Read DIchotomies: Poetry From Bipolar Disorder Page 1
Contents
A Brave Little Craft 6
A Brief Respite Outside Of Time 7
A Ghost Who Drifts Among The World 7
A New Day Dawns 8
A Wanderer 8
A World Without Hope 9
Above The Mountains I Soar 10
Adrift On A Timeless Sea 11
After The Rain The Storm Is Spent 12
All Between Your Ears 12
Alone In The Darkness 13
An Angel Came To Me One Day 14
Are You Real? 14
Conception's Debt 15
Conflagration 15
Cry Me No More Tears 16
Dark The Fate 16
Dawning 16
Dialing It Up, Dialing It Down 17
Dreams And Time 17
Echoes Of Silence 18
End Of Days 18
Eternal Bed 19
Eternity 19
Evil Little Whispers 20
For Today I Will Experience Life 20
Few Understand 21
Forever Memories 21
Freedom Ahead 22
Heart Shredded By Razors Of Tears 22
Friends 23
Gentle Raindrops 24
Haiku - Rejection 24
Haiku - Conflict 24
Have You Ever? 25
Heaven Can Wait 27
Human Family - Butterfly Cinquain 27
High Atop A Crumbling Peak 28
Homeless Birds 29
Hope 30
I Am The Void And The Void Is Me 31
I Am Trying To Be A Happier Soul 32
I Need.... 33
I Once Was Sane 33
I Sing A Good Song 34
I Speak In Code 35
I'm On Top Of The World 35
Illusion 36
I'm Sorry 36
In My Darkened Sky 36
In A Land Of Darkness Am I Lost 37
Insanity 38
Joy 38
Into The Wind 39
Isolation 40
It Doesn't Work Anymore 41
Just Going Along 41
It Is The Cycle Of BP, It Is Your Life 42
I've Fought It Before, I'll Fight It Again 43
Just One Tiny Clue 44
Life Passing By 44
Life 45
Life Is 46
Lost In Time, Lost In Space 47
Masks 47
Meltdown 48
My Walls 48
My Life 49
My Mind's Meanderings 50
My World, My Life 51
Mythology Fulfilled 52
No Peace For Me Will There Ever Be 53
Normalcy 54
Out Of Space And Out Of Time 54
Normalcy - A Gift From God 55
Oh It's A Beautiful Day 56
Once I Wandered A Land 57
One Day At A Time 58
One Single Black Grain 59
One Way Glass 59
Pain Is Life 60
Poetry 62
Puffy White Cotton 62
Raindrops 63
Reach Out And Grab A Star 63
Shifting Rules 63
Short Circuit 64
Silence 64
Sometimes You Just Need To Bleed 65
Spring 65
Swirling Mists Of Illusion 66
Take Me Away, Way Over The Moon 66
Tears Of Joy 67
Thank You God For This Day 68
Thank You Lord For These Days 69
The Battle Rages Within 70
The Beast 71
The Beast And The Heart 72
The Beast He Is Me 73
The Blending Of The Days 74
The Blossom Failing (Haiku) 75
The Debt Is Mine To Pay 75
The Cheshire Cat 76
The Dying Of The Light 77
The Darkness Within Me 78
The Elevator 79
The Eternal Battle 80
The Eyes In The Mirror 80
The Fog 81
The Invisible Man 81
The Geometry Of The Cycles 82
The Hand Of The Fates 83
The Land Of The Lost 83
The Light At The End Of The Storm 85
The Light's Last Fading 86
The Maelstrom 87
The Man Who Lived In Layers 88
The Maze 89
The Night Is Dark And Full of Terrors 89
The Pane Of Glass That Separates 90
The Passing Of The Light 91
The Paths We Tread 92
The Peace Of A Bee 93
The Pit 94
The Real, True Power 95
The Redoubt 96
The Shadows Have Voices 96
The Return Of The Light 97
The Storm 98
The Story The Bards Do Tell 99
The Sun Peaks Out 99
The Stranger In The Mirror 100
The Tide 101
The Wings Of Time 101
The Unquiet Mind 102
The Vortex 103
The Walls Keep On Growing 103
The Wheel 104
The World Tipped And I Fell Off 105
Then He Sat Back And Laughed 106
There To Peruse The Lands Of Oz Once Again 107
There Will Be Not A Trace 108
This Moment In Time 108
This Time I Made It 109
Thoughts 110
Through A Glass Darkly 111
Through A Raindrop Filtered 112
Today Will Remain Ever The Same 113
Tonight May God Grant Me Some Sleep 114
Treasured Days 115
Truthful Honesty At Least In Part 115
Wander The Silvery Magical Ethereal Way 116
Weeping Heavens - A Quinzane 116
When Evil Beastie's Head First Reared 117
When My Hearts Stops It's Beating At Last 118
Where Have You Gone 119
Where Once Upon A Morn So Dreary 120
Whispers Of Madness 120
Who Am I 120
Where There Once Was Dark 121
Who Am I? Where Have I Gone? 122
Wired 123
Yeah.... 123
You Don't Know... 124
You Prayed For Help 125
A Brave Little Craft
I'm riding a boat in a wild torrent
A tiny little boat, a valiant craft
It's inundated with waves
From it's very fore to it's aft
Totally adrift, at the sea's mercy
No oars or rudder with which to steer
No way to keep steerage, no way at all
It's fate in the hands of God I fear
