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heiress, had not been asked for the first dance, but had stood

  against the wall in her tight, high-heeled shoes, nervously

  fingering a lace handkerchief. She was soon out of breath, so Nils

  led her, pleased and panting, to her seat, and went over to the

  piano, from which Clara had been watching his gallantry. "Ask

  Olena Yenson," she whispered. "She waltzes beautifully."

  Olena, too, was rather inconveniently plump, handsome in a smooth,

  heavy way, with a fine colour and good-natured, sleepy eyes. She

  was redolent of violet sachet powder, and had warm, soft, white

  hands, but she danced divinely, moving as smoothly as the tide

  coming in. "There, that's something like," Nils said as he released

  her. "You'll give me the next waltz, won't you? Now I must go and

  dance with my little cousin."

  Hilda was greatly excited when Nils went up to her stall and

  held out his arm. Her little eyes sparkled, but she declared that

  she could not leave her lemonade. Old Mrs. Ericson, who happened

  along at this moment, said she would attend to that, and Hilda came

  out, as pink as her pink dress. The dance was a schottische, and

  in a moment her yellow braids were fairly standing on end.

  "Bravo!" Nils cried encouragingly. "Where did you learn to dance

  so nicely?"

  "My Cousin Clara taught me," the little girl panted.

  Nils found Eric sitting with a group of boys who were too

  awkward or too shy to dance, and told him that he must dance the

  next waltz with Hilda.

  The boy screwed up his shoulders. "Aw, Nils, I can't dance.

  My feet are too big; I look silly."

  "Don't be thinking about yourself. It doesn't matter how boys

  look."

  Nils had never spoken to him so sharply before, and Eric made

  haste to scramble out of his corner and brush the straw from his

  coat.

  Clara nodded approvingly. "Good for you, Nils. I've been

  trying to get hold of him. They dance very nicely together; I

  sometimes play for them."

  "I'm obliged to you for teaching him. There's no reason why he

  should grow up to be a lout."

  "He'll never be that. He's more like you than any of them.

  Only he hasn't your courage." From her slanting eyes Clara shot

  forth one of those keen glances, admiring and at the same time

  challenging, which she seldom bestowed on any one, and which seemed

  to say, "Yes, I admire you, but I am your equal."

  Clara was proving a much better host than Olaf, who, once the

  supper was over, seemed to feel no interest in anything but the

  lanterns. He had brought a locomotive headlight from

  town to light the revels, and he kept skulking about as if he

  feared the mere light from it might set his new barn on fire.

  His wife, on the contrary, was cordial to every one, was

  animated and even gay. The deep salmon colour in her cheeks burned

  vividly, and her eyes were full of life. She gave the piano over

  to the fat Swedish heiress, pulled her father away from the corner

  where he sat gossiping with his cronies, and made him dance a

  Bohemian dance with her. In his youth Joe had been a famous

  dancer, and his daughter got him so limbered up that every one sat

  around and applauded them. The old ladies were particularly

  delighted, and made them go through the dance again. From their

  corner where they watched and commented, the old women kept time

  with their feet and hands, and whenever the fiddles struck up a new

  air old Mrs. Svendsen's white cap would begin to bob.

  Clara was waltzing with little Eric when Nils came up to them,

  brushed his brother aside, and swung her out among the dancers.

  "Remember how we used to waltz on rollers at the old skating rink

  in town? I suppose people don't do that any more. We used to keep

  it up for hours. You know, we never did moon around as other boys

  and girls did. It was dead serious with us from the beginning.

  When we were most in love with each other, we used to fight. You

  were always pinching people; your fingers were like little nippers.

  A regular snapping turtle, you were. Lord, how you'd like

  Stockholm! Sit out in the streets in front of cafes and talk all

  night in summer. just like a reception--officers and ladies and

  funny English people. Jolliest people in the world, the Swedes,

  once you get them going. Always drinking things--champagne and

  stout mixed, half-and-half, serve it out of big pitchers, and serve

  plenty. Slow pulse, you know; they can stand a lot. Once they

  light up, they're glowworms, I can tell you."

