5. THE ALL-AMERICAN REJECTS, "STAB MY BACK"
Jacob's perspective
Chapter 8 "Don't worry about me," he insisted, smiling with deliberate cheer, too brightly. "I know what I'm doing. Just tell me if I'm upsetting you."
6. MUSE, "THE SMALL PRINT"
Jacob's perspective
Chapter 8 "Will you never forgive me, Jacob?" I whispered. As soon as I said the words, I wished I hadn't. I didn't want to hear his answer.
"You won't be Bella anymore," he told me. "My friend won't exist. There'll be no one to forgive."
7. THE KILLERS, "MR. BRIGHTSIDE"
Edward's perspective
Chapter 10 As I turned away from him, I thought I saw a flash of something in his eyes that I wasn't supposed to see. I couldn't tell for sure what it was exactly. Worry, maybe. For a second I thought it was panic. But I was probably just making something out of nothing, as usual.
Chapter 22 "The jealousy... it has to be eating at you. You can't be as sure of yourself as you seem. Unless you have no emotions at all."
"Of course it is," Edward agreed, no longer amused. "Right now it's so bad that I can barely control my voice. Of course, it's even worse when she's away from me, with you, and I can't see her."
"Do you think about it all the time?" Jacob whispered. "Does it make it hard to concentrate when she's not with you?"
"Yes and no," Edward said; he seemed determined to answer honestly. "My mind doesn't work quite the same as yours. I can think of many more things at one time. Of course, that means that I'm always able to think of you, always able to wonder if that's where her mind is, when she's quiet and thoughtful."
8. MUSE, "NEWBORN"
Chapter 13 "Benito had created an army of newborn vampires. He was the first one to think of it, and, in the beginning, he was unstoppable. Very young vampires are volatile, wild, and almost impossible to control. One newborn can be reasoned with, taught to restrain himself, but ten, fifteen together are a nightmare."
9. THE MAGIC NUMBERS, "LOVE ME LIKE YOU"
Jacob's and Edward's perspectives
Chapter 15 "One more thing," Edward said slowly. "I'll be fighting for her, too. You should know that. I'm not taking anything for granted, and I'll be fighting twice as hard as you will."
"Good," Jacob growled. "It's no fun beating someone who forfeits."
"She is mine." Edward's low voice was suddenly dark, not as composed as before. "I didn't say I would fight fair."
"Neither did I."
10. DASHBOARD CONFESSIONAL, "VINDICATED"
Jacob's perspective
Chapter 21 He laughed with me, and then his eyes were sad. "When are you finally going to figure out that you're in love with me, too?"
"Leave it to you to ruin the moment."
"I'm not saying you don't love him. I'm not stupid. But it's possible to love more than one person at a time, Bella. I've seen it in action."
11. MUSE, "HYSTERIA"
Chapter 23 My brain disconnected from my body, and I was kissing him back. Against all reason, my lips were moving with his in strange, confusing ways they'd never moved before--because I didn't have to be careful with Jacob, and he certainly wasn't being careful with me.
My fingers tightened in his hair, but I was pulling him closer now.
He was everywhere. The piercing sunlight turned my eyelids red, and the color fit, matched the heat. The heat was everywhere. I couldn't see or hear or feel anything that wasn't Jacob.
"The most solid example of songs on the playlists being the ones that shaped the book was when I was working on Eclipse. I was in the car with my sister listening to 'Hysteria' by Muse--we were out of town and I had my Absolution CD because I don't travel without it. We were listening to 'Hysteria' and the kiss scene between Bella and Jacob choreographed itself in my mind, down to the number of steps. I can hear him in the beat as he's walking toward her. The scene is not everybody's favorite, but I certainly enjoy it."
--Stephenie
12. ALANIS MORISSETTE, "UNINVITED"
Chapter 23 Jacob was right. He'd been right all along. He was more than just my friend. That's why it was so impossible to tell him goodbye--because I was in love with him. Too. I loved him, much more than I should, and yet, still nowhere near enough. I was in love with him, but it was not enough to change anything; it was only enough to hurt us both more. To hurt him worse than I ever had.
