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Daniel glanced suspiciously around the parking lot. He popped the trunk, Luces massive du el bag in hand. It was an impossible t, but then a soft sucking sound came from the back of the car and Luces bag began to shrink. A moment later, Daniel snapped the trunk shut.
Luce blinked. "Do that again!"
Daniel didnt laugh. He seemed nervous. He slid into the drivers seat and started the car without a word. It was a strange, new thing for Luce: seeing his face look so serene on the surface, but knowing him well enough to sense something deeper underneath.
"Whats wrong?"
"Mr. Cole told you about keeping a low pro le, didnt he?"
She nodded.
Daniel backed out of the spot, then wheeled around to the parking lots exit, slipping a credit card into the machine on their way out. "That was Daniel backed out of the spot, then wheeled around to the parking lots exit, slipping a credit card into the machine on their way out. "That was stupid. I should have thought--"
"Whats the big deal?" Luce tucked her dark hair behind her ears as the car began to pick up speed. "You think youre going to attract Cams attention by stu ng a bag into a trunk?"
Daniel got a faraway look in his eyes and shook his head. "Not Cam. No. " A moment later, he squeezed her knee. "Forget I said anything. I just --We both just have to be cautious. "
Luce heard him but was too overwhelmed to listen too closely. She loved watching Daniel expertly work the gearshift as they took the ramp onto the freeway and zipped through tra c; loved feeling the wind whipping through the car as they sped toward the towering San Francisco skyline; loved--most of all--just being with Daniel.
In San Francisco proper, the road turned much hillier. Every time they crested one peak and started careening down another, Luce caught a di erent glimpse of the city. It looked old and new at the same time: Mirror-windowed skyscrapers backed right up against restaurants and bars that looked a century old. Tiny cars lined the streets, parked at gravity-defying angles. Dogs and strollers everywhere. The sparkle of blue water all around the citys edge. And the rst candy-apple-red glimpse of the Golden Gate Bridge in the distance.
Her eyes darted around to keep up with all the sights. And even though she had spent most of the past few days sleeping, she suddenly felt a wave of exhaustion.
Daniel stretched his arm around her and guided her head toward his shoulder. "Little-known fact about angels: We make excellent pillows. "
Luce laughed, lifting her head to kiss his cheek. "I couldnt possibly sleep," she said, nuzzling his neck.
On the Golden Gate Bridge, throngs of pedestrians, spandexed bicyclers, and joggers anked the cars. Far below was the brilliant bay, dotted with white sailboats and the beginning notes of a violet sunset. "Its been days since weve seen each other. I want to catch up," she said. "Tell me what youve been doing. Tell me everything. "
For an instant, she thought she saw Daniels hands tighten around the steering wheel. "If your goal is not to go to sleep," he said, cracking a smile, "then I really shouldnt delve into the minutiae of the eight-hour-long Council of the Angels meeting I was stuck in all day yesterday. See, the board met to discuss an amendment to proposition 362B, which details the sanctioned format for cherubic participation in the third circuit of-- "
"Okay, I get it. " She swatted him. Daniel was joking, but it was a strange new kind of joke. He was actually being open about being an angel, which she loved--or at least she would love it, once shed had a little more time to process it. Luce still felt like her heart and brain were both struggling to catch up to the changes in her life.
But they were back together for good now, so everything was in nitely easier. There was nothing to hold back from one another anymore. She pulled on his arm. "At least tell me where were going. "
Daniel inched, and Luce felt a knot of cold unfold inside her chest. She moved to put her hand on his, but he pulled away to downshift.
"A school in Fort Bragg called Shoreline. Classes start tomorrow. "
"Were enrolling at another school?" she asked. "Why?" It sounded so permanent. This was supposed to be a provisional trip. Her parents didnt even know shed left the state of Georgia.
"Youll like Shoreline. Its very progressive, and a lot better than Sword and Cross. I think youll be able to . . . develop there. And no harm will come to you. The school has a special, protective quality. A camou age-like shield. "
"I dont get it. Why do I need a protective shield? I thought coming out here, away from Miss Sophia, was enough. "
"Its not just Miss Sophia," Daniel said quietly. "There are others. "
"Who? You can protect me from Cam, or Molly, or whoever. " Luce laughed, but the cold feeling in her chest was spreading to her gut.
"Its not Cam or Molly, either. Luce, I cant talk about it. "
"Will we know anyone else there? Any other angels?"
"There are some angels there. No one you know, but Im sure youll get along. Theres one more thing. " His voice was at as he stared straight ahead. "I wont be enrolling. " His eyes didnt once veer o the road. "Just you. Its only for a little while. "
"How little?"
"A few . . . weeks. "
Had Luce been the one behind the wheel, this was when she would have slammed on the brakes.
"A few weeks?"
"If I could be with you, I would. " Daniels voice was so at, so steady, that it made Luce even more upset. "You saw what just happened with your du el bag and the trunk. That was like my shooting up a are into the sky to let everyone know where we are. To alert anyone who is looking for me--and by me, I mean you. I am too easy to nd, too easy for others to track down. And that bit with your bag? That is nothing compared to the things I do every day that would draw the attention of . . . " He shook his head sharply. "I wont put you in danger, Luce, I wont. "
"Then dont. "
Daniels face looked pained. "Its complicated. "
"And let me guess: You cant explain. "
"I wish I could. "
Luce drew her knees to her chest, leaned away from him and against the passenger-side door, feeling somehow claustrophobic under the big blue California sky.
