For Ryan and Kelsey Sherman, in memory of their father, Richard Sherman, 1957–2005
Table of Contents
Title Page
acknowledgments
chapter one
chapter two
chapter three
chapter four
chapter five
chapter six
chapter seven
chapter eight
chapter nine
chapter ten
chapter eleven
chapter twelve
chapter thirteen
chapter fourteen
chapter fifteen
chapter sixteen
chapter seventeen
chapter eighteen
chapter nineteen
chapter twenty
chapter twenty-one
chapter twenty-two
chapter twenty-three
chapter twenty-four
chapter twenty-five
chapter twenty-six
chapter twenty-seven
chapter twenty-eight
chapter twenty-nine
chapter thirty
chapter thirty-one
chapter thirty-two
chapter thirty-three
chapter thirty-four
chapter thirty-five
chapter thirty-six
chapter thirty-seven
chapter thirty-eight
chapter thirty-nine
chapter forty
chapter forty-one
chapter forty-two
chapter forty-three
chapter forty-four
chapter forty-five
chapter forty-six
chapter forty-seven
chapter forty-eight
chapter forty-nine
chapter fifty
chapter fifty-one
chapter fifty-two
chapter fifty-three
chapter fifty-four
chapter fifty-five
chapter fifty-six
chapter fifty-seven
chapter fifty-eight
chapter fifty-nine
chapter sixty
chapter sixty-one
chapter sixty-two
chapter sixty-three
chapter sixty-four
chapter sixty-five
chapter sixty-six
chapter sixty-seven
chapter sixty-eight
chapter sixty-nine
chapter seventy
chapter seventy-one
chapter seventy-two
chapter seventy-three
also by alyson noël
Copyright Page
acknowledgments
Thank you to Matthew Shear, Elizabeth Bewley, Jennifer Weis, and Stefanie Lindskog, for getting this project started and seeing it through; to Oleema Miller, for answering my many questions; to my favorite Cola Surf Campers—Tyra Larkin, Imara Larkin, Ryan Sherman, and Kelsey Sherman—who make it look so easy; and, as always, to Sandy Sherman, for absolutely everything.
chapter one
“Excuse me. You’re in my seat.”
Anne brushed her long blond hair out of her blue eyes and squinted at the man standing next to her. His hair was dark, with the kind of deep side part used to disguise the early stages of baldness, and his charcoal gray suit, light blue shirt, and red tie were all slightly rumpled. Still, he looked vaguely familiar.
“I always book 2A.” He gave her a condescending look.
“Oh, sorry. I guess you’re right. I’m supposed to be in 2B. I’ll move,” she said, picking up the letter she’d been writing and grabbing her bag.
“Forget it.” He sighed loudly, dropping his briefcase onto the aisle seat. “Just stay I’ll take B.”
“Whatever.” She rolled her eyes and focused again on her letter, making sure she hunched over it so he couldn’t peek. She was in no mood to be messed with by some balding old fart. It was because of old people like him (namely her parents) that she was on this stupid plane in the first place. Did they really think that buying her a first-class ticket would lessen the pain of being dragged away from everything she knew and loved? Like the group of close friends she’d had since childhood, her hard-earned status as captain of the dive team, and Justin, the love of her life whom she’d been dating for the last year and a half? Did they really think they could buy her off with an oversized seat, hot towels, and a choice of six movies?
The plane pushed away from the gate and the flight attendants asked everyone to direct their attention to the safety demonstration on the video screens. But Anne refused to look—there was no way some stupid video could save her from a crash. Thanks to her mom’s affair with the senior partner at her law firm, and the bitter divorce that immediately followed her dad’s walking in on them, Anne’s life as she knew it was completely crashing down around her, and there was nothing she could do to save it.
“Sir, you need to turn off your cell phone immediately.”
Anne looked up to see an attendant with her hands placed firmly on her navy-clad hips. She was scowling at Mr. 2B. “Sir, don’t make me say it twice.”
“Excuse me,” he said, putting his hand over the mouthpiece and glaring. “Do you know who I am?”
“Yes, Mr. O’Rourke, I’ve seen your show. And if you don’t turn off your phone right this minute, we will return to the gate so you can disembark and continue your call while we fly to Los Angeles without you.” She reached up and smoothed her blond French twist.
Anne watched him snap his phone shut and mumble something under his breath as the attendant walked away Oh my God, no wonder he looks familiar. It was Bob O’Rourke from that news show on FOX. And she was sitting in his favorite seat, and she’d even rolled her eyes at him! But he was kind of a jerk, so she didn’t feel too bad about it.
The plane began its runway roll, quickly gaining speed. This was the moment when Anne would normally reach over and hold her dad’s hand until the wheels lifted off the tarmac and retreated into the belly. She looked over at Bob O’Rourke, glasses perched on the end of his nose, scowling at a stack of papers in his hand, and she knew better than to even try. She was on her own now, in more ways than one.
