“I think my bike cost about sixty dollars, you guys,” the boy named Gilbert said. “You can pay me for it.”
“You keep out of this, Gilbert,” the woman said to him.
Hamilton took a breath. “Go on,” he said.
“Well, as it turns out, Kip and Roger used Gilbert’s bike to help Kip deliver his papers, and then the two of them, and Gary too, they say, took turns rolling it.”
“What do you mean ‘rolling it’?” Hamilton said.
“Rolling it,” the woman said. “Sending it down the street with a push and letting it fall over. Then, mind you—and they just admitted this a few minutes ago— Kip and Roger took it up to the school and threw it against a goalpost.”
“Is that true, Roger?” Hamilton said, looking at his son again.
“Part of it’s true, Dad,” Roger said, looking down and rubbing his finger over the table. “But we only rolled it once. Kip did it, then Gary, and then I did it.”
“Once is too much,” Hamilton said. “Once is one too many times, Roger. I’m surprised and disappointed in you. And you too, Kip,” Hamilton said.
“But you see,” the woman said, “someone’s fibbing tonight or else not telling all he knows, for the fact is the bike’s still missing.”
The older boys in the kitchen laughed and kidded with the boy who still talked on the telephone.
“We don’t know where the bike is, Mrs. Miller,” the boy named Kip said. “We told you already. The last time we saw it was when me and Roger took it to my house after we had it at school. I mean, that was the next to last time. The very last time was when I took it back here the next morning and parked it behind the house.” He shook his head. “We don’t know where it is,” the boy said.
“Sixty dollars,” the boy named Gilbert said to the boy named Kip. “You can pay me off like five dollars a week.”
“Gilbert, I’m warning you,” the woman said. “You see, they claim,” the woman went on, frowning now, “it disappeared from here, from behind the house. But how can we believe them when they haven’t been all that truthful this evening?”
“We’ve told the truth,” Roger said. “Everything.” Gilbert leaned back in his chair and shook his head at Hamilton’s son.
The doorbell sounded and the boy on the draining board jumped down and went into the living room.
A stiff-shouldered man with a crew haircut and sharp gray eyes entered the kitchen without speaking. He glanced at the woman and moved over behind Gary Berman’s chair.
“You must be Mr. Berman?” the woman said. “Happy to meet you. I’m Gilbert’s mother, and this is Mr. Hamilton, Roger’s father.”
The man inclined his head at Hamilton but did not offer his hand.
“What’s all this about?” Berman said to his son.
The boys at the table began to speak at once.
“Quiet down!” Berman said. “I’m talking to Gary. You’ll get your turn.”
The boy began his account of the affair. His father listened closely, now and then narrowing his eyes to study the other two boys.
When Gary Berman had finished, the woman said, “I’d like to get to the bottom of this. I’m not accusing any one of them, you understand, Mr. Hamilton, Mr. Berman—I’d just like to get to the bottom of this.” She looked steadily at Roger and Kip, who were shaking their heads at Gary Berman.
“It’s not true, Gary,” Roger said.
“Dad, can I talk to you in private?” Gary Berman said.
“Let’s go,” the man said, and they walked into the living room,
Hamilton watched them go. He had the feeling he should stop them, this secrecy. His palms were wet, and he reached to his shirt pocket for a cigaret. Then, breathing deeply, he passed the back of his hand under his nose and said, “Roger, do you know any more about this, other than what you’ve already said? Do you know where Gilbert’s bike is?”
“No, I don’t,” the boy said. “I swear it.”
“When was the last time you saw the bicycle?” Hamilton said.
“When we brought it home from school and left it at Kip’s house.”
“Kip,” Hamilton said, “do you know where Gilbert’s bicycle is now?”
“I swear I don’t, either,” the boy answered. “I brought it back the next morning after we had it at school and I parked it behind the garage.”
“I thought you said you left it behind the house” the woman said quickly.
“I mean the house! That’s what I meant,” the boy said.
“Did you come back here some other day to ride it?” she asked, leaning forward.
