“We all do,” he said.
“He’ll come around eventually,” Tala said, putting a hand on his arm.
Lawson hoped so. He felt guilty enough leaving Ahramin behind as it was, and with every day Edon passed in silence, he felt worse. But he had to worry about the pack; he didn’t have time to focus on individual concerns.
That afternoon he gathered them together to strategize. “We have to start thinking about the future. We can’t keep living like this, stealing and scrounging and never sure where we’re going to sleep.”
There was silence, then a surprising response, from a scratchy, low voice that resembled a familiar growl. “We can’t stay in any one place too long,” Edon said. “We have to keep moving, before the hounds catch our scent. We don’t know how long the Gates will hold them back.”
“My thoughts exactly.” Lawson nodded, relieved to have his brother speaking at last.
“We need to learn more about this world,” Malcolm said, ever the sensible one. “I’m the only one who knows how to read. And none of us can write. We need to find a place that’s safe for us. This isn’t it.” He waved his hand around the park they’d camped in, a bleak stretch of asphalt covered in dingy wooden benches where they’d eventually sleep.
“Where should we go?” Rafe asked, looking to Lawson for answers.
“Perhaps I can be of assistance,” boomed a voice from behind them. How could Lawson have missed someone sitting on one of the park benches? He could have sworn no one was there. But sure enough, when he turned around, a man was sitting there, an older gentleman with about three-quarters of a smile on his face. He was small and round, dressed in fine clothes that had seen finer days—a brown corduroy jacket and neat slacks, but Lawson could tell they were old and worn, the collar was frayed, and the hems of his coat were threadbare.
“You must be the wolves. Allow me to introduce myself,” the man said. “I’m Arthur Beauchamp.”
“I’m a warlock,” he explained, in response to their alarmed looks. “Actually, I’m a Norse god, doomed to mid-world, but why complicate things? That’s another story.”
“Is that how you know us? Is that how you recognized who—what—we are?” Lawson asked.
Arthur cocked his head to one side. He exuded a shabby geniality that was difficult to dislike. “Yes, and no, I suppose. Warlocks aren’t allowed to use their powers. Those of us who choose to live in the open must pretend to be mortal. I’ve been in hiding for some time now, so I suppose I’m not…strict…about keeping a rein on my magical activities. But I’ve been looking for you for a very long time. A friend asked me to do her the favor of finding you. She said that one day I would come upon a pack of young wolves, and they would need my help.”
“We need some kind of help, all right,” Edon muttered.
Lawson supposed it was a good thing that Edon was speaking, but why did he have to choose now, and with that tone?
“Well, that’s what I’m here for,” Arthur said, not at all perturbed. “Come, we have much to discuss, and you can’t stay here.”
Lawson looked around at the other wolves. It was easier to read their faces in their human forms. Malcolm was scared, Rafe was skeptical, and Edon was indifferent. It was Tala’s face that made the decision for him: there was an openness to the possibility that Arthur really was there to help, that he could be trusted, and Lawson trusted that.
“Okay,” he said.
Arthur packed all of them into his beat-up van, introduced them to fast-food takeout, then drove for several hours until they reached his apartment in the city. “This is an older part of Cleveland, a bit forgotten—like me,” he said. It was a cramped one-bedroom with one bathroom, and he apologized for the size, but Lawson assured him they’d be fine—they were used to the tight quarters of the den, after all.
“I’d use magic to make it bigger, but that would be conspicuous,” Arthur told them. “What small amount of magic I’ve used to increase the space is all for storage.” He opened what appeared to be a closet door and turned on the light.
Lawson could barely see in, but apparently Malcolm had gotten an eyeful right away. “Whoa,” he said, and then ran into the room with a whoop.
Arthur wasn’t kidding about using magic, Lawson realized when he saw that the closet expanded on the inside to the size of a small library, with long mahogany tables and enormous bookshelves. “I thought this was more important than extra bedrooms,” Arthur said. “We have much work to do, all of us.”
“What kind of work?” Rafe asked suspiciously.
“As young Malcolm said, you need to learn to live in this world,” Arthur replied. “And you need to learn about the world you came from. The wolves have a long history, and I’m not sure how much of it you know.”
“We know some,” Lawson admitted. The masters were reluctant to teach the wolves much about their past, but stories were handed down. They knew that wolves had lived in mid-world once and had served a special purpose. Lawson told Arthur what they knew about the Guard and the passages. “Does that sound right?” he asked.
The old man nodded. “You’ve got the basics down. But there’s a lot more to the story than just what’s happened to the wolves, and there’s a lot more at stake now that the dark fallen—those ‘masters’ of yours—are making trouble. We Norsemen don’t interfere with the lost children of the Almighty, it’s part of our restriction. But you are not similarly bound by our covenant, which is possibly why I was asked to help you. Now let’s all go into the library and get started. First things first, nothing happens without literacy.”
It felt to Lawson as if they spent every moment of the next month in the library. They must have slept at some point, bodies piled on top of each other as when they’d been puppies in the den, but whenever they were awake, they were in the library, studying.