She closed the window shade, fearing she might cry if she glimpsed the diminishing East Coast landscape, then reread her letter. But halfway through, her throat grew hot and tight and her eyes started to sting, so she quickly scribbled at the bottom, telling Justin how much she loved and missed him. Then she folded the letter into a perfect rectangle, stuffed it into an envelope, and shoved it deep inside her purse.
She was just drifting off to sleep when that same attendant came by and asked if they’d like anything to drink. And after listening to the very important Bob O’Rourke grill her about the available wines and their grape origins, Anne was feeling so bad for her she said, “Um, I’ll just have a bottle of water. I don’t need a glass or anything.” Then, determined to ignore the famous jerk beside her, she put on her headphones, extended her footrest, and turned on her in-seat video unit.
On channel 3 they were showing that movie Blue Crush, but Anne flipped right past it. No way was she gonna watch a bunch of sun-struck surfer girls talk about the beach and “killer” waves. She’d be forced to live among people like that soon enough, and she was in no rush to get there.
She was down to just a five-hour cushion between her beloved old life and her dreaded new one, and she was determined to make the most of it. The only surfing she planned on doing was channel surfing.
She thought about her last phone call with her dad, and how he sounded so excited when he told her about the house he’d bought. “It’s in a private gated community called Laguna Cove, and we’re right on a cliff overlooking our very own beach.”
“We have our own bea
ch?” she’d asked.
“Well, we have to share it with the neighbors.” He laughed.
“Is there a pool?” Anne remembered asking.
“No, honey, there’s not. But I think you’re really gonna like it here if you just give it a chance.”
Easy for him to say, since he’s never home much anyway, always away on location, or busy schmoozing with fellow movie execs. And how could she possibly like a place with no pool? Diving was her passion! She’d spent the last three years at her private school earning a reputation as a skilled and fearless competitor. And then, right when she finally makes captain, they yank her and send her to some stupid California beach town that’s probably filled with pot-smoking hippie surfers named after flowers. She wasn’t being negative, she told herself, just realistic.
The flight attendant reappeared with a bottle of water for Anne and a glass of red wine for the jerk in 2B, who was currently missing in action. “I’ll just set this here for when he returns,” she said.
But by the time they came by with the meals, he still wasn’t back.
“Do you know what happened to the person that was sitting here?” Anne asked the male attendant with a deep tan and tightly cropped, bleached blond hair. “I think his name was Bob O’Rourke?”
“He moved to 5C. Looks like you’re on your own. Do you need more wine?” he asked, motioning toward the untouched glass.
“Um, no. Maybe in a little while.”
Then, the second he was gone, Anne craned her head around and peered down the aisle at 5C. Sure enough, there was Bob O’Rourke, napkin tucked into his collar, smug nose buried deep into his wineglass. Carefully picking up the wine next to her, she placed it on her own tray. Then she looked around nervously, to see if anyone noticed, but nobody seemed to care. Besides, the attendant guy thought it was hers, so it may as well be.
She lifted the glass to her nose and inhaled just like that O’Rourke guy did. Though she wasn’t exactly sure what she was supposed to be sniffing for. Was it to see if it’s rancid? And what did rancid wine smell like anyway?
She lowered the glass to her lips and sipped cautiously. Sometimes she and her friends drank beer and once, last New Year’s, champagne, but this wasn’t too bad.
So she took another sip.
And no one seemed to notice she was still four years away from her twenty-first birthday.
Maybe flying first class wasn’t so bad after all.
“Miss, Miss. Excuse me, we’ve landed.”
“What?” Anne opened her eyes to find the blond attendant with the French twist kneeling next to her. “Are you feeling all right?” she asked, eyes narrowed with concern.
“Um, yeah. How much longer?”
“We’re here.”
“What? Oh my God! Okay, just let me get my stuff,” Anne said, running her fingers through her tangled, messed-up hair and searching the seat-back pocket for her bottle of water. The inside of her mouth felt like the Mojave Desert.
“Are you sure you’re okay?” the attendant asked again.
“Yeah, really I’m fine,” Anne assured her, even though she felt the exact opposite of fine with her throbbing head and stinging eyes. And where is that damn water bottle?
“Well, we’re laying over and our van is waiting, so you really need to hurry.” She stood and ran her hands over her tight blue skirt.
“Okay, okay, I’m ready. Do you know where baggage claim is?” Anne asked.
“You can follow us.”
Anne stumbled behind the flight crew, listening to their laughter as they made fun of Bob O’Rourke. And even though she had no idea what their lives might really be like, at that exact moment she would have traded places with any one of them, no questions asked. Because at this point just about anyone’s life looked better than what she was in for.
Okay, maybe on the surface, moving to Laguna Beach, into a big house with a private beach, didn’t sound so bad, but it was all relative to what she was leaving behind.
She shifted her purse to the other shoulder and mentally scolded herself for drinking too much, passing out, and generally wasting the past five hours on the plane. And now she didn’t even have time to freshen up, since she knew her dad would be waiting at baggage claim. And even though she didn’t have time to look in a mirror, she was willing to bet she wasn’t exactly at her best right now.
