at seven."
"I didn't say I wanted anything from you."
Ambrosi flashed an irritating grin. "You do. Tonight. In the cathedral." He motioned to the window and the building crowning a hill on the far side of the river. "Quite public, so we'll all feel better. Or, if you prefer, we can make the exchange now."
"Seven at the cathedral. Now get the hell out of here."
"Remember what I said, Michener. Leave it sealed. Do yourself, Ms. Lew, and Ms. Rahn a favor."
Ambrosi left.
Irma sat silent, sobbing. Finally, she said, "That man's evil."
"Him and our new pope."
"He's connected to Peter?"
"The papal secretary."
"What's happening here, Colin?"
"To know that, I need to read what's in this envelope." But he also needed to safeguard her. "I want you to leave. I don't want you to know anything."
"Why are you going to open it?"
He held up the envelope. "I have to know what's so important."
"That man was quite clear that you were not to do that."
"The hell with Ambrosi." The severity of his tone surprised him.
She seemed to consider his predicament, then said, "I'll make sure you're not disturbed."
She withdrew and closed the door behind her. The hinges squealed ever so slightly, just like the ones in the archives he recalled from that rainy morning nearly a month ago when somebody was watching.
Surely Paolo Ambrosi.
The muted blare of a horn blew in the distance. From across the river, bells pealed, signaling one P.M.
He sat and opened the envelope.
Inside were two sheets of paper, one blue, one tan. He read the blue sheet first, penned in Clement's hand:
Colin, by now you know that the Virgin left more. Her words are now entrusted to you. Be wise with them.
His hands trembled as he laid the blue sheet aside. Clement had apparently known he would eventually find his way to Bamberg and that he'd read what was inside the envelope.
He unfolded the tan sheet.
The ink was a light blue, the page crisp and new. He scanned the Italian, its translation flashing through his mind. A second pass refined the language. A final read and he now knew what Sister Lucia had written in 1944--the remainder of what the Virgin told her in the third secret--what Father Tibor translated that day in 1960.
Before the Lady left She stated there was one last message which the Lord wished to convey only to Jacinta and me. She told us She was the Mother of God and asked us to make public this message to the entire world at the appropriate time. In so doing we will find strong resistance.
Listen well and pay attention was Her command. Men have to correct themselves. They have sinned and trod upon the gift given them. My child, She said, marriage is a sanctified state. Its love knows no boundaries. What the heart feels is genuine, no matter to whom or why, and God has placed no limit on what makes a sound union. Know well that happiness is the only real test of love. Know also that women are as much a part of God's church as men. To be called to the service of the Lord is not a masculine endeavor. Priests of the Lord should not be forbidden from love and companionship, nor from the joy of a child. To serve God is not to forgo one's heart. Priests should be bountiful in every way. Finally, She said, know that your body is yours. Just as God entrusted me with His son, the Lord entrusts to you and all women their unborn. It is for you alone to decide what is best. Go my little ones and proclaim the glory of these words. For that purpose I will always be at your side.
His hands shook. It wasn't Sister Lucia's words, provocative as they were. It was something else.
He reached into his pocket and found the message Jasna had written two days before. The words the Virgin told her on a Bosnian mountaintop. The tenth secret of Medjugorje. He unfolded and read the message again:
Do not fear, I am the Mother of God who talks to you and asks you to make public the present Message for the entire world. In so doing, you will find strong resistence. Listen well and pay attention to what I tell you. Men have to correct themselves. With humble petitions they have to ask forgiveness for sins committed and those they will commit. Proclaim in my name a great punishment will fall mankind; not today, not tomorrow, but soon if my words are not believed. I have already revealed this to the blessed ones at La Salette and again at Fatima and today I repeat it to you because mankind has sinned and trod upon the Gift that God has given. The time of times and the end of all ends will come, if mankind is not converted; and if all should stay as it is now, or worse, should it worsen even more, the great and the powerful will perish with the small and the weak.
Heed these words. Why persecute the man or woman who loves differently from others? Such persecution does not please the Lord. Know that marriage is to be shared by all without restriction. Anything contrary is the folly of man, not the word of the Lord. Women stand high in the eyes of God. Their service has too long been forbidden and that repression displeases heaven. Christ's priests should be happy and bountiful. The joy of love and children should never be denied them and the Holy Father would do well to understand this. My last words are most important. Know that I freely chose to be the mother of God. The choice of a child rests with a woman and man should never interfere with that decision. Go now, tell the world my message, and proclaim the goodness of the Lord, but remember that I shall always be by your side.