Read i bLEed DaRk - Poems About Pain, Life, Heavy Metal and Jesus Christ Page 7


  Whose elegant words have the aroma of costly perfume

  No, I never keep the darkness guessing

  I simply praise God for His countless blessings

  And then begin:

  “God…move in the lives of men

  Attack! Invade with Your love

  Overwhelm the enemy with grace

  (The thing he’s most afraid of)

  Forgive…and save…now…today”

  I’ll never put on Pharisee airs

  For, leaving a slug-trail behind these uncomplicated prayers

  (after exclaiming it)

  Are several minutes of claiming it

  It’s no three-point, master-stroke

  “Look-at-me-on-the-street-corner” prayer

  But it’s there

  Cascading from a heart laid bare

  No, I’m not ashamed of my simple prayers

  “Sir Death”

  A fiend alive, a beast I died

  And no one dared to cry

  Except a mother, old and frail

  Who wiped a tear-dimmed eye

  For she seen not the monster there

  Laid cold upon the slab

  Blue skin cut and bruised

  18 holes jagged/ragged/stabbed

  Chemicals had full eclipsed

  A barren strand of joy

  Pock-mark riddled from the needle

  Crafted to destroy

  Shining eyes within the boy

  Had long-since left the man

  Sickness fraught, a death brought on

  By scarred, unsteady hands

  The gentle woman whispered low

  And tried to clean my wounds

  But futile as one drop of rain

  On tan and sandy dunes

  My soul, a cloud of muddy grey

  Trapped in a frame of bone

  Stood long beside my lifeless body

  Shaking and alone

  I longed to hold the aging woman

  ‘Till her grief had faded

  But Death looked on with fiery eyes

  A spirit gaunt and jaded

  “This is not permitted”

  Said the ghost of blackened coal

  “You had your chance, for God decreed

  ‘One life, one chance, one soul’

  “Wasted ye the days of sun

  So here, your Judgment Day

  Look upon this scene awhile

  Then we’ll be on our way”

  Had my soul a beating heart

  It surely would have broken

  But sinners past have had their chance

  So not a word was spoken

  Wasted I the days of life

  In drug-induced illusion

  A creature of inflamed design

  A victim of confusion

  Myself I killed, more bitter still

  One glaring truth had I:

  This woman cherished her first-born

  And wished me not to die

  I went to speak but found no sound

  To bring apology

  Then Death had grinned his bitter grin

  And sauntered next to me

  “You have no voice,” he laughed

  “No words are spoken by the dead

  Your thoughts and deeds in life

  Are words your wretched soul had said

  “You’ve gazed upon this scene too long

  And I must not be late

  For many wait on Death’s grim hand

  To intersect with Fate

  The fright of sinner’s dying breath

  My single joy afforded

  I saunter in when nights of sin

  Have yet one more aborted

  “A sunrise for the living brings

  The chance of God’s salvation

  And yet upon their final moment

  Sinners find damnation

  Their life is gone, thus comes the dawn

  The law of sin takes root

  So Hell awaits with yawning gates

  All dreams and schemes are moot”

  So turning from my mother

  With a grief no human knows

  I motioned unto Death

  That I was ready then to go

  Beneath the ground my eyes beheld

  A faint and orange glow

  And suddenly I knew it was

  The flames of Hell below

  So while the fire takes my soul

  I have one desperate plea

  Embrace the Light, rebuke the night

  And do not follow me!

  “Soldier’s First War”

  From the Desk of the President, Regarding our Dreaded Enemy:

  “This leader is cunning and vile

  A plague upon civilized nations

  Morality has been defiled

  But justice takes no vacation

  You’ve heard conflicting details

  But America, doubt it no more

  Democracy never fails

  And thus, we are going to war!”

  My take:

  My men have trained for this day

  This glorious, battlefield morn

  We must keep darkness at bay

  It’s going to be quite a storm

  Now we’re unleashing hell!

  The echo of gunshot and screams

  The fiery sky casts a spell

  As one of my grandest dreams

  Our attack is steady and strong

  A massive weapon of war

  I’m exactly where I belong

  I will doubt it no more

  My loved ones fade into mist

  Then slip to the back of my soul

  Love and war can’t co-exist

  If I’m to survive the foxhole

  But today I’m SUPERMAN!

  A colossal destroyer of evil!

  Opponents fall, man-by-man

  The strong turn weak and feeble

  Wait: one has broken the line!

  Five years of training unleashed

  This adversary is mine!

  Yes, I have slain the beast!