The blond attendant stopped and turned while the rest of the group continued ahead. “You can take that escalator right over there all the way down to the baggage carousels. Have fun!” she said, turning and rushing to catch up with the rest of the crew.
Anne used the thirty-second escalator ride for some quick damage control. Breath mint? Check. Stila lip gloss? Check. Designer sunglasses? Check. Red wine stains on brand-new vintage-wash two-hundred-dollar jeans? Triple check. Ridiculously expensive wrinkled-up white T-shirt with drool stain dripping down the front? You bet.
God, what she really needed was a toothbrush, a shower, and a decent meal to soak up all the alcohol. But since she hadn’t seen her dad for the month he spent getting the house ready, she was banking on the fact that he’d be so excited to see her that he wouldn’t notice how she’d boozed it up in first class.
And speaking of Dad, where the hell was he? At six foot three, with a lean build and a head of thick silver hair, it’s not like he was hard to miss. But after scanning the crowd she didn’t see him anywhere.
Oh, please, don’t let him be late, she thought, heading over to the baggage carousel and retrieving her cell phone from the bottom of her purse. But when she flipped it open and tried to turn it on, nothing happened. Oh, great. She’d used up her entire battery on the limo ride from her house in Connecticut to the JFK Airport. About thirty seconds were spent saying good-bye to her mom. The rest was saying good-bye to her friends and, of course, Justin.
She sat there with her two oversized bags and wondered what the hell she was supposed to do now. She didn’t even know where she lived.
chapter two
“Are you Anne?”
Anne looked up to see a guy with messy longish wavy brown hair wearing a surf logo T-shirt, shredded flip-flops, and dark blue board shorts. He was kind of cute. If you like that sort of thing, she thought.
But she was a savvy New Yorker, not some sun-drained local. So she narrowed her eyes and said, “Maybe.”
“Cut me some slack, would ya? Traffic on the 405 was a bitch, and if your dad finds out I was late, he’ll kill me.” He smiled then, exposing a slight gap between his two front teeth. But even though it made him look even cuter, Anne was unmoved. After all, she had a boyfriend. She was no pushover.
“So how do you know my dad?” she asked, folding her arms across her chest and enjoying herself for the first time in too many hours to count.
“He’s my boss. I run errands for him and stuff. My name’s Jake.”
“Are you my new nanny?” She laughed.
Jake shook his head and glanced at the display on his cell phone. “C’mon, dude, I’m in a time crunch.”
“Okay,” Anne said, standing up and grabbing her bag. “But I’m driving.”
“I don’t think so,” he said, taking her bag and leading her out the door to the parking structure.
“I’m a good driver. I’ve had my license for almost six months.” She narrowed her eyes at him.
“Maybe so, but have you seen your teeth recently? They’re all purple. Looks like you’ve been hittin’ it hard on the plane.”
“Are you serious?” she asked, panicked.
“See for yourself.” He opened the door of the silver Mercedes convertible and flipped down the mirrored visor.
“Oh, God. My dad’s gonna kill me. Can we stop somewhere so I can brush my teeth?”
“Dude, you need a little more than that. Let’s get you a coffee, some aspirin, and a bottle of water. I’ve got some Visine right here.”
Big surprise. “I really appreciate that. But can you do me a favor?” Anne asked, more th
an a little annoyed with him for insinuating that she was drunk, even though she was.
“Sure, what?”
“Please stop calling me dude. My name is Anne.”
“Whatever.”
Despite the double-shot venti nonfat latte she practically inhaled, Anne fell right to sleep. It wasn’t until Jake nudged her hard in the arm and said, “You’re not gonna want to miss this,” that she woke up.
“Where are we?” she asked, rubbing her eyes and straightening her T-shirt, which had risen up and twisted around.
“Laguna Beach. This is Laguna Canyon Road, and in just a few minutes you won’t believe your eyes.”
He was right. They drove through a narrow, twisting road cut right down the center of a canyon and then suddenly came to a halt. Right in front of her was a big gorgeous beach filled with volleyball players, basketball players, sunbathers, and body boarders.
“What beach is that?” she asked, trying to sound only curious and not at all impressed.
“Main Beach.”
“It’s nice.” She shrugged, craning her neck to look back at it, as he turned left onto Pacific Coast Highway.
“You think that’s nice, wait ‘til you see your beach. That’s one of the best benefits of working for your dad. Your beach has awesome waves, and I get to surf there nearly every day.”
“I’m not interested in that. I’m into diving,” Anne said, gawking at the beautiful coastline in spite of herself.
“That’s cool.” He nodded. “But you really should try it.”
“No thanks,” she said, crossing her arms in front of her.
Jake continued down PCH, past huge custom oceanfront homes, and a spectacular, sprawling resort called the Montage. “We’re almost there,” he said, waving at the uniformed guard and driving through the gate.
“This is where I live? This is Laguna Cove?” Anne asked, unable to keep the excitement out of her voice.
“This is it. See the house on the end? That’s yours.”
“Oh. My. God.” She sat and stared at the large, sprawling home built on the edge of a cliff as Jake parked in the driveway.
“Go ahead,” he said. “I’ll get your bags.”