"Going Under"
Falling down, falling far
Sparkling gray, I see the star
The flash of light
I feel your spite
I try to reach out to you
Asking "what did I do?"
You held me down and screamed for me to die
But I rose up again, like the angels flying high
Then you broke my wings, tore them apart
Pierced right through my heart
You drug me down
Beat me to the ground
I couldn't breathe, I couldn't see
Why would you do these things to me?
Pain pounding through my body, numbing my mind
You used to be so kind
I trusted you, I loved you
How could I foresee the things you would do?
I see the darkness all around
I scream and no one hears the sound
I pray for someone to save me
Pray to be set free
I look inside myself and that is when I realize
All the pain that I despise
It strengthened me, it lifted me up high
All the while I thought I was drug down, away from the sky
With wings spread wide I break the chains you set upon me
Now I can see
I don't hate you, I never could
But I know that you would
So hate me, despise me, I don't care
Because all my pain, you could never bear
"Haunted"
What went wrong?
Where did it go?
How did we fall so far?
Why won't your love show?
If you don't want me, say those words
I know they'll kill me but I have to know
What am I holding onto now?
A broken promise, a shattered dream
Haunted still by those words you just couldn't say
"I don't love you anymore"
I knew it would hurt
But they'd hurt less than the lie I knew you said
All your promises haunting me
All my dreams reliving pain
All this time I'm still haunted
"Tourniquet"
You're always there
On the fringes of my memory
Your room is bare
Once a friend, now an enemy
Tie it tighter, bind me to the ground,
Stop this bleeding in my heart
Tie the tourniquet tighter still, make me bound
I don't want to fail, I don't want to fall apart
But I can't seem to please you, no matter what I try
I follow your orders, I try to make peace
I keep wishing I could have the wings to fly
I want this deadly pain to cease
Tie it tighter, bind me to the ground
Stop this bleeding in my heart
Tie the tourniquet tighter still, make me bound
I don't want to fail, I don't want to fall apart
A sharp metal bite across my wrist
That’s all it would take to end this pain
The reasons to stay, it's not a long enough list
The reasons to die, there's nothing left to gain
Tie it tighter, bind me to the ground
Stop this bleeding in my heart
Tie the tourniquet tighter still, make me bound
I don't want to fail, I don't want to fall apart
Take the cloth, tie it tight
Take the razor in my hand
Maybe someone will faint at the sight
My blood on the ground, I won't ever again give in to your demand
Tie it tighter, bind me to the ground
Stop this bleeding in my heart
Tie the tourniquet tighter still, make me bound
I don't want to fail, I don't want to fall apart
A painful bite, into my skin
Down my arm I see the blood run
Suicide, an ultimate sin
Never again will I see the rising sun
Tie it tighter, bind me to the ground
Stop this bleeding in my heart
Tie the tourniquet tighter still, make me bound
I don't want to fail, I don't want to fall apart
A face in my mind, a loved one lost
I realize too late that I wanted to stay
Must I pay so high a cost?
Close my eyes, erase my life, never again shall I see the next day
It tied tighter, it bound me to the ground
It stopped the bleeding in my heart
The tourniquet tied tighter still and made me bound
I've failed, I've fallen apart
"Hero of War"
Learn how to fight
Learn how to kill
Be the hero of war
Then watch as it all stands still
Take them away, from family and friends
Defile them, and justify your cause
Kill the innocent, don't let them get away
Watch when they all pause
Be the hero of war
Take away their life
End the lives, of those with the white flag
Be the true hero of war, end the strife
"Need"
Screaming, bleeding, it all just a lie?
Surely with this much pain I have to die?
Help me, save me, find me
I'm right before your eyes why can't you see?
I need you here in my life
When you're gone, in your place in my heart, is a knife
A knife of white hot pain
Twisting around, making me bleed again
Why did you leave? Where are you?
Have you found someone new?
The cold presses all around
I'm buried into the ground
You don't see me
Memories won't let me free
Someone save me, from this nothing I've become
Save me, put together what's come undone
A heart of glass, now heart of stone
Forever sealed, with love unknown
Loved And Lost
These take inspiration in people that I have loved, and people that I have lost. Some loved as family, some loved as friends, and others as lovers. Most are about my current love, others about past loves.
"Stay With Me"
Rain falling down
Whispering the sound
Of my love for you
Treasure it now, these moments are too few
Look into my eyes
Can't you see the clear skies?
Stay with me, be with me, please don't go
Why can't I seem to make you know?
Why can't I seem to really say "I love you"?
Why can't you see that my words are true?
Don't leave me now, please just stay
Stay in my arms, see the sunrise, see the next day.
"Surrender"
A single breath, a single tear
I hate to see the fear
The fear in your eyes
I want to be the one, to clear your stormy skies
I see you with him, I hear you laugh at his joke
I can't feel my own heart anymore, it is broke
I want to make you love me
I want to make you see
That I love you, would die for you
I just have to find, someone new