Praise for Never Alone
‘Haynes is one of those “just one more chapter” all-night-reading writers. Her acute understanding of human nature under stress is delicious, her plotting ingenious and trustworthy. Never Alone is a terrific book.’
Alex Marwood
‘A masterclass in suspense. The final chapters are the most sublime I’ve read in ages. So brilliantly tense.’
Clare Mackintosh
‘I knew from the first page that Never Alone was going to grab hold of me and not let go – and I was right. The tension and intrigue ramp up throughout the book, right until the final terrifying moments.’
Rachel Abbott
‘A tale of love, jealousy and obsession. The characters crept under my skin more and more as the story unfolded, revealing layers of intrigue and mystery and finishing with a climactic ending. A superb rollercoaster of emotions.’
Mel Sherratt
‘Atmospheric and beautifully written – impossible to put down. I tore through it, gripped all the way to the pulse-pounding ending. Brilliant.’
Mark Edwards
‘A gripping and tense story that had me on the edge of my seat. A grown-up version of Into the Darkest Corner, this story is full of lust, suspicion, mistrust, desire and guilt. An exceptional psychological thriller.’
Tracy Fenton, THE Book Club
‘Never Alone shows Elizabeth Haynes doing what she does best – cleverly and subtly weaving the terrifying into everyday life. What makes it all the more chilling is that this could happen to any one of us.’
Lisa Cutts
‘Haynes is genius at finely tuned suspense. Never Alone frayed my nerves and gripped me from the start.’
Lesley Thomson
‘A thrilling, atmospheric, creepy and unsettling page-turner.’
Sam Carrington
‘A thrilling, atmospheric, creepy and unsettling page-turner.’
Sam Carrington
‘Tautly written and full of atmosphere. I couldn’t tear myself away from the stifling tension Elizabeth Haynes so skilfully creates. Never Alone took my breath away; it’s a cracking novel.’
Marnie Riches
‘Full of menace, and dead sexy.’
Ava Marsh
Praise for Elizabeth Haynes
‘It’s hard to put the uniqueness of Haynes’ writing into words. Her stories grip you by the throat and force you to acknowledge that this is what real crime and real horror look and feel like, as well as real love, hope, fear. Suddenly, much of the other crime fiction you’ve read seems, in comparison, rather like stories made up by writers. Haynes is the most exciting thing to happen to crime fiction in a long time.’
Sophie Hannah
‘Haynes’ powerful account of domestic violence is disquieting, yet unsensationalist. This is a gripping book on a topic which can never be highlighted enough.’
Guardian
‘Check the locks on your doors and windows and surrender to this obsessive thriller.’
Karin Slaughter
‘Haynes does a great job in ratcheting up the suspense… and there are many lip-biting moments.’
Daily Mail
‘A chilling read that charts domestic violence without flinching and portrays OCD with insight and compassion.’
Rosamund Lupton
‘All the fascination of a good horror film combined with the terror of a bad nightmare. Features one of the scariest villains I’ve ever encountered.’
Amanda Ross, creator of the Richard and Judy Book Club
‘A terrifying and convincing portrayal of an abusive relationship and a damaged woman’s heroic attempts to recover from it.’
Publisher’s Weekly
‘A psychological thriller packed with tension and suspense. This is a debut of such strength you have to wonder if Haynes is the next Minette Walters.’
Rhian Davies, CWA John Creasey Dagger judge
‘A tour de force debut novel that is both creepily disturbing and yet beautifully rendered.’
New York Journal of Books
‘Compelling and disturbing.’
Mystery Women
‘Fear about the loss of control is at the heart of readers’ obsession with crime… That she lends Genevieve power over fear, her body and the men for whom she dances has enabled Haynes to create a character with more complexity than is usual in genre thrillers.’
Independent on Sunday
‘Wonderfully and grimly fascinating… Human Remains could be one of the thrillers of the year.’
We Love This Book
‘A deeply unsettling psychological thriller.’
Bella
‘Tense and thought-provoking. Its portrayal of obsession will send a shiver down your spine.’
Shotsmag
‘This racy jeopardy thriller proves that Haynes’ much-praised first novel was no fluke.’
Morning Star
‘Full of suspense and intrigue and keeps the reader hanging on its every word. Very highly recommended.’
Eurocrime
‘There are few writers who could write such disturbing prose so beautifully.’
Books and Writers
‘It’s now safe to say that Elizabeth Haynes is no longer just a rising star. She is a star.’
The Bookbag
‘Fast-paced and chilling… Lock all your doors and settle down for one of the most gripping reads of the year.’
Pamreader
For Sarah M’Grady
Contents
Title Page
Dedication
Part One
Part Two
Part Three
Part Four
Part Five
Part Six
Part Seven
Acknowledgements
Author’s Note
Extract from ‘Revenge of the Tide’
About the Author
Copyright
Part One
Exile is a curious thing. It starts off and you think it’s fine, you think you’re not bothered, but at some point it starts to burn.
