If I had my life to live over, I'd dare to make more mistakes next time. I'd relax; I'd limber up. I would be sillier than I have been this trip. I would take fewer things seriously. I would take more chances. I would climb more mountains and swim more rivers. I would eat more ice cream and less beans. I would perhaps have more actual troubles, but I'd have fewer imaginary ones.ഀ
You see, I'm one of those people who lived sensibly and sanely hour after hour, day after day. Oh, I had my moments, and if I had to do it over again, I'd have more of them. In fact, I'd try to have nothing else. Just moments, one after the other, instead of living so many years ahead of each day. I've been one of those persons who never goes anywhere without a thermometer, a hot water bottle, a raincoat, and a parachute. If I had it to do over again, I would travel lighter than I have.ഀ
If I had my life to live over again, I would start barefoot earlier in the spring and stay that way later in the fall. I would go to more dances; I would ride more merry-go-rounds. I would pick more daisies.ഀ
I mean, I took all my vitamins, I exercised regularly, I didn’t take drugs, or alcohol, or anything of that sort…I was a clean woman. I thought I was living healthily and then…I still have Leukemia?ऀ吀栀攀 搀漀挀琀漀爀 猀愀椀搀 栀攀 眀愀猀 猀漀爀爀礀㬀 琀栀愀琀 洀愀礀戀攀Ⰰ 椀昀 椀琀 栀愀搀 戀攀攀渀 搀攀琀攀挀琀攀搀 攀愀爀氀椀攀爀Ⰰ 䤀ᤀ搠 栀愀瘀攀 氀漀琀猀 漀昀 挀栀愀渀挀攀猀 琀漀 猀甀爀瘀椀瘀攀⸀ഀ
I went home that day and Mark and the kids greeted me with all their enthusiasm, which I couldn’t even return. How could I when I know I’d be leaving them all soon? How can I when I know I won’t be around to see the kids grow up? I can’t. I just can’t.ऀ匀漀Ⰰ 琀栀愀琀 渀椀最栀琀 愀猀 䴀愀爀欀 眀攀渀琀 椀渀猀椀搀攀 漀甀爀 戀攀搀爀漀漀洀Ⰰ 栀攀 昀漀甀渀搀 洀攀 瀀愀挀欀椀渀最 栀椀猀 琀栀椀渀最猀⸀ഀ
“Whoa, what in the world, Kim?” Mark said as he came in. “Are we going on vacation or something?”ऀᰀ夠漀甀᠀爠攀 氀攀愀瘀椀渀最Ⰰᴀ†䤀 琀漀氀搀 栀椀洀 眀椀琀栀漀甀琀 氀漀漀欀椀渀最 栀椀洀 椀渀 琀栀攀 攀礀攀⸀ഀ
“Kim, what are you talking about? Is there a problem?”ऀᰀ䨠甀猀琀☀氠攀愀瘀攀⸀ᴀഠ
“Well, you can’t just ask me to leave without telling me what the problem is,”ऀᰀ䤠 挀愀渀ᤀ琠 搀漀 琀栀椀猀Ⰰᴀ†䤀 琀漀氀搀 栀椀洀Ⰰ 昀椀最栀琀椀渀最 戀愀挀欀 琀栀攀 琀攀愀爀猀⸀ഀ
“This? What?”ऀᰀ吠栀椀猀Ⰰ 甀猀☀夠漀甀☀琠栀攀 欀椀搀猀☀䤠 挀愀渀ᤀ琠
愀渀礀洀漀爀攀⸀ᴀഠ
“And why the bloody fuck is that?” He asked, “I mean, geez, Kim, if there’s something I should know, tell me. Did I do anything?”ऀ䤀 眀愀猀渀ᤀ琠 愀渀猀眀攀爀椀渀最⸀ഀ
He put his hands on my shoulders and shook me, “Kim? What?”ऀ䤀 琀漀漀欀 愀 搀攀攀瀀 戀爀攀愀琀栀 愀渀搀 氀漀漀欀攀搀 愀琀 栀椀洀Ⰰ ᰀ䈠攀挀愀甀猀攀 䤀ᤀ洠 最漀渀渀愀 氀攀愀瘀攀 礀漀甀 猀漀漀渀Ⰰ 愀渀搀 椀琀 眀漀甀氀搀 戀攀 攀愀猀椀攀爀 椀昀 礀漀甀 樀甀猀琀☀䤠昀 礀漀甀 樀甀猀琀 氀攀愀瘀攀 愀渀搀 琀愀欀攀 琀栀攀 欀椀搀猀 愀眀愀礀⸀ᴀഠ
He looked at me and his mouth gaped open. He removed his hands from my shoulders, “Great, Kim,” He said sarcastically, “Really great.”ऀ䤀 眀愀猀 琀漀漀 搀攀瘀愀猀琀愀琀攀搀 琀漀 猀愀礀 愀渀礀琀栀椀渀最⸀ഀ
He took a deep breath and picked up his bag from the floor. I followed him as he went inside the kids’ room and told Kurt to get his backpack. He took Marcia from the cot and carried her, and drove Katherine’s stroller outside the