She had a point there. The last time he had brought her home, he was bouncing back and forth between doing the right thing and acting like a teenager with out-of-control hormones. “You’re right. From now on we keep this on a professional level. Understand?”
“Absolutely. And just so you know, I don’t usually throw myself at men.”
She stared at him expectantly, seeming to need his agreement. “Yeah, okay,” he responded.
“What happened before was as much my fault as it was yours,” she explained very matter-of-factly. “For as long as I’m your asset, we’ll keep a professional relationship. I promise I won’t let you kiss me again. I have more self-control than you do.”
“You think so, huh?”
“Absolutely.”
He leaned down and whispered in her ear, “Wanna bet?”
TWELVE
Allison now understood what lust was all about. No wonder it was such a sin. According to the militant sisters at St. Dominic’s High School, it was one of the worst offenses, the burning-in-hell kind. Until Liam came along, she had never felt such a raw physical reaction. With him everything was different. He was masculine and sexy and strong, and oh, did he know how to make her want him! All he had to do was look at her a certain way and she felt she was melting inside. Being with him even topped writing code, and how freaky was that? These feelings were so completely foreign to her she didn’t quite know what to do about them . . . except keep them to herself. They had agreed their relationship should be a professional one, and she was determined to prove she could be sensible and focus on the work. Liam certainly didn’t seem to have any trouble with it.
Each morning of her first week, he appeared at her door to take her to the cyber unit. Allison had protested that she was perfectly capable of driving there herself, but he insisted on accompanying her, claiming their time in the car would give them a chance to discuss the progress of the case. During the long drive, Liam was all business. Once they reached the cyber unit, he walked her to her office and then disappeared until it was time for her to leave. Their journey back to her house was usually quiet. He would drop her off at her door with a casual good-bye, and each time he drove away she would remind herself that she was simply doing a job. Liam called her an asset, and she had to accept that fact. Once her usefulness to him in solving this case was over, he would be gone without a backward glance. This was a business proposition, nothing more.
Just as Liam had promised, Will had been given probation, but that didn’t stop his mother and father from trying to get hold of Allison. One or both had driven to her house several times now. They took turns banging on the front door, demanding to be let in. There were also a good number of crude threats thrown in, and after the first confrontation her roommates decided not to answer the door. On their third assault, Mark timed the banging just for fun. Allison’s aunt didn’t let up for five full minutes. He claimed he was actually impressed anyone could pound on a door for that long without stopping.
Allison knew what they wanted. She was their cash cow, and they weren’t going to let her go without a fight. Luckily she was away much of the time, either working at the cyber unit or attending a class. Mark and Dan would text her to warn her whenever they showed up. Just the possibility that she might have to see them again and speak to them made her sick to her stomach, and every time she thought about the five-hundred-thousand-dollar insurance policy, the anger inside her grew. The only reason those hateful relatives had taken Charlotte and her into their home was the money. They’d spent years shaming them and accusing them of being a financial burden.
She couldn’t believe they were driving the long distance almost every single day just to harass her. They must have been confident they could bring her back into the fold, she thought. Their tactics had worked in the past, but no more. Unlike Charlotte and Oliver, Allison had no desire to confront her aunt and uncle. Her goal was to put them out of her life. In time she hoped she could forget their very existence.
Though Dan and Mark never complained, Allison knew the constant disruption was wearing on them. They both were carrying a full load at school and had a heap of other responsibilities on their plates as well. It wasn’t fair to make them deal with her crazy relatives, too. Since she was planning to move out of the house after graduation at the end of May anyway, she decided to push up the date and find an apartment to rent for six months while she worked for Agent Phillips. Mark and Dan tried to convince her to stay, but in the end they agreed the move was a good idea, especially if Allison’s aunt and uncle never learned her new address.
Dan came through for her. He knew a guy who knew a guy who was moving to New Orleans and had just packed up all his possessions but hadn’t yet found a tenant to sublease his place. Allison pounced on the one-bedroom apartment even though the rent was knee-buckling. Fortunately she was going to be making a very good salary, so she could afford it.
Her new home was on the second floor of an apartment building overlooking the river. There was a doorman and assigned underground parking, which was almost unheard-of in such a sought-after area of Boston proper. Over a weekend she purchased a camel-colored sofa on sale, a matching easy chair and ottoman, and a desk. She also bought a king-size bed with the money from Giovanni. She left her single bed at the house for the next student.
It didn’t take any time at all to move in. Dan and Mark brought over her books and clothes while she packed her car with the rest of her meager possessions. One trip to a superstore, and by Sunday night she had everything she needed.
Her final task was to call Liam. At first he seemed concerned that she would make such an abrupt decision, but after she explained her reasons, he agreed she’d done the right thing and told her he would be downstairs at the entrance to her building early the next morning to pick her up.