  "All the same, you don't really like gay people."

  "I don't?"

  "No; I could tell that when you were looking at the old women

  there this afternoon. They're the kind you really admire, after

  all; women like your mother. And that's the kind you'll marry."

  "Is it, Miss Wisdom? You'll see who I'll marry, and she

  won't have a domestic virtue to bless herself with. She'll be a

  snapping turtle, and she'll be a match for me. All the same,

  they're a fine bunch of old dames over there. You admire them

  yourself

  "No, I don't; I detest them."

  "You won't, when you look back on them from Stockholm or

  Budapest. Freedom settles all that. Oh, but you're the real

  Bohemian Girl, Clara Vavrika!" Nils laughed down at her sullen

  frown and began mockingly to sing:

  "Oh, how could a poor gypsy maiden like me

  Expect the proud bride of a baron to be?"

  Clara clutched his shoulder. "Hush, Nils; every one is looking at

  you."

  "I don't care. They can't gossip. It's all in the family, as

  the Ericsons say when they divide up little Hilda's patrimony

  amongst them. Besides, we'll give them something to talk about

  when we hit the trail. Lord, it will be a godsend to them! They

  haven't had anything so interesting to chatter about since the

  grasshopper year. It'll give them a new lease of life. And Olaf

  won't lose the Bohemian vote, either. They'll have the laugh on

  him so that they'll vote two apiece. They'll send him to Congress.

  They'll never forget his barn party, or us. They'll always

  remember us as we're dancing together now. We're making a legend.

  Where's my waltz, boys?" he called as they whirled past the

  fiddlers.

  The musicians grinned, looked at each other, hesitated, and

  began a new air; and Nils sang with them, as the couples fell from

  a quick waltz to a long, slow glide:

  "When other lips and other hearts

  Their tale of love shall tell,

  In language whose excess imparts

  The power they feel so well."

  The old women applauded vigorously. "What a gay one he is,

  that Nils!" And old Mrs. Svendsen's cap lurched dreamily

  from side to side to the flowing measure of the dance.

  Of days that have as ha-a-p-py been,

  And you'll remember me."

  VII

  The moonlight flooded that great, silent land. The reaped


  fields lay yellow in it. The straw stacks and poplar windbreaks

  threw sharp black shadows. The roads were white rivers of dust.

  The sky was a deep, crystalline blue, and the stars were few and

  faint. Everything seemed to have succumbed, to have sunk to sleep,

  under the great, golden, tender, midsummer moon. The splendour of

  it seemed to transcend human life and human fate. The senses were

  too feeble to take it in, and every time one looked up at the sky

  one felt unequal to it, as if one were sitting deaf under the waves

  of a great river of melody. Near the road, Nils Ericson was lying

  against a straw stack in Olaf's wheat field. His own life seemed

  strange and unfamiliar to him, as if it were something he had read

  about, or dreamed, and forgotten. He lay very still, watching the

  white road that ran in front of him, lost itself among the fields,

  and then, at a distance, reappeared over a little hill. At last,

  against this white band he saw something moving rapidly, and he got

  up and walked to the edge of the field. "She is passing the row of

  poplars now," he thought. He heard the padded beat of hoofs along

  the dusty road, and as she came into sight he stepped out and waved

  his arms. Then, for fear of frightening the horse, he drew back

  and waited. Clara had seen him, and she came up at a walk. Nils

  took the horse by the bit and stroked his neck.

  "What are you doing out so late, Clara Vavrika? I went to the

  house, but Johanna told me you had gone to your father's."

  "Who can stay in the house on a night like this? Aren't you

  out yourself?"

  "Ah, but that's another matter."

  Nils turned the horse into the field.

  "What are you doing? Where are you taking Norman?"

  "Not far, but I want to talk to you tonight; I have something to

  say to you. I can't talk to you at the house, with Olaf sitting

  there on the porch, weighing a thousand tons."