For half an hour, the two of them rode in silence. In and out of patches of fog, up and down the rocky, arid terrain. They passed signs for Sonoma, and as the car cruised through lush green vineyards, Daniel spoke. "Its three more hours to Fort Bragg. You going to stay mad at me the whole time?"
Luce ignored him. She thought of and refused to give voice to hundreds of questions, frustrations, accusations, and--ultimately--apologies for Luce ignored him. She thought of and refused to give voice to hundreds of questions, frustrations, accusations, and--ultimately--apologies for acting like such a spoiled brat. At the turno for the Anderson Valley, Daniel forked west and tried again to hold her hand. "Maybe youll forgive me in time to enjoy our last few minutes together?"
She wanted to. She really wanted to not be ghting with Daniel right now. But the fresh mention of there being such a thing as a "last few minutes together," of his leaving her alone for reasons she couldnt understand and that he always refused to explain--it made Luce nervous, then terri ed, then frustrated all over again. In the roiling sea of new state, new school, new dangers everywhere, Daniel was the only rock she had to hold on to. And he was about to leave her? Hadnt she been through enough? Hadnt they both been through enough?
It was only after theyd passed through the redwoods and come out into a starry, royal-blue evening that Daniel said something that broke through to her. Theyd just passed a sign that read WELCOME TO MENDOCINO, and Luce was looking west. A full moon shone down on a cluster of buildings: a lighthouse, several copper water towers, and rows of well-preserved old wooden houses. Somewhere out beyond all that was the ocean she could hear but couldnt see.
Daniel pointed east, into a dark, dense forest of redwood and maple trees. "See that trailer park up ahead?"
She never would have if he hadnt pointed it out,
but now Luce squinted to see a narrow driveway, where a lime-caked wooden placard read in whitewashed letters MENDOCINO MOBILE HOMES.
"You used to live right there. "
"What?" Luce sucked in her breath so quickly, she started to cough. The park looked sad and lonesome, a dull line of low-ceilinged cookie-cutter boxes set along a cheap gravel road. "Thats awful. "
"You lived there before it was a trailer park," Daniel said, easing the car to a stop by the side of the road. "Before there were mobile homes. Your father in that lifetime brought your family out from Illinois during the gold rush. " He seemed to look inward somewhere, and sadly shook his head. "Used to be a really nice place. "
Luce watched a bald man with a potbelly tug a mangy orange dog on a leash. The man was wearing a white undershirt and annel boxers. Luce couldnt picture herself there at all.
Yet it was so clear to Daniel. "You had a two-room cabin and your mother was a terrible cook, so the whole place always smelled like cabbage. You had these blue gingham curtains that I used to part so I could climb through your window at night after your parents were asleep. "
The car idled. Luce closed her eyes and tried to ght back her stupid tears. Hearing their history from Daniel made it feel both possible and impossible. Hearing it also made her feel extremely guilty. Hed stuck with her for so long, over so many lifetimes. Shed forgotten how well he knew her. Better even than she knew herself. Would Daniel know what she was thinking now? Luce wondered whether, in some ways, it was easier to be her and to never have remembered Daniel than it was for him to go through this time and time again.
If he said he had to leave for a few weeks and couldnt explain why . . . she would have to trust him.
"What was it like when you rst met me?" she asked.
Daniel smiled. "I chopped wood in exchange for meals back then. One night around dinnertime I was walking past your house. Your mother had the cabbage going, and it stank so badly I almost skipped your house. But then I saw you through the window. You were sewing. I couldnt take my eyes o your hands. "
Luce looked at her hands, her pale, tapered ngers and small, square palms. She wondered if theyd always looked the same. Daniel reached for them across the console. "Theyre just as soft now as they were then. "
Luce shook her head. She loved the story, wanted to hear a thousand more just like it, but that wasnt what shed meant. "I want to know about the rst time you met me," she said. "The very rst time. What was that like?"
After a long pause, he nally said, "Its getting late. Theyre expecting you at Shoreline before midnight. " He stepped on the gas, taking a quick left into downtown Mendocino. In the side mirror, Luce watched the mobile home park grow smaller, darker, until it disappeared completely. But then, a few seconds later, Daniel parked the car in front of an empty all-night diner with yellow walls and oor-to-ceiling front windows.
The block was full of quirky, quaint buildings that reminded Luce of a less stu y version of the New England coastline near her old New Hampshire prep school, Dover. The street was paved with uneven cobblestones that glowed yellow in the light from the streetlamps overhead. At its end, the road seemed to drop straight into the ocean. A coldness sneaked up on her. She had to ignore her re exive fear of the dark. Daniel had explained about the shadows--that they were nothing to be afraid of, merely messengers. Which should have been reassuring, except for the hard- to-ignore fact that it meant there were bigger things to be afraid of.