“No, I didn’t,” Kip answered.
“Kip?” she said.
“I didn’t! I don’t know where it is!” the boy shouted.
The woman raised her shoulders and let them drop. “How do you know who or what to believe?” she said to Hamilton. “All I know is, Gilbert’s missing a bicycle.”
Gary Berman and his father returned to the kitchen.
“It was Roger’s idea to roll it,” Gary Berman said.
“It was yours!” Roger said, coming out of his chair. “You wanted to! Then you wanted to take it to the orchard and strip it!”
“You shut up!” Berman said to Roger. “You can speak when spoken to, young man, not before. Gary, I’ll handle this—dragged out at night because of a couple of roughnecks! Now if either of you,” Berman said, looking first at Kip and then Roger, “know where this kid’s bicycle is, I’d advise you to start talking.”
“I think you’re getting out of line,” Hamilton said.
“What?” Berman said, his forehead darkening. “And I think you’d do better to mind your own business!”
“Let’s go, Roger,” Hamilton said, standing up. “Kip, you come now or stay.” He turned to the woman. “I don’t know what else we can do tonight. I intend to talk this over more with Roger, but if there is a question of restitution I feel since Roger did help manhandle the bike, he can pay a third if it comes to that.”
“I don’t know what to say,” the woman replied, following Hamilton through the living room. “I’ll talk to Gilbert’s father—he’s out of town now. We’ll see. It’s probably one of those things finally, but I’ll talk to his father.” Hamilton moved to one side so that the boys could pass ahead of him onto the porch, and from behind him he heard Gary Berman say, “He called me a jerk, Dad.” “He did, did he?” Hamilton heard Berman say. “Well, he’s the jerk. He looks like a jerk.”
Hamilton turned and said, “I think you’re seriously out of line here tonight, Mr. Berman. Why don’t you get control of yourself?”
“And I told you I think you should keep out of it!” Berman said.
“You get home, Roger," Hamilton said, moistening his lips. “I mean it,” he said, “get going!” Roger and Kip moved out to the sidewalk. Hamilton stood in the doorway and looked at Berman, who was crossing the living room with his son.
“Mr. Hamilton,” the woman began nervously but did not finish.
“What do you want?” Berman said to him. “Watch out now, get out of my way!” Berman brushed Hamilton’s shoulder and Hamilton stepped off the porch into some prickly cracking bushes. He couldn’t believe it was happening. He moved out of the bushes and lunged at the man where he stood on the porch. They fell heavily onto the lawn. They rolled on the lawn, Hamilton wrestling Berman onto his back and coming down hard with his knees on the man’s biceps. He had Berman by the collar now and began to pound his head against the lawn while the woman cried, “God almighty, someone stop them! For God’s sake, someone call the police!”
Hamilton stopped.
Berman looked up at him and said, “Get off me.”
“Are you all right?” the woman called to the men as they separated. “For God’s sake,” she said. She looked at the men, who stood a few feet apart, backs to each other, breathing hard. The older boys had crowded onto the porch to watch; now that it was over, they waited, watching the men, and then they began
feinting and punching each other on the arms and ribs.
“You boys get back in the house,” the woman said. “I never thought I’d see,” she said and put her hand on her breast.
Hamilton was sweating and his lungs burned when he tried to take a deep breath. There was a ball of something in his throat so that he couldn’t swallow for a minute. He started walking, his son and the boy named Kip at his sides. He heard car doors slam, an engine start. Headlights swept over him as he walked.
Roger sobbed once, and Hamilton put his arm around the boy’s shoulders.
“I better get home,” Kip said and began to cry. “My dad’ll be looking for me,” and the boy ran.
“I’m sorry,” Hamilton said. “I’m sorry you had to see something like that,” Hamilton said to his son.
They kept walking and when they reached their block, Hamilton took his arm away.
“What if he’d picked up a knife, Dad? Or a club?”
“He wouldn’t have done anything like that,” Hamilton said.
“But what if he had?” his son said.