Little craft against the waves
I cry out like a little child
Stop it now. Stop it please
Little craft, adrift in the wild
Rocking, rocking, it's always rocking
To and fro, up and down, all around
I keep looking for landfall anywhere
Looking for it but it's not to be found
The little boat never does stop
No rest for it is to be found
It just keeps shaking, quaking
And rocking all around and round
Up one wave, o'er the bow it breaks
Down the next, down always down
First sliding then running
Down it goes, it can't be found
Faithful little boat never gives up
Riding the waves barely staying afloat
It keeps beating the elements
Keeps winning does this tiny boat
Hooray for this brave little craft
For without it I'd be dead in the sea
There is no one to provide rescue
So in the end I'm left with just me
A Brief Respite Outside Of Time
Adrift inside the world tonight
A shadow untouched by the light
Separated from discord and unity
Outside of the human community
Deep melancholy peace pervades
Hollow ache weakened o'er decades
All color right now has gone away
Perception bathed in shades of gray
Night's phantoms faintly calling
Foreign thoughts so enthralling
Alone with the self in the dark
Gently nursing the fading spark
A brief respite outside of time
Renews the soul, serene, sublime
A Ghost Who Drifts Among The World
A ghost who drifts among the world
Control inside an iron fist is curled
Stressed and cracked and now eroding
Endless struggle to prevent imploding
In silence screaming to all and none
Lost and wandering until life is done
Not one other permitted ever to see
There's nothing left, there is no me
A New Day Dawns
The sun at last has risen
A golden orb in the East
Magical rays bathing all
A sight for eyes to feast
Cloudless cyan blue sky
Set aglow by golden light
Endless expanse of magic
All the world now so bright
Evil darkness gone at last
Vanquished by mighty sun
It may be just one day
I'll take each and every one
Gloria from on high above
All awash in golden rays
The dark is ever creeping
For now sun fills the days
A Wanderer
A wanderer in an empty world
Deep shadows over all unfurled
Lost and lonely circles of light
Feebly try to push back the night
The stars still twinkle way up high
Among the trees the winds still sigh
On sandy shores waves still roll
Amid the normalcy one lost soul
Amid the darkness thoughts swirled
Endlessly he wanders an empty world
A World Without Hope
So dark and dreary
Not one ray of light
No not even nearly
Not a possibility one
To be found in the land
For without any hope
Live is ever so bland
Good things just will not come
Better days will never be found
If you cannot hope for them
They will never come round
Hope is belief in better things
It is trusting it won't always be bad
It is believing that it will improve
It is knowing you won't always be sad
So give yourself hope for another day
All you must do is to believe
Or the sadness that weighs on your soul today
Will never end, it will never leave
May the good Lord grant me this prayer
A day without hope may I never face
It is an integral part of what I am
A poor member of the human race
Above The Mountains I Soar
I'm running oh so high
When I'm high I'm fast
That's when I feel good
The die has been cast
My thoughts spin so fast
Round and round and again
Remembering everywhere
That I've ever once been
They're spinning away now
Flying this way, that way
I don't know what to do
Or what I should say
Sleep is one thing
That I don't need
When I'm going this way
Running with speed
Good thing too because
It's something I'll not get
When I'm flying this high
I will lay you a bet
The sky's the limit
And the world's my own
There's nothing for which
I think I must atone
Riding hypomanic winds
Above the mountains I soar
It's a joy and a wonder
And it's never a bore
Someday it will end
And to earth I'll return
But for now I'll soar
Like a rocket I'll burn
Adrift On A Timeless Sea
The waves lap gently at the sides
The tiny splash of their passing
Almost unnoticed among the eons
The sails flap ever so lazily
Stirred but slightly by the mild breeze
The wake barely trails us as we drift
so calmly upon this ageless sea
Time passes us but we do not pass it
It stretches out forever both fore and aft.
