William Nathan’s
Book of Poetry
“Rejection”
“Rejection only brought anger
And hurt, to my recovery
There uncaring hearts
Gave me a rivalry
To my angry heart
My revengeful feelings
Sprung up, and bloomed
I wanted to be heard
And not heard from
The professionals from
Pexton Hall.
My awareness will
Rejoice at another
Persons sorrow and pain
Please god give me
The to see another person’s
Pain and frustrations he
Or she is inflicted with
There sufferings.”
“Journey”
“During my alcoholic
Adventure through
Out the years I, could
Not see, God’s creation
There wasn’t, any meaning
To my life, and not feel
Good about myself
So how could I, love
Nature, the bottle
Came first before
Anything in life I,
Lost out on, the
Good aspects in life
And now I am
Regaining my happiness
About nature.”
“Alcoholism”
“When I was drinking
My foundation was
Unhappy one.
I felt hopeless, powerless
Wounded, lonely, fearful,
Hurt and isolated from
The real world.
Now I, needed to change
These negative feelings
To positive feelings
By being honest and trustworthy
To God and the people at
Alcoholics Anonymous
My new foundation will
Be strong and joy, peace, harmony
Valued, respect, calm, hopeful
And serenity will flow within
Me all the days of my life.”
“I knew alcohol
Had to go it was
Devastation to
My life, spent
Too much money
In the bars, dipped
Into my savings and was broke
Before payday
Alcohol effected
My work, I was remorseful
Asked God for help
To make my nine hours
Of work that day.
My hands and body
Shacked, scared I,
Might die, anytime
I felt as low as a snake
In the grass, my beauty
Of myself never revealed
Itself.”
“Owl”
“Eagle Owl perching
On towering tree
Branches on the
Midnight hour
Scanning swampy
Terrain with his
Powerful eyes
Twilight glowing
On his territory his
Sentry like silence
Fools rodents roaming
It is way, the mighty
Warrior descends furiously
Swooping his prey and
Ascending to his domain.”
“Darkness”
“One fall evening
I went on a moon
Lighted journey
Twilight leading
Our way leaving
Evil spirits,
Laying to rest, and not to
Dawn upon courting
Honey moon.”
“Destiny”
“Forty-three years
I sailed a lot of oceans
Know my destiny or
Destination were not
Ever met, Uncertainties
Causing my worry on a,
Weary sailor very confused
In what direction we should
Sail finally came to compromise
That we were sailing
Without a compass in my life.”
“Serenity”
“Sitting on a picnic
Table on a warm
Sun shining afternoon
In the month of July
Serenity hovering
Over my head giving
Me a peace of mind
And I overcame my eternal
Eternal pain
Which has stricken
My lively hood.”
“Past”
“Rome wasn’t built
In one day, and our
Scars were not developed
In one day.
Took years of punishment
To develop our scars
We journeyed into life
Being scared and the
Only matter was
We missed out on love
In our lives.”
“Drinking”
“We thought we could
Handle our own lives
When we drank alcohol
We had hard time to
Admit we had a weakness
That defeated us.
Who wants to admit absolute
Defeat our false pride kept
Our souls into bottle of booze.”
“Love”
“I get a lot of hugs
And love from my
Family in Alcoholics
Anonymous
It seems when the alcohol and drugs
Detoxify from your
Body you get emotionally
Hungry for love, affection,
Attention and compassion.
The chemicals we used
Buried our positive feelings
Into complete darkness.
And there was light
God gave is in the fellowship
Of Alcoholics Anonymous
There you will see that
People will care giving you
That light in every meeting
And everyday trials.
To may face in your journey in life.”
“Alcoholism”
“My life’s journey
In no more
Corrupt from my
Fears and anxieties
That invaded my heart
Through the fellowship
Of alcoholics anonymous
Where I seen the light
At the end of the tunnel
Brought compassion
To my weary heart
It sang a wonderful
Person with a changed heart.”
“Suffering”
“I see through
My eyes and
Feel from my heart
At another person’s
Pain and frustrations
And his indifferences
That they are
Suffering with.”
“Life with Alcohol”
“I had many alibis
And excuses, down
Deep in my heart I knew
That was not honest
Approach whatever the situation was
Back then
Just like me I, touch
Hot stone I, am going
To get burned
So taking that first
Drink will lead into
Hundred drinks
It’s like playing Russian
Rolette with my life. I avoided my short comings
Did want to look at them
It was too painful.
I didn’t like me well enough
To challenge to get better that’s how far I, was
Into my alcoholism.”
> “Humble”
“To be humble
Of heart you
Are considerate
Kind, tolerant
And loving person
That will help another
Alcoholic in time of need.
Alcoholics anonymous
Gives you power and
Control to lead a,
Humble life one
Day of a time.”
“Remorse”
“Alcohol took my
Fears away the
Next day dawned
The fears and pain
Were even worse
Then before.
The pain felt like
I was getting hit
Over my head
With a club
Relieving my
Childhood over again.”
“Hurt”
“I always thought people
Were out to hurt me
In any way they could
My guard was up around
People, my hyper vigilance
Made me feel that way.
Drank to overcome my
Hyper vigilance when I
Sobered up my hyper vigilance
Descended on me.
Alcohol made my abusive
Behaviors to worsen
My pride saying going with
Out alcohol the rest of my
Life that was too much of
Giant step, so I went to
The fellowship of alcoholics
Anonymous there I started
To live one day at a time.”
