Read Your Hand, Please. Let's Walk. Page 2

or tanks

  converging on the Volga.

  Of course he wrote that date

  knowing,

  though he didn’t know what.

  Manzanar

  You, here,

  any child

  lungs crackling like Christmas boughs

  fired by shivering air.

  Barbed peaks east and west

  fence this morning’s glare,

  on cottonwoods’ bare bones

  scraps of black birds sway.

  Others, sparked from sage

  whirl outward, then slow to soar

  on deep currents of wind

  over you and away, far

  and far away.

  The Black Bathing Suit

  Our uncle hauls on the black bathing suit

  once or twice a summer

  limps to the shore, a swayback stork

  on soft feet, and dips his pale flesh

  in the little blue lake of his youth

  breasting the wavelets, then submerging

  slow as a capsizing battleship.

  We children look at each other.

  What’s it doing here, that bathing suit?

  It’s out of place in the chaste north woods

  a thin black band between

  skinny legs and the vast boulder of his belly

  revealing more than we want to know

  about the genitals of fiftyish Grand Rapids

  piano-playing church usher tax accountants.

  But memory won’t let him discard it

  for some baggy nod to the modern.

  Faithfully, once or twice a year

  he pulls it on and marches to the water’s edge,

  lets the northern cold climb his thighs

  and shock his cringing privates,

  and cross the black horizon that severs

  Hawaiian sands from the darker surf

  of Okinawa and after.

  III. We

  One for Judith

  A stockade

  of buildings guards this small

  courtyard, forcing a cold

  wind up and over, through

  the tops of the old

  talking trees that shade it;

  one whole side a wall

  of jasmine where

  just one of those white stars

  glows at me with

  inexplicable light.

  Below Venus

  Of time separating us

  there’s nothing yet.

  But the space between us

  does grow and shrink

  each day, a slow breathing.

  As the pale planet

  climbs to the black

  above the dawn, you sink

  below that same stained

  mirror to the underground

  and slide away from me.

  From a dark room

  I watch your train burrow

  through a maze of tunnels,

  then surface and roll south,

  fleeing its own trail of cries;

  while below Venus

  the silent planes rise

  one by one, turn northward

  and disappear.

  Memory Foam

  Making the bed, I find the faint

  imprints of our parallel forms

  hollowing the soft foam.

  The mattress is no longer new;

  perhaps its long-term memory

  is starting to harden, like our own,

  fixing our story in these

  shallow Pompeiian voids.

  Turn it over, then. After all,

  with the right instruments

  I might also find molecules

  of the water and carbon dioxide

  we exhaled last night,

  and a slightly elevated temperature

  still tingling in that clever matrix.

  Who cares? I don’t need.

  any witness of mere matter

  to remind me I could touch

  your hand or foot any time

  on any of those warm nights;

  or of where we’ve been for all

  these years, and where

  for now we still are.

  Late Summer

  A causeway, this band

  of warm pavement

  this day unfurling

  across the ridges

  under a flock of clouds.

  On one side fallow fields

  busy with hasty wings;

  on the other deepest woods

  and one peewee.

  Your hand please. Let’s walk.

  Our footsteps’ metronome

  marks a stand of pines,

  a barn with leaks of sky

  through weathered walls,

  a silent stone house.

  An empty clothesline

  sways in the stream of air.

  Once and for all,

  immutable, this wind,

  this road, these fields

 

  your hand my hand

  (though for one of us

  this morning in the end

  will be just a sweet dream

  that never heals).

  To the Church Street Station

  Clouds tipped pink

  there will be

  weather as planned

  it is trash

  collection day

  the streets

  junk-piled

  self-important

  pigeons waddle

  amid desk chairs

  printers raveling

  balls of pasta

  plastic spoons

  (I have your hand)

  not since Franklin

  Delano Roosevelt

  incumbent sun

  seven point two

  jobs double dip

  and blackbirds stand

  at the entrance

  down you go

  but if as planned

  the sloshing tide

  you’ll be back

  a million people

  once in Rome

  too and now

  again so

  I don’t care

  about all that

  (I have your hand)

  Piano, Falling

  Not one of those out-of-tune

  tinkling crates of the old saloons

  tobacco- and sweat-stained keys

  no; or my mother’s flat

  matter-of-fact old upright

  where my sister sat

  for years, shackled to her scales

  or even my uncle’s baby grand

  with all its memories still tingling

  Träumerei, Southern Roses

  no. To wind up our story

  we’ll have a truly grand

  greater than grand, a falling

  angel big enough to level

  a whole city block

  no mistakes. No dear

  we came to this ball alone

  but we’ll leave together

  somehow, hand in hand

  accompanied by a sweet old tune

  taking our own sweet time

  with us.