Without the added distraction of her relatives, the next week fell into a predictable routine. When she wasn’t in class, she was working long hours at cyber headquarters. It was taking her longer than she had anticipated to find the source of the original e-mails, and that was a real smack to her ego. Yet the puzzle so fascinated her that she hated stopping each night. Liam had to all but drag her out of the building.
While she was working, she was usually left alone. Phillips would saunter in every now and then to look over her shoulder at the monitor, but he rarely spoke to her. Occasionally she would notice employees walking by her office, and sometimes she would pass them in the hall, yet she never stopped to chat, nor did they try to engage her in conversation. Even though they weren’t aware of her purpose for being there, no one expressed curiosity. She wondered if they had been ordered not to ask about the work others were doing.
With each day that passed, she knew she was getting closer to the answer. Finding it was just a matter of time and persistence. By Friday afternoon of the second week, she sensed the end was in sight. She glanced up at the clock on the wall. It was getting late, and she prayed that Liam wouldn’t appear at the door to stop her. She was so close. She narrowed her concentration on the screen and worked furiously, as though all her work would slip away if she lost focus for even one second. Suddenly there it was. Everything came together in one single spot. She found the source. The urge to jump up and shout was nearly overwhelming. She couldn’t, of course, so she sat there and cheered silently.
Now what? She could either go to Phillips and report what she had found, or wait for Liam and tell him. A no-brainer. She would wait. Phillips wasn’t going to take the news well, no matter who told him. He had insisted it was impossible for her to trace the origin of the leaks back to the FBI—and he hated to be wrong. Besides, she had just seen Curtis Bale, the former head of the Detroit division, heading for Phillips’s office. It wouldn’t be such a good idea to rush in now and announce that she had identified the exact computer the breach had originated from and that it was located in Detroit.
Impatient, she
glanced up at the clock again. Where was Liam?
While she waited, she was curious to look around and see what else she could find. Her fingers hovered over the keys. What would be the harm of checking out a few e-mails? Maybe there were other incriminating messages. She shook her head. As much as she wanted to snoop, she knew she couldn’t go any further without permission, no matter how great the temptation. She had made up her mind not to break any more laws, and she meant to keep her promise.
But making certain there weren’t any more damning messages would be helping, wouldn’t it?
While she was having her moral debate—should she or shouldn’t she?—Liam walked in. She nearly jumped out of her chair when she noticed him watching her. She was sure she looked as guilty as she felt. He, on the other hand, looked wonderful, but then, when didn’t he? The man certainly knew how to wear a suit. Every time he gave her his full attention, her heart did a little flip. She wished she could make herself not care because she knew she was headed for misery. Thank God she hadn’t gotten more involved with him. She could get over a couple of kisses. No big deal . . . right?
“Are you ready to leave? I’d like to get out of here. It’s been a long week,” he said.
She didn’t ease into the news. “I found it.”
His smile faded. “You’re sure?”
“Yes.”
“Show me.” He pulled up a chair and sat next to her.
“I can show you the original e-mails, but explaining how I got to the source would take a long time.” She didn’t add her concern that he probably wouldn’t understand what she was trying to explain anyway.
“I don’t need to know how you got there,” he said. “Phillips and his team will want the step-by-step explanation.”
“I know what he’s going to do. He’ll point to that chair, tell me to sit, and then question me for hours.”
More like days, Liam thought, but didn’t say. “That chair?”
“You know. The one in his office. It’s like he’s training a dog.”
Liam put his arm on her shoulder, leaned toward the screen, and began to read the damning messages, examining each carefully as she scrolled through one and then another. He was so engrossed in what he was seeing he didn’t realize he was absentmindedly stroking her upper arm.
“The e-mails came from Detroit,” he said.
“Yes.”
She couldn’t tell what he was thinking. His expression wasn’t revealing anything, but when the muscle in his cheek flexed once, then again, she knew he was keeping his temper under control. When he finished reading, he looked at her intensely, which immediately messed with her ability to concentrate. How could one man have such a powerful effect on her?
“You did it, Allison. You got to the source. You should be proud of yourself.”
Uncomfortable with praise, probably because she’d gotten so little of it in her life, she immediately downplayed her role. “It took much longer than I had anticipated, and I’m sure others wouldn’t have taken as long.”
“Don’t underrate yourself,” he argued. “This was not a job just anyone with computer skills could have done.”
“What happens now?”
“Alec and I take it from here.” He pushed his chair back and hurried out of the room, saying, “Sit tight while I talk to Phillips. Then I’ll take you home.”
Allison foolishly thought Phillips would want to wait until Monday to question her, but Phillips, being Phillips, felt compelled to get some answers now. He called her into his office, pointed to the chair, and proceeded to question her for two full hours. Liam was there the entire time, leaning against the wall with his arms folded, watching her.
Phillips didn’t care how late the hour was. He wanted to know some of the searches she’d done, and he was having difficulty understanding how she had arrived at what he called point zero so quickly. She gave Liam the “get me out of here” look several times, which he completely ignored. Phillips didn’t stop his inquisition until eight o’clock. By then she was ready to pull out her hair . . . and his. Six months working under his thumb was going to be an eternity.