“Sickness”
“I will never
Forget my hangovers
The terrible shakes
And remorse
I suffered in my alcoholism.
By being aware
Of my condition
I won’t relapse
Myself into this
Sickness ever again.
My compassionate heart
Sings joy to other
Alcoholics that needs
Helping hand for
There recovery in
Alcoholics anonymous.”
“Recovery”
“During my drinking days
I lead a sinful way
Of living, my
Drunkenness hurt
People that wants
To show me compassionate
Heart
I went to alcoholics
Anonymous they
Gave me a wonderful
Welcome the members
All walked the roads
I travel led they were
Understanding and compassionate that
Made my heart to sing
Compassion in my everyday
Living one day at a time.”
“Defeat”
“Rome wasn’t built
In one day and our
Scars were not develop
On one day
It took years of punishment
To develop our scars
We thought we could
Handle our own lives
When we drank alcohol
Our lives were damaged
We had a hard time
To admit we had a weakness
That defeated us.
Who wants to admit?
Absolute defeat, our false
Pride kept our souls
Into a bottle of booze.”
“Faith”
“I journeyed into
Life’s perils seeing
Myself as worthless myself-esteem was
No more fears stopped
Me from viewing on
The better side of me
Until one day I
Reached out of my
High powers help
And he led me
Into righteousness.”
“Belongings”
“I want to be
Loved by someone
Or love has to be
Shown before I can
Truly love myself
Or anyone else.
I want to be wanted
And belong to a family
My thoughts are like
Wild horses
Want to belong to something.”
“Lake”
“Like a stone
Tossed around
No meaning shown
Thrown into the
Depths of the sea
Where abouts unknown
Feelings bogging
Me down hoping
Life saver will
Reach out and save
Myself from the
Remaining guilt.”
“Size”
“My burly size they feared
Leaving them not to see
The better side of me
Viewing was centered on
Bigness rather than personality.”
“Farmer”
“The sweat of my
Brow I lay my plow
Onto this earth
Making myself proud
To accomplish hundred
Fold portraying workmanship
Among us farmer’s dwellers.”
“Mistakes”
“We make mistakes
Along our journey
In our life time
So one day may come
Around to face
Another mistake
Taking disappointment
In a kind way accepting
Ourselves that God
Never made us perfect.”
“Superiors Coastline”
“Standing on a hill
On a windy dawn of evening
Seeing spectacular view
Viewing giant dumplings
Peaking over the horizon
Prevailing northerly gales
Rolling whitish, greenish
Swells smashing and clashing
Viscously along the superiors
Sea wall echoing a revealing
Legend that was once there.”
“Lost”
“I was a trouble some
Boy that was lost in
The crowd, could not
Offer no body anything
I was lost in fear
No recognition from
The people then I, stayed
Loner and isolated in
My own little world.”
“Superior”
“Looking at God’s
Wonderful creation
Performing romantic
Display of nature
Ore ships sailing into
The vast lake fog horns
Bellowing as they
Sail the might Superior
Seagulls, swirling and
Twirling in oceanic
Air currents giving people
Grand view from the shorelines
The wind howling
Across the lake hitting
Against your face causing
Your eyes to tear that
Enlightens your spirit
That God created a,
Beautiful lake like this one.”
“Wakeup Call”
“Alcohol covered
Up my romance when
The alcohol wears off
My romance will shine
Like the stars do.”
“Drinking”
“There’s no way
I can keep in control
Of my drinking
Without getting close
To my higher power
And getting his
Knowledge that
Will travel with me
Into the perils of life.”
“Illness”
“Alcoholism is
Progressive malady
It could go worse
And never better.
I have a choice
In whatever way
I may go life
Of misery, or a life
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“Raw Deal”
“Sometimes self-pity
Gets me stuck
Into the quick sand.
The poor me attitude
What a raw deal I,
Got in life
This negative attitude
Only keeps me sinking
Further into the
Quick sand.
I will sink further
Down until I go
On a drunk to
Escape the self-pity.
I still got to let
Go of this negative
Feeling and go on
With my life.”
“Friendship”
“I used to journey
Into bars for
Companionship
The bartender
Was a good advocate
And listener
You could cry on
His shoulder he
Was a paid counselor.”
“Dreaming”
“I found out that
Dreaming was an
Escape from pain
That hung over me.
My dreams were good
To me it kept me from
Getting depressed.
One time I, dreamed
That I was on top
Of the Milky Way.
When the clouds
Cover up God’s creation
When the clouds disappear
His creation comes out beautiful
Nothing has changed it’s a
Beautiful creation.”
“Communication”
“There wasn’t much
Communication in
My family.
Alcohol destroyed
The family from
All its roots.
Very little compassion
Was done in my family
No were to run
Then I, journeyed down
The road into complete
Darkness it was a life
Or death journey
Into alcoholism.
Latter in my high power
He gave me a new road
Hoping that was the
Fellowship of Alcoholics
Anonymous were I, found
True happiness and true serenity.”
“Lonely”
“I found out with
My loneliness that
I help somebody else
It takes my loneliness
Away from me.
Don’t dwell on the
Past it’s over with
Nothing you can
Do to change the past
But you can do
Something about
The feelings that
Comes from your
Past experiences.”
“Journey”
“On my journey
In life you are