I may seem repetitive at times but in time I'll change,
Right now I'm drifting without a paddle and its seems strange,
Because in many ways I'm happier then I was last year,
Maybe my 30's will be the time I finally get a mind that's clear.
'Where do I go from here?' is something that I just don't know,
But I'll continue to write and take steps to grow,
We only get this life once and I'd like to keep seeing tomorrow,
I just don't know but it's time to feel a little less sorrow.
If She Wanted
Some know the situation and try to grasp the concept,
But are still confused when happiness is the main object,
You try to make sense of it but then just say eventually,
If she wanted to be with me, then she probably would be.
I can see on both sides while sitting on the fence,
But they need to accept the truth and other pretence,
Hoping they can see it from my side and just let it be,
That if she wanted to be with me, then she probably would be.
Respecting people's wishes is part of my generosity,
I'm trying to prove everyday that there's still some chivalry,
But others say what about going for every possibility,
But what if I reveal a truth and she doesn't feel the same about me?
Too many pros and cons with numerous variations,
The thing I've learned more about love is patience,
Even if she is wearing an intoxicating fragrance,
I'm leaving things like they are so things don't get tense.
If she wanted me then I'm sure she'd tell me,
Then I'd tell her about the possibility,
If she wanted me then she possibly could be,
It's just a matter of asking and discussing the possibility.
Be With Me
I want to share with someone if they will share with me,
I want to lay with someone if they will lay with me,
I want to love somebody if they will love me,
But first I need to find somebody to be with me.
Look me in the eye and look through to my soul,
You can see that loving someone has taken its toll,
I've come to realise that love is beyond my control,
Since I first had it and lost it many years ago.
A changed man I've become as my vision is clearer,
I know she's out there if only I could hear her,
But when I've least suspected it is when she came nearer,
Just need to right now understand the man in the mirror.
I feel like my poetry is my glass slipper for my Cinderella,
Just a missing piece of the puzzle I'm trying to put together,
Can I spare a little of your time for a dinner engagement?
I'll be the gentleman and just need to know so I can make arrangements.
Chivalry is still alive and I hope make you one day see,
How much of a gentleman, one gentleman can be,
Writing from the heart with depths greater than the sea,
I want to love the one who wants to be with me.
I want to share with someone if they will share with me,
I want to lay with someone if they will lay with me,
I want to love somebody if they will love me,
But first I need to find somebody to be with me.
Hope You Read Me
I hope one day you Google me and find my poetry,
The volumes I've written and take a moment to know me,
More than you ever had when I never said a thing,
How you wanted me to be when you knew the man I could be.
I hope you don't take too much to heart,
Because if you start to cry then I'll start,
Written all from my soul and heart,
Bless your memory being the light in the dark.
I hope one day you read me and all I've written for you,
I hope one day you read me and know I want the best for you,
I hope one day you read me and it makes all your dreams come true,
I hope one day you read me and find all the ones I wrote for you.
I hope one day you read me and find some subtext,
Things only you would know and what I wanted to do next,
Perhaps there may of been a day where I'd read to you,
All of those poems from volumes one and two.
I hope there are a few you like that'll make you smile,
I hope there are a few you could read your future child,
I hope there are a few you highlight to help your day,
I may not be there, but in poetry, I'm here to stay.
I hope one day you read me and all I've written for you,
I hope one day you read me and know I want the best for you,
I hope one day you read me and it makes all your dreams come true,
I hope one day you read me and find all the ones I wrote for you.
Let Your Love Be
Let your love be everything you've ever wanted it to be,
Let your love be everything that you've ever dreamed,
Let your love be with who you want your love to be,
Let your love be everything you've ever wanted it to be.
She's in her bed while he's in his,
They've never spoke about marriage or having any kids,
They're staring at the ceiling like they're worlds apart,
Questioning the love they have for each other in their hearts.
Listening to songs about how they could do better,
Starting to believe it and letting go of their treasure,
But they both know if they sway like trees in windy weather,
This could be the greatest love they could lose forever.
Let your love be greater and love, not settle,
The world needs love songs that strengthen that mental,
No more gloating and showing off what you don't have,
But saying you do just trying to make other people feel bad.
