Acrosstica
(2nd Ed.)
By J D Ozee
Published by J D Ozee
ISBN: 9781301904082
Copyright 2013 J D Ozee
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Table of Contents
Thomas
Sky Pilot
Solitude
It’s Not Me
Guardian
Drowning
Eulogy
Past
Roommate
Courage
Balance
Acceptance
Re Search
Worship
Hope
Showers
Hymn
Power
Prodigal
Groove
Hike
Flesh
Consume
Get Up
Golden
Employer
Seasick
Bare
Unnatural Selection
At Last
Valentine
Gathering
False Prophet
Relax
Adopted
Hunger
Progress
On Earth
Pop Quiz
End Game
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Thomas
In search of a path to take,
Someplace where I can find
Total body, soul, and mind,
Harmonious and opaque.
Everywhere I now seek
Reminds me what I need,
Eager my spirit is to feed,
And prayers I need to speak.
Give me a sign you are there
One I can’t ignore, or
Doubt that you really care.
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Sky Pilot
Among them, I am small,
So much left to understand,
Trifle cares above them all.
Reach out into nothingness-
Odd sense we’re not alone,
Need to fill the emptiness.
Outer realm where reasons lack
Mighty creation to behold!
Young dreams not fade to black.
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Solitude
How did it come to this?
Everything gone that was known.
Ravaged by sins of my own
Ever acting without remiss.
Isolation now my only friend
Nestled in wounds so deep,
Making my soul further weep,
Yesterday without end.
Chained to a self made fate
Aging too fast down this stream,
Grown weak the chance to dream,
Eager for the key I wait.
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It’s Not me
Time and again, we ignore the gifts,
Having faith only in us.
Each one sings their own chorus,
Faulting Him for harsh downshifts.
Always wondering aloud why me?
Leave our own choice out of the mix,
Looking for someone else to fix,
Allow defects we refuse to see.
Convinced alone in our dismay,
Yet, He calls to us each day.
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Guardian
Teasing me with slight concern
Over all I think I want,
Using lessons far too stern.
Grinding me down in this cruel game
Hard knocks the daily routine,
Laughing at my desire to blame.
Once, I would see a gaze sincere:
Vanity all stripped away,
Earnest for His presence near.
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Drowning
Up to my neck in grief
Not many more breaths to take,
Desperate in need of new belief
Else a coffin in my sad lake.
Ring the bell to signal distress
Waves almost had their way,
A break in the hopelessness
Taking all of the pain away.
Excuses to live like this be gone,
Row out to sea with Him now on.
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Eulogy
What will be said on my last day;
Husband, father, and friend?
Everyone dies alone they say,
No one standing in the end.
I used to think it was all good-
Anything I wanted to do.
Maybe living deeper, I should,
Giving more to others too.
One trick ponies don’t stick around
Nor will the memories last,
Especially when they’re under ground.
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Past
Crashing through moral blockade
Hot upon my trail,
Always following unafraid.
Shedding scales hard to do,
Impish me wants it close,
Need to repent to make it through.
Give me strength to let it go;
May my spirit be cleansed,
Enabling new skin to brightly glow.
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Roommate
Drive him to a dead end street
Each, wanting our share,
Victory to the best compete.
Id the trophy there to win,
Lost what’s left of me,
Innocence of a time begin.
Now the loser must console
Make me whole again,
Exorcise! to save this soul.
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Courage
Utter confusion brings the dawn,
Needless shower of frets
Blinding details of life upon,
Easy to hedge my bets.
Let it go I know I should,
It’s tomorrow that worries me.
Easy does it with Him I could,
Feel safe in all that is He.
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Balance
Pieces from the stubborn whole
Instilled by survival’s need,
Even though they’ve served me well,
Compromise now the goal.
Hard to open up to feel
Always the skeptic’s pose,
Ready to let the right side rule,
To reign in a state of heal.
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Acceptance
Finally, the time has come,
Injuries hurt no more.
Nothing else to add to sum,
Indifferent to settle a score.
Soon the healing to begin-
Heartaches will fade away.
Lost, is the desire to win,
It’s time for a new way.
Now the search for a real me,
Each day a challenge will be.
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Re Search
Distance myself from all I was
In need of a new face,
Scarred this one from moral flaws.
Coveting those with careless bliss;
Only they know the truth,
Vainly would I once dismiss.
Eagerly will I join their clan
Ready to be born again,
Yoke of doubt gone from this man.
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Worship
Tell me about a place to go
Help for all I need,
Energy fills the room aglow.
Being there as time stands still
Open doors waiting for me,
Doubts succumb to their wills,
Yearn at last to set me free.
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Hope
In search of something I didn’t own
Nagging void that wouldn’t close,
Stumbled on what was always there
Promising me, I’m not alone.
Inside
heart now filled with grace
Racing to flourish and grow,
Eagerly I approach each day
Destined for a higher place.
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Showers
Under steady pouring shame
My conscience now soaked through,
Born through the blood of man,
Reprieve only in His name.
Each day prepare again for new:
Lucky if skies stay clear,
Love from Him to keep me dry
And mercy to see this through.
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Hymn
Music to soothe my savage beast
Aromatherapy for the ears,
Grateful for melodious feast
In vanquishing all the tears.
Crashing through worrisome haze
Plunging deep into my heart,
Luminous chords light the ways
As I reach the crucial part.
Caress me, in my darkest hour,
Endless healing is His power.
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Power
Sinewy resolve for the dark
Tempts us to derail,
Resist the urge and need to hark,
Each attempt to ban a fail.
Now I fight it not alone-
Greatest force for all to see,
Tyrant’s last day on the throne,
His kingdom alive in me.
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Prodigal
Languish in a sea of doubt
One day into next, it bleeds.
Sterile life a cause without;
Taken leave of all good deeds.
Appearing then a new sign post,
No more guessing which way,
Delighted by this warm new host
Further, from myself away.
Only now, the coast is clear
Under wings of greatest love,
Next to my heart I hold dear,
Divine guidance from above.
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Groove
Searching for that solid ground
Worst days soon behind,
Entering in the final round.
Earnest for sins to be atoned-
Torture again no more,
Settle instead for comfort zone.
Peaceful now in thought and deed
Object of lofty reach,
To have all that I’ll ever need.
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Hike
Taken on a spiritual trek
Heights unknown before,
Evil fallen down to wreck,
Chance for me to restore.
Long the road has been to see;
In spite of myself I went,
More than this was meant to be,
Belief, now my assent.
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Flesh
Sacrifice more we should
Lust, still blocks the way,
Appetites can’t be withstood,
Virtue has gone