  IV. Life and Death

  Object Lesson

  “Look!” my mother said.

  I was three or four,

  the lake was still

  the huge gleaming

  gem of childhood.

  Underneath the log

  I’d teetered across

  a hundred times

  the frog was dead

  in the water, wound

  in fertile gauze

  and floating in a fog

  of softest green.

  My mother was not

  shivered or shocked

  but thrilled by the clever

  protocol of rot.

  “Mother Nature never

  wastes a thing!”

  she said. Under the log

  the dead frog rocked

  on glassy ripples,

  eyelids shuttered to

  h
er dream of meaning.

  Counting to 32,639

  Having out of long habit drawn

  your night’s supply of breath

  you remembered yourself at dawn

  and decided it was time to go.

  Who wants to leave a day half done?

  Once the jay spears the morning

  with his first demand it’s too late

  or the first breeze annoys

  the night-polished lake

  it’s too late. You might

  have to wake and stay

  for one more round.

  And then perhaps you dreamed

  your own small silence would drown

  in that deeper pause – last night

  poised in silver pools

  before the dark began to drain away.

  After She’s Gone

  It seems the afternoon could last forever,

  the tireless breeze and flit of birds

  across this still and perfect pool of weather.

  The wind chime stops, and starts, and gropes for words;

  unperturbed, the afternoon replies

  in tireless breeze and flit of birds.

  The sun is stalled; the hours lie

  light on the grass. And when the wind chime tolls,

  unperturbed, the afternoon replies.

  Poised on this frontier, the day unrolls

  a slow, recursive reverie, sifting

  light on the grass. Each time the wind chime tolls

  we circle back, our recollections shifting,

  as if the afternoon could last forever,

  this slow, recursive reverie, drifting

  across the still and perfect pool of weather.

  Madame du Barry

  ...and though we know

  or think we know

  won’t we all

  on that high stage

  with the rough hand on our neck

  say, or want to say

  but Sir

  just one moment yet?

  Old Friends

  That impassive clock

  across the room – take that down

  and in its place please hang

  the drawing of my face

  and shoulders round with muscle

  long ago. I’ll just sit still

  here in the gauze of sound

  that floats up from below:

  horns and sirens, dear bustle

  of common day.

  Yes “Mom.”

  I know you have to go.

  It’s still too hard to say

  out loud how tired I really am.

  But curl your arm around

  my shoulders, and let me

  rest my head this once

  against your hair.

  You’ve sailed all the way

  from the western sea

  to bring me home. So you

  I will show.

  And now get the hell out of here.

  Leave the rest to me.

  Twilight, Mono Craters

  I think this wind must pour

  from that tilted moon

  all down a sky still light,

  over ash and obsidian curves

  already drowned by night:

  this night, so deep for me,

  but not for the pines that moan

  its song; this wind so old,

  but owned indifferently

  by bats that swerve and soar.

  Fire Season

  I.

  A molecule from the sky

  and one from the earth.

  A drop of sunlight.

  Repeat.

  And repeat.

  Plodding decades piled

  two hundred feet high.

  II.

  The tick of falling needles.

  A twig vibrates

  with vanished warbler.

  III.

  Today, the mountain

  yesterday, the mountain.

  The same mountain the day before

  I was born.

  On the mountain, an old tree

  and the shadow of the tree

  tracing an arc through the long day.

  Tomorrow the same tree

  and the same arc.

  The day I die, and the day after

  the mountain and the same tree

  and its shadow.

  IV.

  Strike a match

  The Big Burn

  Italian stone pine

  sifting the morning air

  on this breezy hillside,

  your calm seems to belong here

  always. So it hurts

  to think of that stillness

  some distant year

  gone up in smoke.