  But a man falls by my side

  He shivers, winces and cries

  He’s not but a frightened child

  His eyes…his eyes…his eyes!

  Life skulks away like a thief

  Horrified eyes turn to glass

  And I struggle with my belief

  As a dozen thoughts rise and then pass:

  “Is this real?”

  “What am I doing here?”

  “We have to keep moving.”

  “I just killed that guy.”

  “Would you rather it was you, lying dead in a mangled heap?”

  “Breathe, Lieutenant.”

  “Of course this is real. This is as real as it gets.”

  “His eyes…did’ju see his eyes?”

  “You’ve got work to do.”

  “Does he have a family?”

  “Stop. Breathe. Think.”

  “This is your job, man. Let’s go to work.”

  “Stains”

  By Trey Weddle, written at age 12

  My son knows I am hopelessly addicted to crime shows such as “Forensic Files” and “The First 48.” I had one of these types of programs on when he came in for a moment to see what I was watching, and then walked out. Five minutes later he brought me this poem. When I asked him what it was about, he said, “I was trying to think of what a killer would say if he was sitting in prison right now.” Personally, I think the second-to-last line is pure brilliance.

  Stains

  Will this come out?

  Red on my shirt

  KNIVES KNIVES KNIVES

  All I think about

  “I’m sorry God!”

  I cry out in my sleep

  I’m sorry God!

  I’m sorry God!

  I cry out,

  “I love you God!”

  You saved me from my dark covering

  I will always praise you

  Titles Starting
With “T”

  “Tara”

  By Rob and Trey Weddle, written when Trey was 10 years old.

  Trey had to go to work with me one day when he was out of school, but neither his mom nor I could take off work. He brought what we call a “fun bag” (full of books, MP3 player, comics, PSP, etc.), but even with that, he was getting bored after a couple of hours. I decided to take a break, so I bought him a Dr. Pepper and a bag of peanuts and we wrote this poem.

  I recall when we were young

  Our hearts were free and full of fun

  Movies every Friday night

  “The Mummy,” “Wolfman,” “Frankenstein”

  But sister, that was long ago

  And only God and you and I know

  That so many tears have been shed

  So many nights you have bled

  So many prayers have been said

  For you, Tara

  To see you lying there each day

  So frail, my love, what can I say?

  I’ll hold you ‘til the pain is gone

  And pray you live to carry on

  Through all this your eyes still glow

  And only God and you and I know

  That so many tears have been shed

  So many nights you have bled

  So many prayers have been said

  For you, Tara

  “The Ballad of Robert Lee”

  I was surfing the internet for interesting poetry and found an amazing poem, first published in 1874, called “The Ballad of Judas Iscariot” by Robert Buchanan. While I would never compare my poetry to such a work of art, it nevertheless inspired me to write the following poem (along with “The Tale of Dwight McGhee”)

  There was a man named Robert Lee whose crooked spine did ache

  The pain was so intense some days he felt his back would break

  He carried on—despite his agony—with school and work

  But in the stead of festive grins he wore a bitter smirk

  Nightmare recollections seemed to haunt his fitful sleep

  While emptiness from all the hurt into his mind would creep

  Bitterness and sadness came together as his foes

  The weight of life, a catalyst for that dark road he chose

  Abhorring who he had become, he said he wanted change

  But happiness seemed foreign to him; laughter felt so strange

  Yet he knew he couldn’t go through life with all these feelings

  So from his heart he cried to God for utter, total healing

  Our days are written long before our mothers give us birth

  But God created everything; the sun, the stars, the Earth

  Surely He would wipe away all pain without a trace!

  So Robert Lee stood patiently, a smile upon his face

  But lessons learned are earned and not a gift to man that’s given

  Wisdom isn’t cheap, or in a heart that isn’t driven

  He read in the Bible that God’s grace would see him through

  So whether healing came or not, he’d change his attitude

  Maybe in the place of frowning he would smile at others

  Perhaps he could love his neighbors as if they were brothers

  Maybe He could laugh a little warmer and more often

  Perhaps it was choice—not life—that was his spirit’s coffin

  So Robert Lee on bended knee did thank his God for all

  For every tiny miracle which kept his mind enthralled

  But also for the gloomy times, for he discovered this:

  Life’s a roller coaster ride he did not want to miss!

  “The Cold”

  I have a strange fascination with Norway, the birthplace of black—and unblack—metal (HUGE fan of the latter, by the way). The brutal, extended winters, from my understanding, are both mesmerizing and terrifying, and this poem, along with “The Frozen Edge of Hell,” sprang forth from my great longing to visit this beautiful land so far from my own. Perhaps someday…

  It’s so bitterly cold outside

  Icy roads encumbered by harsh, jagged winds

  A black-ice slide on a lonely street

  Somewhere a homeless child dies with a frown

  This weather makes me sick!