THIRTEEN
By the time they left the office, neither Liam nor Allison was in the mood to talk. He offered to take her to dinner, but she declined. She was too tired to eat and only wanted a hot shower and ten hours of sleep.
What she didn’t want was to say good-bye to Liam for the last time.
Just a couple of blocks away from her apartment, Liam finally broke the silence. “What are you thinking about? You look so . . . worried.”
She wasn’t about to tell him the truth, that she was going to miss him. Instead she turned to him and said, “You completely ignored my signals.”
“What signals?”
“I was giving you the look, letting you know I wanted to get out of there.”
He flashed a smile. “Ah, you mean the glares.”
“Okay, the glares,” she conceded.
“You shouldn’t be frowning now. You should be happy and damn proud of yourself. You found the proof Alec and I needed.”
“I am happy,” she insisted, sounding ridiculously defensive. “Maybe now you and Alec won’t think I’m such a horrible person.”
“No one thinks you’re horrible,” he said, his exasperation apparent in his tone. “And why do you care what anyone thinks?”
If she was to give him an honest answer, she would sound pitiful, though at times that was exactly how she felt. The truth was, she had never had a close relationship with anyone but her sister. She had kept most people at a safe distance, and that was the way she liked it. She was an intensely private person. At least, that was her excuse for being so introverted. She didn’t want anyone to look too closely into her background, because she was embarrassed and a little ashamed. The less others knew about her, the safer she felt. Every time she stepped outside her comfort zone, she felt vulnerable.
Odd, she was so cautious about her private life and yet she was able to set aside her inhibitions when she modeled for Giovanni. She couldn’t really explain the contradiction, but when Giovanni and his team transformed her with their makeup and clothes, it was almost as though she became another person wearing a mask no one could see behind.
She loved and trusted Giovanni with all her heart, and although it had taken time, she had grown to care for and trust her housemate Dan. And yet neither one knew what she could do with a computer. During Phillips’s long interrogation, he had actually referred to her as a master criminal. She wondered what Giovanni or Dan would think about that. They probably wouldn’t believe him, and if they did, they would have been shocked.
Her friendship with Jordan was different. She knew that Allison was a hacker and had broken several laws, yet she still remained her friend. She also knew a little about how dysfunctional Allison’s home life had been and wasn’t deterred. If Allison was ever sent to prison, she wasn’t positive Jordan would bring her a cake with a file in it, but she had a strong feeling Jordan might try.
“I asked you a question,” Liam reminded her, bringing her back from her musings.
“I don’t like people thinking I’m a criminal.”
Before he could comment she rushed on. “Oh, I know what you’re going to say. ‘You are a criminal.’ Okay, yes, I guess you could look at it that way. That’s all in the past, though. Haven’t you ever heard of second chances, for Pete’s sake?”
“Allison—”
She interrupted to finish her thought. “And that’s why I insisted that, along with immunity, you and Alec both give me your word that only a select few would know what I’ve done.”
“I remember what I promised.”
“You know what would happen if it got out that I took millions of dollars. Even though I gave it to the FBI, I’d be added to a list, and every time a government agency was hacked, I’d be dragg
ed in and interrogated. Being on that list would follow me for the rest of my life.”
“I’m not going to let that happen,” he said, his tone emphatic. He pulled up in front of her apartment building, put the car in park, and turned to her. “Why are you worrying about this now?”
“Because you’ll be leaving, and I wanted to make sure . . .”
“You wanted to make sure I’ll keep my word.”
She knew she had insulted him. His clenched jaw was a big indicator. Should she apologize? She’d probably make it worse if she did. He seemed so serious, as though he had something troubling on his mind.
“I guess this is the last time you’ll be driving me to and from the cyber unit,” she said. “Good luck on your next assignment.”
The doorman, a retired car salesman named Stamos, unbolted the glass door from within and opened it wide. Allison smiled at him before turning back to Liam. “You don’t need to go up with me.” She was involved in a tug-of-war with her tote bag. She was pulling on it, but he wasn’t letting go.
Liam finally released his hold on the bag and followed her up the steps and into the foyer without saying a word. Allison couldn’t tell what was going through his mind, but the way he was looking at her, as though searching for the answer to some pressing question, was making her feel very uneasy.
She wanted to find out how long he would be staying in Boston without being too intrusive. Subtle, she decided. She would be subtle. “Will you and Alec be leaving to follow up on the leak? I imagine you’ve already taken another assignment after this one. Or is it too soon? Are you waiting to decide, or are you going to take a few days off? That’s what you should do. Take some time to relax.” She couldn’t seem to slow down. So much for being subtle. Her words were fairly tripping over one another. Why she was suddenly feeling so nervous was beyond her. Perhaps it was because it was doubtful she would ever see him again. Maybe once she was away from him, she would come to her senses and figure it all out. It was impossible to distance herself now.