I kidded myself that this was what I wanted – I needed the space, I needed time to get my head straight; I needed to find myself. That’s what they say, right? So I ran as far away as I could, and then I started to wonder what I was running from.
Running from myself? Running from my own mistakes?
Hard to admit that.
But it’s impossible to sustain, exile, that’s the thing. Because the feeling of home is too strong a pull, and sooner or later the cord snaps tight and you find yourself working your way back.
And that’s when it starts to get really, really difficult.
When you realise that the people you left behind have changed.
When you realise that you should have stayed away.
Sarah
Not for the first time, Sarah Carpenter stands at the top of the hill and thinks that this would be a good place to die. It feels like the end of the world, so high up that even the trees don’t bother to grow. It’s just tussocky windblown grass, clouds racing overhead, drops of icy rain when you’re not expecting them.
You could die here and nobody would notice. You could lie down, and nobody would ever find you. The wind would continue to blow and the sun, sometimes, would shine, and there would be rain and snow too, picking at your clothes and your flesh until there was nothing left but bones. Even in January, though, with the weather unpredictable and sometimes even dangerous, it’s not just Sarah who comes up here. There are wildlife rangers, fell-walkers. Someone would find you, eventually.
But today – there is not a soul up here. Just Sarah and her two dogs, who have, for the moment, disappeared out of sight.
She is completely alone.
Bel
ow her, the slope down to the dry stone wall that marks the boundary of her property is steep and treacherous. There is a field, of sorts, patchy, rutted, the tough grass yellowing and breaking away at the steeper parts, earthy cracks forming uneven terraces. In the field, squatting like a troll, is the derelict croft that once sheltered shepherds, before the farm was built. Below that the gradient begins to even out and there is her garden, stunted trees and a vegetable patch, nothing growing there now. Four Winds Farm huddles into the hillside as though the wind might rip it off its foundations and blow it down into the valley.
‘Basil! Tess!’ Sarah calls, and her words are stolen from her mouth by the wind. She can hardly feel her face now. Time to head back.
Whether she has heard or not, Tess the collie appears from behind her and Basil is not far behind, wagging his tail and looking overjoyed at the fact that he has found something foul to roll in. His blond coat has a long streak of something black from shoulder to flank.
‘Oh, Basil, you little sod.’ She doesn’t have time to give him a bath, not today. Stumbling over the tussocks, she debates hosing him down outside and leaving him out until he’s dried off. But it’s freezing, and, looking at the clouds overhead, it might even snow.
She checks her watch: it’s nearly half-past eight. Perhaps, if she’s quick…
She leaves Basil whining outside the back door while she dries Tess with a towel in the utility room. Out of the wind, her cheeks are stinging and her ears humming with the sudden quiet in the house. Tess looks at her with big brown eyes and raises one doggy eyebrow as if to point out that she should expect nothing less from a Labrador.
‘I know,’ Sarah says aloud, as if Tess had actually spoken. ‘He’s an idiot. What can you do?’
She gives Tess a biscuit and the dog scampers away to her bed in the kitchen. Doors shut inside for damage-limitation purposes, she lets Basil in. He’s not sure whether he’s pleased to be allowed in or anxious about what might be coming next, which gives her the advantage. She takes him by the collar and hauls him into the small downstairs shower room.
He hangs his head and gives out a little whine.
‘It’s your own fault,’ she says. ‘Today of all days, Basil, how could you?’
Still, she thinks, massaging him with lavender-scented, doggy-calming shampoo, at least he’ll smell fresh for our visitor.
He’s early. That’s good.
‘Basil, shush! That’s enough!’ It’s as though he’s never heard a car before: he’s barking, tearing around the kitchen. Tess, glancing up from her bed, isn’t as bothered. Sarah watches from the kitchen window as the dark blue Ford Focus pulls round in the turning circle outside the house and comes to a stop facing the garage. Her heart’s thudding. Well, of course it is. Deep breaths, girl, come on. Be sensible about this.
She opens the door and stands there, holding on to Basil’s collar, while he gets out of the car and she gets her first proper look at him. Tess is curious enough to get up from her bed and she stands next to Sarah, craning her neck to see what’s arrived.
Aiden Beck. It’s been over twenty years.
‘Hi!’ she calls, brightly, gives him a little wave.
The sun’s shining, and just for a change the wind has dropped. It’s not often you could call across the yard and rely on someone hearing you. She doesn’t tell him that, of course.
Basil’s tail is wagging and now the car’s parked it’s safe to let him loose.
‘It’s okay, he’s friendly.’
‘Hello, Sarah,’ he says. His smile is still beautiful. He’s rubbing Basil’s head, patting his side. The dog’s beside himself with joy. Tess has turned and gone back inside already; she’s not so easily impressed.
Aiden comes over to her, kisses her on both cheeks, a hand on her upper arm. He doesn’t look any older, and she’s about to tell him so, but stops herself just in time. Nothing personal, she tells herself. You thought about this.
‘You look great,’ he says.