He was glad they picked it up quickly; even Arthur was surprised. “Now we’ll have more time to spend on the more interesting things,” the warlock said, and introduced them to history books, both those written from the human perspective and those containing the alternative “true” history of the world. “For those of us more enlightened,” Arthur put it, but Lawson knew he meant for those who had a connection to the world of magic.
Lawson was fascinated by how much misinformation had made its way through the various dens where the wolves lived in the underworld, interspersed with the things that were true. He knew, for instance, that after the War of Heaven, the Fallen had been cursed to live in mid-world as vampires, made to drink human blood to survive, reincarnating every cycle, and that the wolves had a tangled history with them that led to Romulus’s betrayal and the punishment of the wolves at Lucifer’s hand. The vampires—Blue Bloods, led by the archangel Michael—were wealthy and untouchable, Arthur explained, and from what Lawson heard about them, he thought that he and his pack had probably stolen wallets and purses from several Blue Bloods that first week.
But the vampires had problems of their own; the Dark Prince had returned in a different form, one the Blue Bloods had not suspected, launching an attack on the covens in Rio and New York. Lucifer had been thwarted for now, but Michael had disappeared, and the Silver Bloods—known to the wolves as their masters—were still causing havoc in this world. The vampires were going into hiding, but the Next Great War was coming, whether they were prepared or not, Arthur warned, and the wolves had a part to play in it.
“What do you know about chronologs?” Lawson asked Arthur.
“The chronologs were destroyed during the Crisis in Rome, I believe,” Arthur said. “Why do you ask?”
“Because Romulus found one,” Lawson said. “He wears it around his neck. He doesn’t yet know how to use it. We heard the masters saying they think it’s broken.”
Arthur looked grim. “This is dark news you bring, young wolf. If Romulus finds an entrance to the passages…”
Lawson nodded, hoping more than ever that Marrok had been successful in his part of the operation.
/> The books couldn’t teach them everything they needed to know, so television filled the gaps. They watched and learned how to dress like normal teenagers or close enough that no one would suspect they were anything else. At seventeen, Edon was the oldest; Tala and Lawson were both sixteen, Rafe fifteen, and Malcolm twelve, their ages corresponding to a human life cycle. They had to learn how to be independent one day; they couldn’t live with Arthur forever, as hospitable as he was. Lawson knew Edon was right—it was safer if they moved every so often, to keep the hounds off their scent. Arthur couldn’t keep them safe; he couldn’t even use his magic without fear of reprisal from his betters.
Finally, it was time to move on. Lawson gathered them around, told them the plan. They were leaving the next day with Arthur’s blessing; they had to keep moving, lest the hounds catch their scent.
“There’s just one thing I want to do before then,” Tala said to him. “Can you help me?” she asked with a shy smile, a smile that was starting to mesmerize him.
“Of course,” Lawson said. He had grown to like her even more in the time they had stayed with the warlock. Tala was unfazed by their new surroundings. She was excited by everything: colors, music, the sight of a yellow butterfly on the green grass. Arthur had taught them the seasons, and it was currently spring. They had never heard of such a thing in the underworld. Lawson was glad she could find happiness. All Lawson saw when he looked around were shadows. The Hellhounds would come for them, he was sure. It was just a matter of when. They had to prepare.
Tala whispered in his ear. “Meet me in the bathroom in fifteen minutes.”
Lawson squeezed into the tiny space to see clumps of brown hair on the floor and Tala leaning over the sink. “What are you doing?” he asked, horrified. He hadn’t realized how much he liked her long hair until he saw that she’d cut it all off. She had her head under the faucet, and the water running off it was a violent purple.
“I’m dyeing it,” she said. “I have to make sure to rinse it all off. Can you make sure it’s off my neck?”
He did as she asked. He rinsed her hair, made sure that the water ran clear, that all the color was gone. When he touched her skin, he felt a shiver run through him. Pleasure, he thought.
She straightened up and wrapped a towel around her neck. “Thanks.” Then he watched as she took a blow-dryer and teased her newly short hair into a spiky style. It was pink, he saw now, not that angry violet. It looked amazing.
“You can go now,” she said. She caught his eye in the mirror. “But you don’t have to.” She was wearing a thin camisole that showed off her clavicles, and a pair of boxer shorts. It was not the first time he’d noticed her body—slim and boyish—the gentle curve of her chest, her small waist, but it was the first time he’d felt a sudden, intense desire to pull her toward him. The look she gave him was frank, confident, sure of his attraction, and it was making his face hot. She wanted him too; he could tell.
He stepped close to her, placed his hands firmly on her hips, and drew her toward him, a wolf with his mate. Their mouths were so close he felt her breath and wanted to feel her lips. Then came a sharp knock on the door.
“What are you doing in there?” Malcolm whined. “Some of us need to use the toilet.”
Lawson coughed, his cheeks burning. “Hold on, I’m coming out.”
“Me too,” Tala said. She brushed his hands with hers. The implication and the disappointment were clear.
Next time.