13. PLACEBO, "INFRA-RED"
Edward's perspective
Chapter 24 "Don't go, Victoria," he murmured in that same hypnotic tone as before. "You'll never get another chance like this."
She showed her teeth and hissed at him, but she seemed unable to move farther away from me.
"You can always run later," Edward purred. "Plenty of time for that."
14. MUSE, "YES PLEASE"
Bree's perspective
Chapter 25 After a second of fruitless searching, my gaze crept back to the young female vampire. She was still watching me, her eyes half-mad.
I met the girl's stare for a long moment. Chin-length dark hair framed her face, which was alabaster pale. It was hard to tell if her features were beautiful, twisted as they were by rage and thirst. The feral red eyes were dominant--hard to look away from. She glared at me viciously, shuddering and writhing every few seconds.
15. BRAND NEW, "THE BOY WHO BLOCKED HIS OWN SHOT"
Jacob's perspective
Chapter 26 "You know that story in the Bible?" Jacob asked suddenly, still reading the blank ceiling. "The one with the king and the two women fighting over the baby?"
"Sure. King Solomon."
"That's right. King Solomon," he repeated. "And he said, cut the kid in half... but it was only a test. Just to see who would give up their share to protect it."
"Yeah, I remember."
He looked back at my face. "I'm not going to cut you in half anymore, Bella."
16. & 17. TRAVIS, "LUV" AND MUSE, "BLACKOUT"
Jacob's and Bella's perspectives
Chapter 26 With a sigh, he turned his cheek toward me.
I leaned in and kissed his face softly. "Love you, Jacob."
He laughed lightly. "Love you more."
He watched me walk out of his room with an unfathomable expression in his black eyes.
18. OK GO, "IT'S A DISASTER"
Chapter 27 My hindsight seemed unbearably clear tonight. I could see every mistake I'd made, every bit of harm I'd done, the small things and the big things. Each pain I'd caused Jacob, each wound I'd given Edward, stacked up into neat piles that I could not ignore or deny.
And I realized that I'd been wrong all along about the magnets. It had not been Edward and Jacob that I'd been trying to force together, it was the two parts of myself, Edward's Bella and Jacob's Bella. But they could not exist together, and I never should have tried.
I'd done so much damage.
19. MUSE, "FALLING AWAY WITH YOU"
ALTERNATES:
ARCADE FIRE, "THE WELL AND THE LIGHTHOUSE"
MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE, "SLEEP"
MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE, "THIS IS HOW I DISAPPEAR"
Jacob's perspective
Epilogue Come home when you can. The words were faint, trailing off into blank emptiness as he left, too. And I was alone.
Hear this, and nothing more. Feel nothing but speed, nothing but the pull of muscle, sinew, and bone, working together in harmony as the miles disappeared behind me.
So much better. Now I could hear the faint rustle of the matted leaves beneath my toenails, the whisper of an owl's wings above me, the ocean--far, far in the west--moaning against the beach. Hear this, and nothing more. Feel nothing but speed, nothing but the pull of muscle, sinew, and bone, working together in harmony as the miles disappeared behind me.
If the silence in my head lasted, I would never go back. I wouldn't be the first one to choose this form over the other. Maybe, if I ran far enough away, I would never have to hear again....
I pushed my legs faster, letting Jac
ob Black disappear behind me.
Breaking Dawn BOOK ONE
1. BILLY IDOL, "WHITE WEDDING"
Chapter 1 I briefly contemplated my issues with words like fiance, wedding, husband, etc.
I just couldn't put it together in my head.
On the one hand, I had been raised to cringe at the very thought of poofy white dresses and bouquets. But more than that, I just couldn't reconcile a staid, respectable, dull concept like husband with my concept of Edward. It was like casting an archangel as an accountant; I couldn't visualize him in any commonplace role.
2. THE BEACH BOYS, "WOULDN'T IT BE NICE"
Chapter 1 "Getting married, though? What's the rush?" He eyed me suspiciously again.