“It’s hard to say what people will do when they’re angry,” Hamilton said.
They started up the walk to their door. His heart moved when Hamilton saw the lighted windows.
“Let me feel your muscle,” his son said.
“Not now,” Hamilton said. “You just go in now and have your dinner and hurry up to bed. Tell your mother I’m all right and I’m going to sit on the porch for a few minutes.”
The boy rocked from one foot to the other and looked at his father, and then he dashed into the house and began calling, “Mom! Mom!”
He sat on the porch and leaned against the garage wall and stretched his legs. I he sweat had dried on his forehead. He felt clammy under his clothes.
He had once seen his father—a pale, slow-talking man with slumped shoulders—in something like this. It was a bad one, and both men had been hurt. It had happened in a café. The other man was a farmhand. Hamilton had loved his father and could recall many things about him. But now he recalled his father’s one fistfight as if it were all there was to the man.
He was still sitting on the porch when his wife came out.
“Dear God,” she said and took his head in her hands. “Come in and shower and then have something to eat and tell me about it. Everything is still warm. Roger has gone to bed/
But he heard his son calling him.
“He’s still awake,” she said.
“I’ll be down in a minute,” Hamilton said. “Then maybe we should have a drink.”
She shook her head. “I really don’t believe any of this yet.”
He went into the boy’s room and sat down at the foot of the bed.
“It’s pretty late and you’re still up, so I’ll say good night,” Hamilton said.
“Good night,” the boy said, hands behind his neck, elbows jutting.
He was in his pajamas and had a warm fresh smell about him that Hamilton breathed deeply. He patted his son through the covers.
“You take it easy from now on. Stay away from that part of the neighborhood, and don’t let me ever hear of you damaging a bicycle or any other personal property. Is that clear?” Hamilton said.
The boy nodded. He took his hands from behind his neck and began picking at something on the bedspread. “Okay, then,” Hamilton said, “I’ll say good night.”
He moved to kiss his son, but the boy began talking. “Dad, was Grandfather strong like you? When he was your age, I mean, you know, and you—”
“And I was nine years old? Is that what you mean? Yes, I guess he was,” Hamilton said.
“Sometimes I can hardly remember him,” the boy said. “I don’t want to forget him or anything, you know? You know what I mean, Dad?”
When Hamilton did not answer at once, the boy went on. “When you were young, was it like it is with you and me? Did you love him more than me? Or just the same?” The boy said this abruptly. He moved his feet under the covers and looked away. When Hamilton still did not answer, the boy said, “Did he smoke? I think I remember a pipe or something.”
“He started smoking a pipe before he died, that’s true,” Hamilton said. “He used to smoke cigarets a long time ago and then he’d get depressed with something or other and quit, but later he’d change brands and start in again. Let me show you something,” Hamilton said. “Smell the back of my hand.”
The boy took the hand in his, sniffed it, and said, “I guess I don’t smell anything, Dad. What is it?”
Hamilton sniffed the hand and then the fingers. “Now I can’t smell anything, either,” he said. “It was there before, but now it’s gone.” Maybe it was scared out of me, he thought. “I wanted to show you something. All right, it’s late now. You better go to sleep,” Hamilton said.
The boy rolled onto his side and watched his father walk to the door and watched him put his hand to the switch. And then the boy said, “Dad? You’ll think 1’m pretty crazy, but I wish I’d known you when you were little. I mean, about as old as I am right now. I don’t know how to say it, but I’m lonesome about it. It’s like—it’s like I miss you already if I think about it now. That’s pretty crazy, isn’t it? Anyway, please leave the door open.”
Hamilton left the door open, and then he thought better of it and closed it halfway.
WHAT IS IT?