In the morning, they set out to find a new place to live, packing what few belongings they’d gotten from Arthur—secondhand clothes and books—into backpacks. They hitchhiked, moving east toward the coast, staying in a succession of small towns, never longer than a week in each. Lawson felt safer near the woods, so they shied away from the big cities. As the temperature rose, they spent summer on the rocky beaches of Maine, and when fall came, they began to move west. There was still no sign of the hounds, and in December they were back where they had begun, back in Hunting Valley, and they paid Arthur a short visit. The traveling had done them good. They passed for real humans and he was glad to see them looking well. They decided to stay in town, where he would be close by.
They found an abandoned house at the edge of the city, dilapidated and reeking of mildew but with several small bedrooms. It was located at the end of a broad cul-de-sac among several other houses that also seemed abandoned; despite the mildew it was in a newer development, the investors of which had apparently gone bankrupt before they’d even finished paving the streets. Many of the houses were half-built, slabs of concrete with pipes reaching upward, waiting for plumbing that would never be installed, for wood frames that would never be hammered into place. They planned to stay for a week at most, then move on, just as they had been.
Arthur had given them some money, so Tala took Malcolm to the store to buy groceries while the rest of the boys wandered off to look for jobs. Lawson got lucky right away. Since they’d been on their own, he’d learned the best way to find work was to hang around the parking lots of big-box stores where other unemployed men gathered, and quickly got himself hired as part of a ground crew. He spent the day clearing out someone’s yard and was paid fifty bucks for his trouble.
A fortune to them.
He came home that night and handed Tala a small cardboard box. “For you.”
“What is it?” she asked, opening the lid and looking inside.
“I saw someone order them. They looked good.” He had watched, in front of the town bakery, as people pointed toward bread loaves and mouthwatering pastries, leaving the store with delicacies that smelled so delicious it almost drove him insane.
Tala picked up the pastry and bit into it.
“I think it’s called a cream puff,” he said.
She laughed at the joy of it. A tiny circle of cream dotted her nose.
Lawson quickly kissed it off her nose, then grinned. “I love you,” he said abruptly.
“What did you say?”
He was surprised. He hadn’t realized he’d spoken aloud, but her laughter had awoken something in him. He felt, for the first time, that they would make it after all. The year was almost over, and they were still aboveground, still safe. Edon would learn to forgive him, and Malcolm, who seemed weakened by his transformation, would grow stronger. The youngest boy’s transition to life aboveground had not been an easy one, and Lawson worried that he had never fully crossed over, that when they’d made the break, Malcolm was too weak to undergo the change, and that part of his soul still remained back there. The youngest boy was always ill; his nose was always running; his back hurt; his eyes were dry.
Lawson had many worries: the biggest was the plight of the rest of the wolves in the underworld. Marrok would take care of them, he hoped. Since the five of them had returned to Hunting Valley, Lawson kept going back to check, visiting the place where they had landed when they first crossed from the underworld, but so far, no one had appeared in the glen. No other free wolves. Perhaps their plan had failed.
He didn’t know if he loved Tala because of who she was or because she made him feel hopeful and made him forget. But he’d said it. I love you.
“Never mind.” He shrugged.
She looked embarrassed for him.
But it was true. He loved her. He loved Tala and he wanted her to know it.
She said nothing more to him that day. She continued to eat the cream puff with a serious expression on her face, and then they went inside and she made them dinner, asking them gently to eat with the forks and knives as Arthur had taught them. The past year, Tala had been the linchpin of the family, holding them all together. Maybe that was confusing him; maybe his feelings stemmed from her being crucial to their survival. In a way, he was glad she hadn’t responded. Now he had some time to think about how he truly felt.
The pack settled into a routine. Lawson, Edon, and Rafe went to the big-box store early in the morning to pick up whatever odd jobs they could. Tala and Malcom worked at h
ome—Tala was in charge of housework and cooking, and Malcolm studied the books Arthur had given them to try to understand the extent and limitations of their power in this new world. Wolves were not immortal—they had not been bestowed with that gift—but they were long-lived and fast-healing and infinitely stronger than mortal men. They surprised construction crews with their ability to lift heavy objects; bags of cement that the men used to haul in wheelbarrows, Lawson, Edon, and Rafe tossed to each other like beanbags.
Every night Lawson would come home to find a mouthwatering concoction simmering on the stove while Malcolm talked excitedly about what he’d learned that day. The youngest spent most of his time working on a spell called the dogwood defense, one that he had read would protect the house from the Hellhounds.
“We’re hardly wizards,” Edon would say, but then he’d ruffle Malcolm’s hair. He seemed to be less angry; sometimes he even spoke directly to Lawson, though never about anything significant. Most of the time it was to ask him to pass the salt at the dinner table. Lawson accepted that, hoped his brother would come around soon. He was tired of feeling guilty; besides, like he’d told Edon, he’d left the portal open for any others to cross over, and he meant to return if that didn’t work, and when he did, he would bring all the wolves out of Hell with him.
Lawson wasn’t sure if Tala was avoiding him, but they never seemed to be alone together. It was fine for now, because he had grown embarrassed about sharing his feelings for her. After all, if she felt the same way, wouldn’t she say something? He tried to put her out of his mind, but every day there she was, with her shy smile, wearing her worn T-shirts that just skimmed her flat stomach, her faded jeans clinging to her slim figure, dark roots starting to show through her bright pink hair.