The rush was due to the fact that I was getting closer to nineteen every stinking day, while Edward stayed frozen in all his seventeen-year-old perfection, as he had for over ninety years. Not that this fact necessitated marriage in my book, but the wedding was required due to the delicate and tangled compromise Edward and I had made to finally get to this point, the brink of my transformation from mortal to immortal.
These weren't things I could explain to Charlie.
3. MUSE, "CAN'T TAKE MY EYES OFF OF YOU"
Chapter 4 And when the music started, Edward pulled me into his arms for the customary first dance; I went willingly, despite my fear of dancing--especially dancing in front of an audience--just happy to have him holding me. He did all the work, and I twirled effortlessly under the glow of a canopy of lights and the bright flashes from the cameras.
4. BLUE OCTOBER, "CONGRATULATIONS"
Jacob's perspective
Chapter 4 "You'd think I'd be used to telling you goodbye by now," he murmured.
I tried to swallow the lump in my throat, but I couldn't force it down.
Jacob looked at me and frowned. He wiped his fingers across my cheek, catching the tears there.
"You're not supposed to be the one crying, Bella."
"Everyone cries at weddings," I said thickly.
"This is what you want, right?"
"Right."
"Then smile."
5. PLAIN WHITE T'S, "TAKE ME AWAY"
Jacob's perspective
Chapter 4 "I'll kill you," Jacob said, his voice so choked with rage that it was low as a whisper. His eyes, focused on Edward, burned with fury. "I'll kill you myself! I'll do it now!" He shuddered convulsively.
The biggest wolf, the black one, growled sharply.
"Seth, get out of the way," Edward hissed.
Seth tugged on Jacob again. Jacob was so bewildered with rage that Seth was able to yank him a few feet farther back. "Don't do it, Jake. Walk away. C'mon."
Sam--the bigger wolf, the black one--joined Seth then. He put his massive head against Jacob's chest and shoved.
The three of them--Seth towing, Jake trembling, Sam pushing--disappeared swiftly into the darkness.
6. JACK'S MANNEQUIN, "DARK BLUE"
Edward's perspective
Chapter 5 I half-smiled, then raised my free hand--it didn't tremble now--and placed it over his heart. White on white; we matched, for once. He shuddered the tiniest bit at my warm touch. His breath came rougher now.
"I promised we would try," he whispered, suddenly tense. "If... if I do something wrong, if I hurt you, you must tell me at once."
I nodded solemnly, keeping my eyes on his. I took another step through the waves and leaned my head against his chest.
"Don't be afraid," I murmured. "We belong together."
7. COLDPLAY, "NO MORE KEEPING MY FEET ON THE GROUND"
Chapter 5 The sun, hot on the bare skin of my back, woke me in the morning. Late morning, maybe afternoon, I wasn't sure. Everything besides the time was clear, though; I knew exactly where I was--the bright room with the big white bed, brilliant sunlight streaming through the open doors. The clouds of netting would soften the shine.
I didn't open my eyes. I was too happy to change anything, no matter how small. The only sounds were the waves outside, our breathing, my heartbeat....
8. FUEL, "HEMORRHAGE"
Edward's perspective
Chapter 7 When I could no longer bear the violent energy radiating out of him, I quietly left the room. His manic concentration made me sick to my stomach--not like the morning sickness, just uncomfortable. I would wait somewhere else for his mood to pass. I couldn't talk to this icy, focused Edward who honestly frightened me a little.
Breaking Dawn BOOK TWO
Jacob's perspective
9. NINE INCH NAILS, "DOWN IN IT"
Chapter 8 I wondered--would a bullet through my temple actually kill me or just leave a really big mess for me to clean up?
I threw myself down on the bed. I was tired--hadn't slept since my last patrol--but I knew I wasn't going to sleep. My head was too crazy. The thoughts bounced around inside my skull like a disoriented swarm of bees. Noisy. Now and then they stung. Must be hornets, not bees. Bees died after one sting. And the same thoughts were stinging me again and again.
10. AEROSMITH, "WHAT IT TAKES"
Chapter 9 I saw her at the same moment that I caught her scent.
Her warm, clean, human scent.