  Clara laughed. "He won't be sitting there now. He's in bed

  by this time, and asleep--weighing a thousand tons."

  Nils plodded on across the stubble. "Are you really going

  to spend the rest of your life like this, night after night,

  summer after summer? Haven't you anything better to do on a night

  like this than to wear yourself and Norman out tearing across the

  country to your father's and back? Besides, your father won't

  live forever, you know. His little place will be shut up or

  sold, and then you'll have nobody but the Ericsons. You'll have

  to fasten down the hatches for the winter then."

  Clara moved her head restlessly. "Don't talk about that. I

  try never to think of it. If I lost Father I'd lose everything,

  even my hold over the Ericsons."

  "Bah! You'd lose a good deal more than that. You'd lose

  your race, everything that makes you yourself. You've lost a

  good deal of it now."

  "Of what?"

  "Of your love of life, your capacity for delight."

  Clara put her hands up to her face. "I haven't, Nils

  Ericson, I haven't! Say anything to me but that. I won't have

  it!" she declared vehemently.

  Nils led the horse up to a straw stack, and turned to Clara,

  looking at her intently, as he had looked at her that Sunday

  afternoon at Vavrika's. "But why do you fight for that so? What

  good is the power to enjoy, if you never enjoy? Your hands are

  cold again; what are you afraid of all the time? Ah, you're

  afraid of losing it; that's what's the matter with you! And you

  will, Clara Vavrika, you will! When I used to know you--listen;

  you've caught a wild bird in your hand, haven't you, and felt its

  heart beat so hard that you were afraid it would shatter its

  little body to pieces? Well, you used to be just like that, a

  slender, eager thing with a wild delight inside you. That is how

  I remembered you. And I come back and find you--a bitter

  woman. This is a perfect ferret fight here; you live by biting

  and being bitten. Can't you remember what life used to be? Can't

  you remember that old delight? I've never forgotten it, or known

  its like, on land or sea."

  He drew the horse under the shadow of the straw stack.

  Clara felt him take her foot out of the stirrup, and she slid

  softly down into his arms. He kissed her slowly. He was a

  deliberate man, but his nerves were steel when he wanted

  anything. Something flashed out from him like a knife out of a

  sheath. Clara felt everything slipping away from her; she was

  flooded by the summer night. He thrust his hand into his pocket,

  and then held it out at arm's length. "Look," he said. The

  shadow of the straw stack fell sharp across his wrist, and in the

  palm of his hand she saw a silver dollar shining. "That's my

  pile," he muttered; "will you go with me?"

  Clara nodded, and dropped her forehead on his shoulder.

  Nils took a deep breath. "Will you go with me tonight?"

  "Where?" she whispered softly.

  "To town, to catch the midnight flyer."

  Clara lifted her head and pulled herself together. "Are you

  crazy, Nils? We couldn't go away like that."

  "That's the only way we ever will go. You can't sit on the

  bank and think about it. You have to plunge. That's the way

  I've always done, and it's the right way for people like you and

  me. There's nothing so dangerous as sitting still. You've only

  got one life, one youth, and you can let it slip through your

  fingers if you want to; nothing easier. Most people do that.

  You'd be better off tramping the roads with me than you are

  here." Nils held back her head and looked into her eyes. "But

  I'm not that kind of a tramp, Clara. You won't have to take in

  sewing. I'm with a Norwegian shipping line; came over on

  business with the New York offices, but now I'm going straight

  back to Bergen. I expect I've got as much money as the Ericsons.

  Father sent me a little to get started. They never knew about

  that. There, I hadn't meant to tell you; I wanted you to come on

  your own nerve."

  Clara looked off across the fields. "It isn't that, Nils,

  but something seems to hold me. I'm afraid to pull against it.

  It comes out of the ground, I think."

  "I know all about that. One has to tear loose. You're not

  needed here. Your father will understand; he's made like us. As

  for Olaf, Johanna will take better care of him than ever you

  could. It's now or never, Clara Vavrika. My bag's at the

  station; I smuggled it there yesterday."