Love your special one that little bit more every single day,
Never ever let them slip away,
Kiss them at the end and start of a new day,
Let your love be more than words could ever say.
Let your love be everything you've ever wanted it to be,
Let your love be everything that you've ever dreamed,
Let your love be with who you want your love to be,
Let your love be everything you've ever wanted it to be.
Best For You (No Matter What You Do)
I want the best for you, no matter what you do,
Wanting you to always be loved and have every dream come true,
I'll be there to catch you if you fall, to listen when you call,
Be anything and everything you need or nothing at all.
I can't deny that I've never broken a heart ever,
When I've broken my own and lost ones I treasured,
But they remain in my thoughts and appear in my dreams,
Letting me know it's ok to live my life by any means.
Sometimes my cry dreams are real that I keep to myself,
Holding on to them like a book I finished and kept on a shelf,
Strong enough to make the hardest heart melt,
Letting me know that it was real, in what my heartfelt.
I still want the best for you even if it's with a different me,
I still want you to do what you want as long as you are happy,
I'm still a friend forever in my heart to catch you if you fall,
Prepared to be anything in your life or nothing at all.
I hope you get the flowers from them you should've got from me,
I hope you spend time together at every opportunity,
I hope you find a me, better suited to make you happy,
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But I just want you to know that there is only one me.
It's funny to listen to songs now that tug on more than one heart string,
That you use to love but now it burns reminding you of everything,
Good times and bad from the times that passed long before,
Wounds I thought were closed long ago but are still sore.
I want the best for you, no matter what you do,
I want you to be loved forever and have all of your dreams come true,
But know I still wait for a call or wonder if you'd be there if I fall,
I guess I want the best for you but you consider me nothing after all.
Fireworks
In reality it hurts but in my dreams its fireworks,
You and I are together watching colourful bursts,
Under our sky watching it light up and forget the worst,
I don't want to wake up because it hurts, just give me fireworks.
What I long for, I write for, with a heart that's too sore,
With a mind still cloudy looking for what it is I adore,
My heart holds on and brings me to where I'm sure,
To places with people that I loved and felt secure.
To the lounges we sat and to the beds we laid,
To the late night strolls and to the lazy days,
My mind keeps me safe when reality takes away,
When I'm with them, I'm safe, and wanting to stay.
Just give me fireworks and take me away from the hurt,
Leave me under the sky lit up with colourful bursts,
To a place where I'm happy and protected from the worst,
Let me stay where I'm safe and happy under the fireworks.
Stay (Don't Leave)
Standing on the platform holding you so close,
Playfully joking about who will miss who the most,
Stroke your hair and caress your face,
Hoping to look at you forever and never leave this place.
We let train after train pass, putting off the hard part,
Every time you are about to leave, that's when it starts,
I see the tears in your eyes and I get a lump in my throat,
We hold each other tighter and that's when you spoke.
Telling me you'll be back and that it'll be ok,
I just hold you and whisper to stay, don't go,
Stay with me forever and hold me like there's no tomorrow,
Stay with me so I can give you all the love I have to show.
Don't leave me here waving at you while you travel away,
I can't live without seeing you, holding you every day,
Stay with me for eternity and don't ever leave,
That's when we hold each other so tight we can't breathe.
Heart to heart and cheek to cheek,
Arms around one another to where our own hands meet,
I can feel people looking at us like that's so sweet,
That's when another train's brakes start to squeak.
This is the moment I have to watch you go,
Wanting you to stay and not leave till tomorrow,
But I never want tomorrow to come and just have today,
Please don't leave, I just want you to stay.
I just want you to stay because I can't bare you to go,
Waving on a platform, at the gates, at you through the window,
Never leave me and let's grow old and grey,
Please don't leave, I just want you to stay.
Hope In Heaven
If happiness forever is a possibility then there's a hope in heaven,
Where we have no worries and hate is never in a conversation,
Where I am me and you are you but we're friendly and not in competition,
If there is a place in this world for peace then there's a hope in heaven.
I write about love so much because I had it and then let it go,
Not just once mind you, it's now been two in a row,
Now you know why I write to kill rather than drown my sorrow,
But they tell me that was yesterday and just wait till tomorrow.