‘Thanks,’ she says, about to deflect the compliment with something disparaging about her jumper, but she’s promised herself that she will think before she speaks, and it seems to be working. ‘Did you have a good journey?’
He’s driven from somewhere, of course, but she has no idea where. There was no real planning, no time to discuss his complicated travel arrangements. She thinks he flew back yesterday. Presumably he’s been in a hotel somewhere; maybe he stayed with friends. It’s none of her business.
‘Yeah, it was fine. It’s good to see you again; it’s been too long…’
‘Come in, come in,’ she says then, not giving him a chance to finish. She’s trying not to stare at him, trying not to be obvious while she’s drinking him in, all the little details: the lines around his eyes, the stubble on his cheek and chin.
She leads him into the kitchen, which is spotless. She’s been cleaning the whole house since Friday, when this whole crazy idea started.
‘I – um – I thought you could go and have a look around the cottage while I make tea,’ she says. The key is on the kitchen table, next to the bowl of lemons and limes. She hands it to him. He’s looking surprised. It felt like a good idea, this: give herself a few minutes to recover. She knew she’d need it, and already it’s feeling awkward. Her face is burning.
‘Oh – okay. Are you sure?’
‘Yes, of course. I need to make a couple of phone calls. Take as long as you like; have a good look round. I’ll put the kettle on.’
He goes back out the way they came in. The kettle is full and has only just boiled, because she flicked the switch when she saw the car negotiating the tight bend into the gate. She stands at the sink and watches him cross the yard, heading down the slope towards the cottage that had been an outbuilding and, before that, a piggery. They had converted it into accommodation for Sarah’s father-in-law, but, as it turned out, James Senior had died two days after being admitted to hospital with pneumonia, and he’d never even seen it. She had been thinking about getting a tenant, or maybe advertising it as a holiday let, but her heart hadn’t been in it. She didn’t want someone she didn’t know living on her doorstep, and the thought of having a random selection of holidaymakers didn’t appeal either. So the cottage had been sitting vacant, pristine, for a long time. Sarah had visitors, of course, friends, family – but everyone always stayed in the house.
On Friday, everything had changed. It had taken her by surprise, a rare Facebook post from him, set to ‘friends’ only.
Coming home next week, been a while!! Anyone know of any nice one- or two-bed furnished flats to rent, preferably Yorkshire or North, let me know?
He had had few replies, mostly of the ‘let’s have a beer’ and ‘I’ll keep my eye out, have you tried the paper?’ variety. Then she’d added a comment: You can always stay in my cottage. I’ve been looking for a tenant. Send me a message if you’re interested.
It had taken her an hour to come up with that. Not wanting to sound too keen, just the right level of nonchalance. Five minutes later, she heard a ping:
Hi, Sarah, great to hear from you, how have you been? Thanks for your kind offer of the cottage, I might just take you up on that. I could come to see it on Tuesday if that’s any good? A x
She’d replied quickly:
Yes, that’s fine, here’s my phone number, I’ll be in on Tuesday.
Yesterday, there had been a text from an unrecognised number:
Hi Sarah this is my new mobile number. Will be with you about 11am tomorrow if OK. Thanks again A x
She had been sure something would go wrong. He’d call again, tell her thanks but he needed to be somewhere less remote, or he’d decided to go back to Japan, or wherever it was, after all, or he was going to stay with friends until he found somewhere permanent. She shouldn’t get her hopes up. All this cleaning, while it couldn’t hurt, was pretty pointless and she was wasting her time…
And yet, here he is. She stares at the yard, still, although he has long sinc
e let himself into the cottage and shut the door behind him. She gets the teapot down from the shelf, warms it, fetches mugs and the tin of biscuits down and puts them on a tray. Should she put the biscuits on a plate? Or be brave, and get out the cake she’d made? This morning it had felt like too much, too obvious that she was making an effort to welcome him. Too desperate. She leaves the biscuits in the tin.
While the tea brews, Sarah calls Sophie. She answers immediately, as if she has been clutching the phone in anticipation.
‘Well? Is he there?’
‘Yes,’ Sarah says. ‘He’s looking round the cottage.’
‘You left him alone?’
‘It’s not a big place. I think he can probably manage to find his way around.’
‘You should be chatting him up!’
‘He’d run a mile.’
‘I doubt it. The cottage is lovely, and you are too. I wouldn’t be surprised if he moves in today. Has he got all his stuff with him?’
Sarah looks across to the car parked outside the garage. ‘I don’t know – maybe. He’s not said anything.’
‘And? Is he just as gorgeous as you remembered?’
‘Oh, give over. It’s not as though I haven’t seen pictures of him over the years…’
‘Well?’
‘He’s not really changed much, put it like that.’ And my heart’s not stopped pounding, she wants to add. And it’s as though the last twenty-four years haven’t happened. Do I feel the same way? No, it’s worse. Much worse.
Sophie gives her girlish giggle, the one that makes you think she’s twenty-three, not forty-three. ‘It sounds as if it’s going well. I’m glad to hear it, and I can’t wait to meet him and see this man you’ve been obsessed with your entire life.’