Bella was half-hidden behind the arm of the sofa, curled up in a loose fetal position, her arms wrapped around her knees. For a long second I could see nothing except that she was still the Bella that I loved, her skin still a soft, pale peach, her eyes still the same chocolate brown. My heart thudded a strange, broken meter, and I wondered if this was just some lying dream that I was about to wake up from.
11. INCUBUS, "EARTH TO BELLA" (PART 1)
Chapter 10 "If you think that imprinting could ever make sense of this insanity..." I struggled for words. "Do you really think that just because I might someday imprint on some stranger it would make this right?" I jabbed a finger toward her swollen body. "Tell me what the point was then, Bella! What was the point of me loving you? What was the point of you loving him? When you die"--the words were a snarl--"how is that ever right again? What's the point to all the pain? Mine, yours, his! You'll kill him, too, not that I care about that." She flinched, but I kept going. "So what was the point of your twisted love story, in the end? If there is any sense, please show me, Bella, because I don't see it."
12. INTERPOL, "NO I IN THREESOME"
Chapter 10 She knew what I was offering, and she wasn't going to think twice about it. I'd known that she wouldn't. But it still stung.
"There isn't much you wouldn't do for me, either, is there?" she whispered. "I really don't know why you bother. I don't deserve either of you."
"It makes no difference, though, does it?"
"Not this time."
13. KORN, "TWISTED TRANSISTOR"
Leah's perspective
Chapter 12 Seth doesn't want or need your protection. In fact, no one wants you here.
Oooh, ouch, that's gonna leave a huge mark. Ha, she barked. Tell me who does want me around, and I'm outta here.
So this isn't about Seth at all, is it?
Of course it is. I'm just pointing out that being unwanted is not a first for me. Not really a motivating factor, if you know what I mean.
14. MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE, "THE SHARPEST LIVES"
Chapter 15 Two weeks to a day, the days flying by. Her life speeding by in fast-forward. How many days did that give her, if she was counting to forty? Four? It took me a minute to figure out how to swallow.
"You okay?" she asked.
I nodded, not really sure how my voice would come out.
Edward's face was turned away from us as he listened to my thoughts, but I could see his reflection in the glass wall. He was the burning man again.
15. MOTION CITY SOUNDTRACK, "POINT OF EXTINCTION"
Chapter 15 "It feels... complete when you're here, Jacob. Like all my family is together. I mean, I guess that's what it's like--I've never had a big family before now. It's nice." She smiled for half a second. "But it's just not whole unless you're here."
"I'll never be part of your family, Bella."
I could have been. I would have been good there. But that was just a distant future that died long before it had a chance to live.
"You've always been a part of my family," she disagreed.
My teeth made a grinding sound. "That's a crap answer."
"What's a good one?"
"How about, 'Jacob, I get a kick out of your pain.' "
I felt her flinch.
"You'd like that better?" she whispered.
"It's easier, at least. I could wrap my head around it. I could deal with it."
Our minds were more closely linked than they had ever been before, because we both were trying to think together.
16. TV ON THE RADIO, "WOLF LIKE ME"
Chapter 16 She hesitated for a second, but then, tentatively, she seemed to reach out with her mind and try to see my way. It felt very strange--our minds were more closely linked than they had ever been before, because we both were trying to think together.
Strange, but it helped her. Her teeth cut through the fur and skin of her kill's shoulder, tearing away a thick slab of streaming flesh. Rather than wince away as her human thoughts wanted to, she let her wolf-self react instinctively. It was kind of a numbing thing, a thoughtless thing. It let her eat in peace.
It was easy for me to do the same. And I was glad I hadn't forgotten this. This would be my life again soon.
Was Leah going to be a part of that life? A week ago, I would've found that idea beyond horrifying. I wouldn't've been able to stand it. But I knew her better now. And, relieved from the constant pain, she wasn't the same wolf. Not the same girl.
17. R.E.M., "ACCELERATE"
Chapter 16 And I was all alone with my hatred and the pain that was so bad it was like being tortured. Like being dragged slowly across a bed of razor blades. Pain so bad you'd take death with a smile just to get away from it.
The heat unlocked my frozen muscles, and I was on my feet.