Chapter 4 | Cry Baby
Jason came into the bathroom furious. “God dammit, Lily!” He grabbed my eyeliner out my hand and threw it across the hotel room. “Look!” He shouted as he grasped my shoulders, heaved me to the middle of the hotel room, and pushed me to the floor. “This room is a mess!”
Everything happened so quick that I couldn’t believe what was happening. I just thought if Paul were here, he would have shot Jason. I bit my tongue hard to see if I was dreaming—I was not.
“I was here all day, waiting, waiting, and waiting for you to come back and clean this mess, but no—you come back and what do you do? You put on makeup!” he hollered down upon me—I flinched every time a word came out. “Why put makeup on? You will still be fat and hideous! Now, clean up this room!” He stormed out the room and went to the bathroom as if nothing happened.
I stayed on the floor with my jaw dropped. I was so petrified that I could not cry tears. I just sat there in the middle of the room quivering and wondering what I should do. Am I an abuse victim now? Should I call security before he hurts me?
“But, it’s your stuff,” I murmured too late.
He stomped back into the room—his face ugly with anger. “Clean it up, please.” He leaned down to me on the floor and kissed my forehead. Then, he walked out the hotel room, slamming the door with all his power.
After four minutes, I finally found the courage to get up. Courage was not an appropriate word for a person like me, since I was such a wimp.
I picked up all his things and put them on the bed. I folded them in faultless piles and put them in his suitcase. I figured he would be gone for a while so I decided to go through his bags. Maybe he has some meds he forgot to take. However, I didn’t find anything. A part of me wanted to find secret meds, which would explain his sudden fits.
What is this? I found a bag full of white powder. “This could be drugs,” I whispered to myself. “This explains a lot.” I hurried and stuffed the drugs back into his luggage. I hurried to my cell phone and dialed Ana’s number. I knew how much we despised each other, but I needed someone to talk to, even if it was queen-witch.
“Hello?” she answered while chewing her gum into the phone.
“Ana! It’s me Lily!”
“I know.”
“Oh well, can I come over to your room? I need to talk to you,” my voice cracked as tears began to slide down my face.
“Um, can’t you just talk over the phone?” she said, aggravated by me.
“No it’s urgent…please!”
“Fine.”
I ran out the hotel room, hoping not to see Jason and ran to Ana’s room—she unlocked the door for me.
I paused in the doorway looking for Jason; then, I heard a sound and I locked the door behind me. “Ana?”
“Yeah?” she said.
“I have to talk to you.” I jumped on the bed—she didn’t seem to care much. She just rolled her eyes, but maybe that was just a habit.
“Well, then talk,” she ordered as she filed her nails.
“Okay, you can’t tell anyone! I swear Ana—” She held her hand up to cut me off.
“I know just go; I don’t have all day, I need beauty sleep.”
“Okay, so me and Jason, you know have been going out for like what, five months now, and it’s been good. But—” I took a deep breath before saying more—Ana’s face turned inquisitive. “Well, he yelled at me today and yesterday as well.”
Shocked, Ana dropped her nail file and stared deep into my eyes. “So…yell back at him.”
“I can’t…I’m too afraid of him.”
“You’re such a loser,” she laughed.
“I know I am.”
“You want me to yell at him for you?” she laughed. “I do that all the time!”
“It’s not just yelling…it’s like he wants to punch me yelling.”
“But he never yells. He has been working for me for the last three years.”
“But he did and he pushed me down too.”
“Oh well, I have no idea what to say. I don’t believe you,” her words tested me. “Not that you’re a liar, but I know Jason better than you. He would never hurt anyone. Not even me and I’m a bitch.”
“Well, that’s the thing, it just started to happen.”
Ana handed me some tissue—being a kind person for once.
“I went through his stuff and I found something…um, I think.”
“Like what?” Her eyes grew curious as she moved closer in to me.
“Drugs.”
“Drugs? No not Jason!”
“Yes I did. I’m no drug expert but I’m pretty sure that wasn’t candy.”
“Are you sure?” This time she sounded as if she believed me. “Well, me and him been through a lot and I don’t know if drugs…are you sure?”
“Positive —”
Jason’s screaming cut me off. “LILY! Lily!”
I could hear him in the hallway so I jumped up and grabbed Ana’s arm. “Ana, please make him stop!”
“Go!” she shoved me to go to the door.
“No don’t!” I pulled her arm back to me.
“Hey, honey, he won’t do anything to you; I think it was a misunderstanding,” Ana reassured me.
“No he will. He sounds mad. Ana please let me stay.”
“He won’t do anything if I’m here!” Ana got up and opened the door. “Jas—”
He slammed the door right in her face and pushed her out the doorway, knocking her down to her butt.
“Lily, Come on! Let’s go!” His eyes were so intimidating I could not look at him. “NOW!”
I put my head between my knees and cried. I tried to think about the happier times with him and me—like our first date.
“Lily!” I could feel him getting closer. He grabbed my shirt’s collar, nearly choking me and dragged me off the bed. I looked over at Ana as he walked away with me; she just stood in the doorway in fright. I tried to pull my body back so he couldn’t have full control. “Stop it Lily!” He grabbed my hair and yanked it so hard that I could feel the hairs coming out its roots.
“Jason, stop it!” Ana stood in the doorway trying to block Jason from leaving with me—her attempt failed.
“Move Ana!” he said in a firm voice. “This is none of your business!” He shoved her out the way with one push. He pulled me by my hair across the hallway to our room. No one was there to witness this—only Ana. I tried to scream so people would come running out their room, but no sound would come out my mouth.
Jason kicked open the hotel room door. “You went through my stuff!” He pointed to his bags.
How did he know? Everything was how I found it. “No, no, I,” was all I could get out as my heart began to thump at an irregular beat. I wondered if Ana was calling the cops by now or if Jason traumatized her to move. I hoped she had sense to call the police.
“Yes you did. Dammit Lily, you always lie!” He let go of my hair and walked over to the window. I didn’t dare move an inch—afraid he might snap if I did. “You’re now just a fat ugly liar! What more do you want?”
“Stop talking to me like that,” I said in a wimpy child voice.
He laughed as he began to walk over to me. “Lily, Lily, Lily!”
“Please, Jason don’t hurt me,” I begged. “Please.” My heart felt like it was about to jump through my mouth and make a run for it as he got closer—
In less than a second I could see Jason’s large fist charging toward my eyes. I couldn’t move and froze as his hard hand snapped my head back and knocked me out cold—my world went blank.