  Clara clung to him and hid her face against his shoulder.

  "Not tonight," she whispered. "Sit here and talk to me tonight.

  I don't want to go anywhere tonight. I may never love you like

  this again."

  Nils laughed through his teeth. "You can't come that on me.

  That's not my way, Clara Vavrika. Eric's mare is over there

  behind the stacks, and I'm off on the midnight. It's goodbye, or

  off across the world with me. My carriage won't wait. I've

  written a letter to Olaf, I'll mail it in town.
When he reads it

  he won't bother us--not if I know him. He'd rather have the

  land. Besides, I could demand an investigation of his

  administration of Cousin Henrik's estate, and that would be bad

  for a public man. You've no clothes, I know; but you can sit up

  tonight, and we can get everything on the way. Where's your old

  dash, Clara Vavrika? What's become of your Bohemian blood? I used

  to think you had courage enough for anything. Where's your

  nerve--what are you waiting for?"

  Clara drew back her head, and he saw the slumberous fire in

  her eyes. "For you to say one thing, Nils Ericson."

  "I never say that thing to any woman, Clara Vavrika." He

  leaned back, lifted her gently from the ground, and whispered

  through his teeth: "But I'll never, never let you go, not to any

  man on earth but me! Do you understand me? Now, wait here."

  Clara sank down on a sheaf of wheat and covered her face

  with her hands. She did not know what she was going to do--

  whether she would go or stay. The great, silent country seemed

  to lay a spell upon her. The ground seemed to hold her as if by

  roots. Her knees were soft under her. She felt as if she could

  not bear separation from her old sorrows, from her old discontent.

  They were dear to her, they had kept her alive, they were

  a part of her. There would be nothing left of her if she were

  wrenched away from them. Never could she pass beyond that skyline

  against which her restlessness had beat so many times. She felt

  as if her soul had built itself a nest there on that horizon at

  which she looked every morning and every evening, and it was dear

  to her, inexpressibly dear. She pressed her fingers against her

  eyeballs to shut it out. Beside her she heard the tramping of

  horses in the soft earth. Nils said nothing to her. He put his

  hands under her arms and lifted her lightly to her saddle. Then

  he swung himself into his own.

  "We shall have to ride fast to catch the midnight train. A

  last gallop, Clara Vavrika. Forward!"

  There was a start, a thud of hoofs along the moonlit road, two

  dark shadows going over the hill; and then the great, still land

  stretched untroubled under the azure night. Two shadows had

  passed.

  VII

  A year after the flight of Olaf Ericson's wife, the night

  train was steaming across the plains of Iowa. The conductor was

  hurrying through one of the day coaches, his lantern on his arm,

  when a lank, fair-haired boy sat up in one of the plush seats and

  tweaked him by the coat.

  "What is the next stop, please, sir?"

  "Red Oak, Iowa. But you go through to Chicago, don't you?"

  He looked down, and noticed that the boy's eyes were red and his

  face was drawn, as if he were in trouble.

  "Yes. But I was wondering whether I could get off at the

  next place and get a train back to Omaha."

  "Well, I suppose you could. Live in Omaha?"

  "No. In the western part of the State. How soon do we get

  to Red Oak?"

  "Forty minutes. You'd better make up your mind, so I can

  tell the baggageman to put your trunk off."

  "Oh, never mind about that! I mean, I haven't got any," the

  boy added, blushing.

  "Run away," the conductor thought, as he slammed the coach

  door behind him.

  Eric Ericson crumpled down in his seat and put his brown hand

  to his forehead. He had been crying, and he had had no supper, and

  his head was aching violently. "Oh, what shall I do?" he thought,

  as he looked dully down at his big shoes. "Nils will be ashamed of

  me; I haven't got any spunk."

  Ever since Nils had run away with his brother's wife, life at

  home had been hard for little Eric. His mother and Olaf both

  suspected him of complicity. Mrs. Ericson was harsh and

  faultfinding, constantly wounding the boy's pride; and Olaf was

  always setting her against him.