Fact is the car needs to be sold in a hurry, and Leo sends Toni out to do it. Toni is smart and has personality. She used to sell children’s encyclopedias door to door. She signed him up, even though he didn’t have kids. Afterward, Leo asked her for a date, and the date led to this. This deal has to be cash, and it has to be done tonight. Tomorrow somebody they owe might slap a lien on the car. Monday they’ll be in court, home free—but word on them went out yesterday, when their lawyer mailed the letters of intention. The hearing on Monday is nothing to worry about, the lawyer has said. They’ll be asked some questions, and they’ll sign some papers, and that’s it. But sell the convertible, he said—today, tonight. They can hold onto the little car, Leo’s car, no problem. But they go into court with that big convertible, the court will take it, and that’s that.
Toni dresses up. It’s four o’clock in the afternoon. Leo worries the lots will close. But Toni takes her time dressing. She puts on a new white blouse, wide lacy cuffs, the new two-piece suit, new heels. She transfers the stuff from her straw purse into the new patent-leather handbag. She studies the lizard makeup pouch and puts that in too. Toni has been two hours on her hair and face. Leo stands in the bedroom doorway and taps his lips with his knuckles, watching.
“You’re making me nervous,” she says. “I wish you wouldn’t just stand,” she says. “So tell me how I look.” “You look fine,” he says. “You look great. I'd buy a car from you anytime.”
“But you don’t have money,” she says, peering into the mirror. She pats her hair, frowns. “And your credit’s lousy. You’re nothing,” she says. “Teasing,” she says and looks at him in the mirror. “Don’t be serious,” she says. “It has to be done, so I'll do it. You take it out, you’d be lucky to get three, four hundred and we both know it. Honey, you’d be lucky if you didn’t have to pay them.” She gives her hair a final pat, gums her lips, blots the lipstick with a tissue. She turns away from the mirror and picks up her purse. “I’ll have to have dinner or something, I told you that already, that’s the way they work, I know them. But don’t worry, I’ll get out of it,” she says. “I can handle it.”
“Jesus,” Leo says, “did you have to say that?”
She looks at him steadily. “Wish me luck,” she says “Luck,” he says. “You have the pink slip?” he says. She nods. He follows her through the house, a tall woman with a small high bust, broad hips and thighs. He scratches a pimple on his neck. “You’re sure?” he says. “Make sure. You have to have the pink slip.”
“I have the pink slip,” she says.
“Make sure.”
She starts to say something,
instead looks at herself in the front window and then shakes her head.
“At least call." he says. “Let me know what’s going on.”
“I'll call," she says. “Kiss, kiss. Here,” she says and points to the corner of her mouth. “Careful," she says. He holds the door for her. “Where are you going to try first?” he says. She moves past him and onto the porch.
Ernest Williams looks from across the street. In his Bermuda shorts, stomach hanging, he looks at Leo and Toni as he directs a spray onto his begonias. Once, last winter, during the holidays, when Toni and the kids were visiting his mother’s, Leo brought a woman home. Nine o’clock the next morning, a cold foggy Saturday, Leo walked the woman to the car, surprised Ernest Williams on the sidewalk with a newspaper in his hand. Fog drifted, Ernest Williams stared, then slapped the paper against his leg, hard.
Leo recalls that slap, hunches his shoulders, says, “You have someplace in mind first?”
“I’ll just go down the line,” she says. “The first lot, then I’ll just go down the line.”
“Open at nine hundred,” he says. “Then come down. Nine hundred is low bluebook, even on a cash deal.”
“I know where to start,” she says.
Ernest Williams turns the hose in their direction. He stares at them through the spray of water. Leo has an urge to cry out a confession.
“Just making sure,” he says.
“Okay, okay,” she says. “I’m off.”
It’s her car, they call it her car, and that makes it all the worse. They bought it new that summer three years ago. She wanted something to do after the kids started school, so she went back selling. He was working six days a week in the fiber-glass plant. For a while they didn’t know how to spend the money. Then they put a thousand on the convertible and doubled and tripled the payments until in a year they had it paid. Earlier, while she was dressing, he took the jack and spare from the trunk and emptied the glove compartment of pencils, matchbooks, Blue Chip stamps. Then he washed it and vacuumed inside. The red hood and fenders shine.