  But even for today,

  what of the million mites

  warbler-picked from your bark,

  the warbler borne away

  and torn by the hawk,

  the hawk crumpled in some ditch,

  lunch for a million ants?

  Their flickering forms

  are no less real

  than any millennial grove

  burned black and overrun

  by jackpines – all of us

  thoughtless pyrophytes,

  and all creation just one

  rolling wildfire.

  X-treme Camping

  It’s a good way to get to know the country.

  Hiking, climbing, there’s always motion

  and a goal to distract you.

  The landscape recedes and grows,

  the cliffs and peaks march by

  while you drum your feet on the trail,

  ignoring the sky and planning

  where to spend the night. But try this:

  Place your hand beneath a boulder

  and leave it there for five days.

  Now you can begin to learn.

  Fixed in space, at once you feel

  the flow of time across your skin.

  You discover how the canyon’s shadow

  gets from west to east, and savor

  the endless gossip of water.

  You feel yourself rolled

  on the tall wheel of night,

  discover the many failures of ants

  and the value of a well-made chair.

  The hurrying seconds slow and stroll

  past your privileged perch;

  you can load each one with visions

  of beds, restaurants, and helicopters.

  Meanwhile, the evolving perfume

  of your own waste

  will remind you to stay alive.

  Thirst will finally inspire you to tie off

  this flood of wisdom and be on your way.

  But leave an offering to the blessed boulder

  that has taught you so much

  as we all must leave our blunders and blinders

  our bloody diplomas littering

  the converging trails of the world.

  The Herring Net

  This is West Branch, the usual freeway

  rest stop, hundreds of miles from the sea;

  so how did that water color invade this prairie air?

  Sunlight here seems caged between earth and sky,

  aged and frustrated. All these glints and gleams –

  flash of fender, windshield, mirror –

  could be helmetshine or jostling shards of waves,

  or silver curves of herring in the net. And what could be

  distant sails are just our dreams, hull down.

  West Branch, as always, a little more than south

  but less than north. Flatness for now is past.

  Hot blasts of wind draw the land up into waves,

  and in their troughs lie the lakes; not the blue spills

  they will be farther north, but dull tea,

  detained by careless arms of green. Here are

  the old scarred tables under third-growth oaks,

  the gargling urinals; but new crops of children,

  hu
nched over, poking at their palms,

  and parents addressing the air with faraway eyes

  while their dogs dot the clipped and watered lawns.

  And here are we, too, drawn up

  from our cars into the puzzle of the present,

  netted by this doubtful light.

  Flash Mob

  Was it May or June?

  In the morning we sowed potatoes,

  chopping them down to their eyes

  and burying those in plowed soil.

  All around, the forest strained at its leash.

  Branches swayed in sunlight,

  birds sang in a fever. In the afternoon

  the toads appeared in thousands

  from somewhere – the woods or the grass,

  or maybe from the earth itself.

  The force of all the living drove

  against us like a desert river:

  the yelling of the maddened toads,

  jellied strings of eggs criss-crossing

  the pond bottom’s velvet mud,

  our dabbling bare feet as desirable

  as any warty seductress in that scrum.

  A few dismayed green frogs scrambled

  weakly, like tourists in a war zone.

  The party din and splash continued

  far into the night under a sinking moon

  while we dreamed behind our walls,

  wearied by pasta and spirits.

  In the morning the toads were gone.

  The pond was a sacked city, ruins

  picked over by the dazed and listing frogs.

  Below ground, unblinking

  potato eyes peered into the dark.

  Bottleneck

  In that zone everything has happened

  or will happen, but nothing happens now.

  The tireless brook spreads its cloth of sparks

  on the lake, over footprints of wind.

  All through the monotone afternoon

  cumulus stand sentinel; the junco

  chips from her hemlock.

  Trees are fallen, but never fall,

  and though we wheel hopefully

  toward the crack of tumbling rock,

  the slides are always still,

  angled just so. Mountains

  rising and falling, glaciers

  flickering across earth’s story,

  all must freeze, to squeeze through

  this bottleneck, my afternoon:

  the brook striking sparks

  from the lake’s dark steel,

  the junco rocking in her rag of hemlock,

  chipping at the wind.

  V. Around Home

  Prison Break

  I spotted Alcatraz today

  steaming toward the Golden Gate

  to make her escape:

  sluggish galley turning