Having come from nowhere
Taking forever getting from there to here
We have no place to go
And we're in no rush to get there
We have forever to arrive there
We are adrift on an timeless sea
The days pass endlessly
Never the same but ever changing
Always the quiet lap of the waves
The same gently stirring breeze
The hypnotic ripple of our tiny wake
Horizons never changing
Yet never standing still
The sea carries us but we go nowhere
Someday we may arrive there
We pass onward, ever onward
Going nowhere with no undue haste
Slowly, inexorably we pass into the sunset
To glide our way out of the sunrise on the morrow,
the ever unchanging tomorrow
We await the storm, the one we're sure will come
The inestimable fury, the waves lashing at us,
The winds making the sails crack as they whip
Our wake will be lengthened, we'll gather speed
With all haste we will head for home
Across the ageless expanse of the timeless sea
After The Rain The Storm Is Spent
After the rain the storm is spent
Roiling clouds are by rainbows rent
Golden sunbeams their warmth bestow
On raindrop dampened earth below
Once wind whipped air now quiescent
The musty dampness so evanescent
Mother Earth's face washed clean anew
Life refreshed beneath skies now blue
All Between Your Ears
A mind is a traitorous thing
Filled with foreign thoughts
that you know are not your own
Two halves perpetually at war
Each hating the other unto death
Violent confrontation
Unyielding hatred
Despair and self loathing
Suicidal ideations
Twisting, turning
Never resting
Never pausing
Eternally unquiet
All between your ears
Alone In The Darkness
Alone in the darkness, can't you see?
There's nothing left inside of me
I shout and I scream, there's nothing here
Cause the darkness is all, that's what I fear
The shouts echo and rebound all around
There's nothing here, naught to be found
Through the window life is out there
Here I sit lost, alone and nowhere
Give me but a taste of that life
Without the darkness full of strife
/> Feel the hatred, the sorrow and pain
Taste the tears that pour down like rain
While all the world passes me by
I sit here alone, my eye's aren't dry
The loneliness is worse it comes from within
There is life all around, if I could only get in
Walls of my making, they're walls of thick steel
Walling me off so I don't have to feel
But they work two ways those walls of mine
Of life and laughter they give no sign
Only darkness and death await me here
But don't you worry, shed not a tear
For I built these walls a long time ago
And of my despair I'll try not to show
Alone in the darkness, can't you see?
This loneliness is all caused by me
An Angel Came To Me One Day
An angel came to me one day
In self pity I pushed him away
He returned with a mighty host
Too late for I was now a ghost
Hold my hand he pleaded with me
I bring caring hearts for thee
Darkness ruled, I could not accept
Leave me alone in hot tears I wept
Self pity does my soul corrupt
From agony does madness erupt
Leave me alone, no love I deserve
From an icy cold grave never swerve
Few friends perhaps did truly care
I cut them all out in deep despair
Earned what I got 'tis really true
By what right do I this end rue?
Are You Real?
Are you real?
Do you feel?
The emptiness?
God won't bless
A heart of stone
That's all alone
In this world
Pain unfurled
Hear the voice
Just no choice
Conception's Debt
Lost in time, lost in space
Never one of the human race
Here today but gone tomorrow
Never let there be any sorrow
At conception each owes a death
A moment comes the end of breath
I hear it counts not how one dies
How you live is what wins the prize
If forever you've been dead inside
Dying's nothing from which to hide