  I’m ready for Spring…

  I’m so bitter and cold inside

  Icy stares made worse by jagged, harsh words

  Foggy mind horizons

  Arthritis screaming through every bone

  Somewhere, like a homeless child, I die inside

  This Winter makes me sick!

  I’m ready for…

  I don’t know

  Something

  "The Crimson Pen"

  Oh scarlet pen!

  Lead me where too few have been

  Salvage nests of heinous men

  Dance near enough to smell their sin

  Oh mighty gift/curse!

  Monkey-blood us like a nurse

  Crush devilry with winged bursts

  May purity craft Satan’s hearse

  Oh great harbinger of soul!

  When wickedness exacts a toll

  Your gentle spirit plays a roll

  When sonnets expeditiously extol

  Oh crimson sword!

  Be the flawed hand of the Lord

  Where demons leave their stalls untoward

  Let cadence rage against the hoard!

  “The Frozen Edge of Hell”

  The Dark

  The Cold

  If given the chance, they devour you

  It’s not a season or an event

  For us, it is Earth and life

  Winter seeps in every pore like oxygen

  We can’t escape it – have no desire to

  The cold is my mother

  The snow, my brother

  Here we sport icicle beards and wooly parkas

  As gracious words and laughter are enveloped in speak-fog

  Thirty-three below zero this morning when I rose from slumber

  Everyone in town knows someone who has succumbed

  “My cousin” or “aunt” or “friend’s son froze to death”

  “Crazy,” you mutter, shaking your Arizona head

  Perhaps

  But Winter is magic

  Rainbow prisms reflecting off pointed, crystal trees

  Reaching for the sky like pallid fire

  Our world is enveloped by jagged, glacial mountains

  Painting the backdrop with a majestic splendor you will never know

  Like a stunningly beautiful demon

  Dancing gracefully on the frozen edge of Hell

  Yeah

  Well

  I guess if I have to explain it,

  You wouldn’t understand anyway

  “The House of Angelee”

  I really hate writing poems like this, since I’m a father of two beautiful children, but as all artists know, when the muse begins to whisper in your creative ear, ya gotta do what’cha gotta do.

  Here lies our precious Angelee

  A broken, lonely girl

  Buried in a summer dress

  And worthless string of pearls

  Her days had all been spring time

  But her nights were frightened prayers

  Her grandpa had abused her

  Till no life in her was there

  What spirit could possess a man

  To do a thing as this?

  Abandon sense for lunacy?

  Grace evil with a kiss?

  Angelee on bended knee

  Would cry out to the sky

  “God if you’re there, let me escape

  Or please just let me die”

  The old man stunk of whiskey when

  His toothless grin he’d shine

  “Angelee,” he’d whisper low

  “Sweet darlin’ baby mine

  Come give grandpa sugar” he’d slur

  In his drunken state

  By the time her mother found this out
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br />   It was too late

  He walked into the courtroom

  Stoic, lifeless eyes of glass

  Her mother thought dear Angelee

  Might rest in peace at last

  But the judge released him

  On a technicality

  The paper read, “There’ll Be

  No Justice For Sweet Angelee!”

  Hoping liquor would expunge

  The memory of his crimes

  He’d drink himself to sleep each night

  To sounds of old wind chimes

  In fear of coming retribution

  Madness scuttled deep

  Like spiders in his mind

  Slow thoughts of suicide would creep

  Her mother’s grief almost destroyed

  A life of dreams and plans

  Countless nights she’d fantasize

  Of murdering that man

  But when she went to kill

  The architect of her nightmares

  She found his body swinging

  Underneath the basement stairs

  At last it was her mother’s turn

  To cry out to the sky

  “How could God allow my precious

  Angelee to die?”

  Then in a dream she heard a voice

  Which brought her heart to tears

  It stole away her anger and it

  Calmed her deepest fears

  “Mama,” Angelee said to her

  “God did not do this”

  And then she felt a breeze

  As gentle as her daughter’s kiss

  “Hidden sickness drove grandpa

  To do it” she explained

  “Heaven cried that day –

  Do you remember how it rained?

  “I’m with Jesus,” Angelee said

  In her angel voice

  “You can die or make the most

  Of life…it is your choice

  Thousands more there are like me

  Who die in fearful silence

  I can’t die in vain!” she cried

  “Stand up against the violence!”