If I was ever going to get a happily ever after then there's a hope in heaven,
If there's a place with no guns or weapons then there's a hope in heaven,
A place where we never feel pain again then there's a hope in heaven,
If I ever have any hope in this world then maybe there's a hope in heaven.
We are separated from animals because of the choices we make,
That's where we segregate ourselves and just simply hate,
Take from the less, beat woman and rape,
My good kind heart is finding there's only so much that it can take.
If the world was going to change for the better then there's a hope in heaven,
No abuse, no fear, just peace and consideration for women and men,
We all deserved to be happy in our own hearts mind and skin,
It's just my hope that if it's not here then there's a hope it's in heaven.
A Woman's Wants First
Crying in my arms while you are breaking my heart,
I said it was ok while I was falling apart,
I let you go because you didn't want to be with me,
I always only wanted you to be happy.
I only wanted the best for you and I guess it wasn't me,
Even though I knew I could love you for all eternity,
When I think back to that day, it all still hurts,
But I believe a woman's wants should come first.
A woman's wants first even over my heart,
If she doesn't love me then I guess it's not my path,
To walk hand in hand into the light from the dark,
A woman's wants first even over my heart.
Passing faces on a train outside of the window,
I don't mean to stare but you look so beautiful,
Sometimes I want to say hello so much it hurts,
But I don't bother them putting a woman's wants first.
I lie awake hoping that I'm still full of chivalry,
That I'm more than a man, that I'm also gentlemanly,
Hold the door open and let the woman walk in first,
Because I believe a woman comes first.
A woman's wants first even over my heart,
If she doesn't love me then I guess it's not my path,
To walk hand in hand into the light from the dark,
A woman's wants first even over my heart.
Everyone Deserves to Have a Happily Ever After
We grow up with the stories read by our bed before sleep,
Wondering in our minds as we are counting sheep,
People have done it before us and will long after,
But will our stories end with a happily ever after?
The prince and princess with wedding suit and dress,
Will we ever be awoken by a kiss that feels like we've just been blessed?
Finally dropping to a knee with romance and one request,
For someone to love us for now and forever, even when nothing's left.
Moments with flowers and chocolates, that touch our desire,
Moments of hand holding and cuddling close by a fire,
Moments make us reach the next chapter together and the ones after,
Everyone deserves to have a happily ever after.
Everyone deserves a storybook ending with showers of petals,
Making us smile more, just when we didn't think happiness had another level,
But we need to be prepared for times to cool off like a boiling kettle,
Only to reach new temperatures again like a boiling kettle.
Everyone deserves to have a happily ever after,
Full of love, life and laughter,
To be loved now, here, forever and in the thereafter,
Everyone deserves to have a happily ever after.
Write For Me
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I look over my work and wonder if anyone will write for me?
Maybe that should be what you can do for me when I reach eternity,
Read them out loud or leave them in my bed to take to heaven,
Give our good and bad times equal amounts because it all deserves a mention.
Am I the greatest writer that you personally know?
Some have witnessed how I just cut loose and let my pen go,
Let my fingers go, on my phone while I'm standing next to you,
Having something on my mind that I just have to write through.
Will you think about the same things and write for me?
About how this is what makes me unique in our community,
I always know amongst the greatest that I'll never be in contention,
But I look to spark the greatest one day and get an honourable mention.
Some have tried to write for me and have done so successfully,
Pushing me to keep going and leave this as my legacy,
For my children one day or those writers still to find their voice,
Your pen is yours and ready for when you make your choice.
When they lay me down to rest, I want you to write something for me,
In your own words, own voice and doesn't have to be poetry,
Speak from the heart about where we've been and will now go,
Hold me in your heart, mourn and then move forward with this tomorrow.
When they lay me down to rest, I want you to write something for me,
Read it out loud or lay it with me to take like it's only between you and me,
Part of our story while we took steps through life's journey,
I'll be waiting but never leave it too late to write something for me.
When Words Aren't Enough (On a Page)
I'm not just writing these for you and me,
But also as a journal for my memory,
Just in case I happen to get dementia,
I want to make sure I never forget ya.
Sorry for that grammar but it'll be fine,
To remind me of how I use to rhyme,
This one's for me to recall those times,
When I treated love like it was a crime.